Depression and Weight IssuesHave you been diagnosed with depression, are possibly on depression medication, and find it affects your weight loss efforts? Post here for support!
HI kamcpherson (do we call you Kam? ) and to our thread!! that was a nice introduction though I'm sorry that the first prescribed meds were such a hindrance instead of help, and that people were NOT taking what you said as truth! Very glad to hear that with the switch, you are making progress
I saw somewhere else where you described yourself a glutton for bad carbs or something like that - Sister, I hear you!! They are my downfall also. Well, also just liking food in general, and too much of it, and mindless snacking...oof
all about me - I'm Holly, 54 yrs old, married, 2 grown sons, 1 dog. Love my motorcycle, and working on my yard, and am a pastry baker in summer at a job I love; then a convenience store/deli drone in winter at a job I hate
My depression is pretty much under control, the worst was years ago when every day was awful and I had frequent suicidal thoughts. In the long winters we have here I can also easily drift into very apathetic days. I take Wellbutrin XL and have for about 10 years. I don't think anyone outside my family would know or guess about my depressive states, I can hide stuff pretty well and put up a false front. But only we know what we are like once we're by ourselves.
I don't have alot of weight to lose but I am my own worst critic, have a terrible self-image with alot of mean things to say to myself all comes from being teased and made fun of as a kid. Yeah that was 45 years ago but I haven't been able to let it go.
For the past 15 years I was a very consistent exerciser, at home stuff with dvd's and tapes, even if I overate I was very fit with good muscle tone. But I have slacked off this summer so badly. I am on my first week of starting back to working out 5x's a week
and if you got this far, bless you! but again and hope to see you here often!
Last edited by VermontMom; 09-10-2015 at 06:16 PM.
Thank you for the welcoming! I totally forgot to mention my name is Kelly but kam is fine too.
Yes, I love carbs, of all varieties really . It wasn't much of an issue until I ran into some metabolic problems and it's been downhill from there. Nonetheless, going low carb is helping me tackle some of those cravings and habits regardless of weight. I truly hope this path will help as I have made tons of cleaner choices and exercise additions while on certain meds and have either gained or just maintained .
I can imagine Vermont winters would be brutal! I'm here in Colorado with sun, most of the year, which definitely helps with the depression.
Body and self-image are quite difficult to wrestle with, especially in American culture! So many people looking to attain a certain look, that is darn near impossible as it is, and then the food industry provides an overabundance of convenient, affordable foods. "First world" problems, truly, but it makes day to day living tough sometimes. I also struggle with body image and finding a healthy relationship to food - there is a lot of disordered eating in my family so it's taking time to figure out what is healthy for me.
Good luck to getting back to working out 5 days a week! I always feel better when I'm moving and yet once I stop it's always tough for me to get going again!
Thank you for the welcome, again! See you around the forum .
Kelly, It is wonderful to have you join us!!! We have a small but mighty thread. We keep each other going through the good and the bad. A little about my self, I have a wonderful 22 year old daughter named Jennifer, I have 1 dog and 3 cats. I am always struggling financially but I just know things will get better, I feel it. I am getting ready to go back to college online for about the millionth time. I am not giving up. I am on a new med and feel fantastic. My anxiety is so much better!!!! Oh yeah, I am 48 years old. That's about it.
Holly, Yeah, I like to drive and driving to Columbus doesn't bother me too much. I just concentrate on what I am doing and the other cars, and do the best I can. I just try to remain calm and at peace when I am driving. It's so good to see you, Holly. I have missed you so much. It was pretty boring talking to myself. Good luck with your work out regimen!!!!
Have a great Friday night, friends!!!!!!!
Last edited by Lisaluvshearts; 09-11-2015 at 08:13 PM.
Hi Lisa, Kelly, Cikan, and anyone else who is listening
today is Saturday but just another work day for me. But again it will be a motorcycle-to-work day I have only had to take the car once in about 2 weeks! it's been a great summer for me riding to work.
I didnt work out last night, bad me. I did mow the lawn which I count as a little exercise.
Welcome to our new members! I have not been very good at posting, but I do try to read along.
I have had a great, active, busy summer. Unfortunately I gained back a few of the pounds I had lost, so I am disgusted with myself. I need to take them off before others come to join them. Getting on the scale at the Y this morning was a wake-up call for me. I do not eat gluten, but I have been eating way too much candy and ice cream. I am going to try counting calories for a week and weigh myself again next Saturday.
Holly, when does your summer job end?
Lisa, like you, city driving does not bother me at all.
Otherwise, things are going well. My family problems seem to have straightened out . . I hope and pray.
Take care everyone.
Last edited by EasySpirit; 09-12-2015 at 11:12 AM.
Hello everyone and to the group Kelly!!! So happy to see the group s-l-o-w-l-y picking up again in support and posts! I had my surgery for breast reconstruction (after breast cancer and bilateral mastectomy) on September 9th. I am taking it really easy as I recover. It is frustrating that I had to have this surgery AGAIN to place the left tissue expander ~ after having it removed in April due to infection. I was REALLY DREADING another surgery, so I am very happy to have it behind me!!! The next step is to have saline injections on the left side once the wound heals and then I will need another reconstruction surgery to place the final implants. The doctor told my husband that there was a lot of scar tissue from my previous 2 surgeries on my left side, which could make reconstruction a bit of a challenge on that side. I am just praying that we will be able to proceed with our plans as is. I really love my new reconstruction doctor, so I am confident he will help me out as much as he possibly can. It is so important to have a doctor I can trust.
Kelly: That is so frustrating when the professionals/doctors say things like, "Eat less. Move more." I had 2 doctors telling me that at one point and I finally "fired" one of them after he missed my hypothyroid and insulin resistance diagnoses. And the other doctor, my psychiatrist, is the one who clued me in to my thyroid issue. He also saw how quickly I gained weight back (after losing about 45 pounds) after only a month on Lithium and Abilify (which I was put on in a psychiatric hospital..... against my wishes). He doesn't say "move more; eat less" to me anymore, so I am sticking with him. He weaned me off of the Abilify and Lithium (thank God!!!) and started me on Latuda (which is supposed to be more "weight neutral," as in not causing weight gain as easy) and Lamictal, which I have been on before and tolerated well. Already, my weight is coming down again. It always amazes me how much I have to work to lose the weight, but how quickly it comes back on. It just doesn't seem fair! But it is what it is. I will not give up!!! It sounds like you are finally making some progress with your docs as well. Don't ever give up on yourself!!! You deserve to be healthy, thin, and happy! I am so happy that you posted and shared about yourself and your struggles. I hope that you will find good support within this group!
Lisa: I am not at all upset that you started the new monthly thread! Sorry if I came across that way. I was actually thanking you for keeping the group (and new threads) going! My life has been such a rollercoaster lately, so I appreciate you stepping up to keep things going. We do have a small but mighty group, as you wrote somewhere. It is always a pleasure and a comfort for me to come back after an absence to see that you and others are still here. I am SOOOOOO happy to hear you say that your anxiety medicine is helping and you feel like a new woman!!! That is simply AWESOME!!! I know that doesn't mean that things are easy now or that every day is better, but it certainly sounds like you are ON YOUR WAY to brighter days ahead! I love the way you always seem to look on the bright side despite your struggles. I try to do the same and I know it isn't always easy.
Holly: It is so great to "see" you here again!!! Just seeing your posts and reading about your journey makes me happy. I, too, am wondering how much longer you have to work at your summer job? And I hate to even ask when the dreadful winter job begins again. Glad you seemed to have had a great summer! I admire how you like to work on your yard. I wish I was that motivated. And I know you have enjoyed riding that motorcycle!!! Good luck with your new workout schedule! I know you can do it!!!
EasySpirit: So happy to see you posting again, but sorry that you gained some weight back over the summer. We are here to cheer you on and support you as you LOSE that weight again...... for good this time!!! Thank you for your prayers and support!
I think that is everyone who is currently posting. If I missed anyone, please forgive me. I sure wish we would hear something from Fi at some point. Hope she is okay. She was a staple of the group for a long time. I miss hearing from her. I am trying my best to stay up with posts. Some days are better than others. I will try to check back in again soon. Thank you all for being here!!!
`Good evening! HI KATHLEEN I am so glad you have that surgery behind you! Oh you have been through so much. You are so brave but we know it is your faith that is your sustenance Yay you!!
My summer job ends in about 5 weeks, the exact date is Sunday Oct. 18th (insert sad face ) Maybe I can try really hard to not let the winter job bother me too much
Today at work I made 70 servings of white chocolate raspberry cheesecake, boy couldn't we have a party with that
It is starting to rain now, and will continue through tomorrow, so I will have to take the car, but I have been riding otherwise for most days! and have only had to yell at someone recently
I did work out this evening, one of the fitnessblender.com workouts. And then had some chocolate
How are you doing tonight? I was very busy today with paperwork for going back to school. I need to get off here pretty soon and make some supper for Jennifer. She will be home from work pretty soon. We are going to have pork chops and noodles, I think. That sounds pretty good.
I am really tired tonight. I will come on tomorrow and do some personals.
Hey everyone.... The only person here who will remember me would be Holly (Hi Holly!) so I'll do a quick introduction.
I'm 39, bipolar, on wellbutrin and a small dose of Zoloft, plus some respiridal (sp?) for anxiety. I'm also unemployed (yay.. thanks oil industry) which is probably the biggest factor in my depression right now. Before I was laid off I was doing so well my doctor was going to take me off the Zoloft. Now that I can't afford it I have to keep taking it because I can't afford it! LoL. Holy carp.
The crappy news is my husband is unemployed also, the good news is that I'm still fighting the depression, not giving in like I used to... well, most of the time anyway.
So "Hi", I'll try to be around on a regular basis.
I am getting ready to watch football tonight. Denver is on tv this evening. Go Peyton!!!!!!! I worry about Denver's offense. It just did not look good last Sunday. The defense looked pretty good.
Jennifer had a stomach scope today and it was pretty good. She had a bit of redness and swelling in her lower stomach and the Dr took a biopsy of it but overall he said the entire stomach looked pretty good to him. He put her on a medicine to stop her vomiting and she is still on her Nexium.
My thumb, index, and middle fingers on my right hand are numb and they have been all day long. Something is wrong. It is just a really weird feeling to have them so numb.
Have a great night, everyone and GOOOOO Denver!!!!!!!
Aunty Jam!! Aunty Jam!! it is so kewl to see you here again, kiddo! (yes you are younger enough than me that I can say that ) say Hey whenever you feel like it, I remember that you said that it sometimes made you feel worse to hang around the Depression place; whatever helps you, do it, but know that I missed you
Lisa, I admire anyone who understands football!! I will just go ahead and cheer for Denver with you
We have been having incredibly sunny and warm weather, day after day after day!! VERY odd for Vermont so you know I have been taking advantage of it by being on the motorcycle as much as possible. We haven't even had a frost yet!! last year, we had a killing frost by the first week of September.
I signed myself up for work in the Dining room at night, at my work, for this weekend and next weekend. It is money..it will be long days but I like to earn the green stuff. I am super self-conscious about my arms in the short sleeved shirts I have to wear, but I will power through my negative thoughts. I'll probably be too exhausted to care at that point
LIsa I am sorry Jennifer is having those stomach problems..and I am worried about your numb fingers!
(or welcome back) Aunty Jam!!! I know I remember seeing your name somewhere on the boards. I have been around for awhile, too. Regardless, I am so happy you posted! We really try to support each other in the good times and bad ("ups & downs"), so feel free to post however you are feeling!
I had been doing really well staying positive, despite going through breast cancer and serious family tension, but lately my positive self has really taken a blow. My oldest (son) also just went away to college and my emotions have been overwhelming me lately. Everything has taken its toll on me and is hitting me all at once. I have a strong faith, which is keeping me hanging in there, but I have been very down on myself a lot lately, which I hate. It is so unproductive for me. I am working very hard to TRY to focus on the positive, but all I am seeing lately are the negatives (about my weight and my body and my life in general). It is so true how they say that what you focus on, you get more of. And, unfortunately, lately, it has been a negative snowball effect from negative thinking.
Lisa: Sorry to hear of Jennifer's stomach issues. Hope all will be well there! I wonder why your fingers are numb. Hope it doesn't last too long! How are the forms coming for going back to school? I sure hope all goes well for you this time around. Start fresh and THINK POSITIVE! You can do it!!!
Holly: Glad to hear that you have been having some great weather and you are getting out on that bike!!!
My fingers are better today, they are still just slightly numb but I can tell they are better. The feeling is gradually coming back. I have NO idea what I did to them!!!!
Jennifer has to go back to the Dr for her results of her biopsy of her stomach in 10 days. We'll see why it's swollen and red. Hopefully, her results are just fine.
I still have one thing to finish for school and it's a pain in the ***. I have to get what is called a withdraw clearance letter from my last college I went to. As I said, it's going to be a pain to get.
Kathleen, I am so very sorry you are struggling with your downs. Thoughts are so hard to control, I know that from experience. Perhaps you should start a journal and just write or a blog. I also know what it's like when a child goes away to college. It's the hardest thing in the world. You really need to change your way of thinking. It is not the end of the world. He is still your child, he still needs you. His going to school is not the end of his being your child. He is simply getting training so that he can make a living in the world. He has to do this. You would not want him to live with you forever, he deserves more than that.
Holly, I am so proud of you for working so much. I could not do that. I would get sick. I am envious of people who can work as much as you do. I can't work more than about 15 hours a week.
Yes, you need to cheer for Denver and Cleveland in NFL football. They are my teams. LOL Just remember Denver and Cleveland. woooo hoooooo
Ok, that is about it for now. I will check back in tomorrow. Just remember I love you all so much!!!!!! Have a great Friday.
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to our thread!! 
that was a nice introduction though I'm sorry that the first prescribed meds were such a hindrance instead of help, and that people were NOT taking what you said as truth! Very glad to hear that with the switch, you are making progress 
Sister, I hear you!! They are my downfall also. Well, also just liking food in general, and too much of it, and mindless snacking...oof 
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I have only had to take the car once in about 2 weeks! it's been a great summer for me riding to work. 
Hello!
I know that doesn't mean that things are easy now or that every day is better, but it certainly sounds like you are ON YOUR WAY to brighter days ahead! 
Good luck with your new workout schedule! I know you can do it!!! 
Thank you for your prayers and support! 
Oh you have been through so much. You are so brave but we know it is your faith that is your sustenance 
did you get your paperwork done? 
Aunty Jam!! Aunty Jam!! 
) say Hey whenever you feel like it, I remember that you said that it sometimes made you feel worse to hang around the Depression place; whatever helps you, do it, but know that I missed you 
I will just go ahead and cheer for Denver with you 