Chat for June 2010
 

It's June already!!! Geez, where did the time go?

I posted in the May thread, don't have much else to say.

I don't know if it's ok for me to start another thread since it's June already.

If not, let me know!!!

I think I'm gonna do a weigh in every Monday. Hoping that will keep me motivated for the week. I used to weigh everyday and that did really well for me but I think I'm getting a daily disappointment when I do that now. When I start losing then I will start checking everyday. What do you prefer, daily or weekly weigh ins?

I do weekly just because I dont want to be let down everyday:)

tl-Great job on losing 5. i would be doing the happy dance too if it were me. I see we are at about the same weight and have almost the same weight goal. Good luck in your journey.

Wow it is June isn't it. Time sure does fly.

Just popping in to say hello to everyone. Nothing new here which is good, weight is steady but eating habits are getting so much better :D

How are you all doing?

Leenie

I need to work on my eating habits...really do!! Haven't been doing good all week. Why is it that the more I think about it, the more I eat what I'm not supposed to?! I know I shouldn't be eating unhealthy but the more i think about what I'm not supposed to eat, I will eat it and in large amounts. I don't really snack on anything, i just eat alot and can't stand it. One problem that I have is I love the taste. If it's good I will keep eating it even if I'm full, I guess maybe afraid that it'll run out and I wont have any ever again. I have a hard time changing those types of thoughts. Any suggestions anyone?

tk, no suggestions here. I just want to graze all day long. I came home and took a nap after work and have been snacking ever since. I needed to cook dinner but I can't stop eating long enough to do it! :( I'm really struggling tonight.

Update: I made it. DF came home and it distracted me from eating. I actually heated up some leftovers for him and just had a cup of coffee, intending to eat some veggie soup later. I realized with the break from eating that I'm full from the popcorn and the baked chips and salsa. Now it's time for my shower and bed. Thank the lord the day is over.

tk, I have those thoughts too. I know there will be more food but I will eat past being full. In fact, before January I ate until the extreme pain in my stomach from overeating made me stop. I did that at every meal or everytime I ate. I would then be mad that I was too stuffed to eat more. I hated myself every second of it but I couldn't stop.

Calories: 1225 Exercise: Rest Day

HI all:

tk & hopey - yeah, Im right there with y'all. I'll eat and keep eating after I'm full, after I'm uncomfortable...I'll just going. I mostly just don't keep food in the house anymore, but that hasn't really been a solutions since there's a grocery store and a quik-mart within a block. I just go get something when I am really hungry and buy too much.

way to go hopey on making it through your evening! Evenings are the toughest for me.

the last couple days actually have been a different kind of struggle - I forgot to eat yesterday :o and today i had SUCH a headache. Ooh boy.

I spent the day today in my garden. Yay!!! my potatos are growing :) I've never grown them before, but some freinds had extra so I threw them in a ditch and what'ya know? They grew. Another friend gave me some extra tomatoes. Between them and the 5 I planted earlier, I'll be bathing in tomatoes come August.

Well, I'm off to bed. See yall later!
Amarie

Hi everyone!
Monday already, the weekends are too short.

tkglenn I usually weigh in once a week. But I go through spurts. And as for the eating, no suggestions here either. I really have to figure out the exercise thing. I'm suppose to be lowering my cholesterol and I know exercise will help, but I'm just not getting it.

Hope I'm glad you made it. I don't like those types of days. Yes, I'm still going through the counseling and groups. Right now I have three weeks left of a "Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction Program" I'm learning different meditations, yoga, perceptions etc. Its been really helpful and calming.

amarie good for you for all that gardening. My spuds are still in a box with very long stems!! They need to get in the ground. I would have done it today, but it rained all night and my garden will be straight gumbo mud!! Hubby tilled it this weekend and I'm sure he gained 5lbs per boot!

Hi to everyone else!!!

I managed to get some clearing out done this weekend. It feels so good to finally see some improvement. I have a long way to go, but I'll take the dent. And I did get my living room carpet cleaned and boy did it need it.
I didn't think I was doing to bad with my eating, but I have to get moving to see some improvement there. This is like trying to keep goop in your hand, some is always slipping out somewhere can't ever get it all in and contained.

Well onward and upward!!

Take care and have a good day,
K

Hope and amarie-YESSSS!!! That's how it is for me, I will eat till I am so uncomfortable and still eat and when I finally do stop eating, I am so mad at myself it's not even funny. I guess it's a good thing that I don't like throwing up cause I probably do that just to make room to eat more or to make the discomfort go away.

Hope-I have seen that you lost 31 lbs though...great job!!!

buddly-my DH has high cholesteroal..so that's what the dr said. I don't know how much of it is true cause before he took the blood test, he ate not knowing he was supposed to fast. The year before when they checked it he was 15 lbs heavier, wasn't working out, and always eating fast food due to the job he had and he didn't have high cholesterol.

So DH starts working night shifts today and he stared school today as well. I think it will be a good thing for him and for me. We get to see each other during the day when things are good between us and I will go to sleep before he comes home and wont see the alcohol if he gets any on his way home. I wont have to deal with it which will help with my depression a great deal. It's gonna be good for him because the reason he drinks is because he has PTSD and one of the symptoms of PTSD is anxiety attacks (which he gets on a daily basis). He would get it every morning knowing he has to go to work and feel like everyone is watching his every move but now it wont be like that. It's just gonna be him and his men that he has to worry about, no other supervisors, no other bossmen, noone. Which will lower his anxiety. So far, I'm liking it. And the last time I was on here, he was working nights too and me and him would go workout at the gym together and it was sooo good to have that uplifting and influence from him. Hoping we can get back into that routine again.

From some advice that I got, I am thinking of starting a journal. And I can't write anything negative in there, only positive thoughts. Hhhhmmm...ask me when I'll start it...probably never...lol. Just kidding, I don't know. We'll see.

Hello everyone! and thank you tkglenn for starting the June chat thread :)

tkglenn, I hope the schedule is good for you two also. That is terrible that he has PTSD, but I hope it is better for him at his job. I don't weigh everyday, unless I think I did superior the day before :devil: there are so many fluctuations that I think I would go crazy if I weighed every day consistantly. So it's more like once a week. I also have a hard time stopping eating! because I eat quickly, I don't get that 'full' feeling when I should. And I love the full feeling in my tummy! I know eating lightly is better, but there is something in me that craves that full feeling.

hi buddly! I think you asked about my bike windshield? YES it came, it is on ,and I am enjoying riding again :cool: I'm glad you got a dent out of the clearing-out job! Even a dent helps :devil: good comparision on holding the goop in one's hand, lol!

Hi hope! I'm glad you got through your hard day :hug: Let's hope tomorrow is better in that way!

Hi amarie, omgosh I don't think I've ever been too busy that I forgot to eat :D And I am imagining you bathing in tomatoes in August, haha! I've never done veggies, just annuals. How is your doggie, the older one?

Hi Leenie!

I had a pretty productive day today, I had off from work and the first goal was to get the lawn mowed, which I did, and that just makes everything look so much better. Then did some trimming of stuff, then picked up a bunch of crap that was left out by ahem, anyone other than me, and was making our place look just so ghetto :devil: I put some stuff up at the top of the driveway with a FREE sign and it is almost all gone! I've done that for a couple weeks in a row, I just LOVE having someone else take my junk! lol. Did my workout video, and this evening the 3.2 mile walk in 60 minutes.

Morning all :)

Ms Buddly - lol at the image of your DH's boots! The soil in my plot is so gorgeous that after I first tilled it I could sink all the way down to the tops of my muckboots. The good news is I am thoroughy convinced tatos are at least part weed - they'll grow no matter what you do to them :)

TKGlenn - Thats great news about your dh's schedule. I think its wonderful that he can work on a schedule thats better for his PTSD - it makes total sense the way you described his anxiety working mornings.

VTmom - it is very sweet of you to remember my old girl and ask. Cleo isn't with me any more. She had a couple fabulous last months, but her body just gave out on her. She was such a trooper!

Yesterday was not so great for me foodwise. I decided to take myself out for pancakes for breakfast (why?!?) and spent the rest of the day lethargic and hungry. Then when I went back into the office in the evening I got a slurpee - I think I am adicted to those things. Plus, I was in full procrastination-denial mode ala 'nah, I don't need to start working on that yet...I can do it later today.' So, now I have TONS to do today, and a schedule full of meetings to boot. Oh well! Have a great day everyone!

Hey... I need to say a big Thank you to everyone who congratulated me on my run. It was pretty awesome but unfortunately my "high" didn't last long.. 'tis the nature of the beast I guess, but it leaves me searching for another one.

I also spent a large part of my weekend in the garden and I have badly burnt shoulders to show for it. Ouch! I even have a hard time sleeping at night because I like to sleep on my side and every time I roll over the pain wakes me up. Serves me right I guess but it's making me exhausted!

Amarie - VMom is sweet isn't she, a real animal lover... she always asks after my old puppy too.

VMom - I see you've met your goal :D Congratulations! (I'm sorry if it was there before and I didn't notice). My weight sucks! 2 down, 2 up.. argh!

Originally Posted by Aunty Jam:
VMom - I see you've met your goal :D Congratulations! (I'm sorry if it was there before and I didn't notice). My weight sucks! 2 down, 2 up.. argh!

you are very observant, I just changed that this morning!! :carrot: but that should have been marked 'first goal'. Because I probably should resolve to a next goal of 145.

and I should have also asked how your furry compadre is!!

So here I am...changed things up. I am to the point I was a year and half ago I am ready to do the work. I can always feel it building up to it. This time my husband is NOT allowed to bake a bunch of junk and sabatoge my efforts this time!! I hit 241 last month which I have never hit. All my shirts from last summer are belly shirts on me cause I am so fat. I cant breath just going up a flight of steps. I cant keep up with kids and house work cause of my wieght. I will be 30 in July and I don't want to start in the 30's being unhealty.

I have been off my wellbutrin for 4 weeks. This has been the worst week but Tom should be coming and this is the MEAN tom...lol So I am not a nice person to be around. But without my wellbutrin I actually have happy moments when I can smile. I used to be the one that ALWAYS smiled....for real. A friend from college posted a picture of me and under it she wrote Jessica smiling again like always sunshine....I want that back.

I have left life take it away and make me miserable (sure there are good moments but thats all they are is moments) Also consistancy is lacking in my life so my goal is to be consistant in everything. So far I have managed to keep the checkbook balanced for a week! Thats a big step. I cant be consistant with money, eating, excercise, keeping the house clean, disciplining the kids, my Bible reading....nothing...SO I dont want another 5 years to pass and I still not have control!!

Down to stuff going on. DH went back to work monday after 3 months...I feel like I got my house back. I miss him being here but it didnt help with my schedule and being consistant! At times I do the tell the kids 4 or 5 times to stop doing something then I punish when Im mad....It shouldnt be like that. Now I have good days but it was harder when he was home cause hes softer and made me second guess myself. Mean while my 4 yr old foster boy started peeing his pants for spite when hes in trouble. It started in school and now hes did it here a few times. Then he peed all over my upstairs bathroom. There was a block behind the toilet filled with pee...pee under my trash can, pee in the trash can. So I decided since he wants to do that he can clean the bathroom and thats what he did tonight. My 7 yr old is having a problem peeing the bed about once a week..not sure if its sugar or what. Hes pretty unhappy bout it when he gets up and has to take a shower he cant stand to be peed. DH said hes just being lazy but everytimes hes done it hes drank high sugar drinks. I tried waking him up in the middle of the night the other night and I shook him yelled his name, pulled his leg, smacked his leg, I finally pulled him to a sitting position and then he kinda woke up. I think its a combination of what hes drinking and hes a heavy sleeper. BUT anyways I said anyone who pees their pants or bed will scrub the clothing by hand in the tub before they go in with the rest of the clothes cause I am tired of my laundry stinkin like pee and having to be rewashed. Plus my 2 year old is potty trained but some days she has a few accidents when she sleeps or goes out to play....SO YEP YOU GOT IT ONE BIG PEE HOUSE....'Peeing your pants is cool...everyones doing it..LOL"

Tonight I will probably pull an all nighter. Over the last week I have done some major reorganizing. My new moto is get rid of everything but the furniture and then theres nothing to clean up!!! LOL...I am tired of being stressed over the junk....we CLEAN up every day yet it still looks messy...so that only means ONE thing....its CLUTTER!!

Ok well I know you all missed my LONG posts....so this should more than make up for it!!

Tk-I see we are at the same weight...maybe we should work something out together....we could always text or something cause I dont always get on here cause I end up on here for hour or two and not got stuff done

Vermont- I like the picture!!

amarie-I just miss you!!!

Hope-You totally inspire me because i feel the same as you do in some of your posts yet you push past them and are losing the weight...no matter how fast or slow you still keep going!!

Aunty Jam-If your talking bout the runner high after running...Ive got that once last spring when I was trying to do the couch to 5k and it was awesome but that was as far as i got!! lol

tl-I try not to do daily because when Ive done a lot that day it never shows for a few days...LOL The scale is in my bathroom though and its hard not to get on it!

Buddly-I hear you on the clearing out its hard to keep going when it first looks worse than when you started. When I do cleaning I tend to push everything to a room and get all the others done quick so I feel accomplished and then have one big stressful mess...LOL..Wish my brain didn't work that way...HAHAHA!

ok Hi to anyone I missed its been a while, catch up with everyone lata!!

:wave: I'm reading, will catch up later.

I have this humongous list of things I need/want to do and I keep beating myself up for not getting them done. If I could actually get them on paper it would help tremendously. I've started it a couple of times but ended up losing it or not working on it. It ranges from looking for a new job, cleaning the house, to taking care of the dogs and car repair. :dizzy: I'm sure you all know what I mean but I'm feeling this sense of urgency about it. I guess that's good, I'm usually just avoiding it altogether. Everyday I've had to close at work I rush all morning trying to get things done before I go in and am almost late, even when I go in at 2pm and get up at 8am. I need to make my goal to get my list together and put it into categories so I can get something accomplished.

I'm off next thursday through the following tuesday. DF has to work long hours so I'm torn between staying here and getting some of these things done and going to visit my mom. I haven't seen her since xmas but TBL contest wraps up at the end of the month and I'm afraid it would ruin my diet. There is no workout equipment there or videos to be done and then there is all of the country cookin. :T We plan on going down later in the summer and power washing her house and doing a few little maintenance things for her but I'm still feeling some guilt if I don't go alone next week. I need to get over it but I just feel like a bad daughter if I don't go as often as possible, especially since my dad past away and she is alone. I really don't have the $$ either. Blah, blah, blah.

Momof4, I hear you on the consistency thing. That is what is driving me nuts right now. I grew up in a clean and organized house and no matter how I try I can't live up to the standard of clean I grew up with. It makes me feel like a failure. I can't figure out how to get it totally clean and keep it that way. I know my mom worked on it daily and maybe that's where I'm going wrong. I'm thinking too that I need to get rid of as much stuff as possible so there won't be that much to clean.

Vermont, :cp: I'm so proud of you for hitting your goal. That's wonderful! Sounds like things are going pretty well for you? Looks like you are working out and being productive around the house. :cheers: Here's to keeping things on a positive roll.

Aunty Jam, how are the shoulders? Highs are hard to come by for us, aren't they? Maybe more running, more highs?

Buddly, I agree about the goop analogy. I'm glad you are seeing progress. Was it you who was talking about the 'flylady' website? I just looked at it briefly yesterday. I need to really check it out a little more and try to follow it, along with my own list. I'm truly sick of the messy house thing.

Amarie, I'm soo getting some pancake from cracker barrel after TBL contest is over. With bacon. And extra syrup. Just one cheat day though. Your post did remind me though about how crappy you feel afterwards when you eat pancakes. I don't think it changed my mind however. :s:

tklenn, how is dh's schedule working out? Do you see an improvement? What about the journal? I don't keep one, though I've always wanted to but my hatred of writing has always kept me from it. This site has actually helped me learn to put my thoughts down a lot. Right now however I am keeping a food journal and exercise/weight log. I think it has helped me tremedously lose these 30 lbs.

I forgot to tell you all that I lowered my cholesterol 36 pts and my triglycerides 43 pts. I am proud of myself for that. I'm still working on it.

Momof4-- how's that for a long post? :D

:wave:

Happy Thursday Chickies :hug:

Leenie

Morning Ladies...

I just got back from going on vacation from Indiana on Sunday and then on Monday I ended up being sick. It started off as a sore throat and turned out to be what looks like tonsillitis. Since I still don't have insurance I haven't gone to the doctors yet. Instead I did some research and found some home remedies that I decided to try instead. Some of which are really nasty. But I found two of the remedies have antibiotic qualities to them and they are helping a lot which is a good thing. The swelling and redness have gone down quiet a bit and my throat is not as sore as it was.

Waiting for the cold to go away before I start doing anything again with the whole exercise and diet. I still have to eat soft things that won't irritate my throat and trying to get as much rest as possible.

Trying to figure out a lot of other stuff that is going on and struggling with it a little bit. But trying to get back on track where I was 6 weeks ago.

Good morning chickies!
I need a nap. I'm going off a measly 3ish hours sleep (is that even possible) today. I'll be back when (and if) the caffeine kicks in! Laters,
Amarie

What a day.... 4 year old stuck a rock up her nose. Husband had to get it out with tweezers.

7 yr old ran into a table some how and got a big bump on his head.

my 4 year old tol her father she wants money for new sunglasses he told her no so she slapped him (was a mistake on her part!)

my 4 yr old foster boy is really pushing it with me....last night I gave everyone the same amount of pizza and he always shovels his food down. When my 5 yr old went to the bathroom the foster boy shoved my 5 yr olds pizza in his mouth. then today I found in his room one of our dvds he broke to pieces, the 4 yr old girls birthday doll he tore apart , then found a piece of colored glass from outside.
I am about to my limit. With all the peeing and destructiveness...oh he also shred the carpet by his door and we rent and they have nice carpet in the whole house so there goes part of my security deposit.

Went in the basement yesterday and found that my basement had flooded...so I have tons of cleaning...anyone realize how much easier cleaning would be if we were in shape....ugh

Then I guess TOM is knocking at the door cause I just got instantly ill and my head is hurting...so thats awesome.

Amarie-looks like your the same weight area as me...we can alll go on this together!!

Hey everyone...

Hope - Very few and far between but the high I had makes me want to do it again... I guess that's why they say it can be addictive. I'm going to try do more but it's hard with the other stuff going on. It's a very stressful time for me right now. Maybe I'll just go crazy instead... hah, short trip! And the shoulders are peeling, sore and itchy. My neighbor is giving me a bunch of tomato plants and it's finally stopped raining so it's out to the garden again this weekend! Maybe this time I'll wear sun screen ;)

VMom - I hear ya... my no longer over weight number is 149 but I've got an extra 15 pounds to lose on top of that. :( My old pup is much the same, she shakes sometimes, she falls sometimes, poops all over the house, then tricks the young dog out of his squeaky ball and romps through the house with it. Right now we don't think she's in any real pain, I guess the usual old dog pains still apply but she still has a good quality of life. Hah, when she wants to play she barks, jumps up and hits our young guy with her shoulders and he's 4" taller and 30lbs heavier then her! Such a bossy little lady.

Momof4 - I still say you're trying to do to much for other people. Take some time off.

Thats what I love about you Mof4 - I think I have it rough but at least no one put a rock up their nose ;) Yes, it seems like you, TK and I are in a similar scale place - lets go kick collective butt!

Well, my students are done - finished their exam (even got it graded) now all I have to do is grade their final papers. Yay! 120 pages of undergrad grammar! :D Now all I havta do is crank out a paper, and my summer officially starts. I will have much more control over my schedule, so I think I'll try scheduling study around workouts for a change!

Hopey - you are seriously the opposite of a bad daughter. I remember how much you talk about your mom and how much you dote on her! If you think going for a visit would be fun, go for it. OR, you could give yourself a fitness staycation, and do double workouts each day:D

Purefire - sorry you have been sick - that sucks! Its nice to see you :)

Hi Leenie!

I do have a lot but I know I can manage my time much better and everything is doable...Now this foster boy is HIGH maintence and I am not sure how much longer he will be here or how much longer I can handle (he has courthearing and they are trying to get him adopted to the family that has his sibling but the mother isnt sure she can handle him..nice huh!)

Since I have been off my meds I am getting more accomplished. I was never a lazy person but this weight affects my energy levels and also what I am eating. Even when you stay in your calorie intake if you didnt eat the right things it drags your body down....

I feel better (except when TOM shows up) I really do without the meds. My stress is all coming from the chaotic house which I have a plan to GET EVERYTHING done tomorrow except the attic!!! WISH ME LUCK!!! I mean decluttering, moving furniture, moving things from the basement to the attic...OH YEAH....lol...i know i wont wanna get outta bed in the morning but then again you never know!! LOL I got my dad coming to drop stuff off tomorrow, caseworkers coming, all kinds of stuff...LOL...maybe I should stay up now then just have a good nap tomorrow??

good morning ladies!

momof4 - I wish you tons of energy today to accomplish what you want to do! and you DO have an extra full plate, small children PLUS foster plus your youth work, so give yourself credit for whatever you get done :high: And I like your new avatar pic too!

AuntyJam - our rain finally stopped also! four day's worth, yikes. I give you and your doggy hugs, love the description that she sneaks the toy away from the younger dog and is playful when she wants. I think also she is still having good quality but sorry you need to clean up after her.

amarie - congrats on your summer almost starting! I agree that if you have free days, it does help structure if you plan around making a workout a definite 'to do'.

Purefire - sorry you got sick right after vacation! Hope your throat is much better.

Hi Leenie!

Hopeforme, CONGRATS :high: on lowering your cholesterol that much!! and the triglycerides too! And I know the feeling of 'I should be visiting my mom'. You just do what you can :hug: I think if you're feeling a sense of urgency about getting your list of things done, then you are capable of tackling it! Or maybe a couple things, then you have that great sense of accomplishment.

hi tkglenn! Did you start your journal :D That does sound like a good thing to do, just positive notes in it.

Well I found out yesterday that I got a small cost of living raise and didn't even notice it last check :rofl: but noticed it in this one! 50 cents an hour, hey I'll take it. Makes you feel good doesnt' it!

and I can ride to work for the first time since last week!! I have some new bling on my bike and want to strut it :cool:

hope everyone has a great day!!

hope-that is awesome bout your cholst. are you eating lots of cheerios??? lol I watch those commercials and they make me laugh!

Vermont-WAHOOOOO 50 cents is 50 cents. I realized thats how rich people get rich they realize a penny adds up to a dollar and a dollar adds up to 100.... You go girl! Thanks about the pic!!

SO I've gotten some cleaned but not as much as I wanted. Living room is rearranged, swept and decluttered. Entry way is decluttered and rearranged. School room is organized still needs swept. Laundry is so so...I had a headach and went to take a nap well the phone only left me sleep like 20 mins so it made the headach worse. Then I planned on this cleaning being an all day thing cause dh had plans for tonight. WELL now he dont Im in the middle of cleaning and have to cook supper now since he will be home and dont wanna waste his evening home so who knows bout the cleaning..UGHH.. I would rather NOT make plans and do things at the last minute than make plans and have to change them....it really gets under my skin!

Ok well need to go figure out what Im gonna do!!

Momof4, no cheerios. :lol: I like them but I always add tons of real sugar on top and that would probably be counterproductive I'm guessing.

Catch y'all tomorrow.

hope- I do also but have you tried the multigrain ones..they have some type of coating I can actually eat them without sugar..SHOCKER...I know..

Nice blow up in the house last night went to bed early and slept in yet i still want to go lay down and do NOTHING...but yeah I cant..I have my sis in laws makeup to do for a wedding, her moms hair to do for the wedding, run to the bank, get the kids ready for a wedding, go to the wedding, then reception later and bday party later and laundry and still have a desk to clean and organize..did I mention laundry??
Wanted to get the kids to the park that would be nice but forgot about doing makeup so that blew that plan...sigh...

Hello Ladies...

Going to the movies with my son... Will write a longer post later...

hugs

SO went to brother in laws wedding and yeah he hasnt seen me in a while and asked me when I was due....AWESOME....i was like huh hes like are you having any more kids....I was like no no...it wasnt too awkward but i still felt lik crap afterwards. I only have like two dress shirts that fit and the one I wore has a black strip right under the boobs and then the stomach comes out....it does look like Im kinda pregnant but still sucks....i only at a sandwich and one meal today but I HATE BEING FAT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!

Ended up seeing The Karate Kid with my son. It was a very good movies but I didn't think it would be as long as it was. We did have fun so that's a good thing.

I am feeling a lot better than I was earlier this week. The home remedies that I did worked. My throat is still a little sore but not as bad as it was. I am just happy that I was able to take care of it without having to go to the doctors. I really could not afford a doctors bill right now.

This week I have been helping a friend of mine. She had surgery on Wednesday and had a tumor removed from her breast. It was really scary for her but if it wasn't for me she would have never done it... I was there with her for every doctors visit and have been spending a lot of time with her this week.. She has been very brave even though she was very scared of what would happen... She will find out on the 22nd more info on what the tumor is. If it is nothing or something else.. I will be there. She is a very important person to me...

I have to get back on my diet and eating right again and exercising... This week I haven't really done anything.. I was trying to rest as much as possible and didn't want to push things to much. That is something I am going to be working on..

Finally going to bed.. Night

Hi all -
I drove out to my folks' house - ended up getting out late, but didn't want to stay over anywhere midway. Ended up getting there at 4:00 am! Boy am I pooped.
Chat at ya'll later - I'm looking forward to getting some workouts in with old friends during my visit.

:hug: Awww momof4, I'm sorry. I hate, hate it, hate it too. It happened to me too this year. I think I had already lost 20lbs too so that really made me feel bad. I just noticed two other people started threads b/c it happened to them too. Don't feel like the lone ranger. My goal is a flat stomach but will that ever happen? Can it after all the stretching to it I've done?

Finally off of my stretch of closings at work. Looking forward to thursday when I'm off till next wednesday. I'm still debating going home to see my mom. I keep going back and forth. I don't know what I'm going to do yet.

Amarie, your trip makes me lean toward going home. I hope you're sleeping now. How long are you there for?

Purefire, I'll say a prayer for your friend. It's such a scary and stressful thing. The waiting is the worst.

Hi everyone,
Sorry I haven't been around this weekend much. I have been so very busy. I woke up friday morning at about 9ish. Didn't go to sleep till Saturday night around 11ish. Woke up Sunday morning around 9 again, been busy the whole day then didn't go to sleep till about 1 am. I have been so busy but good busy I guess. Well most of it anyways.

most of you have asked me about my journal...no I haven't started my journaling yet. I did though change my blog from drabby to uplifting. I haven't been on there for awhile also. I try to think positively but I get shot down alot. I try and try though.

I did awesome today. I didn't have breakfast but ate a big salad for lunch. Ate some oreos, not as much as I would normally during TOM (thats the only time i eat oreos), had a protein shake for dinner and one for dessert then just had a pop tart. I wanted to taste this one cause my best friend said it tasted good. I don't like it much so I guess that's a good thing right? I also took my 4 kids to the neighborhood park. I walked. Now if I can do this tomorrow, I'll be in business.

Sorry haven't read everyones post. Will try to catch up later.

I'm so ridiculous sometimes. I can't make up my mind about visiting my mom still. I decide to stay here then make myself feel so guilty I decide to go again. She doesn't even know that I'm off yet on thursday for a few days. I need to just stop talking about it because I just feel stupid. She's just very important to me and deserves a visit. I will go later in the year, maybe august or september but as I get older I know how fast the years go by and how we need to appreciate the people who care for us. None of us have the promise of being around forever. But...what if I go off my diet?, lose The Biggest Loser contest at work?, never get these closets cleaned out?... Ok, I'm shutting up now.

tkglenn, good to see you. Good job on your eating. You can do it. I don't think I could stay up that long. Hope you were enjoying yourself.

Hello everyone :)

momof4, I am sorry brother-in-law had to go and say that :hug: man you had alot to do on that day!! are you a cosmetologist/stylist that you do people's hair and makeup?

tkglenn, Hi :wave: and glad you did well yesterday!

Hope, you need to stop beating yourself about the head :nono: and just accept that you will visit your mom later, and enjoy your time off especially if you get inspired to clean closets and such :D

Purefire, Im glad that you are feeling better, and that you helped yourself without having to go to a doctor :carrot: And what a good friend you are!!! to be by your friend's side for all that .

hi amarie :wave: have fun with old friends at your visit!

hi to AuntyJam too :wave:

We went out of state briefly to a friend's b-day party in CT. It was a shock to see their house, just the two of them but 4800 square feet, 5 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, their own workout spaces/studies/hobby rooms etc. Then to come back to our ahem 'homey' place :devil:

I know I have made progress with my body shape, but its still hard for me to wear short sleeved shirts, I have biceps that you can see but I also have some underarm fat. Well I thought I'd be brave and wear a t shirt (its summer, right??) and then my friend told me what exercises she does to get rid of her underarm flab. And i hadn't even said anything about my arms, I'm just thinking that she saw my arms and thought 'oh boy, does she ever need to do these exercises'. It kinda brought me down. Actually I will admit it brought me down alot! I have a flat tummy but I would never EVER suggest exercises to her, to help her tummy. Why do some people just 'open mouth and insert foot'.

I am one of those people who rely on other's opinions of me of how I look (because I have a bad self image) and I don't want to hear anything bad :devil:

hope everyone has a good day :cool:

vermont- I want to go to school for cosmetology but haven't yet. I just do pretty well at it. I usually do all the teen girls hair for social and stuff some of them just dont have money. I want to learn more. I get tips on cutting hair from my sylist. So I am able to cut some hair too...I enjoy it an probably will go to school for it...to just do it on the side!

Ok, I'm going. Yeah, I know. I'll check in with you all at my friend's house if I get a chance. If not, see you on monday.

Have a great week everybody.

Hello Ladies...

Still having issues getting back into doing exercise and eating right.. I haven't been up to doing anything lately.. I know I just got over being sick and should get back into things.. but I just don't seem to have the energy to do anything.. I have to get some motivation to get things done and do more..

Yesterday I went into school.. I still haven't started my externship and I have been out of school waiting for it for over a month now. I talked to the Dean and he is getting on the Career Services Lady to get it moving. I ended up going for a drug test and am having a back ground test done. I am now suppose to do my externship at the hospital. So I am waiting for the results to come back and then to start it. I am just really nervous now because it will be in a hospital and not in a doctors office. I know I will learn a lot more being in a hospital but it will be constant fast pace.

My friend is doing a lot better. She is still in a little pain but otherwise she seems ok. We will find out more information on the 22nd... so hopefully everything turns out good.

Really tired tonight so I am going to bed early for me since I normally don't go to bed til around 1am. I have to start going to bed early again. I have been sleeping in for the last 3 weeks and I seem to feel better and get a lot more done when I get up at 6am...

Hi everyone.

I am down 1 lb. I am so excited. I weighed myself this weekend and have gained 5 lbs since I started my tracker but weighed myself this morning and I am down 1 lb since this weekend. I am eating what I ate yesterday without the oreos...lol. I wasn't able to go walking though because my oldest had cub scouts. I'm excited to see what the scale has to tell me tomorrow morning.

I'm worried though. On Monday I will be driving down to vegas to visit with my mom. You know how it is when you go back to home cooked meals and all. I know everything will go out the window. I'm hoping it wont be too bad.

I'm hating this heat. My clothes feel like saran wrap. They are tight as it is but with the humidity and heat...it makes it feel like saran wrap.

Ok everyone. I've got to go and work on a story I'm writing.

Good night. Dream sweet dreams everyone.