Hey Chickies!

Not quite as energetic today but still feeling pretty good! I didn't sleep very well last night...kept getting hot...then cold...then hot again! And then waking up over and over again didn't help. But, I managed my protein breakfast...I did stop at Starbuck's after dropping off DH (He just re-loaded my Starbuck's gift card...awww) but I only bought the tall Skinny Cinnamon Dulce...sugarfree syrup...are you all proud of me???

I got about 20 mins on the crossramp before Pilates class...not too bad!!! I am a little sore already. Then I came home took my shower and fixed my lunch...3 sausage links...whole wheat tortilla sandwich (2 eggs, slice of cheese and salsa) and a Kashi granola bar...(has protein, fiber, and minimal sugars...) Dinner is going to be leftover porkchops, a potatoe and some veggies.

I was just barely starting to get hungry before lunch...this is such a weird feeling... No headache so far either...no nausea...no unwelcome stuffed feeling. Is this how normal people feel???? Weird!!!

Mom: I know how you feel...I do...it is so hard...Take care and do what you can..we all love you... Maybe you could set an alarm on your cell phone or something to remind you to take your pills?

Hope: It is really hard sometimes to do what you know is right...I don't know why but it just is... I hope you can find the strength very soon.

Hey Buddly! Good to see you around! Glad that your medicine is working...you know...It's weird that you say "buzzing", I was just talking to DH today about having felt that way a few times after alot of sugar! I think the jury is in on my being sugar sensitive...and the verdict is definitely GUILTY!!! You know, I can smile about it because it just explains so many things about me going all the way back to childhood...and I thought that my binging and emotional eating was all connected to my feelings...it turns out that it is my biochemistry...and it is a much simpler fix...and it makes me feel just a little less of a victim...once you understand something you can fix it! And I am on my way to fixing it..

Francie...yoo hoo!! Did you get your sleep?????

Sassy: Where are you Girlie? C'mon tell us you are doing okay so we don't worry about you!

Leenie, Heather, Sugar & all you lurkers out there...come say hi!!!

Hello Ladies!!

Nothing much new with me. Just trying to get through this week without having another panic attack. I believe I had one on sunday/monday.

Did I mention that I'll be going to Dh's homecoming?? It'll be the first time ever that I'll get to see the ship pull into home port. I'm really excited and really nervous. I already bought this nice top, and hella cool shoes to wear with my capri pants. So that is taken care of, lol. I was gonna make a sign..but I cant. Dh is spending the rest of the money while he's in San Diego since I bought everything in sight while he was gone, lol. So it evens it out.

Anyways..I better go..I'm talking to dh right now. Byee

hey gang

I've been in Branson with my mom. Just getting back and getting back to work. I could have fainted when I saw my desk and found out my boss had to have hernia surgery while I was gone. never a dull moment ;-)

just wanted to pop in and say HEY and see how everyone is doing

hope all is well
hugs,
cathy

awww hope...it is soo weird how all of us girls have like the same kinda days most of the time. I cooked a bad meal..didnt realize it was bad till I was cooking it. I bought these stuffed chicken breast that are soooo goood. But the kind I bought for me ended up having like 380 calories...yeah NOT GOOD...tasted GREAT but yeah not good for me. My family fought over them cause i bought enough for one for everyone and of course they wanted more. I was glad that my son ate more cause its chicken and he needs to eat more meat but they really didnt need a bunch of them. I came close to my calorie count anyways but yeah I am rambling on...lol... I hope tomorrow is better for you. I am hoping tomorrow is better for me. My dh and I got the rest of the yard dug for the pool and have it part way filled and he cleaned the stuff from the kitchen up while I did dishes so I got help. I did feel bad that he had to do all that after working a long day at work but then I was like I packed it carried it down the steps from the other house loaded it and everything least he can do it carry it to the rooms it needs to go.. Oh well such is life. OK not many people posted today. Hopefully more tomorrow!! ttyl

oh whoops I completly missed a page of posts...LOL...dummy me...I must be really tired..LOL..

raven-now that I found the second page of posts..LOL..that is a good idea I think I will try it because I was setting on there for a while at 4 to remind me to start thinking and starting supper so that way i wouldnt rush to find something and cook it. I will have to try it..thanks!!! oh and your eggs cheese and salsa thing sounded soo good...never woulda thought bout that all together..ok ttyl

I ended up cooking dinner, but it wasn't healthy. I had hamburger steak, scalloped potatoes, and green beans. At least there was one vegetable. My body is screaming for some fruit and veggies. If we keep eating at home it will help b/c I usually cook and eat lots of both.

Momof4, did you make those frozen chicken cordon bleu things or the broccoli and cheese stuffed ones that you bake? That sounds like the right calorie count. They are yummy, but can cost you on the calories. I have found lower fat ones in some grocery stores which helps some if you are really craving them and they taste about the same.

Cathy, I've wondered about you. Glad to have you back. Sorry work is so backed up now. I hope your mom is doing ok. I haven't walked in ages and I'm feelin' it big time.

Raven, I admire the exercise and just reading your posts remind me I should be doing the same so I can start feeling better too.

Catch y'all tomorrow.

Hi all - been busy, busy, busy ... I'll pop in later for a proper hello!

Morning everyone.

I'm still hovering at the same weight -just not really on track. However, my husband has now found an apartment and will be moving out in early July. I am hopeful that this change will force me to focus on myself again, and NOT sit, wallowing, focused on a dying relationship.

So - there it is. He's going - really going this time. We're going to try to remain friends, and see each other, and see how it goes for six months. He says we need to see if we actually WANT to be together... I guess he means, him, since I KNOW that *I* do.

So - there it is, in the open, to my chick friends here.

I hope you are all doing well, and hanging in there

Heather

Heather- My heart is breaking for you. I couldn't imagine. I will keep you in my prayers. I also hope that you dont just sit bak and let depression take over you that you can focus on you...I am sooo sooo very sorry. There is hope at least he is wanting to see ou and not just cutting you off and saying its the end..so there is still some hope! I feel so awful....

Yeah and here I am getting on here cause I am already about in tears I think just lack of meds in my system and emotions are running wild. But Nothing that I have to cry about is as bad as what heathers going thru...

I tried riding my bike today I took it outside and figured I would sit there and ride and watch the kids. They had me soooo frustrated that I just wanted to cry...They kept coming over bugging me when I am trying to listen to music to keep going. So i had to start and stop a hundred times. They wouldnt listen then they kept running inside and leaving the door open when I have the air on and thats just like throwing money right out the door. I just finally gave up and mad ethem all come in and sit down and watch a movie. Which I hardly ever do cause I hate them being in front of the tv so its hardly ever on during the day. But anyways..I want to just sit and cry cry cry..

Ok well I hope everyones day is going ok or good...

Sassy- Are you on vacation from us chics??? WHERE ARE YOU? Hows work going?

hope- My husband loves the broccoli ones I like the other ones. I didnt know there were low fat ones I will have to find them cause they are super duper good!! Your dinner didnt sound too awful bad

shop- that is awesome you get to be there when he gets there. I bet your going crazy just waiting for him to get there..I know I would!!

raven-I hate the nights where you wake up and toss and turn its like you have gotten no sleepwhen you wake up and feel awful!!

buddly-hope your feeling good today!!!

Hiya all!

Heather - I am so very sorry. I hope that the change makes things clearer, and that whatever happens you end up happy. Thats the best I can think to wish for you

OK all, the topic of meds got me thinking about pills in general, and how many I take these days. Mostly mine are supplements and vitamins, but there are just so many! I take my anti-dep every morning, plus collagen 1-3 supplement, mulit-vitamin, fiber, and now hyaluronic acid. So, that ends up being a mini handful of pills. Yech. But they keep me healthy and sane, so its worth it. I do the cell-phone alarm thing for my afternoon meds, because otherwise I forget...

Other than that, I have been super busy (like I mentioned before). On Monday I left the house at 7:00 am, and except for a quick pit-stop at around 3:30 I didn't get home until 10:45 that night!!! Zowee! Tonight is another super-busy night, so I'm just gonna try to get as much done as I can.

Right now my house is in horrible shape - I've been doing drywall which is creating a TON of dust, and I'm really draggin my heals on projects 'cause I'm still sad that I'm essentially finishing my house for someone else to enjoy. And since the drywall is creating such a mess anyway, I have no motivation to try to keep the rest of it clean and tidy so in a matter of about a week it has become a disaster area! Ugh.

Last night I ordered chinese food, and ended up gorging on it when it was delivered - and it didn't even taste good, and gave me a headache this morning. So I threw it out today, which is good from one perspective, but makes it a total waste of money. Sigh. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Alright. Thats it, done kicking myself for it and moving on.

Have a great day everyone!

Heather~I'm so sorry I feel really dumb for talking about my dh's homecoming when you're going through something painful. Hang in there chickie.

Good morning!
Beautiful day here, wish I could just sit outside and enjoy it.
I have a dentists appointment at noon, just to finish my cleaning. DdA is going to drive as the dentist is downtown and she will have to parallel park and deal with town traffic. Other than that nothing new here.

Heather I'm so sorry about you and your hubby.

momof4 keep hanging in there.

Francie thats great that you get to be at the homecoming! Have fun and take a big hankie!

Amarie wow you sure are busy! Drywalling is awful and that dust seems to reproduce on its own. I know what you mean about the pills, we always joke that I'm turning into my granny who literally had a shoe box full of meds and vitamins etc and would count them out daily. Even her mom would look at it and shake her head.

Hope when do you start working?

Raven I'm glad to hear you found something thats working. That "buzzing" is really odd, the only other time I can recall doing that was after I spent an entire afternoon in the coffee shop with my girlfriends drinking eggnog lattes and house special cappuccinos!!

Hey Cathy wondering where you were! Hope you had a good trip and don't drown in all that paperwork

Sassy where are you???

Sugar how are you doing? Haven't heard from you in awhile.

Huge to everyone else!!

Should go and grab a bite before heading off to town.

Take care all,
K

Amarie~Dh would love to be fixing up your place, lol. He used to build houses in high school.

Hey, hey Peeps!

So, I woke up all funky...again! Naggy headache, slow motion, I didn't sleep well AGAIN!!! I can't figure it out unless it is just TOM showing up (which should be any minute) Or, maybe I am suffering from the whole sugar withdrawal thing still. I haven't completely taken sugar out of my diet but it is drastically reduced and only being eaten with meals...my body is probably going WTH???? I think I am going to cut myself a break today and not go to the Y...if I feel a little better later I might do some of my favorite yoga and use my poor neglected elliptical for awhile...don't know just yet...I am listening to my body...and right now it is tired...
Oh! I ate that Kashi TLC chocolate cherry bar yesterday with lunch..it was supposed to have 5g of protein and like 4g of figer and minimal sugar and I ate it at the end of my meal, but I don't think my body liked it anyway...I was craving more food a couple hours later and it was a bit of a struggle to make it to dinner...yesterday was much easier...really not sure what happened but I am going to leave those alone and see what happens today.

Heather: Aww Sweetie, I am really sorry about your DH...maybe it will still work out...and if not maybe there is a reason and someone else is in your future that is more suited for you...I know that is hard to believe right now but just keep doing the best you can to be gentle with yourself...ok?

Mom: Yeah, we have to set the alarm and DHs watch because he has timed pills that he has to remember twice a day...I also keep some of his pills in my purse in case we are out and don't have access to his pills... And yes! The tortilla sandwich thing just came to me because I had to figure a way to get all the protein that I needed along with a whole grain... Even DH liked it when I made him one yesterday and he is normally a little picky!

Buddly: Yeah...it is really unnerving to think that I react so strongly to something so seemingly normal and innocent like sugar...but from the book I am reading it says that apples have a "moderate impact" on blood sugar...and I can remember completely binging on apples when I was a kid...(my Grandpa would send us huge boxes of them...) I mean like one right after the other until I was just sick...that is just not usual behaviour and I just never knew what caused it...it made me feel very much like a freak sometimes...

Francie: I hope you are feeling lots better...and that is awesome that you get to watch the ship come in! Enjoy! And thank your DH for his sacrifice and while I am at it...thank you too!!!

Amarie: Eww...drywall...sounds like too much work! (I avoid that if all possible unless it gives me my lovely endorphins!!!) Too bad about the Chinese food but oh well...it is over...put it out of your mind and go on with your lovely day! (see...positive thinking!!!

Hope: Yes you should be working out!! But then I think everyone should so maybe I am not the best judge! lol But don't beat yourself up...just maybe do a tiny bit...give yourself permission to just do a few minutes...and then stop..alot of the time it is just about getting started... I suffer from that all or nothing thinking alot...I am working on getting over that myself.

Cathy: Hope you had a great time! Sorry about the paperwork...there is nothing more overwhelming than having to get caught up on stuff after vacation...it sucks...

Sassy? Oh Sassy??? Hey...we know that you are out there...at least I hope you are... Is something wrong? Or are you just busy? You are missed...just letting you know that...

Hey Leenie! I know you are spread pretty thin with all that you have to do so we cut you more slack!

Ciao!!!