[Ryanne]

I just wanted to say this is the first day I haven't felt symptoms of agitation, I did get dizzy a couple of times today... but other than that I am doing much better.
I also wanted to thank all who welcomed me.

[salsa chip]

Today's been ok, but ended a bit strange. My father's come over to visit; when things got really bad with me here he offered to come over for a few days. I was looking forward to it, but now that he's here (I met him at the station, took him to his hotel and then we had dinner) I don't know whether him being here will help (events in my youth have, I think, contributed to my problems).

I'm trying to just get some rest and take tomorrow when tomorrow happens. But it's hard not to sit here and analyse and project and interpret all kinds of stuff. I know I'm worrying too much, and I have control issues and need to let go and go with the flow, but it's so hard

How have your days been?

[marbear24]

SOSDD... hope everyone has a good day!

[hope4me]

Not much going on in here lately, huh? I miss everybody. I'm been somewhat MIA myself. A lot on my mind...

I have a test tomorrow I'm studying for and TOM is here. Blah. We found out today that dh has a pituitary tumor. It is not cancer but it has to be operated on soon. We don't have a date yet. I'm a little out of sorts with this. I'm not really too worried but I can't wait to get this resolved. Surgery is never a good thing.

Gotta run, I'll check in tomorrow after class.

[Leenie]

Good Morning,

Ryanne glad your feeling better

Salsa, hope all went well with your dads visit. I'm sensing things went well... your a smartie

Hope good luck with your test. Oh Thank God your DH will be ok.... surgery is tough but the outcome will be good. Smile sweetie, things will be ok.

Nothing new here, sosdd

Got lots to do but no energy to do it...yadda yadda yadda.

Have a great week Chicks !!

[HeatherAngel]

Morning Chicks! I am silly busy with school, but all in a good way Came down with strep throat in the second week - I usually catch something, but usually a little later in September than that! Ah, the joys of being a teacher! Had it treated straight away and feeling much better already.

Sorry not to catch up with you all individually - I've been away so long I don't even recognize everyone - but to all our new members and big to the rest of the 'oldies' - !!!

I have to step up what I know I have to do to lose this last 25lbs, or I'll just comfortably eat too much cake and sit at this weight forever. Okay... 10 week boot camp, here I come!!

Chat soon,
Heather

[Leenie]

Good Morning,

Hey Heather, good to see you.. good luck w/boot camp. Can't wait to see pictures

Nothing going on today, work, school for dd, vet visits for the pups...

How' is everyone today?

[salsa chip]

Hi everyone

Leenie, yes, things are going well. It's almost like I'm learning the art of non-confrontational conversation I'm astounded! My father's here until Wednesday so we've only got a little bit of time left. We've been talking about lots of things, mainly his background, my mother's background, and all the events round them getting together, getting married, having me, and all that. It's been hard on both of us, but I know I've been trying really hard to be open and honest (hopefully without being painful) and I can tell he has too.

In other news, my personal trainer has told me not to weigh myself at home. My reaction to this has showed me how daily weigh-ins are such a part of my "control everything" thing I've got going on. Letting go of my daily scale is pretty scary

How are you all doing?

[marbear24]

It's very quite around here lately... Haha, that being said my life is kind of boring right now I've been trying to figure out how to convince a friends she's about to marry the WRONG guy - from 300 miles away. Friend #2 lives in the same state as her and is meeting her later today. Hopefully she can convince her of it. Let's list the reasons he's crazy:

1. When he gets mad he either storms out, or relaxes by cleaning his shot gun
2. He accuses her of cheating on him every 2 minutes
3. He has posession of her phone and answers all of her calls.
4. He hides his kids' baby moitor around when she's having conversations with guests so he can monitor them
5. She works and pays all the bills and he can't hang onto a job for a week.
6. Despite the fact that he doesn't work, they have $$ for vacations and a new condo - and he's had a history of selling drugs. Wonder what he's doing now?!?

Sigh. WHY CAN SHE NOT SEE THIS IS A BAD THING!!!!!

Hello to everyone.
Salsa - letting go of the scale is HARD.
Heather - good luck with your bootcamp.

All - have a great day

[Leenie]

Good Afternoon Chickies

It IS quiet in here... that could be a good thing right? everyone is busy having fun

Wow Marbear... he's scary... imagine when they marry Control freaks scare me.

Salsa, hope the visit went well..today's the last day right? Personal trainer.. that is way to cool !!!!

Nothing new here, sosdd... just plodding along.

Whats up with you chickies?

.

[hope4me]

Hi everybody,

Wow, you can almost here crickets in here.

Dh is having surgery in the next couple of weeks. I hope to know a date soon if not tomorrow. He is completely stressed out over this. He is stressing me out. I can't wait till this is over for both of our sakes.

I was on my way home from work today to go to the dr. with him and I almost couldnt get into our neighborhood due to all of the roads being blocked off b/c shots were fired at a nearby school. Nobody was hurt but it was kinda scary. Police were searching the woods and had the interstates blocked off. Scary days people.

Gotta run, I'm off friday and saturday so I'll try to catch up more then. Have a great day tomorrow everyone. If you feel the urge to say a prayer for dh, don't let me stop you.

[salsa chip]

Hope - prayers for both you and your hubby.

Well, my father's visit is over, he left yesterday (I took him to the airport). I guess I can look forward to getting enough sleep each night now! But it was good that he was here, even if it wasn't always easy.

Tomorrow I have my first appt with the psychiatrist; all the notes about me from other doctors have been passed on. I'm kind of nervous about it, but I know it has to happen.

Does anyone else get frustrated that you can't say how long treatment/therapy will last? I'd like to be better now! At the same time I know the journey is important, and I can't rush these things, I have control issues, yardi yardi *sigh*

[Leenie]

Good Afternoon,

Hope... please let us know when DH gets his date for surgery so we can pray with you. I'd be stressed too... its scary.

Salsa your so smart I'm glad your visit w/dad went well. Good luck with your new doctor, I hope this person is the right one for you darlin.

Nothing new today, which is ok. We are still waiting for the end of the month to find out if we have our jobs. We are merging with another company and everyone here is on edge to say the least... but I'm trying to let it go... give it to God but its hard.

Other than that... things are good, no complaints

Hope everyone is having a great Thursday.

Leenie

[marbear24]

G'day ladies!

Hope - I'm sorry about all of the stress you're under, and my thoughts go out to you and your hubby. Keep us posted.

Lennie - Thoughts out to you as well as far as the merger is concerned. I have faith everything will turn out well for you. You're a great lady, great things will happen for you

Salsa - Glad the visit went well. I reccomend not thinking about an "end date" for therapy. It's a process, just go with the flow. You'll know when you're ready for it to end.

Shaming my exercise plan up a bit, as the hubby has decided to join me. Will elaborate later - being dragged to lunch by my co-worker.

Enjoy the day!

[salsa chip]

Happy Friday chickies!

My appt with the doc (a Real Proper Psych; everyone else up to now has been either a GP or someone in the temporary crisis care bit) is in about an hour. I'm getting nervous, but trying to take deep breaths and drink lots of water (I woke up late, so breakfast/lunch was suitably big, lol ).

I'm going to feel much better about this once the first step is done. I am already getting better and I am the person principally making myself better, by getting help and following professionals' advice and getting more exercise and eating better and all that.

This "empowerment" stuff is weird

Leenie - you're so kind Thank you for saying I'm smart!

marbear - thanks so much for your words. I'll try to keep them in mind. It is a bit soon to be asking when it'll be over when I've barely started.

Hope - I know you're away, but I'm still praying.

I hope everyone has a good day. You ladies here are invaluable to me.