January Chat
 

Hey momof4, I started a new one :D I'm so glad your day ended better, by going to a movie by yourself and then walking into a clean and uncluttered house! :carrot: and looking forward to the vid. I will hope that you get both the membership and the BL call!

hopeforme, hey :hug: :hug: good friend thoughts going out to you especially today, if you need them. I start out my day so well, then it goes to **** :devil:

hey to everyone else. I'm doing much better, I always need to remind myself that when I'm feeling really bad, it usually gets better in a day or two.

Hey everyone... sorry for my long absence, I just popped in to say Hi. I've been really sick with a bad flu and some infections, saw a dr yesterday and got some antibiotics, just waiting for them to kick in. I'm not going to like what the scale has to say but it's my own darn fault.

Ever see a 9 year old get super excited because she got stationary, stamps and an address book for Christmas? Too funny. The biodegradable pen was a big hit also, she's such an earth child.

Take care... I'm going to catch a nap.

Hi Everyone
Just popping in to say Hi and Happy New Year!!

Take care all,
K

Hello there everyone.
I'm pretty new to 3FC in general, but this is a place I need to be. I've been struggling w/depression, well as long as I can remember. Anxiety/panic attacks for the better part of a decade, and let's just say i have extreme issues w/food. I maintained a rather lowish for my height through all of my twenties (well after losing a good deal at age 20 that is. and my foray into disordered eating that followed) until well about this time last year I had an EXTREME gain (like 90 lbs in well, and i am not kidding b/c who in the world would....about 7 months. i lost a bunch in 3, regained half. here i now am).

So I'm possibly the most depressed and disgusted w/myself i've ever been. I want to change that, and I don't want it to be just by losing weight, I want to work on other things too. So that's a little ramble on about myself, sorry just figured I'd kinda address a bit of where i am in my first post to this.

So here's to 2011 (hey its a prime number! i'm a geek) and best of luck to all of us.

Well, as you may have guessed from my post yesterday I was in no mood to go to work today. I thought I may have a panic attack or at least burst out crying. But I got up and put one foot in front of the other and today wasn't so bad. I had some pretty easy calls at work today and the food wasn't too bad. Thanks for all your support and well wishes.

Welcome Dissonance. Nice to meet you. I've gained 30 lbs in about 4-5 months. I feel your pain. I was praying I could get my pants on today. I did although they wouldn't button. I had a sweater on that covered the top however. Not fun. Maybe we can get back on track together.

Aunty Jam, it's good to see you again. I'm sorry you have been sick. So many people I know are. I hope the meds kick in soon. Have you been working anyway?

Buddly, I've been wondering about you. Did your holidays go ok?

Vermont, thanks for getting the thread started. Thanks for the good thoughts, they must have worked. I was doing the same thing you said, trying to remember that my really bad times usually get better in a couple of days. That was the most hopeless I'd felt in a while. I hate that. I feel like I had brought it on myself with so much overeating, no exercise, and working too much. How was your day?

Welcome dissonance!! please know that this is such a great place to come to, when you feel awful AND when you feel good.

hope, I had a pretty good day :) and I'm glad my long-distance good thoughts can maybe help you :)

I have to work on something though. Do any of you do this - think of a possible scenario that probably isn't even going to happen, but get all worked up about it and end up in a crappy mood? I can easily out of habit do that every morning on the way to work, I anticipate 'possible' stupid things that a co-worker or the boss might say, then I think about how I would respond, and get all angry for no reason! It is such a negative thing to do. I know I need to stop myself right away from that train of thought.

I still am good at working out every day, just need to not have one of the huge cookies at work each afternoon.
:hug: to everyone!!

Hello Ladies..

Just popping in to say hello.... Its been awhile since I've been on. Really haven't had a lot of time in the last few months to actually get on since my schedule changed and I started working nights again... or should I just say started working again :shrug:

Getting back into the diet and exercise part of my life again. Along with changing some other stuff that needs to change.

hey Purefire!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D great to see you here again :hug:

Originally Posted by VermontMom:
I have to work on something though. Do any of you do this - think of a possible scenario that probably isn't even going to happen, but get all worked up about it and end up in a crappy mood? I can easily out of habit do that every morning on the way to work, I anticipate 'possible' stupid things that a co-worker or the boss might say, then I think about how I would respond, and get all angry for no reason! It is such a negative thing to do. I know I need to stop myself right away from that train of thought.

This. Every single day. Everyday >.< I know when I'm doing it I get carried away, but I still do it, and half the time end up bursting into tears >_>

I know I need to go back onto my meds, and I know that they help, and I know that the sleeplessness and nauseousness is worth it, but I just can't bring myself to do it. 'Cause no matter how much it helps, it doesn't solve my problem completely, and I'm still in a craptacular situation, so hey, what's the point? Yeah i know that's a silly reason, but will i go and get my script filled? noooooooooo. I will however stay in bed all day to avoid sending out forms I should've done a month ago.

So yes, that makes my monthly post, see you all in feb :p

Hi everyone! Things are going okay for me. I have a job interview for a daycare position on Tuesday at 1pm, so wish me luck. I'm looking to move out of my parents' home by December 2011. I want to be on my own.

Good luck! :D:D:D

take me with you !! I'm looking to move out as soon as I know if/where I've gotten into a university course (which is in 10 days or a month), so hopefully we'll both be on our own soon enough :D

best wishes on the interview, FoodObsessed! :carrot:

Summershine - 'craptacular' - for a sad word, it makes me laugh :D but I'm sorry you're in a craptacular situation. Do you need us to nag you to send out your forms?

I'm doing better also. Maybe it's the extra .5 minute of daylight we get now, since the solstice. I'm trying to remember to use my Happy Light, though its hard because things got switched aorund in our living room and I can't easily plug it in where I used to. Got literature from the Verilux company that says people report great things using their Happy Light while working out, also. Of course they want to tout using their product....but I will try that too.

Hey everyone... welcome to all our new people.

Vermont - Does one thing just lead to another in your head? Is it racing thoughts that simply come one after another and you can't really stop them? I described this to my doctor and she put me on resperidal, it helps to slow things down. It might be worth mentioning to your doctor.

Hope - Today is my first day back to work... but between Christmas and New Years I was in a tiny Saskatchewan town about 650km from home cleaning out my 98 year old grandmothers house. Lots of memories, trinkets, history and junk (people from her era save and reuse EVERYTHING). So I wasn't exactly resting while I was sick either. I think 650km is a little over 400 miles.

I've discovered I have to register by March 31 for the upgrading I would need to go back ot school... it's full time so I'd have to quit or get laid off. It's bumped up my decision timeline hughly so I'm just slightly stressed. I'm not sure if it's that or the antibiotics but something is really upsetting my stomach!

It was a rough day at work, not so much for me but for some coworkers. An entire division of our company is being let go. They say that division isn't profitable so they are letting it go. Ironically, that was one of the jobs I interviewed for. If I had gotten that position instead I would be out of a job right now and right back feeling hopeless. I am so thankful tonight and so sorry for the others.

I've done better on eating since Monday. I'm grateful for that too.

Hehe, craptacular is a great word :D Thanks for the offer of nagging, vermontmom, but I think Ill be ok.

Now, I feel a lil' out-of-line saying this, but tonight i've already typed up about 5 posts which i never actually posted, for fear of being wrong/sounding weird, so I feel the need to impart some well meaning but probably unhelpful advice.



*bops AuntyJam on the nose with a rolled-up newspaper*

Bad AuntyJam! No! Naughty! I absolutely insist, nay, demand you take that 'failed' Christmas goal out of your sig this instant! It's 2011 dear, quit living in the past already :p

Aunty Jam, the thoughts in my head aren't racing, they're regular pace :) but a slow flow of negative thoughts that can easily get me on the wrong track. I've been trying to *stop* myself when I start it, because it can make the diff between me walking into work being in an okay mood, or walking in ready to do battle. That is a big decision about registering, in that you'd have to give up work...best wishes on your decision :hug:

hopeforme, oh that is sad news for the people who lost their jobs!!! I am truly happy it wasn't you but of course we have to feel bad for the others.

summershine, okay I won't nag you about the forms :D

I finally had to buy a knee support for my left knee, which was hurting so much yesterday. It has hurt some but not that badly yet, yesterday I could barely do a workout. It's an Ace 'open patella' wrap. As soon as i put it on yesterday, I felt better..I will see if I can work out with it, soon. One of the things I've always tried to be thankful for, especially when I didn't want to work out, was 'well at least I CAN work out'. I've been thinking of that lately!

hope everyone has a good day .

OW!!!!! Summershine! That hurt :( Alright... alright, I'll go take it out after I'm done posting this.

Vermont - I'm not so sure racing is the right word... they all just kind of tumbled into one another and I couldn't really stop it. Ah, if you can stop yours its a better thing then taking more drugs anyway.

Hope - That sucks for your co-workers though I am really glad you're safe. They did that up here after assuring everyone in that devision that they weren't shutting them down. These big companies just don't care about the little people.

I hurt.... from head to toe hurt and I'm getting hives :( I have this issue where my immune system over reacts to some imaginary foe and sends out a huge response which basically amounts to a lot of extra fluid in my body. This in turn creates huge painful, itchy hives and pain because of all the fluid, especially in my joints. The only cure for this in the past has been steroids.... I'm not sure if any of you guys have ever been on steroids but they make you eat big time. I've always gained a huge amount of weight when on them. I've already decided that if it gets to that point I'm going to refuse them. No freaking way am I going through the side effects of that crap again. They're mental as well as physical. But the point of this huge rant is that all of this makes me feel like staying in bed all day with the covers over my head. So I decided the depression form was the right place to complain about it. Think good thoughts for me please, that this issue resolves itself.

Thanks for the welcome everyone!

Eh, last couple of days were HORRIBLE. I hurt my knee, then went off plan eating wise...double failure. I plan to get to the gym tomorrow, my knee is thankfully improving (i have had major injuries to them both, and now being so heavy it obviously is NOT helping). I hate being such an all or nothing type of person. At least I'm able to not let 2 bad days become 3. Sigh.

Aunty Jam- I have been, and that's also around the time insane depression set in for me too. I put on a lot of weight, but that was also due to my drinking. I have some autoimmune issues (they still haven't "figured" it out, grrr) and was on high doses of pred and some other things. Though the last round, i had to take i was losing weight, and managed to keep doing so, albeit at a slower pace. What i hate is the negative way it impacts my mood, and i have trouble sleeping when taking them. It's why i stopped seeing the rheum. doc b/c i refused to go back on a high dose again, i feel your pain. I hope things improve for you. I'm starting to consider trying to really overhaul my life to try to reduce anything that might cause flare ups, its really frustrating.

hopeagain- Yeah, I already managed to screw up, but i'm more determined then ever! Glad your job is safe, that's scary.

Hi Dissonance - They haven't figured out mine either... autoimmune they "think". Don't they know what it's like living with this thing that can come back at any time and majorally screw with your life or do they just not care? I HATE the side effects... the moods, the not sleeping, being hot, eating everything... etc. I'm really interested to know how you managed to lose weight while on them??? Right now I have hives on my feet and they hurt like hades... I'd love to go for a short run but I know I'll regret it if I do. I also have a problem where constant or repetitive pressure on a spot will induce a painful hive, I think my shoes will rub on the ones I already have and make it worse. Add to that I'm still getting over the flu, bleh.

Have you ever been tested for lupus? I was tested twice... they say I don't have it but gee.. I fit so many of the symptoms. Stupid people, I just wish they'd make up their minds. Do you get hives? Does your dr tell you to take antihistimines? I've also given up on my rheum, there's not much he can do for me. The last time I was on steroids I only went to the dr because I had hives actually in my throat... now that can be scary.

Hi ladies,

Aunty Jam, I didn't know you had an autoimmune problem. How are the hives? I hope they are going away. That stinks.

Dissonance- I hope today was better for you. How is your knee?

Vermont-In keeping with the theme, how is your knee? Personally, my ankle/foot is really bothering me. I still haven't managed to get to the dr about it. It's only been 6 months.

Summershine, I have been meaning to say the same thing to Aunty Jam. It was so negative and just bothered me. You are not a failure Aunty Jam!! :D

I had a long overdue day off today. It has been nice. We slept in and went to breakfast. After that we did some grocery shopping and are watching the play-offs. The main point is I didn't work today!

Hey everyone! I know I'm not really active in here..but I was really hoping for some advice.

Has anyone ever talked to a counselor before?? I'm going to talk to one on the 19th, and I'm extremely nervous!! Can someone please tell me what to expect???

I've been to a councillor a few times, and I thought it really really helped me :) Definitely nothing to be nervous about! When I went in I was asked to tell her what I felt my problem(s) were, and then give specific examples for them (so it might be good to think of a few beforehand, so you don't end up umming and ahhing and all flustered like I did :P) Then the councillor explained what CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) was, and used a feeling > thought > action type flow chart thingy to go through each of the examples I gave, filling it in for how I reacted, then how i should of reacted/a more favourable action. Then I was given 'homework'; some specific situation to note what I did/how i felt about it, go through the CBT processes and write it down for the next time i saw the councillor (okok, so this is a little vague, but i can't fully remember my first session, just the sum of all my councilling experiences :P)

That's what happened for me, but the experience would be different for everyone, due to their own needs and the councillors method. Hope this helps!

Aunty Jam - Have you looked at herbal remedies for hives? I know there's only so much they can do (considering they get so bad you need steroids), but if they can take the edge off just enough so you don't need the nasty meds, that'd be great. A quick google told me that drinking herbal teas help, which also give the added benefit of suppressing your appetite :D might be worth looking into.

Meanwhile, I'm hating my name right now >.< summer is not funtimes. It's way too hot to do anything! I'm visiting my dad right now, and he has a treadmill, but it's in the hot, stuffy, spidery garage :( and when I suggested bringing it inside where there's plenty of room for it, he got all huffy and whiny.

I swears, I can never win.

(or you know, I can wait until he's at work, drag the blasted thing inside, and tell him if he wants it gone he can move it himself! muahahaha! :D)

Heres my video please leave your comments........

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_1pWBUq3Sc

Hi Vak, and Shopaholic :) I have only talked to a counselor once..I didn't like him, but I liked being able to unload on someone neutral.

momof4, I will look at that tonight, don't have time right now and want to give it my full attention...Aunty Jam, I hope the hives are better, that sounds horrible! Summershine, anything you write is so humorous to me, lol (even though of course I take you seriously) Hopeforme, glad you had a day off, and my knee has good days and bad. And Hi to everyone else.

we didn't get the hospital grant, I am just :?: because they made it sound like it was almost a done deal!! it's only money but I am so worried about DH's weight and helath. I am steeling myself to be an early widow. I am feeling bleak about future. So that is not good for a depressive person. Sorry for the 'down' post today!!

Hey girls I just caught up on all the post. I have been sick for the last week..don't feel like going to the dr. hoping it goes away!! I will post more later!!!

Hello to our new friends :wave:

Yeah... autoimmune issues stink, the hives go away here and then come there... ggggrrrrrrr! Right now they're on my feet, one hand, an unmentionable area (yes... even there!) and the sides of my body. I made the mistake of posting "HIVES SUCK!" on my FB and my sister called me all worried. I made her promise not to tell our Mom, she'd worry herself into a hole and she's not healthy either. Whats really bothering me right now is the additional fluid in my body... it makes me hurt everywhere :(

Summershine - What exactly did you google? And I vote for moving it into the house and making him put it back if he wants (or move it back when you leave).

I'd like to point out Mom's signature to everyone!!! It needs to be changed!

Mom - Think of it like my husband suggested... a learning experience. I know.. still sucks but what can you do.

ahahahahaha AuntyJam you just don't want to be the only one who gets bopped :p but you are right, so:

*bops mom on the nose with a rolled up newspaper*

Quit living in the past woman! You're 10 pounds lighter than when you started, thats anything but a failure! The next time I see ya you're gonna have to have a more positive sig, otherwise Ima have to break out the pitchforks and villagers and such

AuntyJam, I googled "herbal remidies for hives" this link:

http://www.ayurvediccure.com/homeremedy/hives.htm

has a few more things for getting rid of hives, and not just the itch, but I've never had hives as bad as you have them (reading your post made me wince in discomfort :(), so I really can't be more specific than this

Vermontmom - thanks :D irl I'm a moody, petulant, socially awkward, boring person, so online I try to be as fun as possible :D

Hey everyone im new on here :D

I have seen a few councellors some were good some were bad. Im seeing one at the moment and she seems really nice and is the only one who is addressing why and when everythign started and why after 8 years i still find things very differecult to cope with im looking forward to having more sessions with her.

xxxx

I saw aunty Jam got in trouble...HAHAHA I will try and change it here soon!!! Yeah I gained most of the 10lbs back so yeah back to the starting block!!! LOL
Well I am trying to get stuff cleaned..Got the bathroom all scrubbed down and reorganized...now to the rest of the downstairs!!

Thanks Summershine, I'll check out your search. Unfortunately without knowing the cause of my hives, "cures" usually just mask the symptoms. But maybe it will help to be more bearable.

ems - I'm glad you found someone you like.

Mom - *holding rolled up newspaper threateningly* You'd better be a-changing that missy!

I have also seen a counselor. I thought it helped a lot. Unloading on someone neutral is nice ! Hope everyone has a great day!

OK OK I changed it...

I HAVE TO TELL YOU ALL SOMETHING!!! I only told 2 people I applied for the biggest loser...I am not a tell everyone everything person...BUT I was looking at the view cause they just keep going up. Well on youtube it will tell you the area they were viewed from and then how the video was found. Well there is a think called external views...meaning I posted it somewhere and someone clicked on it. Well I posted it here and to some facebook sites. THEN I only EMAILED it to the biggestloser casting as my entry..Well there was 3 views from here at fat chicks and then one from facebook and 2 from the email...SO THAT MEANS they viewed it not only ONCE BUT TWICE!!! That has to count for something...if there was no shot they wouldn't have watched it 2 times!!! LOL so ok I just had to share cause I was excited!!!

on a lower not I have a sick child who threw up then pooped himself while sleeping to which I about threw up when I put him in the tub to take off the over flowing pull up...yeah NASTY...glad I bought extra lysol earlier this week!!
I had one of those awful days where I just wanted to crawl under the covers and hid...its such a horrible cycle my house work stresses me and depresses me, I am so over weight I have little to no energy and cant seem to get to all of it plus the kids, then my friend of 15 years cut me off for not much of a reason and i finally got her to talk today and bout had me in tears, then all this causes me to just be on edge and snappy with my kids...its hard to do anything and takes sooo much effort being so over weight so when they make messes because they were goofing off it makes me mad...I have NO flipping consitancy in my home area...I have some basic structure but thats about it...I NEED A TOTALLLLLL MAKEOVER. I know the biggest loser wouldnt fix my problems but it would sure help me with the weight and they have group therapy and stuff while your on the ranch and that would help and I could have more energy and start fresh...SOOO to answer...yes I am having an I really hate myself day!!

SORRY I am adhd and I know the above is very run together and a mess...like me...a hot mess...so thanks for listening girls...your pretty much all I got to listen and understand. My friend that cut me off knew me inside and out and understood everything when i told her....my other good friend is way busy with work and her family never much time to talk to her and of course my husband listens but doesn't get it sometimes!! SO THANK YOU!!

I wish I could see the counselor now. I'm having a panic attack right now. This is the 3rd straight night that this has happened. Prozac isn't helping with this. I do feel better depression-wise, but panic-wise, I'm feeling really crappy. I wish my regular doctor would put me back on clonazepam. I'm so tired of having nightly attacks.

Momof4- That is really exciting!!! I hope you get picked!!

Momo i hope you get on the biggest loser that would be fab for you. Hope your child is feeling better now. Keep your spirits up things will get better and were all here for you xxx

Franice i would go back to your doctor and tell then that prozac on its own aint working and you want something else xxx

momof4, I sure hope also that your child is better :( what a mess moms have to deal with...and that you get picked!

ems81 hi, are those progression pics of you in your avatar? is so, wow!

Hi :hug: to everyone else. We got about a foot of snow yesterday, not as much as others in NE but still a lot. I am still feeling pretty blah about the future. I'm trying to just put one foot in front of the other.

I have to write a letter to appeal the hospital grant being declined, I am not a begging person but I have to try.

I'm trying to get rid of some clutter (always, always, always) It's hard when you work for a couple of hours, and you have two huge garbage bags, but it doesn't LOOK like you did anything.

my positive thoughts for today - my knee isn't hurting right now...and I'm able to shovel snow, and to try to get rid of clutter, on my days off.

Hi Holly yes they are progression pics when i first done ww im inbetween the middle one and the last one now im hoping to get to the weight in the last one by july so i got about 28lbs to loose xxx

So according to what I heard on the news, the third Monday in January is supposed to be the most depressing day. According to the person who discovered/decided this it's because the holiday buzz is worn off and the bills are coming in, it's cold and dark... etc.

The third Friday in June is supposed to be the happiest day of the year.

hey everyone i lost 3.5lbs tonight. Hope your all well xxxx

Hi peeps,

It has been a loong week. I had four 14hr days in a row. I was off tonight and I'm off tomorrow. Thank goodness. I'm just done.

Momof4, I still haven't watched your video but it's on my list for this weekend. I've just been too busy or tired.

I finally went to the dr. about my ankle/foot that has been hurting since summer. I think I pulled something back when I was actually working out regulary and the pain came and went. Now it has morphed into something else. My whole foot hurts and is causing my leg to cramp. I got an anti-inflamatory shot in it and some medication. I go back in two weeks to see if it helped.

I'll try to catch up more this weekend.

Ems: Congrats on the 3.5 lbs!! Way to go!!

>.<

When i was at dads i was feeling great and had planned out all the stuff i was gonna do when i got back home, but now im here i just want to curl up and hide. I just realised it's because at dads I can be left alone for hours at a time and not really have to have a conversation unless I want to, but here I dont get a moment to myself! It's always a shouted conversation from the other side of the house or some "you're just getting bigger and bigger" or "why havent you got a job yet???" or asking some question i've already answered, or making me do something simple that she could do by herself.

"Go away and leave me alone" isn't some secret teenage code for "im lonely - suffocate me with attention", it means 'go away and leave me alone!' >.<

Now Im scared to weigh myself because even though I was being good with moderation and not eating wheat based carby foods, since ive been back (and it hasnt even been a day!) Ive already binged on bacon and mince tarts :(