I've had issues with depression in the past. Was on prozzac 7 years ago and went off cold turkey when I got pregnant with my oldest son.
I had major surgery back in may and something clicked....I don't know what it was, but my depression came back full force. I was sleeping 12 hours a day, didnt want to get out of bed. I started yelling at my kids. I was a total you know what to my husband. A couple of days ago my husband said to me "what is wrong...I know something is wrong". I just broke down. I explained to him that I don't feel like myself. I rarely feel like a mom, I don't feel like a wife, and most importantly I don't even feel like myself. I don't want to do anything, ever, I have to force myself to get out of my pajamas. So yesterday I went to the doctor. I walked in and broke down again. He asked me all sorts of questions and perscribed me effexor. I felt SOOOO much better knowing that I've made my feelings out in the open and that I'll be on the road to recovery. So I'm to start on 37.5 mg for 7 days, go up to 75 mg for 3 weeks, then I'll go up to 150 mg.
So I took my one pill at 7 pm last night (pharmasist said to take it in the evening because it makes a lot of people drowsy). No side effects after taking it. I went to bed at 10 and my body was exhausted but my mind was just going a mile a minute. I layed in bed for hours and I couldn't open my eyes because my body was tired...but my mind would just not shut off. I came to the conclusion last night that I wouldn't be taking the 2nd pill today. I didn't need the medicine becasue I didn't have any reason to be depressed. I have two wonderful children, a wonderful husband, really awesome siblings, parents, inlaws, etc. Only other thing I noticed last night was that I felt really really cold, but I was sweating like a pig.
Hubby got up with the kids this morning so I was able to sleep in and I woke up in a much better state of mind. I explained to my husband my fears and concerns and he reassured me. He pointed out that half of the side effects of the medication I already have from being depressed anyways. So I'm going to go with the flow and hopefully I've made the right choice. All I want is to be the mother that I know I can be, be the wife that I know I want to be, and be back to my normal self.


