Atoms- maybe we just need to be similar and both make it the rest of October!! ;-) I hope you're feeling better today- now when I want to binge I'll imagine you counting on my good control vibes coming your way- we can help each other out here!

Mottainai- welcome! Yeah, there are a lot of us who struggle- all with varying degrees of binge-eating... I hope you are able to get through the morning!

I stepped on the scale exactly 5 lbs up from yesterday... I could hardly believe it- I knew it would be up.. I know its a lot of water weight because my total calories yesterday "only" hit 4100... But 5 pounds? Sheesh... If that's not motivation to stop this madness I don't know what is. Today is a new day though and another chance to get it right!

My dad bought pizza :( i hate when he does that

I avoided binging tonight, didn't even come close or want to even though I spent the night "in" and watched movies, that usually equates to mindless overeating. I'm proud of myself for that!

Now for tomorrow! I'm going to try to eat a light breakfast/lunch with my friend and then plan my day OUT of the room doing healthy things like walking running going to the co-op, sitting outside, just not focusing on food. I can do this! I want to have a successful weekend just to prove to myself I can!!!!

Hanging in there for October so far :)

Hi All,
I'm very new to this site, and I'm so glad to have found this thread. Binge eating is my biggest problem. I've managed not to for 3 weeks now, it's like a miracle for me. But every moment I have alone, each time I'm stressed, bored or angry thoughts of bingeing are shoved straight to the front of my mind.

It's supporting to know that so many others suffer from the problem and are willing to discuss it openly on here. Nobody I know understands the issues with binge eating. I feel like a social outcast with both family and friends and suffer anxiety when out in public. I overcome this most days, but on others just one disapproving look sends me into a downward bingeing spiral.
It feels like I punish myself with food in this way, even though it's my best friend and my worst enemy, nothing takes the pain/shame/embarassement away like a good 'ol binge. Then the inevitable guilt follows and more shame.

These last few weeks I've found a new motto to follow "I will be judged in the end regardless of what I do, so I will do what makes me happy"
It's difficult to find what makes me happy but I know one thing....bingeing makes me unhappy.

The longest I've ever gone without bingeing is 6 weeks, so I'm halfway there. I hope you will welcome me into your group and I can offer support to you all. We can do this!!!!!! xxx

I have just started reading some of the post and feel like I need to pipe in. I am so glad that I am not the only one with this dirty little secret. I have been a yo yo dieter for years, over weight all my life. When I was in elementary school I would go and buy gobs of candy, mostly choclate and eat it all!! 6 chocolate bars...like grade 5-8 and EAT THEM ALL! I didn't come to realize that until I lost a pile of weight and when I praised off I started binging, worse then ever.
I was so sad, because I thought by me being at a comfortable weight, not to mention the smallest I have been, it would all fall into place.....BUT IT DIDN'T! Once I started eating normal again I couldn't control it....can't even say the calorie intake...scared to guess but my guess is over 4000.....grossly more I am sure at some points.
I was doing a low carb diet and the first thing people say is it won't work, blah, blah blah....but it did, and I feel more n control when I follow plan, but now need to figure out what I am going to do to maintain after I loose that last amounts I want. I just update my tracker to reflect the weight I gained and it like 13lbs in a month or so...wow! Ridiculous!
My husband now knows my secret but still hide my wrappers, so he doesn't know exactly how much, I am in therapy, but our family therapists I don't think is trained in eating disorders.
I a day 6 of no binges, back on my low carb plan. I weight myself on Monday and I was not kidding 160...something (cant remember now if it was 162 or 166...i was sooooo disgusted) and in 6 days I have loss a whole whack of water my body was holding and down to 148. When I told my therapist she was speechless.
Anyway I hate feeling deprived, yes a balanced diet would be better and hopefully one day I will be able to do that. I have irrational thoughts, I want to binge, I love the feelings it gives me, I want to eat what I want everyday....I feel deprived if I can't have take out two times a day, I feel deprived on any diet and I have done them all. I hate that I think of food every moment of the day.....I hate that now that I have been binging so bad, I never feel full. They say eat til your full, well I don't get full on regular portions and when I do feel kinda full I keep packing it in.....then finally I will be full and so uncomfortable it seriously hurts to breath, but still thinking of food!
Sorry for the rant, so much to type, so many feelings....sorry for the long read.
I am joining this challenge....good luck everyone!

Originally Posted by haley78:
Hi All,
I'm very new to this site, and I'm so glad to have found this thread. Binge eating is my biggest problem. I've managed not to for 3 weeks now, it's like a miracle for me. But every moment I have alone, each time I'm stressed, bored or angry thoughts of bingeing are shoved straight to the front of my mind.

It's supporting to know that so many others suffer from the problem and are willing to discuss it openly on here. Nobody I know understands the issues with binge eating. I feel like a social outcast with both family and friends and suffer anxiety when out in public. I overcome this most days, but on others just one disapproving look sends me into a downward bingeing spiral.
It feels like I punish myself with food in this way, even though it's my best friend and my worst enemy, nothing takes the pain/shame/embarassement away like a good 'ol binge. Then the inevitable guilt follows and more shame.

These last few weeks I've found a new motto to follow "I will be judged in the end regardless of what I do, so I will do what makes me happy"
It's difficult to find what makes me happy but I know one thing....bingeing makes me unhappy.

The longest I've ever gone without bingeing is 6 weeks, so I'm halfway there. I hope you will welcome me into your group and I can offer support to you all. We can do this!!!!!! xxx

I am not new to this site, but just realized yesterday that binging is a problem for others and I am not alone. I know EXACTLY what you are saying and feeling. Good luck in your journey, I hope we all can figure this out. What. Horrible way to live:(.........I know there is worse obviously but I would love to eat just to survive and not think about food 24/7

Originally Posted by mottainai:
I actually just joined this forum, but I'd love to join in here and get support for staying binge-free for at least the REST of October. This thread looks so supportive! Honestly, I had no idea there were so many other people who struggled with binge eating like me. My goal is actually just to make it two weeks, until my next counselling appointment, so I can the counselor at least I hadn't binged since last time I was there!

I almost lost it this morning, but I'm almost out of the danger zone, which for me is about noon, because if I binge after that, I know it'll ruin my appetite for dinner, and the binge bloat won't go away by the time I get home and will make my husband wonder what the heck happened!

I found a post I think you may have posted or you responded to ....planning a binge or not.....I couldn't believe my eyes....I am not he only one....and people are talking about it. Thanks for your honesty and good luck to you.

welcome to kelly and haley! dealing with binging is definitely difficult and I think we are all in some way hesitant or refuse to admit it to others, I have never talked about it openly with friends or anything. that's why the support here is so awesome, because no one will judge you and we are just here to help one another and listen to the good and the bad days :) so welcome!
haley- congrats on making it 3 weeks already without binging, that's a major accomplishment!
kelly- I think it's awesome you've been honest with your husband. hopefully his support will help you as well! :)

Good morning everyone!
Made it two days not binging so far. In a way those first days are easy, but they're also very very hard! You know, "just one more last time" and all that.
Weekend should be easy now, since I won't have alone time.
Hope everyone else starts okay over the weekend too!

Wow...I have some catching up to do.

Jessica- That's a great idea! I tried that last night and it worked. Didn't eat after getting back from my hockey game. :) Will be remembering you today as well.
mottainnai- Two days is definitely no small task. Well done!
beth- Pizza is a big trigger for me too. Hope it worked out for you.
AislaPearl- Hope your planning worked out!
Dreamer- Glad you're hanging in there! That's great!
haley&kelly- Welcome! We definitely all understand where you're coming from and we all have your backs.

Yesterday I went to a hockey game (woooo!) and didn't entirely stay on plan, but I didn't binge either so I'll take it as a victory. Going to beer fest tonight, which will involve some eating out and of course quite a bit of beer. But if I can manage to just have a very light lunch before I take off, I think my day will be fine. I have to get up early tomorrow so I'm not staying out any later, so no risk of overindulging there.

Atoms- yep! Your good vibes got to me! I'm two days in and feeling much better :)

Mottainai- two days! We're about on the same timeline! Great job getting a hold of your binges! The more good days, the better!

Hope that everyone is doing well over the weekend! :) two days down and a PR time for 8 miles this morning- I'm feeling like a champion!

my urge to binge comes with PMS
when that happens, I can not stop myself.
as if my body had turned on another switch...
so, I try to be good for the rest of the time to make up.
my weight loss is slow because of regains like that but still moving forward.
every little bit counts.

atmos - Great job! You're right to not worry about not eating "perfectly" -- just not binging is super!

danzingurl - Wow, 8 miles, that's amazing. I am so not a distance runner, lol. Good job on your two days, let's keep it going together!

masterptr - The urges get worse for me during PMS too. Plus I start feeling like I "deserve" it more during that time of the month, for some reason! Stay strong. (:

Done with day three for me! We went out for breakfast, which could have started the day off with overeating and lead to a day of binging, but I managed to keep it together. Luckily I'm still feeling strong and motivated at this point. Worried about next week though...Tuesday is my danger day, and I've already started the debating with myself, will I or won't I. Going to try to not think about it though!

hi girls, i'm back after a very rough two weeks ...one of the roughest and toughest, stressfull weeks of my life.
bad luck seems to be following me like a shadow. i finally moved to italy and since i came here things have been going wrong and i really don't have time to binge. i think i even lost a few pounds unknowingly because i move a lot troughout the day. last monday i had a car accident, ended in hospital, total shock for me, i could't remember where i was or where i was going- i was moving my stuff and i don't remember what hapened to me, i was on a highway and i lost control of my vehicle. i haven't told anyone about it because i don't want to worry them, now the huge problem is the car which probably can't be fixed and i have to demolish it and i'm broke. plus all my things are in that car and on top of that in another town. i asked my roomate to help me but he keeps postponing it and on top of that i live with 4 guys who live like pigs and i started searching for another appartment with some girls. i skipped classes the last few weeks, it's all just a disaster. the only thing i keep reminding myself is that the thing could end up even worse, luckily nothing happened to me and no one else got hurt. so right now there are so many other things more important to me than binging.
i wish all the best and hope you can find your equilibrium .

Originally Posted by missunshine:
hi girls, i'm back after a very rough two weeks ...one of the roughest and toughest, stressfull weeks of my life.
bad luck seems to be following me like a shadow. i finally moved to italy and since i came here things have been going wrong and i really don't have time to binge. i think i even lost a few pounds unknowingly because i move a lot troughout the day. last monday i had a car accident, ended in hospital, total shock for me, i could't remember where i was or where i was going- i was moving my stuff and i don't remember what hapened to me, i was on a highway and i lost control of my vehicle. i haven't told anyone about it because i don't want to worry them, now the huge problem is the car which probably can't be fixed and i have to demolish it and i'm broke. plus all my things are in that car and on top of that in another town. i asked my roomate to help me but he keeps postponing it and on top of that i live with 4 guys who live like pigs and i started searching for another appartment with some girls. i skipped classes the last few weeks, it's all just a disaster. the only thing i keep reminding myself is that the thing could end up even worse, luckily nothing happened to me and no one else got hurt. so right now there are so many other things more important to me than binging.
i wish all the best and hope you can find your equilibrium .

Wow!! Glad you are ok. I hope things get better for you.