Jane,
Get in your car or on a bus or have a friend come pick you up. Go do something else so you aren't around the cabinets and the fridge. But, don't go to a drive-through! Find something else, another activity to take the place of the one you are doing now; eating. Do you have triggers for binges? Boredom, hurt feelings, loneliness? Try to figure out what triggered this binge and do the emotional work rather than eating. You can talk about why you started bingeing here if you have any idea. I know you will get lots of compassion and support here.
Dieting is hard work and it gets tiresome and sometimes we all just want to throw in the towel and give in, but it takes a long time to lose and then you're back to square one, so try to do some damage control now. Sometimes when I am tempted to overeat I go and look at the sucess stories here. They so motivate me, and they take my mind off of the craving I am having.
Food addiction causes a lot of shame and distress. Have you ever considered over-eaters anonymous or one of the other self-help groups? Can you afford therapy? Feelings of wanting to die are indications that you need help, more than I feel qualified to give. I have used therapy and when I was ready to let it work for me, it helped me immensely. You have to shop around and find someone you feel comfortable working with. I even found someone who took sliding scale when I did not have much money. I learned a lot about my early life experiences, why I reacted the way I did to triggers and how to spot problems brewing and take action so I could feel better. I hope you get some professional help, as well as the help here. We all deserve to be free of problems that make us feel as badly as you obviously feel right now. Do something kind and loving for yourself, pick your self up and forgive yourself, too. It's just food, it's just an impulse control problem, and you are spiritual being who deserves to feel a core of love rather than shame and pain.
Sheri
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. You must be feeling very down right now. Please, know that others have been there too and you are NOT alone. Are you on a plan of any kind right now? I'm afraid I don't have the right advice for you, as I'm more of a compulsive/emotional eater and I know that's a different issue, in some ways. Hang on, slow down and try to relax. I know some of the other chicks here will chime in with wonderful words of encouragement.
