:welcome: rabbit zen!!! What plan are you following? Since you binged yesterday, GOOD LUCK with starting today!!! And Kristen (:wave:) has good advice: sometimes thinking of it as a "diet" sabatoges you before you even get started.

:welcome: nymmy!!! Don't let one bad day get you down!! Elizabeth is right!! You lost over 50 pounds and you should be VERY proud!!! That's awesome. Start over today, we all have had to. I start over every week.

Elizabeth I did low carb, but I counted calories. I just couldn't let myself consume an unlimited amount of calories or fat. I actually ate lean meat, which is a no-no, but I couldn't eat all of that fatty meat. I prefer leaner cuts anyway. Don't worry, that 4 pounds is probably water weight. I know, because I ate 2 pounds of meat loaf on Friday ~ and was up 6 pounds until this morning and I'm only up one pound. 3800 calories is only equal to one pound, and that's if you don't burn ANY calories at all, and your BMR took care of some of those itself.

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I've been a bit bingey lately, BUT the past 2 days : no binges!!!

I haven't been bingeing for atleast 4 days, but even the 3 meals a day that I try to plan into my routine are bugging me. Yesterday, for breakfast I had 2 slices of french toast w/lite whipped cream & sugar-free syrup. For lunch, I had a salmon sandwich w/lo-fat mayo & about the size of a small fries...and for supper, whole-wheat spaghetti w/shrimp, lo-fat spaghetti sauce, mushrooms & black olives. I also snacked on a corn on the cob & a tomato.

So far today, for breakfast I had: a grilled-cheese sandwich w/w.w. bread & lo-fat cheese, and an egg w/mushrooms. Then for snacks, I've had a tomato and an oatmeal-to-go bar. For lunch I'll probably have another salmon sandwich w/mayo. Then we are going out for supper, but I am determined to keep it light. I guess the reason I feel like I'm eating too much is I've been getting NO exercise for the past 24 hours. I'm going to do some running around today, so hopefully I'll feel better.

I just have to keep reminding myself: there are chips in the cupboard, and icecream and chocolate in the fridge, and I haven't touched any of it! :cp:

Ick, I've basically been off for a week. We went on a vacation and I didn't so much binge...just ate whatever I wanted. Luckily, I was moving around the army base and malls a lot, so I gained nothing. So we've been back home for two days, and I'm still eating whatever I want.
Today I've had...
-A bowl of yogurt cheerios
-Bowl of pasta w/cheese
-Really buttery popcorn(the entire bag) and a glass of milk
-1/3 of a block of cheese
-a few squares of choxie
-a square of dark chocolate

eeewwww!
And I didn't wake up until noon, so this is between 1 in the afternoon and midnight. Everything except the cereal is after 6:30...I can't keep going at this rate. Just like it was before. Ick. I always feel really gross after a binge. And I haven't had a binge for...at least 2 months. But I am not going to purge. :D So go me. Back on the diet now.

Wow, putting it on this thread really kind of does make me feel better.

Today was horrid. I had:

2 hotcakes with syrup
1 classic burger from freshnessburger PLUS fries PLUS cola
a handful of sour cream and chives pretzels
a crunky bar
some cubyrop gummies
a whole bar of hichew

Welcome to all the new people! :welcome3: Excuse me for sinking into my own despair here... Oh, my gosh. I feel terrible. I made this wicked dinner last night involving chicken breasts, broccoli, butter, cheese, and heavy cream. I ate a LOT last night, and I just had two left-over servings for breakfast. :mad:

I've got to pull myself together before I have a heart-attack.

Let's all drink more water, eat more protein and veggies, and be better to our bodies than we have been. :grouphug:

:mad: What is wrong with my body? I weighed myself around 1 p.m. today and I've lost a pound. After a week of no dieting or exercising, and a huge binge last night I lose? I think my stupid body's trying to confuse me.

Hi all, do you mind if I join??

I'm a classic binge-er and bulimic. Well, I think bulimic is too harsh of a word. I only purge when I binge and that's maybe 3 to 4 times a week.

I love to go to Wendy's and order 2 or 3 chicken sandwiches on my way home, eat them, and then make dinner and eat it too. :( I just can't stop eating most of the time and my weight shows it.

I've been pretty good today. For breakfast I had a protein shake, then some strawberries, lunch was a shake and an apple. Then I had a bean burrito (leftover from a taco place). I felt so guilty about it that it came up. I then ate a frozen fruit bar and a small mango yogurt. Dinner I plan on beef stroganoff with a big salad.

I don't know where my behavior stems from, but I do tend to binge when I feel stressed, which is almost everyday. I have a 7yr old, 2yr old and 9 month old twin boys and just never have a second to myself it seems. I cry almost daily and I feel so trapped, kwim? Don't get me wrong. I LOVE my kids, all of them, it's just SO hard sometimes.

Lily, I know exactly what you mean. Can you get a little time to yourself once in awhile? Could you get out in the evenings for a walk when your DH is home? Even if it's only a 20 minute walk around the block.
Sending you big hugs, sweetie... :hug:

*hugs* Wow, Lily! The twins would be enough...you've got quite a full load there. I am in awe, seriously. You're amazing. maybe take a 10 minute breather after the kids are all asleep? Shave your legs, put on a mud mask or something. Do a little mini-pampering before you go to bed.

Have something that's just for you at the end of the day...so you can look forward to it all day long! When you feel like binging, say "No, no, I've got a bubble bath planned. I don't need this food right now."

Hello all...I posted a while ago but then I stopped when...well to be honest I stopped caring. I had so many other things troubling me the fact that I could not control what went in my mouth was just the last thing I felt I needed to worry about. I am starting to get to where things are finally getting better and now once again I can see what I am doing to myself. So I think posting here...and staying here will be beneficial to me.

So I am on track for the day. My only slip up was a danish from the grocery store. Even though it would have been cheaper I did not buy a package of them as I did not trust myself. I bought one, and ate one. I try to make sure that I do not deprive myself, I try to allow for *bad* foods in moderation so that I can live like a normal person.

So now we are to the tough part of the day for me. Dinner time to when I go to bed is always such a challenge...Tonight I have a meal planned out and bought. Lean Chicken, South Beach Barbecue Sauce and White Corn. I have plotted in nutridiary EXACTLY what I can have and be on plan for the day. Now I just have to follow through and eat JUST that.

Why can't I just be normal and eat when I am hungry? If I stopped eating when I was hungry tonight I wouldn't have to worry about what else I may put in my mouth before the night is over...

Ok I am just looking at my post, rereading it. It seems so helpless, so by the way side, so I AM GONNA BINGE AND FORGIVE MYSELF AGAIN. But no, I refuse to. Why should I be too weak to control what I put in my mouth for one night? You wait I am so coming back tomorrow to report that I was a perfect angel tonight. I am just gonna babystep my way through to this will power thing!

Thanks for the kind words everyone. I'm trying to work in time for myself. Last night I went and played softball, came home, took a shower, fed the babies and then crashed with a book in the bed til I fell asleep. The twins actually slept all night so I woke up feeling pretty ok today. But, today is already a high stress day. My youngest twin has to get blood drawn. :( So, that alone has driven me to eat and purge. 3 sausage biscuits and some cheese. All that came up and then I drank a slim-fast high protien shake Yea, that balances out.

I'll be eating lunch out with the hubby today since we have to be out at that time for the bloodwork. Dinner tonight will be chili made w/ ground turkey and lots of beans and tomatoes. I'm going to try and be good the rest of the day. I'll either find a salad or chicken sandwich to eat wherever we go.

HAve a great day everyone!
~Lilybug

unbelieveable binge last night
 

i don't post enough to be known around here really, but i am so upset i just needed to write. last night i binged one of the worst episodes ever. ate 1250 throughout the day, all healthy etc etc, then something got into me and i went crazy. had about 1600 cals of peanut butter on crackers & bread (easy to do cause i love pb and so high in cals!). felt so bad about it and at the same time felt "i've blown it so bad, why not have more." i actually drove to sonic (i've never mindfully went out for planned binge food after already being home & late at night) and had a burger & shake, then went to the gas station and had baked cheetos & snackwells crackers. i figured it up and total, about 2940 cals over the 1250 to start with ---- 84% worth of a pound in one night!! i am so upset, my stomach hurt so bad but i didn't vomit... wanted to but didn't. this morning i feel so bloated and am thinking i should fast the whole day... which should be easy, just won't take $$ to work for food..... anyway i guess there's no point to this post, i just feel really disgusted with myself...

:hug: X 100

You may not post here often or be "known" but your situation is one that is very familiar.

I know how it feels to be "out of control", to eat insane amounts of food and then to feel the horrible, evil guilt afterwards. Please know that you are not alone, there are lots of people here who can relate to what you've gone through. :grouphug:

I can also relate to the feeling of, "I've blown it so bad, why not have more".
Usually I think, "I'll start over tomorrow". I've tried to change my thinking. Instead of using DAYS as a measure, I will use HOURS. Instead of waiting till tomorrow, I start over the next hour. I do a lot less damage in one hour than what I can in one whole day.

I am also very familar with the urge to NOT eat following a binge. Personally, it just sets me up to binge again.

Instead of feeling disgusted, please consider trying to figure out what caused you to binge. You can learn from this. There may be physical and/or emotional reasons. Awareness of what triggers a binge can help prevent a binge.

PHSICAL: You mentioned consuming 1250 calories during the day. Did you get enough protein? It REALLY makes a difference to many people. Are you eating enough calories? Have you been on a very restrictive diet?
Maybe peanut butter is a trigger food for you and you? ---if so DON'T buy it!

EMOTIONAL: Are you under a lot of stress, feeling exhausted? What's going on with you mentally?

I didn't mean for this post to be so long! Forgive me if I've stated the obvious and/or things you are well aware of.

I hope you feel better today, both physically and mentally! :hug:

I had an extra meal today more or less. It was a bag of green beans in basil garlic sauce, 4 slices of ham and a bunch of dried strawberries. It was a binge... a weird one but a binge. also had an extra handful of almonds I didnt need.