Well this may be the most obvious thing in the world but I found out yesterday if you feel a binge coming on, going grocery shopping is not a good idea.

I got home from my workout, had my post-work snack, had another one and then was still hungry so grabbed a granola bar on my way out the door. While driving to the first store (I'm a multiple store kinda gal), I was determined not to binge and popped in a stick of gum. Looked at all the bulk candy / nuts / snacks but managed to resist. Got to the car and decided I needed something so I grabbed a banana. But by store two, my willpower was pretty much gone. I grabbed a candy bar on the way out. Store three just kicked my butt. I proceed to buy ice cream sandwiches and take-and-bake cookies. Ate most of both last night along with several other snacks.
I'm just having such a hard time kicking these binges. I think I know why they started (I went home in November, ate a normal breakfast and lunch but big dinners and snacks) and gained 7 - 8 pounds. Came home and got rid of it pretty quickly. So I think I have this mindset of "No big deal if I gain, I can just take it off again." But that's really not the case. Because at some point in time, I'm going to gain before I lose. And 1 -2 pound gains will start adding up. I think it's also not helping that my weight had not really gone down prior to this binge-fest I've been on. Well hello you idiot, you've been lifting weights like crazy! You've probably put on muscle weight!
I do not want to gain back this weight I've spent all this time and energy taking off. Not for health reasons, not for vanity reasons. I mean, I've created a business around this. How would it look for me to balloon up??? I think I'm going to take the rest of the week off (at least today), think about what I need to do to refocus myself and get my arse in gear!

I have to keep remembering that I've done this before, I can do it again.
For those of you that are stumbling as well, I can't be much of a cheerleader but I can tell you I know how frustrated you must feel. I wish everyone on this challenge the best of luck for the last half of our challenge. Maybe overcoming my demons will be the success I find at the end.
