August Chat!!! Come play with us!!
 

Hey, Hey Everybody!!! :hug:

Okay, seriously not feeling the energy this morning but I have a reputation to uphold ya know! :D I worked a hellish day yesterday and I haven't been sleeping well lately and last night was bad (I am blaming TOM at the moment) So, yesterday went a little like this...had to start inventory while simultaneously getting stuff together to sell off the beer cart...thought the refrigerator had stopped working (brief panic, thankfully it is fine) sold like one round while they all complained I wasn't going to be out there longer...was late getting behind the counter but luckily the bossman was there and able to cover...had to then FINISH said inventory on everything but the counter stuff which had to be done later...oh...did I mention that was all on top of closing stuff that I am still getting the hang of? Yeah...I think I rolled in about 7:30 or so last night...I hadn't had anything to eat except a Snicker's and a diet coke at work because work was insane!!! Then when I got home I had my usual destress light mocha frappucino (best 100 calories ever!!!) and my 3 mint oreos...now we also are running low on all groceries and by that time I was more tired than hungry...some multigrain scoops and salsa...I know!!! Bad, bad, bad! That is actually the biggest challenge I am having right now...eating properly when things are crazy...did I mention that TOM is here? :dizzy: Luckily if I stay dosed on enough Tylenol it seems to be managable so far...

I have this week off until my next class starts...I work today and tomorrow and possibly this weekend because bossman has less than full confidence in the new girl to pull off a tournament alone...he might want me there...

So! There you have it! Mom! How you doin' girl? Hope!!! Chica!!! How goes it??? Holly, you beautiful biker you...how you feelin'? Rose! Girl! Good to see you here! Oh man! Brvsfan! I am soooo sorry about your week, I hope it has already turned around for you!! Mustang...your guns are legendary they make me jealous every time! hehehe Buddly???? You out there???? Anyone I missed...I blame no sleep...sorry...love ya though!!

~Raven~

Yeah I'm having fun with TOM to so I feel for you my friend. Sleeping problems are the WORST. I hope you get back your energy soon. Sorry for the rough day yesterday. :hug: Stressful days like that really aren't too fun. When my day is really hectic my eating is just awful. Pair that up with TOM and it's honestly scary. Don't you just love mother nature? Honestly just TOM or chaos by itself is more than enough to deal with. :dizzy: Best of luck to you @ work and I sincerely hope you feel better soon. <3

There are 2 Roses here, Rose Centered, and myself, Rose Elizabeth. To eliminate confusion in the future I'll go by "Elizabeth", "Liz", "Rose #2", or something. Whatever floats your boat I guess.

I'm doing alright, TOM aside. I'm attempting to knit a hat for my grandmother. She's losing her hair due to her chemo and she's upset about it. Unfortunately the key word of the day is "attempting". My knitting skills are rusty- not that they were ever on par with the skills my grandma has. Hopefully she'll like it. My mom has been really stressed about grandma lately so I went out and got her flowers. It cheered her up a bit. I haven't seen her smile like that in quite a while. Seeing her happier made my day a bit brighter. I'm frustrated that I can't do more though. I guess I'll just take it day by day. At any rate I'm just stressed about my deadline for my rough draft. With all the craziness that's been going on the past few months... it's been pushed to the back burner. However now I'm exhausted and it's getting really hard to make progress. That and despite the fact I'm working towards a life dream I'm having a surprisingly hard time finding motivation. Well tomorrow is a new day.

Hey everyone - I didn't know there would be a whole group of people dealing with this too. Or at least I didn't think I'd stumbled onto a group of them... glad I have.

I was actually just diagnosed with depression a few months ago. I had been medicated for manic-depression before, but it didn't help. This time I've decided to try and deal with it all naturally rather than get medication. I find that my go-to natural med is food, though... so it's been a tough week! My fiance, for the first time in over four years, told me that ...while he loves and supports me... he thinks I need to lose weight for myself and for the relationship. (And I think he'd be more attracted to me if I were skinnier.) For some reason this just... destroyed me!

After dealing with it - I decided the best thing to do was to lose the weight. But I find the depression and thinking about him just makes it really difficult.

I did resist a plate of fries put in front of me today, so I think that counts for something.

Rose - I love that you're knitting for your grandmother, that's so sweet. I've tried repeatedly to knit before but it's always a pretty big failure.

Sweet, sweet, sleep! Ahhhh.... I slept well for the first time in days! I haven't quite caught up but damn it feels good! Yesterday wasn't a bad work day...I was a little later closing because a customer left their phone in a cart and I was arranging to get it back to them.

Eating was much better...went like this...protein bar and coffee...2 slices of Wasa cracker w/Earth Balance spread (before work) I actually drank my protein shake at work instead of just carrying it around (yay!) one cheese wheel (you know...the kind in the waxy red thing) water (instead of soda at work) a couple handfuls of granola (all this at work) then when I got off I stopped at Subway to pick up dinner for us all...I had a six inch with bacon and avocado and a light frappucino (no cookies!) I don't know if it will stick but I saw 186 on the scale this morning. Woo hoo!!!

Rose...I will just call you Liz okay? I had read your story...I am so sorry you are going through all this and especially before your life has even really begun. You are an incredible person and they are all lucky to have them in their lives... There is an old quote that reads roughly "Out of suffering emerges the strongest souls, the most massive characters are seared with scars." That is you Sweetie.

Welcome Katie, I am sorry that your boyfriend hurt you...it is always a good thing to try your best to be the healthiest that you can be but that is more than a number on a scale... You are always more than your weight and I just hope that he is a person that realizes that as well. Welcome....

I gotta run...I work today from like 11-6:30...I have tomorrow off and most likely I will have to work the weekend...the beer cart person that they hired kinda gave notice and it looks like she won't be able to work the tournament this weekend after all...

Everyone have a wonderful day! Breathe, stretch, hug a tree or an animal or both!!! Hug someone you love, read a book that you love, listen to music that give you goose bumps and revel in every moment...

~Raven~

Hey! welcome to katiekish, and to Rose Elizabeth. R.E., you sound so mature for a junior! so sorry that you've had to deal with anxiety and depression at such a young age. And real sorry about your grandma. Katiekish, hi and:hug:

Hey Raven! thanks for starting our August chat :D love you posts, girl!

I had my first bad day in months. Started crying in the grocery store, couldn't stop, cried all the way home, hanging up laundry, etc. Could be approaching TOM (yeah, you'd think a 51 yr old would be DONE with that deal!) ...some frustrations at work...and last night at our motorcycle meeting, a dude made a blatantly stupid remark to myself (I am Vice President) and our treasurer (a lady of about 65) and NO ONE stuck up for us!!! not my husband, not her husband, not our President, not any of the members...I still can't believe it. Really sucks when you feel that your friends don't have your back!!

And this evening I did something I havent done in so very long, I drove to the store and bought potato chips, and and an ice cream sandwich, and some chocolate. I feel like i've regressed YEARS :(

Hello ladies.

VM, I am so sorry you had a rotton day. I didn't have the best day myself either but it wasn't near as bad as yours. :hug:


I had a Dr's appt today. She upped my anxiety medicine today. I am glad, I really need the help. I am so tired of feeling awful and the constant worry really wears me down. To a certain extent, I have learned how to compartmentalize my worry and push it aside, not think about it 24/7 but I simply cannot do that all the time. Most of the time, it is there in my mind, making me sick to my stomach. I worry about everything, even when there is nothing to worry about, I create things.


I hope you all are doing ok. :hug:

Ok, let's go for three of us having a bad day... I didn't get the job. It's been a rotten day. Now back to starting from scratch. I will pick myself up but I just don't feel like it right now.

Vermont and Ohio: :hug:

Katie, welcome.

Rose and Raven; :wave:

YIKES....seems like August isn't starting off well for everyone!!! I hate TOM...those are my worst times...should be coming soon!

Just wanted to pop in and see how everyone is. I am in the middle of unpacking the last room (school room/office) Its the huge den downstairs, but I need to get it done and ready for school and tired of digging and digging when I need something. So trying to unpack and organize! I don't want to procrastinate like I normally do.

I am getting better with organizing and not procrastinating as much.

One thing I have learned is I am AGAIN struggling with the food addiction (when everyone goes to bed I am eating again and watching shows)
In trying to figure out what is doing it and still small anger issues...I realized that after I was molested by my Pastor at age 13 I kept it quiet till I was 20 because I was FORCED to and threatened. I did somewhat forgive him and left it go but after I dealt with it I STILL didn't deal with the emotional issues because my dad wanted to press charges against his best friend (the pastor) and i DID NOT want in that mess so I HAD to again make it look like it was great.

Well I am now realizing I am ANGRY, not for what he did but that I WAS FORCED to deal with it and have NO help getting thru it. I am angry that the people I tried to tell didn't believe me! I am angry I had to just be the peacemaker and say everything was ok when I was A MESS EMOTIONALLY. There it all is! I don't see any purpose in tell the person how mad I am because he asked me to forgive him 100 times and I did but NOBODY else bothered to help me...just oh wow thats horrible, or I don't believe you! After he admitted it some still didn't believe me!

NEXT- My biological mother who gave me up at 18 months in the middle of the evening cause she didn't want me any more. She had a baby girl 8 years ago on my exact birthday. I knew it was her way of healing herself and proving she could do it and a do over again. We have a speaking relationship now. But everytime I look at her pictures of her with her daughter at the beach, at the amusement park, at the zoos, on vacation with her...IT MAKES ME MAD I MISSED ALL THAT. My parents were ok but my dad did a lot of empty promises even to the point of this very day I wont believe anything until it actually happens and I WILL NOT tell my kids of any events or trips until the morning of because I don't want them to feel what I felt.

I will get thru all this anger but I AM FIGHTING THAT MONSTER EVERY DAY!!

WOW...sorry to be so deep but there is not a soul in "real" life I feel I can say any of this too right now!!! :'(

first - thanks ohio for the :hug: and I hope the doc's meds adjustment work for you. I can't imagine dealing with the hourly anxiety that you do!!

Hope - aw...darn :( about the job!!!! :hug:

momof4 - Oh my god girl. I cannot imagine how you got through those years. THE FIRST JOB OF A PARENT IS TO PROTECT THEIR CHILDREN!!! and you were given away by your mom..then to endure the molestation by a "trusted" person, then people didn't believe you???? No wonder you feel the need for 'something else'. Thank goodness it isn't drugs or alcohol, though food addiction is awful also. Is this the first time you've been able to 'speak' of this?? you poor thing :hug: You are a GOOD person that you never went after that pastor with a gun..I'd like to do that for you .

Thanks for the welcome everyone.

momof4 - Oh gosh, that is all so horrible. :hug: being abused by someone in a trusted position is something that should never happen to anyone, I am so sorry you went through that and are still dealing with the after effects today. I'm so glad this space is here to help you FIGHT THAT MONSTER. It's important to talk about it. Food addiction is so hard... try and be strong.

Make that unanimous Peeps!!! Yesterday sucked for me too!!! It started off okay but then went to **** at the end...A, found out I had miscounted on **** day and left 160.00 instead of 150.00 in my box! Dammit!! I HATE making mistakes... Then my boss yelled at me without yelling at me about being too late closing...well f**k...I have been working behind the counter maybe about 2 weeks and closing for only a week maybe...plus I actually do customer service and if I have a customer or the phone rings I don't ignore it..and I tend to not want to make ANY mistakes...sigh...okay...whatever...

Was all ready to get out early...had a bunch of stuff all prepared...then it happened...I goofed on a form...panicked and tried to fix it..then remembered white out wasn't allowed...then called co-worker to see what the **** to do...turns out I had to re do it and then she has to re do her side...BALLS!!! Then the computer wouldn't spit out the report properly...she said I had to call anotherco-worker, couldn't get the phone to work but then luckily the computer straightened up and spit it out!!! I had to leave them a note explaining what a dumbass I was and I do indeed have to work this weekend...so no days off for me after today for like 6 days...ugh... Oh, and today I have to do laundry, go shopping, get gas, and go to the bank...restful huh? :-)

Holly....I don't know what to say...Hugs? I wish you could see yourself through my eyes and appreciate just how strong, beautiful, and amazing you are.

Mom & Hope...that goes for you both too. Reading what Mom has been through and what she is doing for the lives of others only makes her more amazing in my book. Sometimes people don't do what they are supposed to do, they are blinded by their own issues, faults, and things that were done or happened to them...and that seems to be what happened to you...people did not do what they should have done...now you are your own person and you have the ability to get the help you need now...you don't have to depend on them to get it for you..you can take charge of your healing now, you are no longer a helpless child... But I give that child a big hug...and the adult woman that stands here now...

Hope...it is their loss...you are skilled...smart...warm...funny...and worth it, someone will recognize that very soon. I have been seeing this saying everywhere and it just seems so simple, so hard, and so profound... "Keep calm, and carry on" What else is there, right?

Morning Katie & Liz!!! :coffee:

Ohio, I hope the upped meds is just what you need!!!

Everyone! Have a better day today!!!! :grouphug:

~Raven~

Hey everyone! Sad to hear about bad days :(. I'm so sorry about the job Hope. We're always here for you!

Good evening everyone! I had a surprisingly great day today after 3 really low ones. I got myself up and off the couch to go sit by the river and really appreciated what was around me.

Hope everyone is doing well!

:hug:

I hope everyone had a better day today.


I had a pretty good day at work today. I love when my work days go smoothly.


:hug:s for everyone.

Today was a little better for me too. I made myself vacuum and wash the dogs and clean the house. Thanks everybody about the job.

Vermont, are you feeling better? Was the bad day an isolated incident? P.S. you should post on the August exercise challenge thread since you are an avid exerciser anyway. I am sucking at it so far.

Mom, I'm so sorry to read your story. It's amazing how you are so giving and nurturing to everyone and anyone who needs it. You give to everyone what you didn't get.

So much more to say but I've got to get to bed. I hope we all have a better weekend.

Vermont-I have shared with few people....but just how it happened i forgived and what I learned thru those things. This is the first time I dug deeper to figure out why the food addiction comes back time and time again and why I am fighting anger.

Raven-Yes I have a college friend that is a therapist that I have tested the waters with and right after I wrote this I decided to message my spiritual father!

I know I will get thru it but it is a FIGHT!!!

Hello all! Just a quick check in...I am not happy because I put on 3 pounds since Saturday but I haven't eaten 3 pounds worth of food!!!! I am guessing it's TOM water weight but still...so I made Pecan Pancakes for breakfast (don't judge me :) ) I am headed to the gym later today to work it off, I guess.

:wave: at everyone! I'll try to do personals tomorrow.

Hi; new to the forum and this is my first post in any daily chat thread.

Not sure what to say here except that I'm having an extremely hard time; it hasn't just been a bad day, or week, or month, or even year. The last five years have been excruciating, and I've been an 'official' depressive for 25 years.

Hi everyone........... How's things? I'm sorry to hear about the rough start to the month for everyone, hopefully things have gotten better.

Sorry I dropped off the face of the earth, or rather the forum. I'm honestly not sure why I did that, maybe I just needed a break I guess. I've had a major break through with my depression... usually I would just let myself sink into it, but lately I've started fighting it tooth and nail. Sort of refusing to let myself fall back into those old habbits. It's really tough but I've just had enough of being depressed. I know, I know, I can't just decide not to be depressed and it will never go completely away, I'm just changing my mindset towards it. It seems to be helping, hubby was unemployeed again and I managed to handle that alright.. then he got a call from a friend who needed someone for his company *RIGHT NOW* so he went to work for them. It's seasonal with a chance of winter work but for right now he's making more money then he ever has in his life. Our bills are almost completely caught up and we're paying off old debts. We've even gotten ourselves a few treats which we haven't done in forever.

My biggest challange right now is with my Dad... he's not well, hasn't been in a long time, and he won't be with us much longer. He's just made the decision to refuse further treatment for his disease. We all knew it was coming but that doesn't make it any easier. We can't do anything but support his decision, he's leading a miserable existance and there is no chance he'll ever get better. When I found out last night I laid on the bed and bawled and bawled and bawled. The hubby and step daughter came in and laid with me and just held me. It's nice that they're so supportive... we even had both dogs in there.

Ok, well, that sucks. But it's really nice to "see" you guys again. I promise I'll drop in more often and start doing personals again but right now there's just tooooooo much!

txgeek - Say anything you want... we're all non-judgemental here.

(OMG - the radio DJ just described our forecast as "Sunshine and lollipops..." LoL - I just had to share)

so much to comment on!!

first, that crummy day I had WAS an isolated event, and I could point finger at plain ol' PMS'ing. All is much much better now.

Raven - I love ' keep calm and carry on ' - wonderful!! sorry you had that day of angst at work!

txgeek - hi!! that is very hard to hear, that you have had years of feeling horrible!! are you on medication, go to counseling, have anyone else to talk to?? (you have us now :) )

Aunty Jam - OH so sorry about your Dad, that is so hard, and it won't get easier will it :( love and hugs to you. I'm so glad your whole fam was supporting you. Oh and congrats and YAY on the money issue! And yay for FIGHTING! you're right, you can't choose not to have depression but your mindset fighting it is awesome!!

GEM - you KNOW we wouldnt' judge!! i want the recipe, lol.

Hope - you had a productive day! that always helps me. I have slipped big time this month (and last month) on my working out, just because of summer's heat..no excuse I know, I need to get back on track. Do you have any people that you are waiting to hear from?

momof4 - how are you doing :)

ohiofreespirit, is your 'upped' anxiety med working better for you? i hope so

Orchestrated - hi and welcome to our very supportive place :)

hi katiekish, I'm sorry you had 3 bad days but then a good one!!

HEY and how about Ms. LeilaJey??

I had a great day today :) I cleaned the bathroom, vacuumed, worked out for an hour, did laundry and hung some outside, cut the grass (one hour), weedwhacked, and made dinner. Sheesh!! wish I had another day off tomorrow to enjoy the fruits of my labor :D

So I was trying to figure out why I wasn't getting my daily emails for July chat and then realized it was august so that's probably why. I am such a dork sometimes.

I hope everything is going well for everyone. On my side, more not so good news. I might have to have yet another foot surgery (makes #5) and possibly back surgery as well. Ugghhh. Handling it in stride for now all though my eating the couple of days has been horrible. Emotional eater here. One of these days I will figure out how to deal with that.

Just wanted to check in. :hug:

brvsfan, you're not a dork, lol! :D I wonder myself why I get notifications of threads that I haven't looked at in months, yet I won't receive notification of threads I'm active on.

Real sorry to hear of the possible upcoming surgeries!! :(

Things have been busy...still plowing away at the church. I had done amazing eating and exercising here at the house. I had found some good zumba classes on youtube so I made a playlist up. I am the type of person that does better jumping on a machine and kinda going into auto cause then my mind can just go. So the only way to jump start me is doing something fun..then I go outside for the hard part! I was using my bodybugg and tracking my food and calories out. THEN my mother sent me a care package from home and I couldn't just have one...it sent me off the deep end and I haven't been able to catch back up to the wagon!!:whoo: Now I haven't done HORRIBLE but not good either!

My anger:bomb: is going down since I am exposing and dealing with issues. But its like every imperfection I have is staring me right in the face. A lot of my issues is from my food addiction which is triggered by my "show" addiction. As an ADD person I do what they call zone out and I watch shows because then I dont have to focus on whats going on around me. SO then I dont have "time" to organize the stuff that needs organized, dont have "time" to unpack the last boxes in the school room...etc....So in order for me to get it right I need to kick the food and media addiction to the curb..but I am finding my will power is broken and desperately needs fixed!

BUT here is a picture from my no excuse week!!! I dont have a gym or equipment so I use what I got!!! :)

momof4, i think its so great that you are advancing by being able to recognize what's going on! and love the pic of you weightlifting! :D

My last delivery of Wellbutrin came packaged differently, in sheets of foil/blister packs, and the tablets look different. I'm trying to convince myself that's its the same stuff and wont' affect me differently .

Hope everyone else is doing okay!

Mom - Too funny!!! LoL I hope he stayed still. Glad you're finally able to expose the issues, I know from experience it helps a lot.

Brvsfan - Sorry to hear about the potential surgeries, I've never had any myself and it's one of my unfounded fears. Just the idea of it gets to me.

Vermont - Can you call them and check maybe if it bothers you that badly? It could put your mind at east.

I'm doing alright... same old same old... maybe that's why I stopped posting. My life just isn't very interesting. Although I have recently decided that I need to get back to working out more often, eating good and get back to a decent weight. I hope to be 150 by Dec 23rd. I had a small victory, I followed my running plan and ran a whole 3 times this week! wow. LoL.

Halfway thru Tuesday...1.5 days out of 5 down, though I don't know why I'd look forward to the weekend. I never have anything to do, I don't have any friends, and weekends are incredibly boring. I don't even sleep late...can't! Can't sleep!

Hello everyone. I am still about the same as I have been, struggling. I am still taking it day by day, which is all we can do sometimes, I guess.

I hope everyone is doing good.





txgeekgirl, why can't you sleep?

Hello, everyone! I hope you don't mind me jumping in! I'd love to participate in a chat thread like this. :)

I'm on a mission to change my life. Anxiety, panic attacks, and depression have been a part of my life for way too long. So, in addition to losing weight, I put myself in therapy - because I'm tired of living a life of guilt and fear.

I'm just gonna put this all out on the table, as I'm tired of lying to myself about it. My depression and anxiety largely came from the domestic abuse that was a part of my everyday life. Now, I am trying to learn to love myself and lose the guilt - it was not my fault. I know there's a strong woman inside of me, as I stood up and left the situation that was hurting me. I said no, and I up and left. However, healing is a slow process, and I have a long way to go. Certain triggers still bring about panic attacks and bouts of depression.

That said, nice to meet everyone! :) Thanks for reading!

Anna, it's great to see you. Just just jump on in, that is what I did and the ladies could not have been nicer. You are very brave. I too, am in therapy but don't seem to be making much progress in overcoming my anxiety problems. I wish you the very best in your journey to health.


One more week, ladies, and I get to see my psychiatrist. Hopefully, she can hear my cries of just how bad things have gotten for me. I sat down and wrote out what I have been feeling, maybe that will help her to see my pain.

I hope you all are having a good week and I will think healing thoughts for you.

Hi, ohiofreespirit! It's nice to meet you :) Thanks for the warm welcome, and for your kind words. They mean a lot to me - I really mean that.

Do you find that writing things down helps? My therapist suggested that I start keeping a journal, so I actually just bought one for myself, today.

I'm so sorry to hear that things haven't been going well for you. I will definitely keep you in my thoughts.

My therapist recommended a journal for me a year ago. I've been writing almost daily in it ever since... at first it felt a little silly and I didn't totally know what to write, but now I always have a million things to say, reflect on, remind myself... etc. I think its a great tool to help get through rough days and patches and life.

Hi AnnaPajama, :welcome: that is a cute user name :) and I love pansies. I applaud you for being strong enough to say no and leaving the bad situation! I can imagine it would take a while to heal from that awful scenario. You sound very well-together :) and I hope you we can let you feel that you can come here anytime to 'sound off' or look for a hug :hug:

ohiofreespirit, I'm so sorry things are so painful for you, I truly hope tomorrow is better, and hopefully seeing the psychiatrist in a few days will help you too .

Aunty Jam, YAY to you for all that running!! :carrot:

Hello to everyone else!

txgeekgirl, I see you went from 257 to 118?!? that in incredible!!! you are teeny tiny!!!

Here's a funny scene for you all to enjoy - one day a week in summer, I go to the deli/store to work for just 4 hours for my wonderful (sarcastic tone) winter boss. It was so busy there Wednesday when I arrived, and it was hot in there, and the deli was so dirty and gross!! it is so yucky to try to work in that but of course you have to.

Anyway, I'm madly assembling sandwiches to order, in the onion-y stinky deli, it's hot, the floor is dirty, the reach-in doors are filthy, there are crumbs all over (not just bread crumbs, MEAT crumbs) and then to top it off, it gets worse because flies are buzzing around, and not just buzzing, FLIES ARE MATING IN MID-AIR RIGHT AROUND ME!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Journaling
 

Hi. I'm still very new to the site. My therapist is urging me to journal, also. She's suggesting a twist, though. Because I am trapped in perpetual "good girl" mode, she wants me to create an "Angry Journal" where I can express my negative moods rather than continue suppressing them. When I suppress, I eat. She suggested it might be particularly useful when I'm riding the PMS train (like this week) :dizzy:, where rational thought seems a bit scarce for me.

Hey everyone.... I see we have several new people.. Welcome :)

I'm trying my bestest to be happy today but the reality is I'm tired, b!tchy and cranky! To top it off the boss had to go out of town (usually a good thing) but it's month end and I'd have lots to do if he was here... without him though I don't have anything. It's tough to be tired and cranky and bored with a newish much younger co-worker who is also bored and drives me up the wall!!!!

Vermont - That scene you described sounds horrible! I think I'd wash my hands of the whole thing! LoL

Anna - Sorry about the DA :( Good for you for sticking up for yourself!

Good luck with the journaling guys! I could never keep one for more then a few weeks usually..

If you hear of someone up in Canada who's strangled her co-worker that'll be me.

Forgot to mention why I'm so tired! On top of just not sleeping well I went to a jewelry party at a friends last night. It was my mom's bday so I took her and had her pick out her own presend :) AND.... I actually bought something for myself... 2 whole somethings actually. I bought myself a necklace with a fish on it, this one is just plain silliness... I don't know WHY I wanted it, the tail wiggles, you know the type. For those who don't know I am an avid fish keeper, I have 4 tanks right now.

I also bought myself a very pretty ring, not that I need more rings! But it was so pretty and so "me" that I couldn't help myself.

One more day until I see the Dr.

I am having good day and bad days, mostly bad ones right now but I am not giving up. I am taking my journal to my Dr's appt tomorrow, so I can share a bit of what I have been going through with her.


I hope everyone is ok, thinking and praying for you all.:hug:

Hey everyone! Glad to see some other new people around :) I hope everyone is feeling good and getting a lot of sleep!

Ive been keeping myself really busy, trying not to be too focused on the negatives in life. But I did something really stupid today - I went to try on clothes and decided to try the next size down... I cried for 10 minutes in teh dressing room because it wouldn't even do up!!!

My fiance comes back from a 3 month trip to China on Friday, so I hope things will all pick up then.