I'm a little bit scared because tomorrow I will leave for my holidays, two weeks in a foreign country in a sort of "european youth organized camping"... very cool, but I won't be able to choose ANY of the meals

I HOPE to take it as a challenge, and I have to remember that I'm still able to choose what goes into my mouth
I just fear to feel defeated or irritatated after a couple of days with too much unhealthy food or too carbs ecc (PLUS, they know I'm vegetarian, so I fear they are gonna cover me with carbs because they are not used to that

) and therefore to fall off the wagon and indulge and overeating for two whole weeks.
I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT.
I'm doing so good now, I'm very close to my goal and I've never been this thin before (really... well, except when I was 14 years old

) and I don't want to ruin everthing. Not just for the two tweeks themselves... also because if I come back after a two weeks of overeating (usually I don't overeat... I do binge... but I guess I will be too ashamed to binge with strangers... and I won't be able to buy-and-hide food... so prolly I will overeat) I know there is a HIGH probability that I will give up.
BUT, now that all is said and done... WELL,
I can say, better, DECLARE, that I will try to take it as challenge for me

Let's see if my relationship with food has improved, then! Let's see if I deserve this thinness! I'm sure I do!

So I will try to take day by day, meal by meal... I will try to make EACH LITTLE choice towards the better... let's see.
Of course when I come back I will RUN here for accountability

HELP ME LADIES!

and see you.. almost soon!