I don't know if anything has triggered me... just the same old crap <sigh>. I had to take out one of those high interest payday loans yesterday to make it through the week. You coudln't believe what they want just to loan you $200 for 5 days. I found the whole thing humiliating.

Thanks for the hugs and support though...

aunty we have done them and everytime got screwed over so be careful!!! I even made a settlement on one that had already collected over the 150 we borrowed and the now put it into collections AFTER i made a settlement!!! BE CAREFUL!!

momof4 - I wish we could come up with a plan, a checklist or something, that would help! but I know everything is so dependent on just how we are feeling at the moment. All I can do is send long-distance and when you are hittin your marks!

Aunty Jam - Oh I'm so sorry you felt humiliated by that...I hope whoever was doing the loaning would have some human niceness and not make you feel bad you will get through this!! how are those famous calendar doggies

Ravengirl - we are lucky to have your high energy for our fall listlessness You are to be cheered on for your exercise! A Body Pump class sounds awesome and sore-provoking

I have reluctantly changed my ticket to show my gain..a few pounds, it sure isn't the end of the world but very hard for me to tackle. Each day I try..as always I can do the workouts but its' the eating that I can't seem to control. Just trying each day.

thanks for the encouragement about the clutter!! woohoo, I have taken boxes and boxes of stuff out. Yesterday was 3 big boxes of books ( i know books are great but they were science and nature books we got for our kids that are outdated, and you can get whatever off the internet); 'coffee table' books from my dad's, novels that I had either read over and over or never at all.

And a printer that I patiently (for weeks) asked my DH to get going for me, nada, so out it went And a bureau that I took from my dad's house out of obligation, but it was just in the hallway not being used so i put it at the top of our driveway with a FREE sign and within an hour it was gone.

I still don't 'see' a difference in reduction (except for the bureau) but I want to make myself promise "two boxes a week out of the house" and see if i can keep up with that.

I've been lucky and have ridden the motorcycle to work for a few days in a row, 40 degrees in the morning is a bit chilly but it's all good because the days are definitely numbered.

Oh yeah today is me and DH's 32nd anniversary

Happy anniversary holly xxx

Mom - It's going to cost us $40 in the end... $20 for each $100 you borrow, but as long as we pay it off when we're supposed to that should be the end of it. My husband used to get them quite frequently when he was working steady but now that he's casual labor he doesn't have a work reference for the loan. Otherwise I'd make him do it.

Holly - Holy carp 32 years? Wow... congrats girl, that's amazing. My parents just had their 42 year anniversary. I'm not sure we'll last that long... I mean I love the bum, but I was ready to kick him out a few days ago. I knew I'd change my mind so I didn't say anything but I haven't completely changed my mind yet. I'm glad you got rid of some clutter... want to come clean out my house for me? It's one of those things I keep meaning to do but never find thet time... everything in that house has so many memories for me, it's hard to sort through what's important and what's not. The puppies are good... but my old guy has a bald spot on his leg and I think he's losing hair around his mouth too A trainer friend told me some dogs actually do lose hair when they age like men but I don't know... it doesn't look like anything, just a bald spot but we can't afford to take him to the vet. Took them both to agility a few nights ago.. the young guy is a real eager beaver, it's super funny to watch, he catches onto things quick.

Raven - Thanks... and please... send me some of your energy! LoL

Hi Ems... Stepping out

So I might be getting a tattoo... I've been wanting to get a little dog paw with my old girls name on it, we still miss her a lot Then I got an email from the humane society I adopted her from that they're doing a tattoo fundraiser... I can't believe they're doing this... but I guess a local artist approached them and wanted to do something for them. Anyway, it's a reduced price ($80), I get paid this weekend and proceeds are going to the humane society so I think I may just do it. We can't afford it of course, but whatever... if we were smart with money we probably wouldn't be so badly off... hahahaha.

Heeeellllooo Peeps!!! Yeessss, it is your resident bundle of light and energy!!! LOL! Whew! Okay, so I didn't go to the gym or anything yesterday because A) I was sore as **** and B) I had to get my homework done so that I wouldn't have to worry about it today! Tuesdays and Thursdays are BUSY! I go to yoga at 9, get home about 10:45, refuel with a small snack and drive to the gym for Body Pump at 12:15! In fact...my arms are so tired that even typing this is a chore!!! You know that you are working hard when your arms are already sore after only a couple of hours. Usually we hit the grocery store after class, DD has been getting a donut (miracle of miracles I have not even wanted one!) I have been taking protein powder in my blender ball and then getting a banana or something at the store. I don't keep them in the house because they go off ususally before I get around to eating them and DH & DD are both allergic to them. DH can't even stand the smell of them. Today I did get a cinnamon gingerbread latte though...that is okay though. I have been sticking to small meals often and my energy really has been better than usual. I mean, weights make me tired and I am tired now but I still feel good mentally. Okay get this, my yoga teacher made me show off the uber tough plank move in yoga this morning and then through in planks when she knew my thighs were already killing me!!! Evil!!! I didn't do some of the tougher leg moves because I knew I was going to Body Pump later and my instructor there is double EVIL! I love her and hate her at the same time! Ugh, I need more practice with the plank moves. I did more weight on the arms today because I knew that I wouldn't have to go back until Tuesday...that is going to hurt later....

Holly! Happy Anniversary!!! We just had our 21st...and I am lucky to be married to my best friend...who still makes me hot! ][ And, I count any progress on clutter as a huge victory!

Aunty! Love the tattoo idea!!! I am a tattoo/piercing kinda girl myself! Love them! Go for it!!

Stepping Out! Good to see ya!! Hope you are doing well!

Mom....love ya!! Hope you are having a good day today!

Ems! You look beautiful!

You are all beautiful! If you have a roof over your head. If you are warm and fed. If you have one friend who loves you and/or someone/some animal/ to share your day with you have more than a lot of others... I was standing in the warm shower this morning with the chill in the air outside the shower and just felt the bliss of having the privilege of standing under warm running water for as long as I needed. I smiled and cranked up my Seether cd all the way to yoga....little things...are always the most important!

Group hug Everybody!!

ravengirl, I LOVE your postive-ness!! I truly, truly need to count my blessings daily..or even hourly sometimes. Thanks!

Aunty - GO FOR IT!! first, the idea of the paw with your dear doggie's name is so cute. Second, it was meant to be!! with the offer with the human society. kewl!!

thanks for the congrats there are times , though, I tell ya , lol. But you know.

have a great day!

I just had to do it.... the picture I mean. I don't think I can get the tattoo... just too broke, the toilet broke. The tank actually cracked. Sucks big time. FML.

OH, what a sweetie! i love her eyebrows and her white tipped tail

sux about the toilet!!!