your bike sounds good holly i hope you enjoy it :d

Marie im glad your new meds arehelping u. Are you gonna watch the royal wedding tomoz im sick of hearing about it lol x

It is funny I first heard of the royal wedding here on this site :p I don't have television so...

good for you!! (for no television)

ems, lol, I thought that any British person would be so interested...the Royal Wedding coverage has been included in our national news for weeks now! I guess alot of Americans are fascinated by it.

Lots of rain here, some flooding and some towns were closed yesterday due to washouts and high waters. But nothing compared to the poor people lost in Alabama overnight.

We have one more change of plans in getting the motorcycle...now it will be my DH driving, a truck he's borrowing from his boss. I just want this to be over with the bike safely in my driveway! very nervewracking to me to do a long distance purchase of this size.

Hi to everyone else! :hug:

I lost a pound by the way :D

Chubby - Good going on the pound :) I haven't lost anything in a while now :( Gotta get off my arse and control my eating! I love exercise for therapy too.. running makes me feel so much better. Foxes aren't really dangerous, usually they're scared of people.

Marie - My cousin lives in the country and used to feed a fox that would follow them everywhere and play with their cats.... it was an amazing, beautiful animal. Her ex husband ended up shooting it because he's a jerk, he didn't know it was sorta their pet. Her kids were very sad :(

Mom - That's a HUGE loss! Congratulations! :D

Vermont - Yeah... I'm kind of shaking my head over the scrubbing of the floors... it's not often I get the house to myself anymore, oh well, they look good. We also cleaned the back yard, my allergies went nuts after that! I had the same situation as you with a speeding ticket sort of... I was on my way to a friends funeral, he died very suddenly of a heart attack, and wasn't paying attention. Up here we have photo radar, where they just take your picture and send you a ticket in the mail... it's a total cash cow and ticks everyone off but there's not much we can do about it. They've also put cameras into a lot of our stop lights that take your picture if you speed, run a red light...etc. Total cash cow all of it... :( No points deducted though. Sometimes I wish I could read my husbands mind... most times I'm glad I can't. Hope the bike works out :)

I have good news... our home visit went very well :D and it looks like we're approved to adopt Snoop :D Our last hurdle will be if the two dogs get along... Chase can be kind of a dink sometimes, he's a bit of a social moron so it takes him some time to get to know other dogs. We'll be picking up Snoop Friday evening so I'll have more details then. I go through a huge range of emotions every day... from "What was I thinking?!?!?!" to "Yay! Doggie!". My brain just won't turn off and I think about it constantly... even obsessively :( I guess I just have to calm myself and be patient. I worry Chase has gotten used to being an only dog and likes it... but I've always believed they do better in pairs.. they are a pack animal... BEH!!! I've got to stop my brain! I'm driving myself crazy(ier hahahahah).

So HI! to everyone... Bonnie, Hope, ems and everyone my crazy whirling brain won't let me pick out names to.... Sorry.

I had sort of a sad day yesterday. My sister-in-law, who I am very close with, found out she cannot get unemployment because her company is too small and didn't pay into it.Her and my brother are very devastated. They are both at retirement age. Well have the royal wedding to look forward to here in about 31/2 hours if I can stay awake I know I shouldn't but it is exciting and a happy event.

vermontmom, hope you have a safe trip.
auntyjam, I love your quote!

Everyone have a wonderful Friday!:)

Hey everyone! :D

@ aunty jam. I work with animals by the way. A very good way to avoid severe confrontations when bringing a new dog into the house is to bring a blanket of the new dog (something that has the new dogs smell heavily infused into it) and have you old dog lie on it or smell it. Dogs work a lot with scent. If he recognizes the scent as something that exists already in his home he will most probably not be aggressive. It helps if the new dog is younger also. If in any case they fight make sure you always push away the new dog and not the old one. It is his turf after all :p I hope this helps.

good morning :) been a while since I could even type that!

Aunty Jam, congrats on the home visit going well! Just turn off your brain's battling over the decision...you're going ahead with it, it will be fine :D Interesting coincidence, I just had a co-worker call yesterday, asking if they could use me as a reference, they're wanting to adopt a puppy; they have a nice family lab but she is getting up in years; and when the inevitable happens :( they want another comforting furry body there.

bonnie, I'm sorry about the sad economic news about your brother and sister-in-law, news like that is always a shock. Hope they can find ways to cope.

Hi Chubbykins :wave: and everyone else!!

well I got a funny shock in the mail (email) I saw a commercial that I thought was not good, it is a local commercial for Lasik, and I just thought the 'husband' in the commercial was a jerk to his 'wife'. And sent my comments in a quick email.

Boy was I surprised to get this huge, long manifesto from the company, the woman doctor; right out told me that I probably was a battered woman who was reading too much into it; telling me 'it's a commercial, it's not real!' and to 'lighten up!' with alot inbetween of how generous their company is, giving free Lasik to battered women and service members. I don't know whether to ignore it or write a sarcastic reply. Guess I have too much time on my hands, lol!

Hi Chicks from a very hungover marie :)

I feel of the wagon again last night, me and HD went to celebrate my new job as i am starting on tuesday he took me to Skylon a bar on the southbank that I have wanted to go to for a while now but its been to expensive. Anyway we went I drank some of the yummyist cocktails ever, the only down side was that I had to pay the bill and i feel yuck this morning. it was worth it though.

I am nearly off the sleepers I am down to 5mg a night which is really good as I was on over 30mg at one point and using them recreationally iv had no withdrawal so im hoping to be fully of them by the end of May :) not doing so well on packing up the smokes though still on 20 a day :(

These new meds are good I am feeling alot better now I still have down days but my bipolar is well under control at the moment which is a huge relief.

Ems - the royal wedding I missed it as i was sleeping of the cocktails, but i did watch the highlights, im not overly in to the royals it was just nice to see a princess.

Vermont - safe trip getting the bike you must be so excited. And thanks for saying i look young :) much appreciated. Let us know when your back safe please for the road trip

Aunty Jam - well done! iv still got my fingers crossed for you

Bonnie - Thats so sad about your sister-in-law, can they get state wellfair or benefits of any type?

mom - Hope your ok not herd from you for a while honey

Chubbykins - well done with the loss, im still to scared to get on the scales after the easter pig out, but I did ok this week and next week should be a good one so maybe next friday i will weigh in.

Anyway chicks I am off to drink tea and recover from last night the kids will be home soon full of beans after a day on the beach with the in-laws.

Take care everyone xxx

I'm wracked by nervousness about tomorrow, and that was my crappy excuse for digging into DH;s stash of chocolate, had about 9 chocolate kisses, and two small bowls of granola-type cereal...why if my stomach is nervous I am eating junk??

A quick (just happened to see it on the home page) Happy Birthday to iriswhispers!

I am feeling better about the situation with my sister-in-law and brother. Thanks all for your kind words. Marie, congratulations on lowering your sleep medication. That is a major drop in mg's 30-5.:)

Everyone have a great Saturday.

Thanks Bonnie, this is the 1st time i have had will power to give something up, as soon as the doc told me I was an addict I freaked out, iv been called a lot of things in my time but addict is not for me, my brother is a junkie and I just thought I am NOT getting branded the same as him so started the weaning.
Glad your feeling better about things today

Vermont, relax honey in a few hours you will have a new bike :) and we all need a little chocolate from time to time

Well today I am off shopping to get some new clothes from my new job, Im going from a construction site manager to an executive role so I gotta swap the jeans for suit's.
DH is getting on my nerves this morning, his voice is so loud its given me a headache thank god he has gone out so i can get ready in peace. I know he is going to be in a bad mood when he see's all the shopping i am about to do, but I will have the argument with him later nothing is going to stop my shopping high :)

Have a great day every one xx

Hey all :D I did it today! I beat misery.
I woke up feeling that familiar "Ok this will be one of the crappy days" but I pushed myself to do 90 minutes of excersize and now I'm feeling that bliss from having worked out a bit too hard. I wish I had the energy to do that more often. Perhaps it is something I should work on.

@Marie You'll look super in a suit! If you're still blonde atm get something in dark gray. Black look odd when light hair falls onto it or dust. And certainly not white or people will be able to guess where you sat on last.

@Vermont No worries about the chocolate. Find the ballance you must, says master yoda. :D

I hope you are all doing fine! Have a nice weekend.

hey ladies the wedding was ok better than i thought it would be anyway lol I STS this week :( x

Well done Chubbykins some times just getting out of bed can be the hardest part of the day. but kicking it on a work out is really good, glad your having a more up day.
Thanks for the advice on the clothes, and I am still blonde, well its looking kinda white as I have just had it done, I am going to have to go back out as all i got today where shoes, i started to have a pain attack about my job and if I have done the right thing so I came home and tried not to think about it. I feel rough tonight i have a... erm trying to find a nice way of putting it... upset tummy, i think its just nerves I'v been feeling off all day.

Ems, sorry this may sound stupid but whats STS?
The wedding was ok I watched the highlights, didnt think much of the dress, if I was going to be a princess I would of had a huge tiara not the little thing she had lol

Im of to bed soon today has not be good for me a nice long sleep im hoping will help i have a **** of a lot to do tomorrow
Night chicks xx

Hi, yes Vermont I am out here. I am so sorry to hear about your mom. :hug:

It's been a weird couple of weeks. I turned 40 and was off for a few days. I felt good about it at the time (luckily) but I've been kinda down and lost ever since. This week I had a terrible sinus infection and missed a couple of days of work. I can't wait till it is gone completely.

I feel like I need to set some goals for myself to accomplish in my 40's. I need something to live for and strive for. Ok, this is short and sweet. Sorry I've been MIA.

hope4me, no apologies, just glad to know you are still around :hug: belated HB to you! 40 huh, you young thang you :D I'm sorry it made you feel down and lost, i can relate to looking at a certain age and wondering about hopes, dreams, etc. And oh sinus infections hurt don't they.

marie, sorry about your upset tummy! and very cool about being able to go shopping for work wardrobe!

I don't know what STS is either?

hooray to Chubbikins for beating misery!! that is fantastic. I hope you beat misery's butt every day from now on :D

hi bonnie, hope your Saturday was good and we continue to hold good wishes for your brother and wife.

okay - my new-to-me bike is safely home here! and I'm still within budget to pay for registration, tax, title, and inspection :carrot:

wow vermont that is one hot looking bike! Love the pics

Hope - hey honey glad your still around. I know what you mean about the age im have my own freak out about turning 30.

Im feeling better this morning so I have LOADS of things to get on with today no rest this sunday for me :(

Have a lovely sunday every one else

Sorry i post so much on here, I find it helps

I am not sure if i am having one of my bipolar moments or my husband gets on my nerves that much.
Today I have spent the day clearing out the children's old clothes and mine, I don't touch his. I was doing this and I just got more and more angry. Why the **** should i be doing this when HE is the house husband, some of the kids clothes where aged 4-5 my youngest wears size 8-9 so that shows how long its been. I tried to talk to him about this and about the crap he keeps in boxes and his lack of "house husband" things he needs to do. He went mad and said i was like a 1950's husband... and so it all kicked off.
I am now in a right mess I want to take my sleeping pills and zone out but I can't I can't drink as that makes me even more aggressive, i just need to calm down but i cant.
I got a call from my pregnant sister today she has had an argument with her partner so she is coming to stay at mine for a few days to cool off and I am nervous about my new job that I start on Tuesday, Its just all getting to me at the moment, iv had such a good few weeks then this!
DH has been getting on my nerves for a while, not just with not having a job but we are so different, when we went out on Thursday night I only enjoyed it because I was drunk, if I was sober I wouldnt have as we have nothing at all in common.
Iv really had enough I feel trapped and I think he knows this to, he said to me today if I didnt like him that much just leave. I cant all my money is tied up in the house and he will never let me take the kids and neither will the UK legal system, as I have as a women worked rather then look after the kids... some one had to pay the bills right?
Its all so sad, I dont know if I should be laughing or crying, or kicking his head in at the moment I feel like i am going to burst.
My sister wont be here for another couple of hours and HD is in the bath at least he is out of my way
I really dont know what to do

Marie- Sorry its so rough....that makes it hard...is there any chance of things working? My thoughts are if your STUCK and you have to stay maybe you guys could try to make it work? Then when you look back years later you can say you tried....I had to finally have my husband write down 3 things that frustrated him and I would work on them. Cause I mean we live in the same house and anyone who lives together will get on each others nerves....Hope things go better

Vermont-WOW!!!!! AWESOME!! So happy for you!!

Chubby-90 minutes is AWESOME GREAT JOB!!!

HOPE-MISS YOU!!! I did that when I turned 30. I accomplished so much in my 20's so I wrote out goals I want to accomplish for my 30's. I don't want to look back and be like hmmm that was wasted!!!

Hi to everyone else I haven't been on to catch up...seems things have been crazy

SO After going to a funeral this week of my 28 yr old friend who lost her husband 5 days after their baby girl was born....My foster daughter called my 8 times during church (didn't take my phone in) Her 15 year old brother was given some pill and he snorted it and overdosed and died this morning. Their mother just wasn't really "involved" with their lives. 6 months ago when he was hit by a car she couldn't stay at the hospital she needed to go cause of her boyfriend. He was in critical condition. My foster daughter called me to go sit with her brother. When I saw him he just sat and talked to me about video games...just wanted attention. Well he fell into the wrong company...they were not nice to him...My foster daughter is a mess because growing up it was her, her dad, and her lil brother and her dad died when she was 12 and she just turned 18 yesterday. She just called me screaming he died he died hes dead he died....My heart is broken for her. She just wanted to die. I told her honey it wont make him come back....When she went home for a few months she took care of him (made him brush his teeth, wear clean clothes...etc) When her dad was sick that was what she did took care of her dad and little brother...just sad....

sigh....I cant handle many more funerals and deaths..Im a compassionate person so its constantly on my mind and my heart hurts for them and not just for a day but for a week I have been hurting for my friend. The night my dh closed I was like ahhh I hate when hes not here cause I have to do bedtime by myself and instantly she popped in my mind and i was like WHAT am I complaining for one night for HER HUSBAND IS GONE...sigh

On the health note..on Thursday i about had a break down at the gym. I really think my body was just to its breaking point. I couldn't get through my running had to keep stopping for a second which just made me mad. Then a friend on line he lost 14lbs in like 5 days and it took me 7 weeks to lose 12 lbs....so I was just MAD....I have worked blood, sweat, and tears for EVERY lb....So I was on the elliptical after fighting with the treadmill and the tears almost spilled over...but I was able to pull myself together. By friday night I crashed at 9pm before everyone and slept till 9 the next morning. I am the stay up till 3 am and get back up at 8am....so I am assuming my body was just done! Tuesday is the weighin for the gym so we will see how that goes I didnt workout fri, sat, or sun...errr... But have lost a total of 25lbs in 11 weeks Here is a picture. I was in a size 22 now size 18...theres not a BIG difference but my but is kinda shaping up (still a ghetto booty lol) and my stomach is kinda shrinking...my bra size around is too big I have to put it on the tightest latch!!!

marie, wow it sounds like there is alot going on! I hope things calm down.
Hang in there. Things will work out. Is there something you can do or somewhere you could go that is just for yourself that you enjoy to get some physical and mental relief. Go to a movie by yourself, a funny one would probably be preferable. Go for a walk in the park to clear your head. Just some ideas. Take care.:hug:

vermontmom, you new bike looks too cool! Thanks for asking about my brother and his wife.

Hanging in there. It has been raining here forever it seems. Looking forward to the sun sometime soon I hope.:)

I think yesterday was a bipolar moment I feel better today I have an under lying temper but nothing like yesterday, My sister came over and vented about my mum (i dont talk to her) the evil cow is trying to split up my sister who is 7 months preggers and her boyfriend, I really felt for my sister my mum did the same to me years ago and I found the best thing to do was to cut her out of my life, I think my sister is realizing she should do this to. I cant believe she put my sister under so much stress when she is pregnant.
My and HD are talking again but tonight we are going to have a "talk" about things I already know what he is going to say and I am not happy about it.

Bonnie - I would love to go out on my own but when I am having a moment its better to stay at home, I am a danger to myself when like that, but thanks for the suggestions

Mom - Thanks I dont know what to do I am just taking it hour by hour at the moment. Sounds like you have a lot going on at the moment too honey.
You can see a difference in your pics, your doing so well.