
I talked to my sponsor today after playing two days of phone tag. I talked about how I thought I needed a food plan, but was wary to initiate one because of my past experiences with restriction and bingeing. I talked about how I used to rationalize eating my now-forbidden foods by measuring them in ridiculously small portions (did you know that two tablespoons = 1/8 of a cup?). Of course, as soon as I'd eat them, my COE would kick me in the *** with a vengeance and it was off to the bingeing races! I was TERRIFIED of the weighing and measuring dumping me into that cycle again!
Anyhow, my sponsor pointed out that the trouble wasn't with the measuring, it was with the forbidden foods! Now that I just absolutely don't eat them... they're not an option...they cannot pass my lips without serious consequences to my health and well-being...I don't have to worry about it. I won't be measuring them because I can't HAVE them!
Jennelle









