Originally Posted by :
Lisa, we all must go through the steps of the grieving process. There are days you will be okay, days you will be miserable, and days where you just feel like something is missing- not quite right. Eventually you will have more good days than bad, and still later you will find acceptance. You will never forget, and certain songs, people, tv shows, will make you think of your mother - but the thoughts get easier in time. I have never watched Dancing with the Stars, but my mother loved it. Whenever someone mentions it, I think of her....things like that.

EasySpirit,

I do feel like something is missing or off. You worded it perfectly. I haven't been able to put my finger on it, I've just felt off, not right. Mom and I were so close. I have to get used to being on my own too. I've always leaned on my Dad and Mom, now they are both gone. I am 49 years old and still relied on my parents for support and money. I know that sounds awful but they have always helped me out financially, not just mental support.

I hope I do heal.


Much love to you!

Hello Everyone!
 

Sorry I haven't posted for several days. I was reading along some of the time, but just didn't have the energy to post. Things are so tense in our household that I am constantly on edge. My son and hubby are not getting along at all. Long story but my son had to leave last night and I didn't know where he was for awhile. I was beside myself!!! :cry: My hubby took his phone and computer, but thank God I convinced him to let him have his Ipad since he purchased it with his own money. I was finally able to get in touch with him through Facebook messenger. He went to our lake house, which is about 50 minutes away. I just thank God he had a key to get in! And I thank God that he left in his car before hubby took that, too (since it's technically ours). All kinds of thoughts were spinning in my head (of dread and fear and sadness) before I knew he was safe somewhere. He is attending his intensive outpatient therapy 3 days a week and made it there today, despite a very rough and emotional night. He actually really likes the therapy there. I hope and pray it will help him to deal with everything, including all that's going on within our little family right now. It's all about balancing the needs of a 20-year-old with the expectations (and "rules") of living (for free) in our household. We actually had to set up a contract with him at his therapist's office recently. He has done some things that have really disrupted our household, especially for our 16-yr-old daughter. I agree that there needs to be consequences, but I am not willing to put him out on the streets over the things he's done. Hubby is way too strict and I tend to be more lenient. With all that he has been going through, it is just extremely important to me that he knows someone (me!) loves him no matter what! I honestly worry about losing him in so many different ways. He assures me that he will not hurt himself, but things were pretty bad when he left last night. :cry: I hate to even think about it. I am trying so hard to take one day and even one moment at a time and live my life as "normal" as possible under the circumstances and to stay strong for everyone, especially my kids. But I am so filled with anxiety constantly right now. I just thank God that my psychiatrist put me on Klonopin twice a day recently (for this very reason). It at least takes the edge off of my constant worry and anxiety and allows me to somewhat function the way I need to. I just also worry about the toll this is taking on each one of us. Sorry to be such a downer, but I am just NOT at a good place right now. I feel like my family ~ which, along with my faith, is EVERYTHING to me ~ is falling apart. :cry: My hubby and I are not getting along at all because of everything, which is added stress on both of us... and on our 16-yr-old. She begs us not to argue. :cry: She is so innocent and sensitive and this is killing her, too. I hate it all more than words can say!!! That's all on that subject for now. I will post this and try to post some personals separately, just in case I lose this to cyberspace!

Lisa
 

Lisa: I cannot even tell you how sorry I am for what you are going through with your grief about losing your mom. My heart breaks for you! I just hope and pray that you will be able to get through this process as quickly as possible. EasySpirit is right that there will always be moments that are difficult, especially with her death being so new. Please be patient with yourself and don't expect too much from yourself too soon. Your grief is so fresh and raw right now. It won't be like this forever. I am sending you the biggest hug I can muster up through cyberspace!!!!! :hug: What is the word on the job with Hallmark? Hope things are going well with all of that. Please keep us posted when you get a chance! And please take good care of yourself!!! You are important to us and you matter!!! Sending you much love! :hug:

Holly
 

Everyone Else!
 

Holly, loving hearing about your yardwork! It must be keeping you very fit :) I hope your unemployment check arrived.

Kathleen, so sorry to hear about your stresses, and what a worry your son's been causing! It can be very difficult when a child has lived away from home and then returns. They've had a taste of 'adulting' and making their own rules, but as parents, you still feel they are the dependant who should obey your rules. It is difficult striking the right balance, and I hope you get there soon!

Lisa, unfortuntately there really are no rules to how and when you will stop feeling so horrid. I don't know if it will bring you any comfort to say that absolutely nothing you are describing sounds unusual though. You will get yourself into a new routine with your new job, and it will help distract you.

I am getting on ok with my new medication, still feeling quite queasy, but trying to console myself that it has reduced my appetite and helped me lose a few lbs! I hope the feeling passes soon though, it's not fun...

I went for an interview for a new job this week, and they said they will be sending me an offer next week. It will be a good position, I am trying to shift fields, and this will help me transition. I feel very guilty about my current job though. I really like the people, and am will be leaving them short, but I am trying to remind myself that my future is also important.

Thinking of all of you - Especially you Lisa. Time will make everything better, give yourself a break and feel bad and realize it won't last forever. Kathleen - sounds rough in your house. Klonopin is great stuff, but it can only take the edge off.

My diet continues to go well! Lost 22 lbs in 5 weeks, but lots of willpower required. People are starting to see a difference and comment that they can tell I've lost weight. It feels so good!

I want to talk to my psychiatrist about getting off of the Abilify. I've been doing well for a while, but can have sudden crashes. I'm hoping that getting off the Abilify will help me lose a few lbs. I know I gained when i went on it, but needed it at the time.

Hugs to you all!

Originally Posted by IBelieveInMe2:
Lisa: I cannot even tell you how sorry I am for what you are going through with your grief about losing your mom. My heart breaks for you! I just hope and pray that you will be able to get through this process as quickly as possible. EasySpirit is right that there will always be moments that are difficult, especially with her death being so new. Please be patient with yourself and don't expect too much from yourself too soon. Your grief is so fresh and raw right now. It won't be like this forever. I am sending you the biggest hug I can muster up through cyberspace!!!!! :hug: What is the word on the job with Hallmark? Hope things are going well with all of that. Please keep us posted when you get a chance! And please take good care of yourself!!! You are important to us and you matter!!! Sending you much love! :hug:

Hi Kathleen,

Maybe I am being too hard on myself. Truly, I feel like I should be healing now but I find myself struggling and not being able to put my finger on how I do feel. I have a tendency to be hard on myself too so that doesn't help. I'm rather lost.

My job starts on the 28th. I'm not sure what store I am going to be in yet. They are supposed to send me an email to let me know.

Miss you, sweetie. Thanks for posting to me. :)

Originally Posted by :
Lisa, unfortunately there really are no rules to how and when you will stop feeling so horrid. I don't know if it will bring you any comfort to say that absolutely nothing you are describing sounds unusual though. You will get yourself into a new routine with your new job, and it will help distract you.

Coop,

You're right, I am just so mixed up right now. There is just such a hole in my life. I hope this new job does help me get back on track.

Take care. :)

Originally Posted by purplecow:
Thinking of all of you - Especially you Lisa. Time will make everything better, give yourself a break and feel bad and realize it won't last forever. Kathleen - sounds rough in your house. Klonopin is great stuff, but it can only take the edge off.

My diet continues to go well! Lost 22 lbs in 5 weeks, but lots of willpower required. People are starting to see a difference and comment that they can tell I've lost weight. It feels so good!

I want to talk to my psychiatrist about getting off of the Abilify. I've been doing well for a while, but can have sudden crashes. I'm hoping that getting off the Abilify will help me lose a few lbs. I know I gained when i went on it, but needed it at the time.

Hugs to you all!

Congrats on your weight loss, purplecow. It is wonderful news. I need to get my *** moving to strengthen my heart and lungs.


I'm really sorry, everyone. I just don't know what to say on here. I try to keep posting but.........I just try.

Originally Posted by Lisaluvshearts:



I'm really sorry, everyone. I just don't know what to say on here. I try to keep posting but.........I just try.

aw... :( thank you for checking in with us!!! you don't have to say anything Lisa :hug:I think you are strong and brave to even be able to type a little here :) I hope you can feel all us us pulling for you!!

Kathleen...so sorry to hear of the tension in your family, that is awful. Everything seems manageable if one is 'getting along' with the spouse, and just about horrible if not :( I hope so much the therapy helps your son, and the family counseling helps the fam!!

purplecow - congrats on your losses!!! :cheer2:

Coop, good luck with the next job..you are a conscientious person to feel bad about leaving your current position but yes, you come first :) Booo to queasiness, but yay to decreased appetite, right :dizzy:

Hi catinhat, EasySpirit, and Rin!

Our new out-of-state neighbors are having their phone and power lines buried, which means same for us. They of course pay for everything BUT it involved excavating hugely on our property, having people come into the house and down into the basement, which upsets the dog (and me) the noise was SO irritating all day yesterday, etc.

Now the phone co. has to get to our 'box" which is on the back porch, which has become a dumping ground :( NOT by me, but from son and husband over the years. I even did a major clean out there a couple years ago, I mean multiple TV's , vcrs, broken stuff, all kinds of crap. I worked so hard to get it manageable, now its back to crap again, so bad that the phone guy can't get back there!

I have to get it clear by Wednesday and I am SO full of resentment about this. Resentment because I do not put broken or old stuff back there, resentment because physically I am the only one who can do it now. I am in a poopy frame of mind right now :mad: but I just waited til husband left for work, and am gonna put on gloves, a hankerchief over face (dust protection) and 'go to town' out there. I can't do anything with stuff today or tomorrow, but Monday it will go to the Reuse/Recycle/trash station. Wish me luck:devil:

pics of yesterday's excavating, today it is all filled in, and they seeded and put hay down.

Hello everyone.

Lisa, my mother passed away in November; we had Thanksgiving and Christmas, and I believe I was numb. I had heard that the first year is the hardest because you celebrate "the first" holiday, birthday, etc. without your mother. Well, we were so numb, that the second Thanksgiving and Christmas seemed much harder to all of us, if that makes any sense.

I did not rely on my mother financially, but I relied on her for advice about many things. And, she would come sit here to wait if I was having a repairman or a delivery; she was happy to take my dog when I went away; she hemmed any clothing that needed it for me. Sometimes I will try on an outfit, and just not buy it because of the hassle of going to the seamstress to have it hemmed.

Losing your mother is really tough, but you will get better, you will adjust to life without her, and you will enjoy life again.


Kathleen, thinking of you and hoping things have eased up a bit for you. I pm'd you.

Purple Cow, congratulations! That is GREAT!

Holly, I understand your resentment completely, but you will have no problem clearing off that porch - think of it as exercise! Put on music and get to it. After the way you cleaned outside, this will be easy. You should make that area into a DO NOT ENTER zone for the rest of the family!

Hello to everyone else.

Monica (aka EasySpirit)

Hey Monica, that's cool we know your true identity :cool: :D and thank you for understanding about my resentment..I often wonder if I am too self-centered about things like this. But I did go out there bravely :devil: and worked on it for 3 hours, then hit an impasse, I need help with something large, so our older son will help tomorrow. But I filled my trunk with boxes of household items and electronics which will be donated no charge; box of scrap metal, maybe .50, couple broken fans maybe $2, and bags of garbage which are a flat fee.

Well the back porch project is ALMOST done :D There is still a very crammed corner of tools/Christmas stuff..but the main part is DONE! a wide clear somewhat neat (for an old covered porch) space for the phone tech. I do have before/after pics but i am so embarrassed at the Before pic, but you are all friends so maybe I will show what I dealt with.

Put a bunch of stuff at the top of the driveway for free, usually people will take it all eventually.

Very glad I am not sore at all today :carrot: that's always a good indication of at least some basic fitness for everyday life.

HI to everyone :hug: Lisa, I wanted to tell you, that I was going through old posts here, and I saw the pic of you, your Mom, and Lisa together :) Your Mom looked like a sweet lady and it's always cool to have the "3 generation" pic of strong women :hug:

Another sunny day today but the clouds and possible 3" of snow overnight :tantrum: maybe it won't be that much, however much comes down, it is sure to melt soon but its no fun to see at this point!

have a good day chicks and I will check in later

Good afternoon friends :) Everyone must be busy :D

We got a good 2" of flippin snow today :tantrum: I know it will melt in a day or so but ugh it's no fun to see. Just yesterday I was outside in the sun and 50+ degrees.

Did these two workouts today, the Shelley Dose lady is a she-beast :devil: I love her enthusiasm and energy and the pounding beat of the music. My hair was in strings after doing this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSVX...dex=67&list=WL

and the next was the continuing of the 30 Day Beginnner's HIIT Challenge.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VB83...QBa9EOagLyoRHB

I've been procrastinating on a couple things, and I should know, I should really just do them, it always make me feel better about being a little in control.

Hope everyone is doing OK :hug:

Holly - well done for the clearing! Sounds like a good workout in itself :) agree you should make it a no entry zone!

I am doing well at losing weight just now, starting to notice clothes feeling loose again. It has me feeling positive, despite having very little to be positive about. Something strange has happened with my job offer, I'm not sure what to do and need some advice, but don't know who best to talk to...

Hello, everyone.

I am back on the sugar-free wagon; I am going to a friend's retirement party in June and want to have the winter weight off by then.

Kathleen, I hope all is going well - I pm'd you.

Hi ladies,

I wanted to stop in and say hi. I'm having a really hard time posting on my boards. I wish I could explain it but it's hard to put into words. I don't want to stop posting but it's really hard for some reason.

I tried working for Hallmark yesterday but my back just couldn't take it. It was a lot of bending and lifting and I have a terrible back. Part of it is because I'm out of shape but part of it is my lower spine is not good. I've gone to plan B and now have an interview on the 4th of May, for a Home Health Aid job.


I hope you all have a great Friday. :) Much love to all.

Originally Posted by Coop27:
Holly - well done for the clearing! Sounds like a good workout in itself :) agree you should make it a no entry zone!

I am doing well at losing weight just now, starting to notice clothes feeling loose again. It has me feeling positive, despite having very little to be positive about. Something strange has happened with my job offer, I'm not sure what to do and need some advice, but don't know who best to talk to...

thanks! YES no entry unless permission given :devil:

congrats on dropping weight!! I'm sorry to hear about the unsettled job offer..?

Originally Posted by EasySpirit:
Hello, everyone.

I am back on the sugar-free wagon; I am going to a friend's retirement party in June and want to have the winter weight off by then.

Kathleen, I hope all is going well - I pm'd you.

congrats on being back on the sugar-free wagon! :cheer2:

Originally Posted by Lisaluvshearts:
Hi ladies,

I wanted to stop in and say hi. I'm having a really hard time posting on my boards. I wish I could explain it but it's hard to put into words. I don't want to stop posting but it's really hard for some reason.

I tried working for Hallmark yesterday but my back just couldn't take it. It was a lot of bending and lifting and I have a terrible back. Part of it is because I'm out of shape but part of it is my lower spine is not good. I've gone to plan B and now have an interview on the 4th of May, for a Home Health Aid job.


I hope you all have a great Friday. :) Much love to all.

well I am so glad you could check in with us Lisa :) Hey it's OK, I remember when YOU held this thread together, posting daily without anyone else, it's OK for you to fade back if you need!!

so sorry to hear of your back pain :( best wishes towards the alternate plan.

and HI to everyone else :wave:

Well the stupid snow finally melted all away yesterday yet it did not get over 45 degrees...and today it stayed darned cold til about 1 pm, when I made myself go outside and cut down some more trees, that warmed me up :rofl: then I dug up some clumps of daylilies and put them in places where I needed them.

I have been enjoying my time off SO VERY MUCH :cool: Some days I don't accomplish anything except my workout and I am OK with that!! because other days I'm in overdrive.

Still eating too much :rolleyes: but am doing at least a 30 minute HIIT cardio workout (5 min warmup, 20 min. cardio, 5 min stretch) and some days I'm inspired to try this lady Shelly Dose, she's on youtube and I LOVE her workouts, she is so energetic, smile-ly, and has pulsing pounding beat music that is SO fun to work out to.

Haven't been on motorcycle for over a week because its been too $*&6@*! cold! even today, with sun but barely 60 degrees, that's too chilly for me. I'm not as hardcore as I used to be, I guess.

Still haven't researched new recipes for summer job because as soon as I start reading about pastries, cakes, etc. my stomach starts growling! really. and then I'm afraid I'll binge on something. Yeah maybe time to find a different occupation :rolleyes:

that's what's going on with me :D Have a good day!!

Snow and cold here too! Whatever happened to Spring? It's nearly May!

Have developed a nasty pain in my gums today, spreading pain through half my face. Typical of it to come on a Friday - my dentist is closed til Tuesday...

Hope everyone is keeping warm and well :)

Lisa - I like that you try and check in. I know it must be hard....

Holly - Keep posting. I'm sure we're all reading, just can't check in.

Everyone else - Hi!

Weight continues to fall off. I'm enjoying being in control of something in my life even if its just food. Lead my life too long reacting and letting things happen. I'd like to take this new found control and spread it into other parts of my life. I ask myself why i can finally control my diet, but I don't know. Maybe its the right time or maybe watching the pounds fall off is my motivation. I'm visiting my parents next week for a long weekend with my daughter. They will be proud of me because they hound me about my weight.

Thanks All!

Hello!
 

Hello Everyone! I have been reading along but really had nothing new to post. We are at our lake house for the weekend, so my son went home to our main home. He will come back up here when we go home tomorrow. This has been the case the past 3 weekends. I miss him like crazy, but I have to admit that the distance seems to be helping everyone to calm down and get along better. I still worry about him a lot and think he has a lot of work to do on his mental health and he needs to make better decisions with how he spends his time. I am trying not to nag him when I do see him briefly or talk with him, but some of his decisions are just questionable right now. Mostly, I miss him and pray for him and hug him tightly when I do see him. That's all I can really do for now.

Lisa: I am so sorry you are still going through such a rough time. :( And too bad that the Hallmark job didn't work out. I am confident that you will find a good job as a home health aid again. Hopefully it will be someone way less demanding than your last client. Maybe it will be therapeutic for you to take care of someone again. Best of luck with your interview on May 4th! Please let us know how it goes. But please don't feel pressure to post here. As Holly said, you have held this group together and I am so grateful to you for that. Just post as your time and energy allows. And you can just say "hello... I'm still around and checking in" if that's all you can muster up. Or just "hi!" Above all, please take good care of yourself! You matter! ❤

Holly: You are kicking some serious butt with your yard work and your workouts!!! I am in awe of your energy and determination! Please send some of that :dust: my way!!! I am so happy that you are enjoying your time off. Hope your weather will permit you to get out on your bike again soon!

Coop: Congratulations on the weight loss! :carrot: That's what this group is all about after all. ;) Please feel free to bounce the job offer situation off of us here... or not. We are in your corner and hoping for the best for you! :cheer2:

purplecow: That is so awesome that the pounds are falling off!!! :carrot: :bravo: Interesting that you aren't sure how this came about. Please do share any insights that come to you with us. I am so jealous and wish I could get control over my eating consistently again and see the pounds fall off as well. I am still holding out hope that I will get there!

catinhat: Are you okay? We haven't heard from you in awhile. I am hoping everything is okay with your job and on your farm. Please check in when you get a chance!

Waving hello to everyone else! :wave: Hope all is well with everyone! :)

Lisa, I'm sorry - I missed your post about the hallmark job (since they updated the site, it sometimes jumps posts if I'm on my phone). Sorry it didm't work out, but best of luck with your interview on the 4th.

Holly, I'm sorry things with the family are still tense, but glad they are calming down a bit. Unfortunately your son is at one of those ages where he will make bad decisions, but I suppose he'll learn some important life lessons, and I'm glad your there to support him!

The job situation is strange, but I won't go into it here - I always get so paranoid about sharing these things online, just in case someone can trace it back to me. I know the chances are so slim, but I can't help it!

Originally Posted by VermontMom:
well I am so glad you could check in with us Lisa :) Hey it's OK, I remember when YOU held this thread together, posting daily without anyone else, it's OK for you to fade back if you need!!

so sorry to hear of your back pain :( best wishes towards the alternate plan.

and HI to everyone else :wave:

Well the stupid snow finally melted all away yesterday yet it did not get over 45 degrees...and today it stayed darned cold til about 1 pm, when I made myself go outside and cut down some more trees, that warmed me up :rofl: then I dug up some clumps of daylilies and put them in places where I needed them.

I have been enjoying my time off SO VERY MUCH :cool: Some days I don't accomplish anything except my workout and I am OK with that!! because other days I'm in overdrive.

Still eating too much :rolleyes: but am doing at least a 30 minute HIIT cardio workout (5 min warmup, 20 min. cardio, 5 min stretch) and some days I'm inspired to try this lady Shelly Dose, she's on youtube and I LOVE her workouts, she is so energetic, smile-ly, and has pulsing pounding beat music that is SO fun to work out to.

Haven't been on motorcycle for over a week because its been too $*&6@*! cold! even today, with sun but barely 60 degrees, that's too chilly for me. I'm not as hardcore as I used to be, I guess.

Still haven't researched new recipes for summer job because as soon as I start reading about pastries, cakes, etc. my stomach starts growling! really. and then I'm afraid I'll binge on something. Yeah maybe time to find a different occupation :rolleyes:

that's what's going on with me :D Have a good day!!

Holly,

I know what you are saying about my stepping back from posting, that it is ok but I'm afraid if I slow down on my posting, the thread might slowly die.

I will keep posting, I will make myself.


Much love to you, Holly.

Originally Posted by Coop27:
Snow and cold here too! Whatever happened to Spring? It's nearly May!

Have developed a nasty pain in my gums today, spreading pain through half my face. Typical of it to come on a Friday - my dentist is closed til Tuesday...

Hope everyone is keeping warm and well :)

Coop,

I am so sorry your gums are hurting. Toothaches are the worst. I've had them before and they can be agony.

I hope that you find someway to handle the pain until you can get help on Tuesday.

Much love to you, Coop. :)

Originally Posted by purplecow:
Lisa - I like that you try and check in. I know it must be hard....

Holly - Keep posting. I'm sure we're all reading, just can't check in.

Everyone else - Hi!

Weight continues to fall off. I'm enjoying being in control of something in my life even if its just food. Lead my life too long reacting and letting things happen. I'd like to take this new found control and spread it into other parts of my life. I ask myself why i can finally control my diet, but I don't know. Maybe its the right time or maybe watching the pounds fall off is my motivation. I'm visiting my parents next week for a long weekend with my daughter. They will be proud of me because they hound me about my weight.

Thanks All!

purplecow,

I am so happy for you. Losing weight is so hard and you are having success. That is wonderful. :)

i need to get busy and lose some weight, I keep procrastinating.

Much love to you, purplecow.

Originally Posted by IBelieveInMe2:
Hello Everyone! I have been reading along but really had nothing new to post. We are at our lake house for the weekend, so my son went home to our main home. He will come back up here when we go home tomorrow. This has been the case the past 3 weekends. I miss him like crazy, but I have to admit that the distance seems to be helping everyone to calm down and get along better. I still worry about him a lot and think he has a lot of work to do on his mental health and he needs to make better decisions with how he spends his time. I am trying not to nag him when I do see him briefly or talk with him, but some of his decisions are just questionable right now. Mostly, I miss him and pray for him and hug him tightly when I do see him. That's all I can really do for now.

Lisa: I am so sorry you are still going through such a rough time. :( And too bad that the Hallmark job didn't work out. I am confident that you will find a good job as a home health aid again. Hopefully it will be someone way less demanding than your last client. Maybe it will be therapeutic for you to take care of someone again. Best of luck with your interview on May 4th! Please let us know how it goes. But please don't feel pressure to post here. As Holly said, you have held this group together and I am so grateful to you for that. Just post as your time and energy allows. And you can just say "hello... I'm still around and checking in" if that's all you can muster up. Or just "hi!" Above all, please take good care of yourself! You matter! ❤

Holly: You are kicking some serious butt with your yard work and your workouts!!! I am in awe of your energy and determination! Please send some of that :dust: my way!!! I am so happy that you are enjoying your time off. Hope your weather will permit you to get out on your bike again soon!

Coop: Congratulations on the weight loss! :carrot: That's what this group is all about after all. ;) Please feel free to bounce the job offer situation off of us here... or not. We are in your corner and hoping for the best for you! :cheer2:

purplecow: That is so awesome that the pounds are falling off!!! :carrot: :bravo: Interesting that you aren't sure how this came about. Please do share any insights that come to you with us. I am so jealous and wish I could get control over my eating consistently again and see the pounds fall off as well. I am still holding out hope that I will get there!

catinhat: Are you okay? We haven't heard from you in awhile. I am hoping everything is okay with your job and on your farm. Please check in when you get a chance!

Waving hello to everyone else! :wave: Hope all is well with everyone! :)

Kathleen,

I really do appreciate that you all understand about my bouts of quietness. Most of it is that I don't have much to say about real life. I am a little in limbo, it is all I can do to keep my mood stable. Some days I'm ok, other days down.

I'll be ok in time.


Much love to you. :)

Originally Posted by Coop27:
Lisa, I'm sorry - I missed your post about the hallmark job (since they updated the site, it sometimes jumps posts if I'm on my phone). Sorry it didm't work out, but best of luck with your interview on the 4th.

Holly, I'm sorry things with the family are still tense, but glad they are calming down a bit. Unfortunately your son is at one of those ages where he will make bad decisions, but I suppose he'll learn some important life lessons, and I'm glad your there to support him!

The job situation is strange, but I won't go into it here - I always get so paranoid about sharing these things online, just in case someone can trace it back to me. I know the chances are so slim, but I can't help it!

HI Coop,

Yes, my job with Hallmark didn't work out. I really did try. I was in agony and I only was able to work 2 hours. My back has arthritis in it, as do my hips. Degenerative arthritis. That is one more reason for me to lose some weight. I feel that I can, I just need to stop procrastinating.

I hope you had a good weekend. Much love to you, Coop. :)

Hello,

Lisa, if the Hallmark job was the one where they change cards for each season and restock the racks, I can certainly understand the lifting and bending being too much for anyone with a back problem. Heck, I think that kind of job could lead to a back problem in anyone who did not have one. Trust me, you will feel better with time....nothing but time works on grief in my opinion. Exercise really helped me, too, especially swimming at the YMCA.

And, Lisa, please post even if nothing new is going on. Even when I don't post, I follow along. Heck, I followed along for more than a year before I joined! You can always tell us how your favorite teams are doing, how Jennifer is, etc. (My Red Sox are now in first place!)

Holly, I can't wait to hear the descriptions of your baking creations when your summer job starts! Right now I have sugar-free, flourless peanut-butter cookies in the oven - this should be something! I am trying modified South Beach again - doing okay on no sugar at this time.

Kathleen, I think you are smart to keep handling your family situation just the way you are. Please take time for yourself; you are not that far out from surgery. Maybe a mani/pedi or massage or facial? Any of those help me. I pm'd you again.

Coop and PurpleCow, congratulations on the weight loss. I really hope to join you in dropping pounds! I want to fit comfortably into the clothes I bought last year when this summer finally arrives.

The weather here has been cold, raw and rainy. But, after the winter of 2014-15, I am not complaining.

Fi, if you are around, please let us know how you are. You are in my thoughts.

Hello to everyone else. It is wonderful to see the thread so active again.

It's May! Should we start a new thread? I'm not sure how!

Monica - the cookies sound good! It's amazing what you can do without sugar/flour.

Lisa - don't feel guilty for not posting at all! I'm useless at posting, as my updates most days would be 'woke up, worked, ate dinner, slept', so I just read along half the time. Let us know how Jennifer is doing, and how your lovely dogs are! I love hearing about peoples pets.

Saw my dentist today, it's just wisdom teeth on the move. Some painkillers have helped ease the worst of the pain, so I feel more positive again. Teeth are so small, but they really do cause so much bother!