I have major struggles with binge eating.

I remain steady at 5ft 7ins and 140lbs through a) the Grace of God b) regular exercise c) a decent metabolism (?!?).

I have such a major problem with food addiction. When I was about 14, I was anorexic and got down to 112lbs or thereabouts, at 5ft 5ins or so. I was made to put on weight. I maintained at about 5ft 6ins and 120lbs until I was about....16, 17? Then earlier this year...I finally got round my folks and bought my own scales again, and I'm 140lbs and 5ft 7ins, how the HECK did that happen....it's not about...I mean, I *KNOW* my weight is actually a "holy grail" type of number for some people, but for me, it's not right, it'll never be right, and I love fasting but can't because I'm stupid. Or whatever.

ARGH!

Latest binge was 2 slices cake, 2 packets crisps, 1 bagel. Awful. :-(

I have been on a MAD binge since that day I went to CiCi's pizza with that friend!!! Thursday night, work the 12 hr night shift, swear I grazed literally all night long to keep myself busy...stopped for a donut on the way home, should have known better....chose myself a cremestick, and chose "for the kids" three other donuts...ate them all on the way home....blew off the gym after I woke up (which is usually okay since I was going right back into work for another 12 that night)....so ordered the greasiest pizza in town for dinner, (it was payday and friday night but still) ate pizza with the WORKS not to mention the 1/2 dozen wings I ate....so of course, starting like that I grazed again all night long. And on the way home....McD, them damn breakfast sandwiches, and of course ONE isn't enough, and I can't choose between the McGriddles (sweet and spicy) and the Egg McMuffin so of course had both, of course with two hash browns and two OJ so it looked like I was ordering for two people (WHY oh WHY do I do that! Why should we care what it "looks like" to the drive through person!) ....went to bed that morning with a lump in my belly.....Tonight doesn't look so good, my bowling league tonight...I usually just drink myself silly on $3 draft pitchers. Bowlers are big drinkers...lol. I usually eat good breakfasts, and usually lunches, but lately have been blowing it in the evenings.

Usually I'm naughty on the weekends, but this week just dragged out for like five days. I haven't lost almost 80 pounds for nothing! But I know when I'm hitting the drivethru for a double cheeseburger for a salty, greasy, yummy SNACK, I'm in trouble. But I agree with this thread's philosophy, admitting it OUT LOUD is very therapeutic. This is my week! (starting Monday, LOL, okay, Sunday)

I totally understand.

I love fasting too - whether it's an all water fast, a fruit fast, or not eating after 7pm and then not eating again until 12 noon the next day for a 17 hour fast. I love the feeling of hunger pangs, weird, I know.

My weight is always all over the place. Since high school, as low as 130 (size 4) and as high as 175 (size 13/14!).

I have no idea how to eat normally. I either eat like a pig and get fat, or diet. I am really trying to get things under control. I wonder if I will always be fixated on my weight...oh well...I'm willing to be because I think it is worth it.

I have recently been able to fit back into some of my 6s and it is worth it.

Good luck, hun!

I have been struggling with binge eating for so long that I don't know what it's like not to have that temptation! Restaurants are the worse and yesterday I had a business meeting at lunch and had a taco salad and yes I ate the bowl even though I justified ordering by saying I wouldn't Last night my husband and I went out for pizza and I had 5 slices Just ate a subway 6" veggie but I had to get the broccoli soup. It's a little better, but when I get going I just can't stop. There is a bright side, I did ride my bike for an hour today for the first time in a long time. Just have to stop eating! Also I'm taking Xenical and the side effects from eating so much grease will definitely not be pleasant tomorrow

Okay am I the only one who binges on HEALTHY food? I just ate a pound of grapes with hardly any thought I am having a great day and I've ate healthy but then I binge on healthy items and take my calories way over for the day. It is so frustrating

I binged on friday.
The day started off badly enough with me being late for an appointment, and thus skipping breakfast.

At work, there was a morning tea shout.. so 1 small sausage roll, and 1 HUGE piece of supermarket made sponge and creme cake..
Then I thought stuff it.
So off to McD's for lunch. 1 filet of fish medium combo, plus a cheeseburger. I pulled the bread of the CB but still (and only had 3 sips of NORMAL coke)..

Alright I thought, soup for dinner, should still JUST be at my cal limit for the day.

Then I got invited to a wine club. Please bring a plate.

5 glasses of wine and what seemed a billion canapes later.. I'm home. Feeling disgusted. I didn't get any pleasure from my "breakfast" or lunch, and even the canapes were eaten in a "get it into my mouth quick way" despite me trying to space them, and them being really tasty.

Day ended up being 2.25 time my calorie allowance. I know why I did it, I was over tired and upset.

But why do I punish myself with food so much?

Nope! Saturday night I made a large fruit salad (2 cans of tropical fruit, 1 can of mandarin oranges, 3 bananas, 2 kiwi). I end up eating the whole thing from 9pm to 2am.

It was yummy...but I felt fat and gross. Didn't eat again until 9pm Sunday. Bad, I know. Bad bad bad.

Okay this is the first time that I'm posting on this thread, so hi everyone.

Since I started my weightloss journey which was September 4th of this year I am happy to say that I have not binged even once. Which is a miracle of some sort, because prior to that date, I don't think I hardly went 2 days without a binge.

Woke up yesterday morning TOM was there to greet me, yuck. And I find the weekends much harder in general, everything off scheduele and stuff. So I just felt the need to eat, now luckily I have my house packed with only good stuff, so I found myself stuffing my face with a box of Special K cereal, just kept on eating it and eating it. I kept telling myself I should stop, but kept going on. I know it definitely could have been worse, a lot worse in fact.
But it wasn't pretty regardless of the food item.

i just had to share this because i am so shocked with myself....

i almost binged..... i was thisclose.... i even bought the food! earlier this week i got a quarter pounder with cheese combo supersized (i was soooooooo cravinga burger again), then yesterday i got a pack of double chocolate chip cookies.... and I almost ate them.... but i ate about 1/3 of the fries, and a little of the burger, and less than half a cookie.... and they just didn't taste very good.... i couldn't have made myself eat the rest of any of it..... to make matters worse, the McDonalds crap made me a little nauseous....

lol, it was great and awful all at once, knowing i could no longer enjoy the foods i used to eat....

I want to give "fed" up and whitwhit a huge congrats. Even though you ate more than you wanted, you could have made some really unhealthy choices and felt so much worse about it.

I remember that binging for me use to be a quart of ice cream, snickers, and a pound of m & m's.

I think we've all learned some healthier life choices regardless.

Good Job!!

Man... i was doing so well... i think i was at a week or two without binging (i did overeat a little but that was a lot better) then i had this yesterday because i told myself i could have ice cream since i was starting my diet today

small dairy queen blizzard
dinner was chicken, green beans, mashed potatoes, AND two biscuits
4 poptarts
snickers bar
huge handful no... fistfull of nuts

ugh i was so out of control Oh well, i'll move on! I started South Beach today with one of my friends which is exciting and i'm doing awesome!

i can relate to that.
have you ever heard of the warrior diet?

Okay...I did it again. I hosted a meeting at my work today and had to bring dessert for 30 people. I was trying so hard but there were left overs and throughout the day, I ate 3 brownies, 2 lemon bars, and 2 pieces of pumpkin cake. I feel horrible

HMMM.

I started out today with a wholegrain bagel and small amount of cheese for breakfast.

350 cals.

Then I went to college...and spent 9am-10am in the bathroom with an upset stomach (from medication I've been taking for urinary problems...the JOY..) so mom came to take me home.

Since then . . . . 1 bag crisps (181 cals) and.....I thought I'd try eating a meal, as I felt quite a bit better by 12 or so. So I cook a plain pizza in the oven....

And eat the whole f*cking lot.
And then I make myself work out for 30 minutes! I have to come HOME from college for a bad stomach, and I do all that...Nice One. Not.

So we're looking at 800 for the pizza + 350 + 200 or so.... = 1350, and it's only 1pm.

I went to purge the above, but as the first wave of nausea took over my stomach I thought NO!..and called my boyfriend instead, who was great..but it doesnt make me less fat, does it?

i don't want to eat any more today
i hope my stomach pukes it up of its own accord, then i get to be "good" AND get what I want.

Jesus. I'm too young for this.

It's ok. You did the right thing by distracting yourself from the immediate impulse to purge. Well done. That in itself too A LOT of strength. :-)

Secondly, I know that 140 may be more weight than you are comfortable with, but it's NOT fat. It's within the healthy BMI range for your weight. However I do understand how you feel about yourself right now.

1350 isn't such a bad number. Why not try having soup for dinner tonight. That way you still eat, but it can be low-cal, and you might end up at around 1500 for the day. (I aim for that each day, it's where I lose in a HEALTHY way)/ Also, drink lots of clear fluids, which will help flush the sodium you ingested from the pizza out and stop you from feeling bloated tomorrow!

1 day will not make you fat. Remember this. I was reminded yesterday by a good friend. 1 big meal in a day is not such a bad thing, as long as I am eating in a balanced manner the majority of the time.

You are beautiful and worthy of self love. The pizza doesn't change that.

PM me if you ever need to talk about this stuff.
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