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Lisa: I hope you had a wonderful birthday!!! We are very close in age. I just turned 48 in early December!
Hope you did something SPECIAL for yourself!!! You deserve it!!!
Waving hello to everyone else!!! I will be back soon to post more personals. I am exhausted and trying to get more sleep at night. Gotta take good care of myself!
Location: from Houston, TX—now in Maryland (Washington DC area)
Posts: 1,167
S/C/G: 351/267/140
Height: 5'3"
Judilee— You need to read Kathryn Hansen's Brain over Binge, as soon as you possibly can. Usually I don't word my book recommendations in such strong language, but thfs is a book that may change your life. It's changed mine! I'm binge-free, i'm slowly losing weight, and I am no longer tortured by cravings for sweets, all thanks to Kathryn Hansen. Google her blog if you don't want to buy the book right away, but use the amazingly powerful solution she offers.
Location: from Houston, TX—now in Maryland (Washington DC area)
Posts: 1,167
S/C/G: 351/267/140
Height: 5'3"
I'm in a weird phase these days, y'all. I'm getting an exhaustive workup for my persistent and very painful arm and leg cramps, which are so disabling I can't walk, can barely even stand up, and have to get around in a wheelchair. At this point three different doctors are collaborating in the effort to figure out what is wrong.with me. It will be at least a week, I'm guessing, before they all agree on a diagnosis. I don't want to make any of y'all uncomfortable by my descriptions of the pain and frustration I'm going through, so I may be posting less often for awhile.
Dearest Lisa, I'm soooo sorry I missed your birthday! Belated Happy Birthday to you!!! and I hope the time flies between now and when Jennifer gets home. Oh and that scarf is soooo pretty!
Fi - oh gosh your day the other day sounded horrible with the cramps and the cravings! I hope you are better!!
Kathleen - how are you doing, girlfriend? I am GLAD you know when to quit for the night to take care of yourself
to Judilee! we are here as your friends. I hope you find it as welcoming and supportive as I have.
as of tomorrow i just have THREE days of the sucky winter job left and I just found out I do not have to do a job search during the 3 weeks I am unemployed. Yay for that!
I caught another head cold, I'm sure from one of my germy gross customers. grrrr!!! But my mood is better overall, even though we are still getting snow, but warmer temperatures are coming, to hopefully get rid of it by maybe the end of next week?? I hope?? I have a new pair of motorcycle boots I am dying to 'road test' -
whoa that pic turned out big, sorry
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Fi I'm really sorry I didn't read your last post You need to feel free to tell us about what's going on with you...I mean if it helps you..we don't want you to feel that you have to hold back.
Fi, I was hoping that you were feeling better but I guess you aren't. I hope those Dr's can figure out what is going on with your legs. You don't deserve this pain, no one does but especially not you. I hope your husband is doing ok. It must be hard to see you in such pain. If you need to leave us, it's ok but don't hold back for our sakes.
VM, I LOVE your boots. They are so you. I prefer boots without heals but with thick soles. I am anxious for you to start your summer job and for you to start getting warm weather. I know you want to get your bike out.
I treated myself and got my nails done, they are so pretty now. I figured I deserved it.
I am so happy, I get a nice amount back from taxes this year.
My back and knees are giving me fits. I am about to put some lidoderm patches on my back and lay down for a while. It will help me to feel better.
I will check back in soon and see if anyone else has posted.
Location: from Houston, TX—now in Maryland (Washington DC area)
Posts: 1,167
S/C/G: 351/267/140
Height: 5'3"
I can't stand up. I can't walk. I can't drive. I'm not making collages because my studio is upstairs, and it's very hard, excruciating, to climb the stairs. Every time I do anything at all with my legs, it's pain, pain & more pain.
Bob and I are still rooting for this to be serotonin toxicity, but my psychiatrist now thinks that's unlikely. The neurologist wants a full set of head and neck MRIs, but we couldn't get on the schedule for those until Tuesday. I don't yet have an app't scheduled for my first-time visit with the neurologist. So this process may drag on for a couple weeks more.
I'm starting to get a little bit scared about the possible disorders I may have, but mostly I distract myself by reading art criticism. The kitties are very sweet and spend almost all their time either on me or around me in my perch on the green futon couch. Yesterday Grace came over, and we spent the whole time looking at a book on René Magritte and talking about art. Already she seems more mature, more balanced and centered, than she did last summer. =smile=
I have the day off today. I really needed that. Tomorrow, I should be able to go to church unless something comes up unexpected. I love going to church, it brings me peace when I am able to go. It is a nondenominational church so it is very laid back. I usually wear jeans and a nice shirt. I will wash my hair tonight so I am ready tomorrow morning to go.
Well, I talked to Jennifer on the phone today and she is not sure now if she is moving home after school is over. I am so sad. I was so looking forward to spending some time with her after graduation. I sat down and had a good old-fashioned cry this afternoon. It is going to take me some time to come to terms with this info.
Fi, I will keep you in my thoughts. i am sorry that you are so sick right now. It must be so scary and frustrating not knowing what is going on? I feel so badly, I wish I could bring you some peace.
Nascar is on tonight, they are running a night race.
I, too, have been in pain the past 2 days. My back and knees have been giving me fits. I had to go and get a refill on my Melaxocam for arthritis. Today is my second day on it and my knees feel a bit better. I have been in agony trying to get up off the couch.
Lisa, that IS so pretty!!! And glad you treated yourself to having your nails done, you deserve it Sorry to hear of your knee pain though and REALLY sorry to hear about Jennifer's possible decision..I hope going to church today helps give you some peace today
Fi, Oh my gosh that sounds horrible. I cant imagine not being able to be mobile but not having any info on what the heck is going on!! please hang in there!! I'm glad the kitties are there for you best wishes !!
Kathleen we hope you are doing okay??
Hi to the others
TODAY IS MY LAST DAY AT THE SUCKY WINTER JOB It is always a test of patience though because, he has us doing major cleaning/pulling things out/ sweeping, yet still is open for business..how would you want a sandwich prepared in a deli where the equipment is pulled out, people are sweeping, scrubbing and then make you a sandwich , ugh. I will ..just .. hang .. in .. there
We still have deep snow cover in our yard, today supposedly it will get to 60, we haven't had that since like October, we just need some consistent warmth and sun . I want to get my bike out, and I want to work outside!!
Easyspirit, Hi! I'm so glad the family problems seem eased, either due to the med or that the situation is actually better
I weighed last night for the first time in months ... just to force the truth that I have gained about 5 pounds over the winter. Just changed my ticker and sig to reflect the truth. can't even fool myself to say 'how did this happen' because I have deliberately had lots of dessert-type foods almost daily for months. And kinda just didn't care at the time (well I cared that they tasted great but didn't care about the sure weight gain)
But as I have THREE WEEKS OFF I have NO excuses!! First, to crack down on my eating. Second, choose workouts that make me sweat, not just going through the motions. Third, maybe start walking, as the weather is cooperating now??
HI to Fi, Lisa_c, Kathleen!! and the others who joined us a short time back, would love to hear from all of you.
Well, I quit school today for good, no going back. I just can't go. I don't have the capability to put forth the effort without getting stressed and anxious. I am officially giving up. I am going to concentrate on finding another job that I enjoy more than what I am doing now. I don't hate what I am doing, I just want to do something different.
Holly, so happy for you that you have some time off work.
EasySpirit, yay that your family stuff is easing up for you!!!!!! Family stuff can be terrible, I do know that from experience.
Fi, how are you, sweetie?????? Any change?
Kathleen, I hope you are healing quickly.
I had a great weekend, I had lots of time to relax and even made it to church. After weekends, I hate when Monday rolls around but I had a good day today too. I did find out that my elderly neighbor died this morning. He was a pain in the butt neighbor but I am so sad that he died. Really sad.
My best friend has made me meet someone. I guess "made" isn't the proper word, she has fixed me up with someone and he seems to like me. I'm not sure about all of this? I"m not sure this is what I want. He does seem nice, I may give it a try.
Okay, I will be as brief as possible! It is SO incredibly late and I need to sleep! But I wanted to check in before hitting the sack.
My healing is coming along well now. Thank God!!! We took a week-long vacation to Florida from 4/3-4/10. It was gorgeous, but my little family of 4 seemed to be in constant conflict, which was extremely stressful for me! Exactly what I do NOT need while facing chemo soon! I did manage to enjoy the beautiful weather (from both inside ~ from our 5th floor corner unit ~ and outside occasionally). Couldn't be out constantly due to swelling in my left arm and hand and in both ankles. I had a spectacular view of the sunny beach and ocean from our room! Anyway, one of our last days there, I was FINALLY able to take a shower ALL BY MYSELF!!! 1st time since morning of 3/9 surgery!!! Such a great feeling of independence and freedom! I think I told you all that I had to have a 2nd surgery on 4/1. It was SO MUCH EASIER recovery than last time, but I still have ONE dreadful drain that is very nasty and inconvenient. And I can't lift that elbow above my shoulder until the drain is out and I get the doc's approval. Left incision looks MUCH better after 2nd surgery, but he took some excess skin, so now I am really lopsided due to a significant amount of excess skin on the right side. It will be this way until after chemo (and radiation if needed). Meeting with surgical oncologists and radiation oncologists now to determine who we will choose for further treatment. Not sure when the chemo will start, which might be just as well. Thank you all for the kind words and encouragement!!!
Fi: I am so sorry that you have been experiencing so much pain and don't even know why. Must be scary and frustrating all at once! I will keep you in my prayers! I hope you will get some relief and some answers soon!!! Please keep us posted. I for one don't care at all if you post "disturbing" or "depressing" stuff. This group is for both ups AND downs. We are here for you always ~ the good, the bad, and the downright ugly!!!
Lisa: Wow! Your life is going through some turmoil. First Jennifer says she might not come home after graduation, and now you had to quit school for good. It sure sounds to me like you are handling everything pretty well, though! Why is Jennifer maybe going to stay where she is after school? (Only answer if want to!) Hey, I say GO FOR IT if you are at all attracted to the guy your friend fixed you up with!!! What the heck?!? You only live ONCE!!! It might just add the spice to your life that has been missing lately!!! Although, I think you need to be truly happy with yourself first (not saying you aren't, but I know you've been down) to be able to be happy in a relationship. Hang in there and keep everything in perspective and take ONE day and ONE moment at a time! This too shall pass! And, by the way, sorry about the death of your neighbor.
Holly: Hip.....Hip.....HOORAY!!!!!!!! You are FINISHED with your terrible winter job!!!!! I hope you thoroughly ENJOY your 3 weeks off!!! You certainly deserve it!!!
EasySpirit: So happy to hear that your generic Zoloft is helping you and that the family troubles seem to be easing!!! Great news!!! Thanks for checking in!
Waving HELLO to everyone else!!! Please keep praying for me and my family! I think the big bad devil wants to split our family apart..... and I won't let it happen!!! But he is sure working on us! That's okay, though, we can handle it!!! Our God is bigger than him ANY day!!!
Happy Birthday, Lisa!!!
I will be back soon to post more personals. I am exhausted and trying to get more sleep at night. Gotta take good care of myself! 
to Judilee! we are here as your friends. I hope you find it as welcoming and supportive as I have. 
and I just found out I do not have to do a job search during the 3 weeks I am unemployed. Yay for that! 
You need to feel free to tell us about what's going on with you...I mean if it helps you..we don't want you to feel that you have to hold back. 
Anyway, one of our last days there, I was FINALLY able to take a shower ALL BY MYSELF!!! 1st time since morning of 3/9 surgery!!! Such a great feeling of independence and freedom! I think I told you all that I had to have a 2nd surgery on 4/1. It was SO MUCH EASIER recovery than last time, but I still have ONE dreadful drain that is very nasty and inconvenient. And I can't lift that elbow above my shoulder until the drain is out and I get the doc's approval. Left incision looks MUCH better after 2nd surgery, but he took some excess skin, so now I am really lopsided due to a significant amount of excess skin on the right side. It will be this way until after chemo (and radiation if needed). Meeting with surgical oncologists and radiation oncologists now to determine who we will choose for further treatment. Not sure when the chemo will start, which might be just as well. Thank you all for the kind words and encouragement!!! 
Although, I think you need to be truly happy with yourself first (not saying you aren't, but I know you've been down) to be able to be happy in a relationship. Hang in there and keep everything in perspective and take ONE day and ONE moment at a time! This too shall pass! 
I hope you thoroughly ENJOY your 3 weeks off!!! You certainly deserve it!!! 
That's okay, though, we can handle it!!! Our God is bigger than him ANY day!!!