I'm on Day 79--you'd think I'd feel strong and victorious, but I feel tired. Not physically tired, but emotionally tired. Tired from having to stop myself 80 million times a day from just thinking about bingeing. It's weird, as horrible as it is health wise, and as awful as it makes me feel physcially, I miss that liberty sooooo much. To be able to not worry about what I'm eating, just eat whatever I want, whenever I want it. I don't understand how everyone isn't obese, there are so many delicious things out there, why would you not want to eat as much as possible of it all?? <--Weird relationship with food!
I MADE IT !!! Yesterday was 30 days!!!! I feel like a million bucks - I am soooo tootin' proud of myself!!! Paris81 - I COMPLETELY agree with your comments ... and look to your for inspiration to make it as long as you have!
I hope, someday, I loose track of how many days I've gone without a binge... because I am finally at peace with food....
I meant to join in last night but passed out asleep before I could. I just ate a pita. I'm about to update my new weight loss blog and map out my meal plan for the day. Hurray day number one?
I'm on Day 79--you'd think I'd feel strong and victorious, but I feel tired. Not physically tired, but emotionally tired. Tired from having to stop myself 80 million times a day from just thinking about bingeing. It's weird, as horrible as it is health wise, and as awful as it makes me feel physcially, I miss that liberty sooooo much. To be able to not worry about what I'm eating, just eat whatever I want, whenever I want it. I don't understand how everyone isn't obese, there are so many delicious things out there, why would you not want to eat as much as possible of it all?? <--Weird relationship with food!
I HEAR YOU 100% on this.
It is just so tempting to want to give in: TV and an open bag of chips / 3 servings of cake, etc.
I have not only what I would call a weird relationship with food but a true obsession.
grr i have not been to the gym since Sunday and that has severaly affected my food choices (along with insomnia). Tomorrow i am cutting out my trigger food officially....Peanut Butter. no chocolate or peanut butter. i dont feel good eating them and i can't control it no matter what so sayonara! day one starts again tomorrow and it will be healthy and friendly for the future lifestyle i am going to live.
Day 7!
If I make it through today I'll be binge free for a whole week. And I know today will be ok, because I had to fight the binge monster badly last night but I won.
In the end I just lay in bed hoping that I would fall asleep soon so that I could get up in the morning and eat. I will have breakfast now and I am proud I didn't binge eat even though I wanted to so badly.
I'm new to the site, well a lurker before, however I've gained thirty pounds this last year and have made a resolution to get healthy. So here I am committing to no-binging. Last night was a great night - even with the hubby eating a ding dong right next to me. Everyday is a new day!
Brenda in WA
Day 8.
But again I was so close to binging. I went to the pantry all day long, staring at food.
Just before going to bed I wanted to binge again so badly. I remembered how I felt when I came here last week and I realised I didn't want to feel like that again.
I did some snacking last night, but it only amounted to 55calories or soemthing. I was tempted to just keep eating but didn't.
I was again tired and didnt' work out (I am eating less cal than I am used to).
I did wake up early today to compensate for it, and got on the treadmill.
