Latley i have come to realize what behavior brought me to this weight and is keeping me here...stress. within the last year i gave put on close to fifty pounds...this is the first time i really admit that to anyone im so ashamed and embarassed but today(after i ate 2 donuts! eek what am i doing?!?!) it hit me all this started when i started working two jobs my work day is 6am to 10pm and i constantly snack and stress eat...i cant say no either its someones birthday boom im eatting the cake and i hate it.
ive been doing atkins or trying to and its not that im even hungry on the diet, the plan works for me but i break down...alot. i really want to quit my second job, i know i dont need the money but for the past year ive been used to it lol im just scared and scared that if i do quit what if i still fail on my diet?
i do have alot of confidence that it would change if i had some time for myself in my schedual now the question i was going to put in another month here and quit in june but can i really afford to live like this another month...
im so frustrated im getting married in sept and i want this weight gone and the only way its gonna happen is if i have time for me
sorry for venting but i hit a breaking point today