Oh man I can totally relate. In both ways:
In high school, I lost 20 lbs by self hypnosis and it happened pretty randomly and I honestly didn't even notice it. I was the thinnest I've ever been at 116 lbs. Except when I saw myself in the mirror I still saw the bigger self, and I was self conscious. I thought I was fat. Now I look at pictures from back them and I'm amazed at how thin I was and how on earth I could have thought I was fat. Sad story lol
Then, I started gaining weight in college and I started feeling goof about myself. I felt pretty, I felt thin, I felt good. Until one day I saw picture of myself and there I was, back to where I started - 15 lbs packed on in 3 months. But I still didn't feel fat, I thought, it's just a bad angle, the weight isn't correct, I still look good, no worries. Then I gained more. And now I'm like wow I cant keep lying go myself any longer. I need to lose weight. So this is where I am now.
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