aunt jam- no ignoring here....I am assuming your still mad cause the issue was resolved. Maybe you should bring the subjects up when your not so angry and tell him how you felt cause if all of this keeps gettin swept under the carpet its going to explode in a not so pretty fight and hes gonna look at you like Your still mad about all of that? LOL I think some/most guys cool down and forget about it and let it go!

I dont know when the last day was that I fasted a whole day...When I was really sick I think I didnt eat for a day or had something very small...Well I always do well until like 4....I tend to not eat breakfast when I am busy with the kids. I made juice and some of it is really really good...but i am hungry and fighting myself about eating. I HAVE TO GET CONTROL OVER MY BODY... Thank goodness we have church tonight that will help the night go. I know I didnt drink enough water...only had a few sips this morning so I am FORCING myself to keep drinking...its hard to make yourself drink the right amount of water....Making it thru one day will be a victory for me. I always give myself the excuse well I haven't fasted in a long time I need to just take it easy and only do half days....NO NO NO...Tired of excuses. I CAN DO THIS I CAN DO THIS I CAN DO THIS...im telling myself that and hope it works...its not like I wont ever get to taste food again...LOL..youd think i was dying..hahaha

My interview was put off again till tomorrow. The lady I was to speak with had to pick her dad up from the hospital. I'm taking 2 days of continuing education credits for my Life and Health Insurance license tomorrow and friday. So after I'm done tomorrow I will call her and do it around 6. I'll let you all know what happens.

Aunty, I completely understand why you are still upset. Nothing was really resolved. Momof4 was right, men are just weird and totally let things roll of their back before anything is really over. It's not just your hubby. I say have a talk when you are calmer about it and bring up the trees too. There's nothing that can be done about it but you may feel some closure. The tree incident is probably bothering you b/c you are carrying the weight of the household on your shoulders and you at least expect others not to destroy property (trees or carpet).

Momof4, how did the fasting go. That's something I could never do.

Heather, I'm envious, I need a good 5 day stretch of healthy eating really, really badly. I need it mentally more than physically. I wish my interview had already happened but I'm glad it should be over tomorrow. I just want something good to happen on the job front. We need it so much. Are you still teaching? Shouldn't you be going back to work soon if you are?

OK, I need to delcare that I will work out everyday for the next 4 days through the weekend. If I can do that it should really help my stress level and maybe get me back on track with my food. I'll report in everyday here what I did. If anyone wants to feel free to take a 4 day challenge with me!

Hope - I never considered that... but I think you're right. It's actually my families home, I grew up there, heck, I sleep in the room I was conceived in! It's been worked out that the house will pass on to me when the time comes. My sisters will get whatever money is left and I get the house (I'll have to pay into the estate fund to equal things out). I guess I feel like he's destroying my family home... my Dad built/finished so much in that house. Jay came in and wants to change everything... I'm having a hard time letting go, I don't want to change My parents have had a rotton streak of luck... my Mom has MS but she was always going to be ok because Dad would take care of her. Dad was always very strong and able... however Dad has now developed a disabiling brain desease that has stolen all of that away. He's now in an extended care home, seperate from my Mom, and has the body of a man 30 years older. What really sucks is that he is still very cognitive... his brain works but his body doesn't. Mom lives in an assisted living place... she has her own apartment but doesn't have to cook or clean. It almost killed them to leave that house, that's part of the reason they want me to have it... they lived there for 35 or so years. Well this sucks, now I'm bummed... I'm not mad anymore, I'm just bummed now.

(and I knew you guys wouldn't ignore me.. I guess that's another reason I posted here...)

SOO...i ended up staying at my parents and extra night. I stayed there wed night cause they needed me to watch kids really early thur. morning so it was easier to stay overnight..well the extra day made me totally aggrivated with my father...hes the type that is right no matter what..and today he was home all day and I realized even more than him being right I think he likes to make people be wrong...even down to me saying the supper my mom made was good...him-no the bacon wasnt cooked right....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SO aggrivating!!

Juice fast-I made it the WHOLE day!!! I at at night but I made it until 9pm!! Well I felt GREAT wed. night...hungry YES but mood was great energy was great everything. WELL thursday energy was good mood was good. Since I was at my parents I couldnt do the fast those two days. Well by today I felt like I was dragging COMPLETELY so I really am believing our bodys mood and energy react to what we eat and drink. So I am going to do the juice fast again. Hoping I can maybe do two days! I am probably NOT going to check my weight cause my purpose is doing this is for health more than weight. ITS amazing though how I felt wed night. If any of you can try it you should!! Even if you juice and eat veggies...One lady lost weight by juice fast one day, then fruits the next day then veggies the third day and then back to juice!
Ok well got stuff I need to do!!

HELLO! I'm sorry I've not visited in so long. The summer days are just flippin flying by. I sure wish winter went this quickly.

momof4, congrats on doing the fast and realizing that it makes you feel good. And it was terrible to learn of your sister's abuse I don't know what you can do, can the police do anything??

auntyjam - I freaked when I read of cutting the carpet...and cutting out the middle of the tree? of course that bothers you because you have to see that every day!! and I'm sorry but I agree that was just ....crazy (we Depression Forum chicks are allowed to throw that word around ) I agree, that it has to be addressed. Because if you don't, you will be angry about it for a long time. I have no idea of you guys' ages..is he young? maybe he's just being a typical young 'doesn't get it' guy. I don't have anything useful to say I guess but I am so sorry you are so down (with good reason)

hello hope and buddly and heather

I don't have anything to gripe about, which is scary. You will hear from me plenty starting in NOvember

hugs to you all

Hi Guys! I am sorry this has been sort of hit and run posting... My life has been extremely hectic lately! DH's MRI was clean! So yay! My mammogram was clean, also yay! And I finished my first semester for my Psychology degree! I just took my semester exam and passed yesterday! We are in the process of getting ready for a move back to the mainland and my parents are thrilled that we are going to be coming for a visit very soon. My Mom is grouchy and healing from a broken head radial bone...she broke it in like 10 places when she fell down her steps! Ugh! My Dad's medicine still hasn't arrived (he has a reoccurrence of his GIST) and she is stressing out...which makes me stress out... My eating has been horrible...I am back on sugar and getting more migraines, gaining weight, and my knees are still hurting so I can't do any workouts which makes me extremely crazy!

Hope...I am sorry you are having trouble, I am wishing you all the best for your interview...

Mom...I am so sorry about your sister! I hope she wises up before something even more serious comes up..

Everyone...I am sending out positive vibes to you all in these challenging times that everyone seems to find themselves these days...I will be checking in when I can but we are packing and getting ready to leave this rock very soon and there is still so much to do!

you know I was thinking...I havent checked the scale for a while..I checked it when I came back from camping once then I think tuesday when I did all the cleaning. Last I checked it was at 235 which i seem to go back and forth with...well I decided I am not going to concentrate on numbers I want to be healthy not totally concerned with numbers. DONT GET ME WRONG...losing numbers is awesome...but I am trying to worry bout what I eat, worry bout numbers, worry bout excercise....When I really need to start at the beginning..the change starts with the food, then the excercise and those will give you low numbers! But if you do the excercise with out the food then it wont matter because you can still be unhealthy by putting bad (poison as jillian says) into your body! Hope that all made sense kinda tired. Had to pack girls stuff for grandmas house. Then pack ALL this stuff for the boys camp. Then I just realized my husband has off work Monday which is like NEVER...lol. So we will get a whole 24 hours home alone. Laundry is finishing washing now, dishes are done, house is still looking good even the rooms upstairs...so we wont have to spend our time cleaning!! YA...Don't have money so we cant go shopping but we can play games!!! LOL


One thought...I was aggrivated COMPLETELY with the boys tonight cause of stuff they did or didnt do...then I came downstairs and it hit me the two mothers in LA that lost their kids to drowning in the river are buring their children tomorrow...so no how much they aggrivate me I am soo thankful for my children!! So when your DH, Children, Mother, Father etc.. irritate you step back and remember to be thankful you still have them!


ok well catch you all lata!! Have a great weekend!

Hey Everyone!
Mostly to you Aunty Jam! I just went back through and really read your post. I am soooo sorry. It is so very hard when you get older and realize that your parents are not the same people that you grew up with and who helped you and took care of you and now the tables have turned and you feel responsible for them... I am struggling with that myself. My Dad & Mom came to visit and it brought into stark relief that he is not the same man...it hurts and it's scary and it is such a huge adjustment to make. I don't think I would have been able to handle it as well as I have if I hadn't been through my DH being diagnosed with a brain tumor and all the growing up I had to do really fast. All I can tell you is some of the things I have been exploring. I have never been involved with organized religion...in fact, I didn't really have much of a belief in anything for a long time. Things started to change after I lost someone very close to me...and then even more when I began yoga and meditation...and then again after DH's diagnosis...I am finding great comfort exploring Buddhism. I hope that this is okay to talk about, I know that a lot of you all are heavily involved in the church (Mom...I especially hope that you will not be offended) The thing that attracted me to exploring it was the science...and the fact that it was about love, compassion, and not judging other people's faith. They believe all paths are valid... The only reason I even mention this is the pain that I hear in your words when you talk about the changes to your family home. No one can take your home from you or your memories or the reality of your past there. It is in your heart and made you who you are today. Change is the only constant in the world and some is more difficult than other to deal with. If you can release what you need to you will still have pain but you will suffer less... I hope that there is at least something you can use in all of this... My heart goes out to you.

Raven

raven- congrats on all the clean scans!!

Well we dropped the boys off at camp and my dh had a hard time leaving them...they were excited and wanted to stay...LOL

Im bout ready to get a job cause money is so tight and when you have kids that is really hard...trying to think it will be ok....but you know how people worrry.

well we have no kids and guess what my dh is doing? Sleeping...we fell asleep since we got home and its 8:30 n hes still sleeping! *sigh*

I am SOOO struggling! Did I mention I am struggling? Last time I was in here I said I would workout the next four days. I didn't workout at all. What the heck am I doing? My eating has been terrible also. I can't go back to where I was. I was so miserable before. Help me... I'm already getting lazier and feeling like I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I hate this.

hope- I hear you...right there with you...ive been forced to work out by having to walk at camp or swim with the kids but as to working out with just the purpose of losing weight its at a big fat 0...lol The juice fast made me feel great but yet I cant get myself to do it another day!! AHHHH lol

Hey everyone... thanks for all the supportive comments.

I'm 34 and hubby is 35 (we both have bdays in june), I'm not sure what was going through his head when he cut the tree but I wanted to smack him. He says he'll buy a small cedar tree in a pot and put it down beside the original to make it look full again "until it grows back...". Um problem! 1. It will NEVER grow back. 2. A cedar tree won't last long in a pot and planting it would just damage the roots of the original. So now I have to decide what to do with these trees that have been there as long as I can remember. Hah, maybe I'll just trim the other branches properly and apoxy the tips to the other tree to disguise it... ok, seriously, what to do???

He realized how much the carpet thing pissed me off and tried to buy a piece of carpet from kijiji but it didn't happen. We could have done about half the basement in that carpet and then redo the whole thing later. I'm not sure why it didn't work out other then the guy didn't accept his offer (little lower then the asking). Both of these things tick me off and make me sad every time I see then and I don't know what to do about it or how to get over it (or even if I should). I know something has to be done to "fix" them though. Hubby is great at putting off things that he doesn't really care about, usually he puts them off forever. And if I remind him... well of course I'm nagging! Gggrrr...

ANYWAY!

Mom - how is your sister?

Raven - I'm so sorry to hear about your DH. It was quite a shock to me when my Dad got sick. Sometimes I still get very angry about the unfairness of it. I'm not very religious either but I try to remind myself that everything happens for a reason and I look to see if I can discover what it is. Unfortunately I haven't been able to find any reason for my Mom & Dad to suffer like this.

Vermont - Good to hear from you... I was wondering where you were.

Hi to everyone else... I'm sorry, I'm at work and break time is over agian

aunt jam- I hear you about putting things off...myhusband has put off hanging pictures for a year and a half. He says I cant do it because I dont know where the studs are and where to hang them...Well hes gonna come home and they are going to be on the wall...LOL My sister is ok...really not talking much?

Good Morning Everyone!
Hope! I know! I have been nibbling lots of chocolate! And I have been steadily gaining weight since I had to stop working out with my knee problems. I did get the results on the xrays yesterday and everything is fine for that at least. I kind of already knew that, I believed them when they said that it is bursitis, I am just impatient for it to be better so I can get back to my regular routine. The longer you are out of it the harder it is to get going.
I found homes for our plants yesterday and took them over, it is sad to have them gone. But the movers are coming on Monday and things are rolling towards us very quickly... I know everyone is struggling right now...I feel blessed for all that we do have and I send positive energy to you all...