Hi, ohiofreespirit! It's nice to meet you :) Thanks for the warm welcome, and for your kind words. They mean a lot to me - I really mean that.

Do you find that writing things down helps? My therapist suggested that I start keeping a journal, so I actually just bought one for myself, today.

I'm so sorry to hear that things haven't been going well for you. I will definitely keep you in my thoughts.

My therapist recommended a journal for me a year ago. I've been writing almost daily in it ever since... at first it felt a little silly and I didn't totally know what to write, but now I always have a million things to say, reflect on, remind myself... etc. I think its a great tool to help get through rough days and patches and life.

Hi AnnaPajama, :welcome: that is a cute user name :) and I love pansies. I applaud you for being strong enough to say no and leaving the bad situation! I can imagine it would take a while to heal from that awful scenario. You sound very well-together :) and I hope you we can let you feel that you can come here anytime to 'sound off' or look for a hug :hug:

ohiofreespirit, I'm so sorry things are so painful for you, I truly hope tomorrow is better, and hopefully seeing the psychiatrist in a few days will help you too .

Aunty Jam, YAY to you for all that running!! :carrot:

Hello to everyone else!

txgeekgirl, I see you went from 257 to 118?!? that in incredible!!! you are teeny tiny!!!

Here's a funny scene for you all to enjoy - one day a week in summer, I go to the deli/store to work for just 4 hours for my wonderful (sarcastic tone) winter boss. It was so busy there Wednesday when I arrived, and it was hot in there, and the deli was so dirty and gross!! it is so yucky to try to work in that but of course you have to.

Anyway, I'm madly assembling sandwiches to order, in the onion-y stinky deli, it's hot, the floor is dirty, the reach-in doors are filthy, there are crumbs all over (not just bread crumbs, MEAT crumbs) and then to top it off, it gets worse because flies are buzzing around, and not just buzzing, FLIES ARE MATING IN MID-AIR RIGHT AROUND ME!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hi. I'm still very new to the site. My therapist is urging me to journal, also. She's suggesting a twist, though. Because I am trapped in perpetual "good girl" mode, she wants me to create an "Angry Journal" where I can express my negative moods rather than continue suppressing them. When I suppress, I eat. She suggested it might be particularly useful when I'm riding the PMS train (like this week) :dizzy:, where rational thought seems a bit scarce for me.

Hey everyone.... I see we have several new people.. Welcome :)

I'm trying my bestest to be happy today but the reality is I'm tired, b!tchy and cranky! To top it off the boss had to go out of town (usually a good thing) but it's month end and I'd have lots to do if he was here... without him though I don't have anything. It's tough to be tired and cranky and bored with a newish much younger co-worker who is also bored and drives me up the wall!!!!

Vermont - That scene you described sounds horrible! I think I'd wash my hands of the whole thing! LoL

Anna - Sorry about the DA :( Good for you for sticking up for yourself!

Good luck with the journaling guys! I could never keep one for more then a few weeks usually..

If you hear of someone up in Canada who's strangled her co-worker that'll be me.

Forgot to mention why I'm so tired! On top of just not sleeping well I went to a jewelry party at a friends last night. It was my mom's bday so I took her and had her pick out her own presend :) AND.... I actually bought something for myself... 2 whole somethings actually. I bought myself a necklace with a fish on it, this one is just plain silliness... I don't know WHY I wanted it, the tail wiggles, you know the type. For those who don't know I am an avid fish keeper, I have 4 tanks right now.

I also bought myself a very pretty ring, not that I need more rings! But it was so pretty and so "me" that I couldn't help myself.

One more day until I see the Dr.

I am having good day and bad days, mostly bad ones right now but I am not giving up. I am taking my journal to my Dr's appt tomorrow, so I can share a bit of what I have been going through with her.


I hope everyone is ok, thinking and praying for you all.:hug:

Hey everyone! Glad to see some other new people around :) I hope everyone is feeling good and getting a lot of sleep!

Ive been keeping myself really busy, trying not to be too focused on the negatives in life. But I did something really stupid today - I went to try on clothes and decided to try the next size down... I cried for 10 minutes in teh dressing room because it wouldn't even do up!!!

My fiance comes back from a 3 month trip to China on Friday, so I hope things will all pick up then.

Aunty Jam - I have NOT heard of any work-related stranglings, I applaud you for your restraint :devil:

Katiekish, i see your fiance arrives today?? how exciting :)

ohiofreespirit, hope you are hanging in there!

emaline, good to hear from you, and yes its so good for us to acknowledge that we all are worthwhile!

Just another day of work for me, anyone who is not in the service industry is all excited that it's Labor Day weekend, it's just another 3 days of work :devil: okay I'll stop moaning and just be glad I have a job, right :D

Well, it looks like August is over...wow. That flew by.

I'm doing pretty well...I can tell the medication I've been placed on for hypothyroidism is helping. I'm not nearly as tired as I usually am, and I haven't had a "depressive episode" in quite a while (not sure if that's the medication or what, but I'll take it any way I can get it)! My mom was here visiting for 11 days. I love her to death but I'm glad she's gone back home - I have a small 1 bedroom apartment with an open floorplan, and I work from home, so we were around each other pretty much 24 hours a day. I'm glad to have my privacy and my sanity back :)

Hey Vermont! It's okay to complain from time to time, that's what we're here for :)

Emaline and Katie, I have a journal but I don't use it nearly as much as I should. You both inspire me to start writing in it again!

Katie, use those clothes as motivation to "keep on truckin"!

Ohio, hang in there! :hug:

Aunty, I keep fish too! What kind of fish do you have? I have cichlids. They are quite entertaining...LOL.

:welcome: to AnnaPajama and any other new people! And :wave: to everyone else!

VermontMom - Yes! He does arrive today... I still have 11 hours of waiting, but I am so incredibly excited.

grneyedmustang - You're right, I need to use it as motivation... and I'll definitely try. Moms are so great but I can see how that would start to bother you a bit. Glad to hear the medication is working :)