Day 7 of no binging over with, and onto Day 8. Not feeling great today, had bad stomach cramps during the night for some reason, and my stomach feels really hard and bloated this morning. Hope things improve throughout the day and I can manage a good workout at the gym later.
Paris....How are you feeling? I have been thinking about you a lot over this last week or so. Don't let the year mark freak you out. You've got this. You CAN do it forever!! I really look to your progress and it helps me with my own. We may not post very often anymore, but I am always glad when you continually feel good enough to post your feelings and anxieties here. It helps me and I know it helps the others that come here too.
Today is Day 206 for me. I started thinking about the reality of achieving a year. It used to only be a dream for me...and now here I am on that road.
I have had 2 NSV's since I last checked in: I bought a treadmill yesterday. And my weight this morning now put me in the Overweight catagory and no longer Obese!
Okay, things are continuing on apositive note for me. I had lots of people around me over an extended weekend, and that always helps to keep me on the straight and narrow. My worst time is in the afternoon...my morning routine is set pretty well and easy to keep to it. As the weather imporives, I am hoping to get outdoors more in the afternoon that that will help. I have a lot of social evenets happening over the next 6 weekends and I am very very concerned about a hard and potentially long fall off the wagon and into the buffet table (lol).
Okay, I was back on the wagon and absolutely perfect yesterday. On plan and no binging. So, that's 1.
I'm a little worried about tonight. It's margarita Tuedays which is hard to begin with, but I'll be home by myself for an hour before going out... and I'll be at home hungry. Wish me luck.
After a two-ish month hiatus, I am back to once again try and kick my binging cycle to the curb. I constantly feel like I'm taking one step forward, two steps back. From December to February, I lost about six pounds and went a good 50 or so days without binging. Then I messed up, had to start my count over, and just felt so defeated and self-sabotaged that I've spent the last two months binging almost every day and have gained ten pounds as a result. I am extremely frustrated with myself, but I'm also working on self-forgiveness, especially considering it's been a difficult few months what with being diagnosed bipolar type II, experiencing rapid cycling, and having to deal with a crackpot psychiatrist who keeps trying to put me on the wrong meds.
Anyway, point is I'm trying this again. I did so well the last time and I felt much better about myself--if I mess up one day this time, I am going to try not to let it completely throw me off.
welcome back eurydice, i'm sorry to hear for your bipolar diagnose. i really think i'm bipolar too. it is really great that you spent 50 binge free days. i'm sure you can do it again.and occasional slip is not such a big thing as long as you stay on track.
this is my day 3, i think. i was babysitting unexpectedly and was so stressed cause they were so naughty and i kept snacking on everything that was around. if i had any babies now i would probably gain sooo much. when i heard that they were coming for a visit i instantly wanted to go buy bag full of junk but instead i went cycling so big big big plus for me. and yesterday i went shopping and wanted to turn it into binge session but i ignored my cravings because i was happy and went home empty handed
Last edited by missunshine; 05-03-2011 at 04:28 PM.
Day 2- I lowered my calories to 1100-1200 yesterday, trying to get back down to 108lbs. I actually feel better & have more energy. So far, so good. Lost 2 lbs of water weight too! I was starting to crave junk today, trying to ignore it!
Day 8 was a success although I wasn't as on plan as I like to be mid week, and also ate more sodium than normal so am feeling bloated today and the scale is up, but each day binge free is a huge success for me.
Now onto Day 9.
Paris....How are you feeling? I have been thinking about you a lot over this last week or so. Don't let the year mark freak you out. You've got this. You CAN do it forever!! I really look to your progress and it helps me with my own. We may not post very often anymore, but I am always glad when you continually feel good enough to post your feelings and anxieties here. It helps me and I know it helps the others that come here too.
Today is Day 206 for me. I started thinking about the reality of achieving a year. It used to only be a dream for me...and now here I am on that road.
Thanks for the note! I'm glad I can help you out, we need to all stick together! I'm doing okay. I was actually just think about how I have 9 days to the year mark, and I have no doubt in my mind that I'll make it. After that, who knows though. But I'm working at it.
This past Friday, I just got the horrible news that a good friend of mine was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer--not really even much a glimmer of hope in those words (although I'm convinced that she'll be one of those freak cases that lives much longer than predicted). And the surprsinging thing is, I haven't felt the urge to binge since. I was feeling it strongly for about a month, and then this past weekend--nothing. I don't know what it means. Maybe something related to health, who knows.
She's such a healthy person, which is why it got so far undetected. And it's a form of lung cancer that's becoming more and more common in women who don't smoke--so it really showed me that I have to live my life, and that I can only do so much about my health--something will eventually kill all of us, no matter what we do. Part of living my life fully is making an effort at a healthy relationship with food, while recognizing that beating myself up about my unhealthy relationship with food will do nothing.
I'm sure that urge will come back, it always has in the past. But I'll keep fighting it as best I can!
You're at Day 210--you're getting closer and closer--and you can totally make it! I do think it actually gets slightly easier with the higher number. Not because you lose the urge, but for me, the thought of starting at day 1 was soooo horrid that falling off the wagon just isn't an option because it feels so overwhelming.
With some bad luck, my boyfriend destroyed a glass shelf in my refrigerator before we were to head out to the bar. The glass went into the garbage disposal. Two hours later everything was cleaned, the disposal had been taken apart and put back together, and a new shelf ordered. Therefore, we didn't go to the bar. Good luck on the calorie front, however.
And my weight this morning now put me in the Overweight catagory and no longer Obese! 
