My mantra for this week is: "Progress, not perfection"
I don't know if any of you are like me, but I'm a real black/white thinker. If I can't do something perfectly, I don't want to do it at all. That mantra really helps me to remember that any improvement is worth celebrating!
I'm very pleased that I've been able to cling on to my abstinence throughout this tough ordeal. Its challenging, and frustrating, but I'm plodding along. I try not to think too far into the future, I just focus on today.
I'm in again this week. I've been doing allright and I too was a black and white thinker but had to really work on changing that in order to stop bingeing. I try to tell myself there is nothing I can't have and when I feel a binge coming on I stop and ask myself if I am actually hungry or just eating without thinking. Usually it is the latter and I try to have a tea first. I think trying to have a perfect diet is how a lot of people overeat.. you think, well I already blew my diet, might as well eat another one. But it isnt one splurge that makes you gain weight! We all deserve a treat sometime. I try to find a balance between a healthy diet and a manageable/livable one.
Last night was terribly hard for me, but I managed to make it without eating anything after 9 PM. I had breakfast this morning, and just now ate lunch, and I feel OK. I tried to be mindful of my portions; I find that if I eat a large meal, the compulsion to over-eat hits me even harder, as does the compulsion to binge.
i'm going to try this this week... or for the rest of the week anyway.
sara, interesting about eating a large meal and feeling more compelled to binge then - i'm definitely the same way, but i never really thought about it before.
Went to the pub last night, for a few drinks and to eat. I stuck to diet coke all night, and ordered a meal without sauces and other trigger things. When they brought my plate, they'd got my order wrong but I sent it back. I feel a bit bad for being akward, but I'm paying for the meal and my dietry needs are as important as someone with an allergy.
Felt a bit ill after the diet coke. I think I'll have to avoid that in future. That only leaves water at pubs and restaurants. Why does no where sell diet drinks other than water and diet coke? I don't like water, but it'll have to do.
Husband has been asked to go to Canada for a week in October. After the difficulty I had when he went to Japan, I think I'll go with him. Hopefully the doctor can prescribe something for the flight - my social phobia and claustrophobia means planes aren't the best place for me. Suppose I'll have to work something out with the meals on the plane.
I've just joined the forum tonight and I started on Monday this week. On day 3 now without a binge so hoping I can get past Thursday/Friday as that's the nights I usually start binging and it will carry on into the weekend. That's when I will restart on the Monday. Been that way for years now.
I'm in! It's funny but I don't know exactly how long it has been for an actual binge! Weird for me not to remember exactly! I am dealing with PMS today...got up pissy...made DH's lunch...dropped part of said lunch on floor and had to re-do! Then got told how pissy I was being...(validly I might add)but didn't help...drove him to work. I stopped to get gas and then headed over to the gym...there wasn't any spaces...finally saw a guy heading for his Hummer...Cool! He pulls forward instead of back, almost ran into me, and by the time I got pulled back around someone else had taken the spot!!! Had myself a nice little hissy fit...proceeded to drive to the only place that was open...confronted by doughnuts and coffee...actually picked up the bag for one of the doughnuts...put it back and walked back to the car...called a friend and told them I needed to be talked down from the doughnut!!! Got a huge laugh from them and talked in the parking lot for about an hour...went back to the gym found a space...did 45 minutes on the crossramp and here I am with you fine ladies! (and gentlemen if they are out there!) Victory over PMS!!! Victory over eating just because I was irritated!!! Just plain Victory!!! If I did it you can too!!! I promise!!!!
I have to admit I binged last night on food that I drove pretty far to get. I knew it would be binge food and yet I went specifically to the store to get it. Im disappointed but moving on. If there is one thing I won't do it is make myself feel too guilty over stuff like this. People dont get overweight on one binge. Tomorrow is a new day with new choices.
I hope everyone else is doing better than me this week!
I'm probably going to have to take a little break from the internet on husbands suggestion. Just wanted to let you all know so you don't worry.
I'm doing okay, its hard to get from one day to the other, and I almost caved last night. I'm pleased that I've not given in, but I'm not please that in spite of all this hard work, I'm getting more and more ill. I suppose it could be worse. I could be this ill and 9kg heavier. Thats progress I suppose!
Thanks for the support and friendship, you are all wonderful and its been a pleasure to be here
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