It's June already!!! Geez, where did the time go?

I posted in the May thread, don't have much else to say.

I don't know if it's ok for me to start another thread since it's June already.

If not, let me know!!!

I think I'm gonna do a weigh in every Monday. Hoping that will keep me motivated for the week. I used to weigh everyday and that did really well for me but I think I'm getting a daily disappointment when I do that now. When I start losing then I will start checking everyday. What do you prefer, daily or weekly weigh ins?

I do weekly just because I dont want to be let down everyday

tl-Great job on losing 5. i would be doing the happy dance too if it were me. I see we are at about the same weight and have almost the same weight goal. Good luck in your journey.

Wow it is June isn't it. Time sure does fly.

Just popping in to say hello to everyone. Nothing new here which is good, weight is steady but eating habits are getting so much better

How are you all doing?

Leenie

I need to work on my eating habits...really do!! Haven't been doing good all week. Why is it that the more I think about it, the more I eat what I'm not supposed to?! I know I shouldn't be eating unhealthy but the more i think about what I'm not supposed to eat, I will eat it and in large amounts. I don't really snack on anything, i just eat alot and can't stand it. One problem that I have is I love the taste. If it's good I will keep eating it even if I'm full, I guess maybe afraid that it'll run out and I wont have any ever again. I have a hard time changing those types of thoughts. Any suggestions anyone?

tk, no suggestions here. I just want to graze all day long. I came home and took a nap after work and have been snacking ever since. I needed to cook dinner but I can't stop eating long enough to do it! I'm really struggling tonight.

Update: I made it. DF came home and it distracted me from eating. I actually heated up some leftovers for him and just had a cup of coffee, intending to eat some veggie soup later. I realized with the break from eating that I'm full from the popcorn and the baked chips and salsa. Now it's time for my shower and bed. Thank the lord the day is over.

tk, I have those thoughts too. I know there will be more food but I will eat past being full. In fact, before January I ate until the extreme pain in my stomach from overeating made me stop. I did that at every meal or everytime I ate. I would then be mad that I was too stuffed to eat more. I hated myself every second of it but I couldn't stop.

Calories: 1225 Exercise: Rest Day

HI all:

tk & hopey - yeah, Im right there with y'all. I'll eat and keep eating after I'm full, after I'm uncomfortable...I'll just going. I mostly just don't keep food in the house anymore, but that hasn't really been a solutions since there's a grocery store and a quik-mart within a block. I just go get something when I am really hungry and buy too much.

way to go hopey on making it through your evening! Evenings are the toughest for me.

the last couple days actually have been a different kind of struggle - I forgot to eat yesterday and today i had SUCH a headache. Ooh boy.

I spent the day today in my garden. Yay!!! my potatos are growing I've never grown them before, but some freinds had extra so I threw them in a ditch and what'ya know? They grew. Another friend gave me some extra tomatoes. Between them and the 5 I planted earlier, I'll be bathing in tomatoes come August.

Well, I'm off to bed. See yall later!
Amarie

Hi everyone!
Monday already, the weekends are too short.

tkglenn I usually weigh in once a week. But I go through spurts. And as for the eating, no suggestions here either. I really have to figure out the exercise thing. I'm suppose to be lowering my cholesterol and I know exercise will help, but I'm just not getting it.

Hope I'm glad you made it. I don't like those types of days. Yes, I'm still going through the counseling and groups. Right now I have three weeks left of a "Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction Program" I'm learning different meditations, yoga, perceptions etc. Its been really helpful and calming.

amarie good for you for all that gardening. My spuds are still in a box with very long stems!! They need to get in the ground. I would have done it today, but it rained all night and my garden will be straight gumbo mud!! Hubby tilled it this weekend and I'm sure he gained 5lbs per boot!

Hi to everyone else!!!

I managed to get some clearing out done this weekend. It feels so good to finally see some improvement. I have a long way to go, but I'll take the dent. And I did get my living room carpet cleaned and boy did it need it.
I didn't think I was doing to bad with my eating, but I have to get moving to see some improvement there. This is like trying to keep goop in your hand, some is always slipping out somewhere can't ever get it all in and contained.

Well onward and upward!!

Take care and have a good day,
K

Hope and amarie-YESSSS!!! That's how it is for me, I will eat till I am so uncomfortable and still eat and when I finally do stop eating, I am so mad at myself it's not even funny. I guess it's a good thing that I don't like throwing up cause I probably do that just to make room to eat more or to make the discomfort go away.

Hope-I have seen that you lost 31 lbs though...great job!!!

buddly-my DH has high cholesteroal..so that's what the dr said. I don't know how much of it is true cause before he took the blood test, he ate not knowing he was supposed to fast. The year before when they checked it he was 15 lbs heavier, wasn't working out, and always eating fast food due to the job he had and he didn't have high cholesterol.

So DH starts working night shifts today and he stared school today as well. I think it will be a good thing for him and for me. We get to see each other during the day when things are good between us and I will go to sleep before he comes home and wont see the alcohol if he gets any on his way home. I wont have to deal with it which will help with my depression a great deal. It's gonna be good for him because the reason he drinks is because he has PTSD and one of the symptoms of PTSD is anxiety attacks (which he gets on a daily basis). He would get it every morning knowing he has to go to work and feel like everyone is watching his every move but now it wont be like that. It's just gonna be him and his men that he has to worry about, no other supervisors, no other bossmen, noone. Which will lower his anxiety. So far, I'm liking it. And the last time I was on here, he was working nights too and me and him would go workout at the gym together and it was sooo good to have that uplifting and influence from him. Hoping we can get back into that routine again.

From some advice that I got, I am thinking of starting a journal. And I can't write anything negative in there, only positive thoughts. Hhhhmmm...ask me when I'll start it...probably never...lol. Just kidding, I don't know. We'll see.

Hello everyone! and thank you tkglenn for starting the June chat thread

tkglenn, I hope the schedule is good for you two also. That is terrible that he has PTSD, but I hope it is better for him at his job. I don't weigh everyday, unless I think I did superior the day before there are so many fluctuations that I think I would go crazy if I weighed every day consistantly. So it's more like once a week. I also have a hard time stopping eating! because I eat quickly, I don't get that 'full' feeling when I should. And I love the full feeling in my tummy! I know eating lightly is better, but there is something in me that craves that full feeling.

hi buddly! I think you asked about my bike windshield? YES it came, it is on ,and I am enjoying riding again I'm glad you got a dent out of the clearing-out job! Even a dent helps good comparision on holding the goop in one's hand, lol!

Hi hope! I'm glad you got through your hard day Let's hope tomorrow is better in that way!

Hi amarie, omgosh I don't think I've ever been too busy that I forgot to eat And I am imagining you bathing in tomatoes in August, haha! I've never done veggies, just annuals. How is your doggie, the older one?

Hi Leenie!

I had a pretty productive day today, I had off from work and the first goal was to get the lawn mowed, which I did, and that just makes everything look so much better. Then did some trimming of stuff, then picked up a bunch of crap that was left out by ahem, anyone other than me, and was making our place look just so ghetto I put some stuff up at the top of the driveway with a FREE sign and it is almost all gone! I've done that for a couple weeks in a row, I just LOVE having someone else take my junk! lol. Did my workout video, and this evening the 3.2 mile walk in 60 minutes.

Morning all

Ms Buddly - lol at the image of your DH's boots! The soil in my plot is so gorgeous that after I first tilled it I could sink all the way down to the tops of my muckboots. The good news is I am thoroughy convinced tatos are at least part weed - they'll grow no matter what you do to them

TKGlenn - Thats great news about your dh's schedule. I think its wonderful that he can work on a schedule thats better for his PTSD - it makes total sense the way you described his anxiety working mornings.

VTmom - it is very sweet of you to remember my old girl and ask. Cleo isn't with me any more. She had a couple fabulous last months, but her body just gave out on her. She was such a trooper!

Yesterday was not so great for me foodwise. I decided to take myself out for pancakes for breakfast (why?!?) and spent the rest of the day lethargic and hungry. Then when I went back into the office in the evening I got a slurpee - I think I am adicted to those things. Plus, I was in full procrastination-denial mode ala 'nah, I don't need to start working on that yet...I can do it later today.' So, now I have TONS to do today, and a schedule full of meetings to boot. Oh well! Have a great day everyone!

Hey... I need to say a big Thank you to everyone who congratulated me on my run. It was pretty awesome but unfortunately my "high" didn't last long.. 'tis the nature of the beast I guess, but it leaves me searching for another one.

I also spent a large part of my weekend in the garden and I have badly burnt shoulders to show for it. Ouch! I even have a hard time sleeping at night because I like to sleep on my side and every time I roll over the pain wakes me up. Serves me right I guess but it's making me exhausted!

Amarie - VMom is sweet isn't she, a real animal lover... she always asks after my old puppy too.

VMom - I see you've met your goal Congratulations! (I'm sorry if it was there before and I didn't notice). My weight sucks! 2 down, 2 up.. argh!

you are very observant, I just changed that this morning!! but that should have been marked 'first goal'. Because I probably should resolve to a next goal of 145.

and I should have also asked how your furry compadre is!!

So here I am...changed things up. I am to the point I was a year and half ago I am ready to do the work. I can always feel it building up to it. This time my husband is NOT allowed to bake a bunch of junk and sabatoge my efforts this time!! I hit 241 last month which I have never hit. All my shirts from last summer are belly shirts on me cause I am so fat. I cant breath just going up a flight of steps. I cant keep up with kids and house work cause of my wieght. I will be 30 in July and I don't want to start in the 30's being unhealty.

I have been off my wellbutrin for 4 weeks. This has been the worst week but Tom should be coming and this is the MEAN tom...lol So I am not a nice person to be around. But without my wellbutrin I actually have happy moments when I can smile. I used to be the one that ALWAYS smiled....for real. A friend from college posted a picture of me and under it she wrote Jessica smiling again like always sunshine....I want that back.

I have left life take it away and make me miserable (sure there are good moments but thats all they are is moments) Also consistancy is lacking in my life so my goal is to be consistant in everything. So far I have managed to keep the checkbook balanced for a week! Thats a big step. I cant be consistant with money, eating, excercise, keeping the house clean, disciplining the kids, my Bible reading....nothing...SO I dont want another 5 years to pass and I still not have control!!

Down to stuff going on. DH went back to work monday after 3 months...I feel like I got my house back. I miss him being here but it didnt help with my schedule and being consistant! At times I do the tell the kids 4 or 5 times to stop doing something then I punish when Im mad....It shouldnt be like that. Now I have good days but it was harder when he was home cause hes softer and made me second guess myself. Mean while my 4 yr old foster boy started peeing his pants for spite when hes in trouble. It started in school and now hes did it here a few times. Then he peed all over my upstairs bathroom. There was a block behind the toilet filled with pee...pee under my trash can, pee in the trash can. So I decided since he wants to do that he can clean the bathroom and thats what he did tonight. My 7 yr old is having a problem peeing the bed about once a week..not sure if its sugar or what. Hes pretty unhappy bout it when he gets up and has to take a shower he cant stand to be peed. DH said hes just being lazy but everytimes hes done it hes drank high sugar drinks. I tried waking him up in the middle of the night the other night and I shook him yelled his name, pulled his leg, smacked his leg, I finally pulled him to a sitting position and then he kinda woke up. I think its a combination of what hes drinking and hes a heavy sleeper. BUT anyways I said anyone who pees their pants or bed will scrub the clothing by hand in the tub before they go in with the rest of the clothes cause I am tired of my laundry stinkin like pee and having to be rewashed. Plus my 2 year old is potty trained but some days she has a few accidents when she sleeps or goes out to play....SO YEP YOU GOT IT ONE BIG PEE HOUSE....'Peeing your pants is cool...everyones doing it..LOL"

Tonight I will probably pull an all nighter. Over the last week I have done some major reorganizing. My new moto is get rid of everything but the furniture and then theres nothing to clean up!!! LOL...I am tired of being stressed over the junk....we CLEAN up every day yet it still looks messy...so that only means ONE thing....its CLUTTER!!

Ok well I know you all missed my LONG posts....so this should more than make up for it!!

Tk-I see we are at the same weight...maybe we should work something out together....we could always text or something cause I dont always get on here cause I end up on here for hour or two and not got stuff done

Vermont- I like the picture!!

amarie-I just miss you!!!

Hope-You totally inspire me because i feel the same as you do in some of your posts yet you push past them and are losing the weight...no matter how fast or slow you still keep going!!

Aunty Jam-If your talking bout the runner high after running...Ive got that once last spring when I was trying to do the couch to 5k and it was awesome but that was as far as i got!! lol

tl-I try not to do daily because when Ive done a lot that day it never shows for a few days...LOL The scale is in my bathroom though and its hard not to get on it!

Buddly-I hear you on the clearing out its hard to keep going when it first looks worse than when you started. When I do cleaning I tend to push everything to a room and get all the others done quick so I feel accomplished and then have one big stressful mess...LOL..Wish my brain didn't work that way...HAHAHA!

ok Hi to anyone I missed its been a while, catch up with everyone lata!!