I TOTALLY failed for the past 10 days.

On September 28, I took a trip, and sure enough I binged all three days even though I purposely chose a hotel with a kitchen so I could cook healthy food. The Monday I got back: binge. There were a couple of days I ate until I nearly threw up. And there were times when I didn't even have a craving for a particular food.

Was good on Tuesday and Wednesday, then binged Thursday. Back on track Friday, but the moment the weekend came I binged again.

Worse yet, last week I didn't exercise. I feel so bloated and fat. I can barely cross my legs. I was practically force feeding myself. And to make things worse, I have to go out for breakfast on Thursday morning, then to an all you can eat Brazilian steakhouse on Friday....


I feel like such a loser because, while I'm not terribly religious, I made a promise to God that I wouldn't binge this weekend and I broke my promise. I look huge, feel huge, and am not happy that I still do these stupid things. I would picture myself gaining back all the weight, just like I did last time I got complacent.

Well, what's done is done. I refuse to let myself go back to 331 pounds. I exercised this morning and have eaten appropriately all day. I wrote a list of foods I will avoid for the rest of 2012 and am going to try to stay on plan for the rest of the year, with one meal off for Thanksgiving. I can't let myself fail.

But you know what else? I had some of the most delicious donuts I have ever eaten in my life:devil:

I know is Ocober 9th already (New Zealand ), but ive just joined and would like to participate! :) ill go till the 9th Novmeber so no cheating the month haha


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Kittykatfan- I just want to send you a big hug and let you know that I FEEL for you! I know that feeling oh too well and would never wish that on anyone. The good news is that it will pass and you CAN continue on your journey and keep on going. I believe that you can do it and with your amazing loss so far, I'll bet you've learned a lot along the way and can take the right steps to move on! I find that no matter how badly I binge- a few days back on track and with a few good workouts later I ALWAYS feel 100 times better.

Atoms- progress is progress- no matter how slow! That's what I keep telling myself... It sounds like we're about in the same place as far as bingeing frequency goes though- a week is really great for me too!

Today I ALMOST binged. Since I'm not trying to lose a ton of weight, and am training for a half marathon, I try to keep my calories in check but if I'm dying ill allow myself up to 2,500 calories 1x per week if I HAVE to. More than that and I feel like I've lost control and count it as a binge.

Today was one of my 2,500 days... I am not loving that I ate that much- especially since my last binge wasnt all that long ago- but I am loving that I was able to stop at my limit (even though it was still pretty high)... So- 5 days down. Hopefully my high day today will help to keep away any urges for at least a few more days... Or weeks :P

/nekobasux- welcome! Good luck getting through the month and I hope you find the support you are looking for! :)

I have been binge free since Oct. 3rd. That was the day I began my weight loss journey again, but this time I am doing it the healthy way.
I came so close to binging yesterday, I felt soooooo hungry, but I left the kitchen with nothing.

I'm glad to hear that you guys are attempting to not binge. Such an inspiration that I too vowed for a binge-free October. I actually started at the end of September and so far, its been great! I have a little dry-erase board on my fridge door in which i write in every day how many days ive gone without bad stuff. We're up to 12 days everyone! Not a single drop of alcohol, junk food, nor binge attacks!

I read somewhere that it takes 21 days to break a habit. Let's test that!

Begone binge!! :D:D:D:D:D

I only ate 1100 calories yesterday not really on purpose, just wasn't very hungry, and I think that had something to do with the fact that I was really hungry today! I managed to stop my eating at 1600 calories for the day, and between the two days, it evens out. Gonna have an OP day tomorrow of 1300 like I planned and keep kicking this week's butt. I felt the urge to binge but I REFUSE to let myself get back into those habits. Instead I took my computer and went and did some homework. I hope you are all staying strong this Tuesday! :)

KittyKatFan - We definitely all sympathize. You're right that all you can do is move forward from here. It's never too late to hit reset and keep moving through the journey to nip this for good. We're here for you!

nekobasux - Welcome and good luck!

Jessica - Even though you had a high day, you avoided the binge. Well done! Control is the important part.

tubolard - Well done with the binge-less streak!

FitMel - 12 days is awesome, congrats! The 21 days to break a habit is a good goal to strive for.

Today is a victory for me, even if it won't sound like a typical one. I've been having an emotional time recently, and after work today I was all set to binge. After dinner I decided I was going to binge, and screw it I didn't care. As I had my second serving, I was thinking about the other foods I could binge on and decided I didn't want them. I was ready to be done eating. It was different and incredible. Very excited! So even though I'm about 200-300 over on calories for the day, I'm pleased (as long as I manage not to eat the rest of the evening). I don't want another frowny face in my signature.

We can really do this!

Originally Posted by danzingurl77:
Kittykatfan- I just want to send you a big hug and let you know that I FEEL for you! I know that feeling oh too well and would never wish that on anyone. The good news is that it will pass and you CAN continue on your journey and keep on going. I believe that you can do it and with your amazing loss so far, I'll bet you've learned a lot along the way and can take the right steps to move on! I find that no matter how badly I binge- a few days back on track and with a few good workouts later I ALWAYS feel 100 times better.

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Thanks for the encouragement. I have been back on track for two days now. I still look soooo big, but at least the water weight is coming off. I have been in the bathroom every couple of hours! And I can cross my legs relatively comfortably again. Hopefully I will keep shedding the water. It is very uncomfortable.

I am back to exercising again too. What a huge difference in mindset I have when I exercise. It keeps me from binging. I NEVER binge on exercise days.

Still nervous about Thursday breakfast and Friday dinner. I will choose the least damaging menu item for breakfast and try to eat only half of it. And for the dinner, I will do my best to not order seconds. I am going with a skinny friend, so I will try to imitate her eating habits.

I have forgiven myself for binging and am going to do my best to keep on track for the rest of the year...

Kittykatfan- glad to hear that you're back on track and starting to feel better!

Atoms- any victory over bingeing is a great one in my book. Today I am SO glad that I didn't completely give in when I wanted to yesterday... I'm willing to bet that you're feeling the same kind of self-satisfaction that can only come from accomplishing something worthwhile, like resisting a binge :)

Alisapearl- good to hear your success story as well! I hope your Week goes as planned!

6 days down for me- and NO urge to binge today. Even just that is something for me to celebrate. :)

7 days today. I wanted to binge SO bad- I kind of still do to be honest. I've had such a crappy day that the irrational part of me says that I deserve to enjoy something tonight, while the smart part is reminding me that as crappy as I feel right now, I'll feel even worse if I binge- and I can't handle feeling worse. So I'm NOT going to binge, and I'm going to feel better tomorrow.

KittyKatFan - Glad you've found a better outlet (exercise) to replace binging, and it sounds like you've got a good plan for the next couple days. Good luck!

Jessica - Sorry you've had a rough day. I'm glad you came to this thread instead of binging! You do deserve something to enjoy, but binging isn't enjoyable at all once it's done. Hope you found another activity. And 7 days is great! We seem to be kindred spirits - I didn't have a terrible day but I'm still having some negative emotions from work, and I was really tempted to just go for the food tonight. But then I thought about how I've stalled the last couple weeks, my January goal, and the wonderful people on this thread, and I've resisted. :) Dammit, I want today's smiley face!

hey ladies. hope this week has been okay for everyone!
danzingurl- good job on resisting the binge. if the urge is still there, maybe you could take one food that is really calling to you and eat it in a different setting like outside and only allow yourself one portion? or order one portion at a restaurant or something? just a thought

kittykat- i'm sorry it's been rough for you lately! but I think exercising definitely has a lot to do with my binging or atleast the urge to binge. if i know i am not exercising my appetite is through the roof, also i think "why not just eat something" etc. do you find that you binge when you deprive yourself and are really hungry? sometimes if I don't eat enough I have the urge to binge more...



this week has been pretty OP for me thankfully! I always have trouble on the weekends though, especially friday and saturday nights! I am going to think out a pretty solid plan for the weekend filled with activities to keep my mind off food and focused on other things like drawing, exercising, watching a movie, going out with friends, studying, painting my toenails, etc etc. any suggestions of things you guys do to keep your mind out of food/binging?

Starting over again... The stress caught up to me today and now I'm
So full I can hardly move. 2 binges so far this month... I'm going to do my best to avoid any more.

Alisapearl- thanks for the encouragement... I actually tried going for justvone serving of candy to "satisfy" my craving... Went to the gas station for one chocolate bar, and then saw too many things I wanted... I left with three candy bars, a bag of chex mix, and a bag of twizzlers. :( guess I'm not quite ready for even small treats...

Atoms- I hope your negative work feelings go away and that those smiley faces keep on coming!!

Jessica - We need to stop being so similar! Stress and all caught up with me as well and I binged yesterday. I didn't go too far because I had to go out in the evening, and when I came back I worked out and generally avoided food so I thought I was good, but then I binged again before bed. Ugh.

Went for a short jog this morning. Maybe the binge will be a good thing in the end if it kickstarts more exercise for me. I've been slacking lately.

I actually just joined this forum, but I'd love to join in here and get support for staying binge-free for at least the REST of October. This thread looks so supportive! Honestly, I had no idea there were so many other people who struggled with binge eating like me. My goal is actually just to make it two weeks, until my next counselling appointment, so I can the counselor at least I hadn't binged since last time I was there!

I almost lost it this morning, but I'm almost out of the danger zone, which for me is about noon, because if I binge after that, I know it'll ruin my appetite for dinner, and the binge bloat won't go away by the time I get home and will make my husband wonder what the heck happened!