[miaddiction]

hi so im new here.

i feel its the only place for me atm,.

im out of control with binge eating. masssive binges like all day everyday!
im not hungry just emotional obsessive eating. addicted to food.

only thing i have atm. im alone and scared and dont know wat to do.

i dont understand it. i was anorexic for 2 yrs. and went down to 4st 5lb. im 5ft 7' and atm weight around 7stone.

im now bulimic. have been for 3 yrs now.

its took over everything my life.

this past week i havent been purging enough im so drained and tired. and its more and more difficult.

only got out of hospital 2 week ago. i had low potassium severe. and irregular heartbeat had drained my body of all electrolytes and was dehydrated and hypothermic was on drips and was in a week until my levels wer safe again. went 8 days no binge or purging.

hardly ate in them days. felt ok again.

now im out of contorl and back to old habits but WORSE than ever before :'(

my stomach is constantly bloated and painful.

i cant seem to purge it.
im serious i dont know why im still eating i just do all day non stop and purge but never enough.

anyone know how to stop this mess?
im so frightened and alone all the time.

why is eating the only thing. its so insane

HELP

[Pachyderm]

You are not alone. There are thousands of people out their with similar experiences to you, and you now have this forum full of wonderful people to support you too.

From reading your story, I really think that you need to try to get some professional help with this. This is a disorder, not something that you can easily just stop or control.

[chris313]

Please go to a doctor who specializes in eating disorders. You are certainly not alone, but this type of disease makes you feel as if you are. You need to let go of the emotional control binging and purging has on you, and to do it with someone who knows the best way to go about it.

You are so much more than the number on a scale. You are a human being who deserves to live life to its fullest, and you are not doing that right now. Go back to the hospital and tell them you're not coping well and you need help. Please come back to the boards and post often, we're all here for you.

[CousinRockingChair]

This is beyond 3FC, angel...you are seriously ill with an ED. Your weight is anorexic even if you have been showing bulimic behaviours..PLEASE go back to whoever treated you/hospital.

I hope you get the help you need.

[Lunula]