Day 1. Again. *sigh*
My emotions have been all over the place, and I'm having a very hard time dealing with it. All I seem to want to do is sleep or cry. Or eat. I'm stressed out and depressed, but I should be dealing with it much better than I am.
I'm doing well so far today. I just got back from a two hour bike ride and I'm exhausted. I'm glad I made myself go though. I get a lot of anxiety about it because I really hate being out in public, and I think I look really silly in my helmet (but I'm not going to not wear it, because I'm aware of how clumsy I am

) and I psych myself out with all the "everyone's going to think you look stupid, fat girl on a bike with a helmet" thoughts. And I know it makes no sense to think that way but I'm not sure how to stop.
And part of me feels like I don't even deserve to post here cause I'm asking for support
again cause I messed up
again and eventually I'll run out of chances.
