[DancerPrancer]

Every time I think about losing weight I have to remind myself that the perfection I'm after wont be possible. :P It's hard to keep my motivation geared toward wanting to be healthy rather than becoming the model-perfect 'beauty' I feel I need to be. I was even going through a period of "I wont look good enough when I lose the weight, (because of bad stretch marks on my belly and such) so why even try" :-/

:P I'm slowly accepting myself and shunning that side of my psyche out of my conscious.

[DancerPrancer]

Originally Posted by twentysixpoint2

I'm going to de-lurk on a de-lurker's thread!

I wish my attitude about the lack of "Magic Bluebirds" were as healthy as the rest of yours. I've been 210 at my heaviest and 108 at my thinnest, and at every point, I've realized I still look the same. Parts of me look horrific after losing weight. The only real aesthetic benefit is that I look better with clothes, but without, it's a trainwreck. My chest looks worse than ever.

On the bright side, I guess it's a lot easier to run a marathon without packing an extra 80 lbs.

I'm scared/ashamed of the 'naked me' too. :-/ Once I get the extra weight off, I'm afraid of what my appearance will be. Even as of now, with only losing 35 pounds I can see where I am and will be sagging permanently. That even if i look good in clothes, I'll feel like I'm lying somehow because I know what my body looks like naked and it's nothing like the clothes make me appear. I wish self confidence and acceptance were as easy as taking a pill! ;p but then again we all learned to not like ourselves so it'll just take some effort and time to un-learn it. .. .... I hope.