[spike_lover_002002]

im sorry i just needed a place to vent....im 17 years old i live in australia...i have been dealing with weight issues for nearly 2 years now.....i began being bullimic and then decided after a year i couldnt handle throwing up anymore so i stopped...now i have come to the realisation i have BED (binge eating disorder) i just hate all of this....i do so well, i eat perfectly and exercise for a week or two then i just ruin it all and binge....i want out so bad...i dont want to tell anyone because i am ashamed and i dont want to worry anyone im at the age where i can beat this and live a normal life, or i can continue down this path for the rest of my life...im not overweight im 132 pounds (60kg) but that number will get higher if i dont change my life around...im sorry i just wanted to get this out...does anyone have any suggestions or anything that could help me...thanks

[ellis]

I think it's great that you're reaching out for help now! You're right... you don't want a life of this. It's unhealthy physically and mentally.
The best thing you can do is to put aside your feelings of shame and get some professional help. I know that's easier said than done, but believe me, you don't want to get to my age (41) and say, "Why didn't I do something about this years ago!?"
Do you have a school councellor/school nurse or a doctor you can talk to? What about your parents? Are they supportive?
Don't carry the weight of this burdon alone. It's okay for others to worry about you. You're deserving of help and support. Sending you big hugs...

[Kate109]

Hi spike_lover_002002 and on board!

First: posting here and admitting that you have a problem is a great first step!
And not purging anymore is a victory as well!

I agree with ellis, the best thing would be to reach out for professionel help.

I am 25 years old now, so I try to say what I want to say without leaving the impression of "granny on a porch, knitting" with you....
You know, I am struggeling with ED since I am about 13 years old. And believe me: itīs getting more and more worse with time. The teen years (and early twenties) are the time when you make your expiriences with friends, boys, whatever. Donīt know about Australia, but here you have to start about studying, jobs etc. with 17 years. I made a lot of bad choices and missed a horrible amount of things in that time of life because I was caught in the ED.
And the road you are going on has just one direction: downwards. So it would be the best thing to seak for help NOW.

And about not wantig to worry the others: you have to trust yourself that you are worth it! And donīt worry about the others who might be worried about you- worry about you!

ED is connected with lonliness and isolation- at least it is for me. So breaking that cage and stepping out and reaching for help is a giantic step. But an important one.

Hope to read more posts from you!

Kate

[spike_lover_002002]

thanks guys so much you dont understsand how much i needed someone to listen to me.....i will really concider telling someone....went to the library and hired a couple books about recovery from COE and also DR phils self matters....i hope they help....right now its not about losing the weight its about getting healthier which i had never really thought about...

thank you all xoxoxoxo to all

[ellis]

I'm so glad you're taking charge of your life! That's what I like to hear about... positive action!!
Good luck, and please keep us posted.

[LeaLee]

I started Binge Eating at 8 years old So take it from me (29 now) get control of this now. I didn't try to regain control until last summer when my son(5yr old) caught me binging and made me stop. I realized I had downed 2 boxes of snack cakes in 2 hours I had to regain control and let me tell you its hard... SOO many years of eating without care and binge eating has made it so hard to break the habit. Its a daily struggle and I try to believe that the earlier you stop a bad "habit" the easier it will be. after 20 years of binge eating...its not easy. not that it will be "easy" for you but please do this now so it doesn't get too deep in your mind that this is the way to be. You have the power to turn it around!

[centrestage88]

Hi
I live in Australia too and I have BED too. It's hard and it messes up your life. But this is what this forum is for. For us to help each other and give each other support.

I'm pretty new too, but I'm sticking around. I love this site and the people are lovely. You take care and come back often yup?

[spike_lover_002002]

hey everyone, this has been such a rollercoaster week.....and im riding the rollercoaster upwards..ive been reading Dr Phils weight loss solution and it has helped me so much understand why im eating the way i am...god its such a turn around point...but i really want to thank all of you guys as well, your support means so much to me...i know this will be a struggle but with support i will get through....thanks so much from the bottom of my heart

[ellis]

Spike_lover, understanding the reason behind your eating is most of the battle! Good for you... you're really making a huge effort to deal with this, and I applaud you.

[mammasita]

You're very brave at 17 to take charge of your issues before they run away and completely take control. I started binge eating when I was about 13.....31 now, and just starting to really deal with it.

Good luck and big hugs to you!

[spike_lover_002002]

hey thanks for all your support i have been doing so well....Dr phil has helped me so much..im so glad i decided to nip this in the bud....

you guys would be so proud of me today.....well tomorrow my school is having Australias biggest morning tea....so i made 50 chocolate cupcakes and didnt eat any of them or lick the bowel...i didnt even feel the need to ...i can tell i have come a long way...with help from you guys thanks xxoxoox

[spike_lover_002002]

hey i thought id keep everyone posted...i havent binged in 10 days....it doesnt seem like a long time...but it is to me...in these last 10 days i have changed my life around...DR phil has helped me so much with understanding why i use to eat....i do not feel the urge for binging or high caloric foods....i have lost 3kg but that part doesnt matter as much as sticking to my meal plans which consist of lots of vegies, oats, yoghurt and grilled chicken......thanks to everyone

[ellis]

Spike_lover, I'm so glad things are going well for you! Keep it up, girl!!

[Lucky13]

way to go spike lover - you are a great role model for other young women to look up to

Keep up the great work!!

[spike_lover_002002]

today was my first binge in just under a month.....i feel disgusting....horrible, big and bloated....i hate not being in control...i just ruined all my hard work....im just going to have to start from scratch again tomorrow...just thought id let ya know my 'progress' lol