Hey guys! It's May! Come on... get with the times Does the title make sense or does it just look stupid?

Lets see... what's new with me.. not a whole lot. I'm still doing pretty good. Had a blip yesterday morning but I'm ok. I am really worried about my husband though... he's diabetic (type 2) and so far has used meds to control it... he also lost about 60 pounds and it seemed to get a lot better. Lately though his meds aren't working and his sugar is really high. It's always on the high side and I've always worried about the damage it's doing to his body. I'm worried now because he didn't control it very well that he's done serious permanent damage and will have to be on insulin. He had a doctor appointment this morning and now I can't get a hold of him. I know where he is and what he's doing... I just really want to know how the appointment went and I'm kinda ticked he didn't call me to tell me

Vermont - Did you eat a cookie or two or did you totally lose control? I have to let myself have the sweet and/or bad things or I go insane and binge. I just really limit it and try to make them as healthy as possible. It slows down the weight loss but it's ok to do this. You're only human Would it help to know I was REALLY bad yesterday? Just forget it and move on The tough love kind of works... I'm really conscious now about negative things I'm thinking and saying about myself. I did some cognitive behavioural therapy last fall and it's really helped so I'm trying to merge that with the feedback from my husband.

Hope - that sucks that you got laid off and can't find a suit Would you really want to go back to that company though? You might find something even better. Hope you have a good time visiting your Mom Oh, and I haven't made it to the doctors yet so I'm still taking all of my pills.

Leila - Hope you heal up soon... I'm glad you didn't have to put off the sugery after already waiting for a year. How is your sister?

Grneye - It happens... my weight is back up and it sucks! I had a REALLY fat day yesterday... stood in front of the mirror for a few minutes looking at myself very critically and saying "Oh my god... you thought you looked ok???? Ew!" But then I remembered how I used to look and tried to focus on how far I've come. There was a quote going around FB a few days ago along these lines that I really liked... I'm going to go see if I can find it.

Gotta go... lunch is over!

Hi, I am rather new and want to join in. I feel the more support the better.
I have 100 lbs to lose, have PCOS and depression. I was rear ended last fall and have had 3 surgeries since to correct injuries. Major injuries. My last one was 4 weeks ago, and was spinal surgery. So I am slowly walking and doing some yoga.

Hey Aunty Jam, thanks for the reality check that it is May and it's a good title!!

I didn't know your DH had type 2, but he's lost 60 lbs?? that is great!! but I understand the worry you must have!

I 'lost' it with the cookies but that was last week, I had an OP day yesterday (ONE day out of many non) so I'll just keep pluggin away.

I AM at the good summer job now though, YAY. YAY I mean!

HI and Jenny!! that sux about the accident and spinal surgery! being able to walk and do some yoga is wonderful, I'm sure you've worked hard to just be able to do that.

Good morning!

I am slowly getting back on the wagon. It's going to be difficult this month too - one of my friends is getting married and then there's Memorial day - oh well, life happens. Most people struggle during the holidays - I think I struggle staying on plan more in the spring and summer. There's something about warm weather, a patio, and a refreshing adult beverage that makes me happy. Don't forget the BBQ...

Aunty - You and your hubby hang in there! I hope he is okay and gets the diabetes under control.

Cemommster - welcome to the group! We're a pretty nice bunch of gals, and we don't bite

Vermont - good to see you! One day at a time - count your on plan day as a win!!!

Hello to Hope, Leila, and everyone else!

Can i just say how much you are all my heros? the weight loss is phenominal in here.
Ok, time to get dressed. the video store is about a mile away, round trip. And the bank is across the street from the video store. So the kids and I are going to walk to both... may take a while, because I am still not up to a mile without pain from the muscles being disturbed in surgery. but I will be back.
Thanks for the warm welcomes..and about the biting...man I am dissapointed. lol

I like the title It brought a smile to my face and sounded perfect as this is the month I started getting serious about my weight loss
Aunty- how is he doing now?
Jenny- I'm sorry to hear about your accident, but it is so good that you able to walk and do yoga now How did you go with your walk?
I'm fairly new here, I started off at 319, am currently 286.6, I just love the support here. I have depression, I've had it since about 15yo, it went undiagnosed as I wasn't really noticed in the family, after I had my girl 3 years ago it got much worse and the weight piled on with it, I keep hoping that as I lose weight and get healthier and feel better in myself that it'll 'magically vanish' but I don't think it will, most of all, I just want to feel happy again,
Will be good to get to know you all

lol!! and I hope your walk was good.

and to Stephanie!! I'm so sorry you had depression at such a young age! and I experienced worse depression after my second child, it was terrible. I hope you become part of our group it does help congrats on losing over 30 lbs already!!

The walk went good. We walked to the video store and the bank, just under 1.5 miles. Stopped twice to rest for a minute. Then at my son's baseball practice I walked the track. Another 1.29 miles Not bad. Had PT today, and she massaged it and gave me tips on what to do for the pain.
Welcome Stephanie. Congrats on the loss already. That's great. I got depression after my first. IT took so long to dx postpartum. With my second they watched me like a hawk.

Aunty Jam: It's a great name, and thanks for bringing us into May haha, I think this is healthier. How's your husband/how are you?

Welcome Jenny & Stephanie!

Jenny: Glad the yoga's helping! sorry to hear about your surgeries and hope you recover quickly!

Stephanie: I don't know if it'll magically vanish but I think taking care of your physical body does a lot for your mind. For me I'm trying to understand why i was depressed and putting on weight in the first place and it's helping me to identify triggers and problems I never really thought about. Happy to hear you're making a change

Vermont: holy crap, that much ben and jerrys a day? I'd be huge! I literally couldn't stop myself.. there used to be a ben and jerrys cafe in this town and that was my lunch. Nutritious or what glad you're at your Summer job yay. Also glad to hear you were feeling better, I'd imagine that helps a lot! How are you now?

mustang: one foot on the wagon is better than being off it completely


I'm still feeling a bit sick and tired after the tooth thing but getting a bit better everyday! Soon I'm going to kick ***. Well that's the plan anyway. Still mentally so up and down all the time I'm not even sure where I'm going but just trying to stay positive most of the time and take things as they come. I've been stuck around 158 for the past week and a bit but today I was 156.4 so hopefully it's moving again! It gets to disheartening when I stall. At least I can exercise a bit more again now, that's probably why

Love to you all!

Quick Post:

I'm back in town. The trip was really good and my mom hemmed my 2 suits so that I can wear them right away if I get an interview soon. The days that I was gone flew by and I can't believe it's over already. Today my goal is to get a short workout in (it will be my first in almost 2 years...), maybe mow the back yard, and get my resume updated.

I'll try to do personals later. I need to jump on my to do list before the day gets away from me. Tomorrow I work my part time job so I need to get my resume done so I can post for the jobs I'm interested in before Monday.

Welcome Jenny and Stephanie! I look forward to getting to know you both.

Thanks girls
Depression really isn't easy for anyone so I feel for you all deeply, it's such a hard thing to deal with and not many people (surprisingly) understand just how hard it can be

Sounds like it was a good walk Jenny and well done for doing it I hope the tips help in future

LeilaJey, I agree fully, I agree fully, I was in counseling for a bit and that helped me realize where it kinda stemmed from and it gave me an understanding about why I feel like I am not worth anything etc which helped a bit and since taking better care of myself I'm starting to feel better
It's not good how you were feeling, and it is definitely disheartening but I'm glad it is moving again for you

How'd you go hope4me? Trips seem to fly by so much faster than any other normal days!

Hope you are all doing well and have good weeks and look forward to hearing more from you all xxx

Hey everyone... Hope everyone had a good Mothers day My step-d got me fruit dipped in chocolate and then we all went out for brunch with my mom. Oh my gosh was it good! I ate way, way to much. I haven't done much for exercise lately, bad me. And I drank 2 nights this weekend, really bad me My shin splints have been bothering me lately but I did some research and I think I have another way to help them. Apparently smaller strides help because it lessens the weight that goes into each step. I know I have a fairly long stride and I tend to "pound" the pavement so I'm going to work on that.

Several people asked about my husband... all they did at his appointment was give him more meds and refer him to a diabetic specialist. His original diabetes doctor won't see him because he skipped an appointment, stupid boy, so now they have to find another one for him. He has lost 60ish pounds but this is happening despite that.

Steph - I'm glad you're feeling better, I did some therapy last year that really helped with how I think about things and myself. Sorry to say that unless your depression is soley linked to your weight it won't magically get better. It does help a great deal though! And I'm glad I could bring a smile to your face.

Hi Hope - Isn't it nice having a mom who can sew? Mine used to do all my hemming too... it sucks having short legs!

LJ - Sorry you're still not feeling well... it will take a while I think. I've found the trick is not to try feel really up all the time, it's not possible or healthy. You just need to find a balance between the up's and down's. At least that's what has been working for me lately. But that being said, I'm with you... lol. Motivated to kick some ***!

Jenny - It sounds like you're working hard to get better... I hope you are soon. I love yoga but don't get much of a chance to do it

Vermont - Don't feel bad... I can't remember the last time I had a true OP day... I'm scared witless to get on the scale. I'm also scared because I'm sure my scale isn't accurate! Been planing to get a new one for a while now... not sure I want to!

grneye - The bbq and adult beverages are a big part of what kills me too!

Oh well... I should go.. I'm sure break time is way past over!

Happy Late Mother's Day to all of the mom's.

Today I HAVE to get my resume done and apply for some jobs that I have leads on. I have been busy but this has to be my priority today. I'm going to force myself to report back here tonight and let you all know that this is done. If not, feel free to hunt me down and kick my butt.

On a positive note I did work out on Saturday for 30 minutes. It's the first workout in almost 2 years. I plan to do it again today, but not before the resume is done.

Have a good day everybody and I will be back later.

Happy Mother's Day to any mothers!

Aunty Jam: Ah don't feel bad about enjoying yourself sometimes, just get back on track. I find that if I drink alcohol I can't control my eating at all. The other night I had a glass of cider and right after dinner I found myself putting butter and jam on a baguette and eating it. I was already pretty full, it was weird I felt really disconnected. Is there anything you can do to fix shin splints? Good luck with your new walk!

Stephanie: Hope you're in good form

hope: Delighted to hear you're working out again, exercise can be really good for your mood so I hope it's making you feel great! Good luck with the resume

I'm trying to fix myself after my over eating yesterday. Not looking forward to weighing in tomorrow.. I feel like I'm slipping a bit. I keep thinking ah screw it I'll stop now and just eat lots of crap again instead haha, I know it's silly and it's not what I'm going to do but it's funny how the mind works. I'm craving food right now but I'm not hungry. It's annoying as **** though. Drinking lots of herbal tea instead. I think it's just because I'm tired and feeling shitty. I feel like I'm coming down with a cold and that just makes me feel hungry. Eugh, hoping I wake up ok tomorrow.

Hope you're all doing great

LeilaJey, how was the weigh-in today? Are you still having cravings? DF and I were in the habit of eating chocolate every night for a while and it was causing serious cravings for more chocolate and other unhealthy foods. We broke that habit about a month ago and it was hard but helped a lot. I'm still eating poorly but I'm not having the horrendous cravings that I was. I find that having an alcoholic drink makes me eat like crazy too.

Aunty Jam, I'm so glad you are here on a regular basis. Everything that I buy has to be hemmed. It was nice not to have to pay to have it done. It sucks having an injury doesn't it. Sometimes it's hard to get yourself motivated to exercise but then having to worry about working around pain makes it even less likely that it will be done.

Vermont, I hope you are enjoying the 'fun' job. Are your days off during the week or doesn it vary?

Mustang, good to see you again. It sucks getting back on the wagon. Summer can be challenging with all of the holidays and cookouts.

Cemmomster, how are feeling today? Have you been able to get in any more walks? It's great that you are doing what you need to do to recover.

Stephanie, how are you doing? Are you on medication for depression if you don't mind me asking? I couldn't live without it. Congratulations on your weight loss. I hope I can find it within myself to get started again soon.

I finally got my resume done, it took forever. I also applied for the job at my old company so we will see if I hear anything. Today I need to search for more opportunities. The whole process is annoying.