Dora! Now I have porch AND pantry envy.

I just drink water. Party drinks are never a problem. I take my water bottle everywhere I go. If they have red wine, I will have one glass.

As for food, get one plate, eat what I want, then throw the plate away. It is rarely the first trip through the food line that is the problem.


I am so sorry hear about your cousin. SIL was murdered 5 years ago by her boyfriend.

Last week I decided I need some new workout shirts becouse the ones I have are xlarge and were to big. YEA , So I ended up going to goodwill and it was half price day. I was able to get 2 brand new champion shirts (had the tags still on them) and some new work tops (cato,coldwater creek),plus 2 white tshirt for under 12.00. I was so happy !
There was a lady who bought 248.00 in clothes the reg price would have been over 500.000 !! And it all was for her. The she told us she had 4 large closets full but she needed some things. I could not imagine spending that much money just becouse.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend.

Paula

Just got back from a 1 hour walk. Was feeling a bit down... no real reason, just impatience and embarrassment I think (impatience because my weight loss is going slowly... and I know everyone is different and I AM losing and I didn't gain it overnight yadda yadda yadda; embarrassment because I wanted to go for a walk and my DF suggested he and the kids go with me... I don't like the kids to see me struggling and huffing and puffing... plus I just want to WALK you know... when we go out with the kids it becomes more about them almost by default and less just about me...). I'm getting married in just over 4 months and, while I knew before, it really sunk in that I'm still going to be 'fluffy' on that day and that's not really what I want (I know it's not about my body, it's the significance of getting married that's most important, but still, who doesn't want to look good on their big day????).

I'm rambling now, but I just wanted to post that I pushed through and went out and walked and now I feel a bit better. I'm just really glad I have this support system - I think of you guys when I make my decision to go out and do it and that maybe my team will one day be very proud of me

Velveteen--I weigh about 25 pounds less than I did when I got married. I look at my wedding pics and think, "Thank god I am not that girl anymore."

Renee -- you're doing GREAT! I know what you mean about being frustrated and impatient and wanting to look your BEST on your big day but don't let those emotions drag you down though! You really are doing fabulous and 4 months will have an impact and while maybe you won't be at the lowest weight you will achieve you are so beautiful you're going to look FANTASTIC!

Your team is already very proud of you, we know how hard this can be on a daily basis!

paula what a find.. i love thrift shopping you never know what treasures you might find for a bargain.. and you payed a 3rd of what 1 of those items would have cot.. here a plain tshirt is $30 Jeans $40 .. and kids clothes arent any better .. Boys jeans $28 .. tops $22 used to be able to get Jeans for $12 but not anymore.. so i thrift shop.. and ebay purchase too to dress my kids .. I love the hunt too ... i have such a laugh at some of the clothes in those shops.. I can giggle my way threw the racks very happily ..

Renee your gonna be a stunning bride.. havwe you decided hpw you will do your hair and make up.. and what you'll be wearing????? lol When i got married i bought a 2 piece satin dress.. that was too big when i tryed it on then too small when i had to wear it lol.. I planned my whole wedding start to finish in 6 weeks .. and was 20 weeks pregnant when i got married.. hence the safety pins holidng the skirt together.. lucky it was a two piece.. they were neatly hidden buy the top
I had the most romantic wedding proposal.. too ...... "Is it mine,? oh i spose we shoudl get married then" lol.. romantic isnt he.. lol This was when i told him i was pregnant .. hehe.. is it his.. what does he think .. i met him when i was 14 and never even kissed another boy/man and we had been living together for 2 years lol.. i was 19 when we got married .. and living in the same house im in now.. lol and i still love it.. ..

TY everyone tyou guys are right.. i should just ignore whats being said by the people other then my friends.. Its only the kids primary school what does it matter to me.. I hope she decides to take her kid else where.. she has 2 other schools near her house.. As for the friend that bumped into her.. she was angry with me for about a week .. but we talked about it on friday and she thinks the other girl is just trying to make trouble.. they are all angry at her becuase she is saying stuff about thier kids too .. She was going around saying she wasn't coming to playgroup anymore becuase all the kids were hurting her baby .. and im sure you mums of little kids can understand why that lie is a bit upsetting in a group of really nice kids .. I really just needed a vent thanks for listening .. I do find it very strange that she as almost obsessive about seeing me and now she is making out like im a bad person though.. I actually feel sorry for her still.. I stasrted talking to her becuase i felt sorry for her.. she said she had had a misscarriage and she was alone in the school hallway balling her eyes out.. I dont know now what she has told me is true or not.. there are so many things she has made up then forgotten over the time .. that i just feel sad for her and her kids .. she seems like such a nice person.. .. but i can see the game she plays she just wants people to feel sorry for her.. and she manipulates people that way.. starange isnt it when your gone past something before you realise you were being played .. She is now using me to try to make others feel sorry for her..
Im not playing into her game .. im not gonna even mention her name.. its done its over i feel sorry for her.. but there was nothing more i could do..

So i have spent most of the day stuffing around lol.. i have had alot of crampy crappy pains so i have done nothing today .. and its midnight now and im not tired .. becuase i have done nothing all day .. lol.. catch 22 .. i have been on singsnap all day singing away lol.. here if you want to scare yourself here i am .. i stuffed it up but saved it becuase its funny . listening carefully at the start you can hear my two elephants running up the hallway lol .. http://www.singsnap.com/snap/watchAn.../play/b5d99b08
How can two little kid make so much noise on the floor just walking lol ..

So this is what i did today listened to a whole load and sang a couple.. lol .. i love it on ther so many interesting poeple singing .. so many great songs

Thanks, girls. Really. At least I can SAY these things here and not feel like a complete freak. I mean you know the score, you know the emotions, you know that here are harder days than others... I appreciate your words.

Amy - I haven't made ANY decisions yet actually! I'm afraid to buy something that won't fit later on down the line... hair, make-up... maybe I should start figuring that out!

Good Morning! Ok, so yesterday I did NOT do so well. Actually, looking back it wasn't terrible. Good news, new day and a fresh start! I am right back on plan today! Unfortunately TOM is here and I am feeling all bloated and icky. I am really tired too, so I plan on hanging out w/ the dogs today. Hopefully I can find a good movie to watch.

I already have my gym bag packed and in the car for tomorrow! No excuses there!!!

vertigoskyy- Thanks for sharing your garden with us. Very sad to hear about your cousin, Mary.

Hay Cats and Kittens,

I'm down 3.6# . It has been ridiculously here, even the wind is hot. The last three day's were over 100, today is supposed to get up to 98 and tomorrow is supposed to hit 95 ... It makes it hard to walk anywhere let alone the gym . My air conditioner only works if your standing 6 in from it. The kitty's have been sleeping in the bathtub, I think I may join them. lol. There are a lot of flood alerts going on around here because the heat is causing a lot of snow melt in the Sierra's. Glad I'm a towny and not in the foothills.

My costuming final is done. Didn't quite complete my garment (no sleeves) but neither did anyone else. I think I got at least a B. Of course now my back is killing me from standing over a cutting table/ hunching over a sewing machine for hours, then having to cart my giant box of project/supply's back and forth to school. I think I aggravated the muscles I tore last year . I'm going to swim as soon as the Y opens, that should help.

Now I just have to study for my math final and clean house. I wont have the time/ energy starting tuesday. I desperately need to do laundry (almost out of clean underwear!), there are scraps of fabric and paper all over the place, and the heat has got the kitty's shedding like mad.

I haven't been tracking my points like I should but it's not to bad since I've only been eating Peanut Butter sandwiches 3x a day and my appetite has been suppressed since it got so hot. I don't have money to buy any food and everything else I have requires cooking, not gonna happen till it cools off. Been drinking lot's and Lot's of water.

I've earned my first Cabana boy is this week . I know exactly who I want.

Renee - I totally understand the need for exercise 'me' time, and I don't even have kid's. lol. You will be a beautiful bride. I know you don't have to many plans yet but are you thinking traditional or maybe something more unique? All of my friends who have had theme weddings had the most fun. One was on Halloween so it was come in your costume , one was victorian (everyone looks good in a corset ), my favorite was in Las Vegas and was Rat Pack theme (swing dancing, fedoras and forties dresses... you gotta love it ). The more traditional weddings were great too but much more stressful for the bride and groom, they always seem to feel there is some standard they have to love up to, even with smaller weddings .

LBG--I think I can solve some of your problems! Sleep at the Y and use the scraps of fabric to make more underwear.

Don't worry about the house. It will still need to be cleaned when finals are over.

Things that have made me happy today:
1) got cute pair of skorts in the size I wanted
2) my mom always will split lunch with me so that if I want a Reuben, I only get half

things that have made me happy today:

mowed lawn before it rained
ran into a friend

great idea...things that have made me happy today:

I talked to my best friend on the phone for over an hour, it was great to catch up!
My dh will be home in time to eat dinner together
I made a nice healthy salad, haven't eaten any yet--but it's all ready when I want some

Went to a friends for a bbq lunch.

Ended up having a cheese burger, veggies with dip, and an deviled egg. I stayed away from all creamy salads. Oh, and I had a bite of dh's cake and that was it!

Things that made me happy today:
1. Knee feels much better!
2. Bike ride with DH got to see a peacock in full display AND a nest of baby ospreys (so cool!)!
3. Planning a trip to Big Sur!