HELP! Im in a spiral! I need help.....I think I wrote that last tuesday was Dales birthday.....and see, there was this cake...white with buttercream flowers....and since then, its been all downhill. After tuesday it was" well, hey theres still some cake left" and then thursday, and friday it was 'well the car shows coming up"....the car show was a disaster (food wise) , french dip, bbq ( sweet) tri-tip, chili beans, garlic bread and more cake.....and since then its been handfulls of halloween candy, left over cake.....I dont want to do this!....I havent been on the forum becauseI cant figure out what to say or how to get back on track...I need help girls....I havent walked since last thursday.....Im starting to do that 'hey, I guess im just fated to be fat...and Dale, God love him isnt helping because he 'loves me regardless" please help me...any words of wisdom would be SO appreciated....
Marie
Marie, noooooooo fat is not your fate. Brush off your knees, put a band aid on your boo boo and get up! Take a deep breath and march right back in there.
My dear sweet lady, its not easy and we are not perfect but remember, persistance wins, not perfection.
This is to everyone..... Now that the holidays are coming up, the best thing to do on atkins is prepare, prepare, PREPARE!!! make sure there are good OP goodies in the house for the special occasions so you are not tempted. Last year during christmas is when I failed myself miserably... don't do what I did.
Oh Marie! Leenie is right! Just dust yourself off and get back in the race!
We have all had those kinds of weeks, months, years whatever.....what really matters is that you keep trying. I know that that in itself can get tiresome but think of the alternative. What happens when we have blowout weeks....we gain. Even if you could maintain for the next month through the holidays won't that be an accomplishment? It is only 2 days and couple of parties thrown in for temptation....that's it.
You can do this, we all know you can. We are here for you. Don't give up.
Hi Marie.
I was in this same spot that you are almost two weeks ago. Mine started with chocolate on Halloween. I wanted to have chocolate for a couple of months and was going to try the low carb version. But then got a few warnings here so I decided to go for the real thing and I thought well Halloween would be good. Not everyday is Halloween. I have some, get it out of my system and that would be it. Well 12 pieces and 800 calories later that was not the end, LOL. Monday morning, November 1, I told myself it is not that bad, I had close to 1400 calories yesterday. No harm done. But November is not a good month. I don’t like it and thus started my three day binge. You name it I eat it, pizza, pasta, fish and chips, more chocolate, chocolate cake, ice cream, and carrot cake. I was completely out of control. I felt bloated, tired, cranky, and felt that I was borderline to becoming depressed again. So Thursday morning, I told myself that I am going back on induction. Boy was that hard. I didn’t remember induction being hard the first time around. By late dinner time I was in tears. I was hungry; I had a killer headache and wanted to just eat. I thought what kind of life is that if I constantly have to tell myself no you can’t have that. I told myself I am going to have pizza but I would get up earlier tomorrow morning and go for a longer run.
As I was struggling to decide to order pizza I started reading my diary. It is just a file I keep on my computer and put down how I feel once in a while, nothing thought provoking, so I thought. I read about the day that I tried on a size 8 pants and was able to zip it, the day that I was able to run one mile without stopping, the day I tried on a dress and felt attractive, the day my doctor told me that I could stop my medications. I looked at my recent pictures and compared it against couple of older ones I have. And then I told myself I can’t go back. I don’t want to be the person I was 8 months ago. I can still eat what I want but not all the time. The feeling of full of energy is not worth giving up for a piece of pizza or a dish of pasta. So I went home and had tuna and told myself that I take it one night at a time. I went to bed early that night, woke up early the next day and went for a walk. Yep, I didn’t have any energy to run. Came home made myself healthy breakfast and started my day. Friday was easier than Thursday but still pretty hard. Saturday and Sunday it got better, by Monday I thought I was back on track, but still was a struggle; it still is almost two weeks later.
I learned a few things. Trigger foods are real. Mine is dark chocolate. Not that I am not going to have it again. I sure am going to have more dark chocolate but I am just not going to have it when I am an emotional mess. Another thing I learned is that starting over is hard. It is easier to stick with it, LOL. I can’t give myself green light all the time, not yet anyway. I sure am not going to give myself red light all the time either. I thought when I was allowing myself to have a few treats a week it worked best. I thought the WW way of thinking ahead and planning to have indulgence worked for me before. But then I have to remember that indulgence is one meal, not one day, not three days.
So now almost done with my two weeks induction, I am almost back to my lowest weight, another 1.8 and I can start seeing new lower numbers.
So my advice to you, which is more like to myself, is that start right back on the program the minute you realized you have fallen out of track. That is the best time. Next don’t expect it to be easy. It is harder than you remember, but hour by hour, day by day it gets easier to the point that you feel in control again and as Leenie suggested, plan ahead. Know which meal you are going to celebrate, enjoy and indulge. Then do it and be on track the next meal. Also start writing down how you feel. Do you know how much your one words means to you? If you don’t keep a diary, maybe you could search this forum for your own messages and see what have you been posting when you felt in control, powerful, healthy and just overall amazing.
We can do it and we can do it easier when we stick together, LOL.
I know you can do this you are just feeling bad and thats where all this comes from. I know exactly how you feel cause Bryan my DH loves me any way I am and even though he doesn't know it, he sabotages me sometimes, god love him. It is normal to fall off the wagon ever once in awhile I think it just makes you apprieciate the times you have had big wins so much better. I have been in a sprial since October 1st and it has been hard, hard, hard..but I am finally winding my way outta the grasp of the guilt and shame for being bad and seeing that I don't need to do that to myself, it is OK to flub up every once in awhile we are of course mearly human!
1st thing I thought.....if you can limited the flub up to one or maybe 2 days then get right back on.
2nd thing...DON'T HIDE!! If you stop posting and you hide cause you feel bad. we can't help you (I do this every time I mess up)
3rd thing... just confess and get it over with, a reality check is great for the soul, I confessed yesterday and changed my siggy weight, as long as I hadn't changed it it was like it never happened, well it did happen and i have to face it.
4th thing....don't trust will power when you feel like that, will power is great when you are doing good but tricky when you are not, RID the house of junk food, Dale will understand.
Hope that helps little lady, PM me is you need to!
I love you guys! thank you! thank you! thank you.
Well, I did a weird thing last night after stuffing my face and fighting with Dale....for a wedding gift I got a beautiful big silver heart shaped box, that is covered in crystals and mother of pearl...I got it from a girlfriend of mine who struggles with a lot of things, but is one of the most spiritual people I know...inside it there are a bunch of pretty big colored glass uh....globs? don't know what to call them, like a glass puddle about the size of a silver dollar...and each one is engraved with something....like "peace" "patience" "love" 'self control" etc....my girlfriend told us, "when one of you just isnt strong enough to give these things to yourself, pick out the ones you need help with and give them to the other person....ask them to put them under their pillow and pray for these things FOR you before they go to bed.....So I picked out patience, self control and inner peace and I brought them to Dale. this morning I got up and walked 2 miles, packed myself a big lunch of OP food, and I feel better than I have in a week....
You guys are the best- it really helps when you see that you're not the only person in the situation.....thank you.
Marie my dear lady!! If you remember, you're now in the place I started. Isn't it amazing how we keep going in circles? We do good, then mess up and then guilt sets in and we start degrading ourselves and doubting ourselves. We really have to stop doing that. We're human-we mess up. Heck, even machines mess up. Words of wisdom from me? Sorry, I'm in the same struggle so we can learn together, eh? Hmm..best advice??? NEVER GIVE UP!!! So you slip up. Did you notice that you didn't do what you'd "normally" do and just keep going on that path? Congratulations and cudo's to you!! It's always harder to pick ourselves up and ask for help. You CAN do this and WILL do this. It's what you want. As long as you keep trying THAT is the main thing. Allow yourself a treat once in a while. Or not if you're strong enough NOT to. I'm making "planned" cheats. That way I KNOW I have to stay completely OP during those other days. Is it going to work? Never know until I try it. I might have to find a different way. But the thing is to keep trying different things until you find the way to make things work for you.
Take a bow for the first step and let's all learn together
Mayday!mayday!
