Hi Mustang! I'd love to share dinner ideas! I had shrimp fried rice (homemade) tonight - how about you? Good job on the run - hills and a 10:15 pace - that's awesome! I agree with your notion that weight loss/fitness is a series of small changes. I had to make several little changes, and now I think of it as a daily choice: If I decide not to be healthy today, I should definitely make a healthier choice tomorrow. Keep up the good work!

Ohiofreespirit - Glad to hear that the ear is healing. Is it just a silver bar, or did you get something different or colorful? And yeah, I would have totally cussed a bit too.

Seabiscuit - Good to hear you're feeling better. Sounds like you had a rough couple of days. *hugs* I have to do some laundry too...but I think that'll wait until Tues or Wed.

As for me, I come home and did 2 rounds of my workout tonight (1 round = 10 minutes on the elliptical + 1 round of kettle bells). I would say I burned approx 300 calories. Had my shrimp fried rice for dinner, a dinner roll, and 4 thin mint Girl Scout cookies. i'm still hungry, so I'm wondering if I need another snack or just some water.

The weekly goal is to do 2-3 rounds of my workout 4-5 nights this week. Wish me luck!

Until tomorrow everyone...

Hey there coffeeshopgirl!

Good job on continuing the kettlebell workouts. I had done those before too and they are tough!

Thank you for the hugs! I appreciate that!

I had a good conversation with a family member last night. I am waiting until another day or so passes to talk to another family member because of our argument, we are exchanging emails and that is going well.

I am off to volunteer in a bit, and I look forward to that so I am going to get heading off.

Take care everyone

Hey girls!!!


Yes, coffeshopgirl they just put a silver bar in my ear. It looks pretty good. My ear is itching really badly. I guess that is good news, means it is healing but it is driving me batty. It doesn't even hurt that much anymore, compared to what it did before, anyway.


Grneyedmustang, you go girl, running the way you do. That is awesome. I just get tired cleaning my house. LOL Maybe some day I can work my way up to running. I'd love to get myself a bicycle and ride this summer.

seabiscuit, what do you do when you volunteer?


I feel much better today but then I have remembered to take my meds early (5 am) today. It is something that I need to do to keep myself on track.

I get paid tomorrow, can't wait. The money won't last long though. I have to put a muffler on my daughter's car.

Have a lovely day, friends.

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Hi Ohio-

Wow, 5 am sure is early! I used to get up around that time when I went to show my horse, may he rest in peace. I am glad that you are feeling better!

Now, I get up at 6 am two days a week for volunteering and to me that seems a bit early When I volunteer, I sit at a desk by myself in a hallway for the radiology department of a local hospital. There I greet patients for outpatient procedures, and the ones who are having Cat Scans, I ask them to fill out paperwork. I also keep a log of inpatients who are waiting in the hallway. This is a relatively new position, it was created because a patient got up out of their gurney and fell while in the hallway. So, I sit at the desk and offer to help the fellow volunteers, techs and nurses. I volunteer eight hours a week. My cumulative hours for the time I have volunteered at this hospital is 77 hours. I used to volunteer in the orthopaedic unit for 6 months but that was for shorter shifts once a week. I have volunteered at three other hospitals and two nursing homes too. This hospital is particularly appreciative of the volunteer work that us volunteers do! We had a lovely luncheon last week in appreciation of our service, they do that every year. Also, this week is Volunteer Appreciation Week and our theme is Ready to SERVE so a lot of the hospital is decked out in red, white and blue! There were free goodies from the Volunteer Services Department, beautiful decorations, and the Radiology Department gave me red, white and bleu lea's to wear around my neck, my name was also on their door along with the other volunteers in a patriotic heart. I wore a cute starry headband too that was red, white and blue. I may not get paid any real money but I get a lot of emotional rewards and personal satisfaction from volunteering which is very rewarding.

I know that was probably more info than you needed but I am very passionate about my work.

I was having a great day then there was a snafu with a doctor's office, big sighs.

Thank you all so much for being so supportive!

Hugs...

I have been so angry, at everything. I'm not sure what I can do about it. Maybe I should lower standards that I think people should live up to. It feels like I'm surrounded by stupid people at my jobs, and I can't take it anymore. I'm glad I have my husband to have a decent conversation with.

In other news, my back is not working today, so I've been hobbling around everywhere. Can't even stand up straight. So I'm angry about that too. I was going to go walking this evening, but I guess I'm not now.

Moreta

I understand the feeling of anger, it is one I have dealt with often for a lot of my life. Sometimes it has helped me to punch or scream into pillows, shred paper with my hands, splash water in the tub, anything constructive to release the anger without being destructive. I hope you can use other coping skills to help you accept whatever you are angry at or possibly work on resolving situations and try to relax. I understand the feeling of people too, it seems there are a lot of airheads out there which is so irritating, in my humble opinion. I'm glad you have your husband!

I hear you on back issues! They are no fun. I wish I knew what to say, other than to offer support. I think people are different in what helps them for relief. I hope you can get medical attention if it gets worse or persists though.

Take care...

Moreta,

I know what it's like to just feel angry at everything. I get that way at times. I just get pissed off at the world, my house, God, my situation in which I live, everything. I think when that happens it's my bi-polar peeking out.


I hope you feel better very soon. We are all here for you.

Thanks seabiscuit and ohio, I'm not that angry today, but of course nobody has done anything stupid in me presence. lol...

I went to my job at the bakery late last night hoping everyone would be gone, but they were still there, and I still got out before them. I just go in an close the cash register, so I can do that at any time of the night. When I did counter help for 4 days (my back gave out on me), I always got out of there before 6:30. I'm just going to go in at my normal time tonight and not talk to anyone.

I went to the thrift store last night and got some clothes and I was excited about that b/c they're size 22/24. I was wearing a size 26/28. Only 10 more dress sizes to lose...lol.

Hope everyone has a good day.

Hi everybody! I am new to this thread. I hope you don't mind if I jump in. I have had anxiety and depression since I graduated university in 1999. For the past while my depression has been pretty manageable but my anxiety goes up and down. It was bad tonight for many hours but is a bit better now after talking to a good friend. I was worried about finances which are very tight and then I got paranoid about something bad happening to my dogs. Specifically, I was worried that I had nicotine on my hands (from the refills for electronic cigarette) when I fed them cookies. Seems they are fine.

Seabiscuit--what kind of showing did you do with your horse? I used to ride but never could afford to get serious about it. I'm sorry your horse is no longer with us. I know what it is like to be close to an animal. I am a dog groomer and have two Pomeranians I love to bits.

MOreta--congrats on the smaller size!

Ohio--Is it an old car?

Welcome fluffypuppy. We are so glad to have you here with us. You asked if my car was old? No, my car is a 2007 Honda Civic, it is very nice. I love it, I love it so much I even named it. lol

Guess what I did today, friends??? I finally got up my nerve and went and worked out at the local YMCA. I joined not too long ago and I finally got up my nerve to to go. I walked on the tread mill for 15 minutes and I lifted weights after that. I asked someone who works there to show me the lifting machines and he gave me a huge workout. My arms are weak now. We worked on my back, legs, different parts of my arms, shoulders and my chest muscles. For the first week, I am going to walk for 15 minutes. i really enjoyed lifting weights. i think i could get hooked on them.

Hope you all have a wonderful day.

Fluffypuppy! glad to have you here

Ohio - hey that is great!! Yay to you for taking that big step!

I was talking about weaning myself off my meds a bit ago..now I'm not so sure. For the past week (I've had off, well been laid off) I work out in the morning, putz around a bit, then go back to bed. For a couple hours, until I wake up and am so disgusted and embarrassed with myself. I'm not lacking sleep, I sleep 8 hours a night. It's because it is still cloudy and grey and cool (or cold) out and I am just not motivated to do anything (there's PLENTY in this house for me to tackle)

I try to tell myself, what's the diff between sleeping for 2 hours, or if I chose to sit on the couch and watch a movie? Both are non-productive, but the sleeping really seems like a withdrawl from the world.

But 2 days ago when it was sunny and warm, I couldn't wait to get dolled up and got on my motorcycle and visited people! It is insane (duh) for me to be so dependent on sunny warm days to be alive!

Hi everyone,

It is a beautiful day. I was going to get my blood drawn to see whether or not I have mono but I want to be well hydrated before I go, I don't have the greatest veins. I think I will go get it done later this week.

Moreta- Congratulations on being able to wear a smaller size! Yay! That is great news!

Fluffypuppy- Welcome! Thank you so much for your kind words about my horse, Wally. His formal name was Gotta Dance. I am looking at a photo of him and me right now from about fifteen years ago. I miss him a lot. We did showing in equitation.

I know the feeling of anxiety all too well, and it is frustrating.

Ohio- That is great about you working out at the Y! Way to go! I have a membership at my local Y too. I want to use it more. I signed up for swim lessons and want to take advantage of those.

VermontMom- I hope you make the right decision about your meds. Maybe you can talk to a counselor or therapist about this? I know the feeling of being non-productive. I waste a lot of time sleeping. I wish I had advice to give you but I send you support.

Have a good day everyone! I have my guitar lesson soon!

Hello friends,

I took one of my clients to the Y today to walk. He is very heavy and I just got him joined so we both went and walked a couple of laps around the walking track. I am still tired from yesterday's workout so i took it easy today. I am so tired tonight.

Moreta, congrats on getting in a smaller size. i love when that happens.

Vermontmom, I do the same thing, sleep when i don't need to. It is an escape for me. My therapist is aware of it and we talk about it during my sessions.

Well, i am going to get off here and lay down. it is late. sweet dreams.

good morning, the sun is shining and it will be warmer today! that means so much to me.

forgot to congratulate moreta on being down a size!

Seabiscuit, I also wanted to say I was sorry about your horse. I was a typical horse-crazy young teenager and one year was lucky enough to be friends with a girl who had a horse and a pony, and she showed the horse, just local Pony Club stuff but they are such beautiful things!

best wishes with the blood drawing. Oh i see it's going to be next week, well best wishes then I had a Red Cross lady tell me I had great veins, 'like a truck driver', what??

Ohio, that is great that you took your client to the Y What does your therapist say about your sleep-escape?

I did not do my now-usual sleep-escape yesterday, but that was probably because my DH was here and it's too embarrassing for me to do with him around. He is very kind but he does not know what to say to me, I'm sure he's afraid of 'saying the wrong thing'.

The other day after i wrote of my escape-laziness, I did get up and then did 2 things, cleaned my desk/took care of bills/filed, and then took everything out of a cupboard that had stuff CRAMMED in it, and took care of it all. That is such a good feeling!

and yesterday I did some yard work, good sense of accomplishment. Though I was dumb and did not wear long sleeves when I was working around the blackberry patch and WOW did I get scratched up . And I did wash my motorcycle and we got a quick ride to town.

sorry all I did was blab about myself !

Vermontmom, my therpist says just stay aware of how much I am sleeping and the reasons why I am. I know you feel guilty, I doubt you will let yourself do it very much. I am on a ton of medicine, some of it makes me very sleepy. Last night I even slept through the Nascar race. i am so mad at myself.

I am getting ready to go to church this morning. i need to find some peace and church always does it for me.

Have a wonderful Sunday, ladies.