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Welcome, friends, to the Sept Ups & Downs thread, 2015.
We welcome anyone in this thread, so please if you are lurking join us. We are a great group. We are here to lend support to you, always, so please vent away!!!!! and again, Welcome.
My mood is better today, not sure why. I am just glad it is. Yesterday, was the pits. I have a lot to be thankful for in my life.
My weight is at it's worst right now, I feel so big. I hate that. I need to do something, I guess walk but I hate walking. It's so boring. Does anyone have any videos that are good for beginners?
I do have a lot on my mind but I'm not going to let it bring me down.
Lisa: I just realized it was time to start a new thread. Thanks for keeping this group going! 😊 I just posted a few replies in the August thread. I hope everyone hops on to this September thread and we can get a lot of support flowing again! I will have a brief absence (hopefully only brief) after surgery on September 9th to place (again) my left tissue expander as part of my breast reconstruction after my bilateral mastectomy (in March) due to breast cancer. I had to have the left tissue expander removed back in April due to infection. I am growing very tired of and leery of more surgeries, but this one is necessary for my emotional well-being and, quite frankly, will be physically easier in the long run I hope! Anyway, I am sorry to hear that you've been struggling a bit, but so happy to hear your resolve that you will not let a few (or several) bad days bring you down. I will keep you in my prayers! 💖
I gotta run, but please know I will check in when possible and post when I am able. Hang in there and have a great rest of the week! 😊
Kathleen, I am sorry if my starting the monthly thread made you upset. How are you feeling? How are things going? Good, I hope.
Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. Even if you are going through a bad time, you remember others. That makes you such a wonderful person in my book.
I am so so today, ladies. My mood could be better but I am trying to keep my chin up. Tomorrow is pay day and I need to pay myself first. I have been forgetting to do that. It is important to pay my bills but I am broke after doing that. I need food money, spending money, etc. Tomorrow I will do that.
My Saraquel is working pretty well, my anxiety, the physical aspects are much, much better.
I will check back in tomorrow. Have a great Wednesday. Much love to all.
The first of the month is always hard because I only receive my disability benefit on the first of each month. This month, after I paid all my bills, and I bought groceries I had hoped would last the month, I found I only had less than $50 for the rest of the month, and my 18 yr old son has consumed half the food I bought already. When I asked him if he had submitted his application to the place he said he was going to apply for work at, he said he does not know if he wants to do that. So I got sad and upset. I have to support myself and him on about 1900 a month and with him being home all the time now ( graduated HS in end of May) and just eating food faster than I can buy it, I may soon be on a forced fast. It sucks, I was supposed to be off seeing the country, traveling in my VW bus right now, but instead I sit here and waste my days a way on the computer as I cant afford to do anything, Heck, I just realized as I type this, I cant even afford to buy food. and when I tell him this, all I get is "I am a developing young man and I need more food than you." Then get a job and start feeding yourself for goodness sake! :sob: makes me sad.... I thought I did a good job raising him and when he was in high school he had ambition and dreams and now, nothing, just plays on his computer all flipping day.... I had also planned on saving 123 bucks a month and shutting that off after he graduated as he was supposed to go on in the military to Quantico but nope.... sigh....
Cikan,
Oh sweetie, I am so sorry. *hug* I know your pain about not having enough money for the month. I, too, am on disability. Most days we don't have food either. I am short of money again after paying a few of my bills today. I need to find a way to pay my car payment and electric bill. I need to find another second job. I had one for a while but it brought too much stress into my life. I am going to have to start looking for one soon. You love your son, I have no doubt but you're going to have to do something to get him going. He can't take advantage of you like this, put yourself first.
Ladies,
I miss your posts, I hope you are ok. I think of you almost every day.
I am having an ok day. I went and bought groceries this morning. It's nice to have food in the house. I took $100 and bought meat, side dishes, cottage cheese, salad, the makings for a salad, frozen dinners, bagels, bread, etc.
That's about it for now. I'll check back in tomorrow. Much love to all.
Hello friends!! LISA you are da bomb (do people still say that ) for keeping this place going, you are such a sweet person, I just read through August and YAY to you for keeping on even when you have bad days!! Was scary reading about Jennifer but so glad it was not a heart attack. Are you managing with your car payments now?? I hope so and so glad you are doing well on the med. here are more
KATHLEEN - omg your family committed you against your wishes?? i can't even imagine how awful that must have been. YAY to you for getting through that!! and all your surgeries...and huge congrats at losing 45 flippin pounds, boo to the meds that made you gain. I will be thinking of you especially on the 9th!
Cikan - hello!! I am sorry to hear that your son is being a doo-doo head!! Money worries are awful aren't they. I hope he comes to his senses and helps you out! and looking forward to getting to know you
EASY SPIRIT - hI!! congrats on being 140 you little thang
so again many apologies for being absent, it's been a 'trying' summer, husband has had job worries (due to a psychotic b*tchy boss) and they have been treating him awful for so long, then they canned him and it is really hard for a 'mature' (over 50) person to find a job nowadays. He did get one, only after just a week or so, and it pays like half what he used to make, but he is happy and that is all that matters. But he's been unhappy for a while and that means that we did not do anything fun this summer. Work, eat, watch tv, go to bed.
So the same week that happened, my beloved Subaru Forester did not pass inspection because her frame is rusted out...I loved that car!!! and she still looks good and runs good but you can't drive a car with a bad frame! so we had to scramble to find a used car for me, bought one on Saturday locally, I drove it today to work for the first time but the friggin turn signals don't work!! and the check engine light came on, wtf .
I have been working 7 days a week because I was so scared about money, and I guess I am burning the candle too much because I was so stressed about the turn signals and such , then I was not paying attention and put twice the chocolate into the brownie batch, then started sniveling and had to have a cry in the storage room!! i have never done that before, I am just frazzled feeling.
So I see I have ranted here but I guess that is what this place is for!
I don't mean to sound as if it's been a horrible summer, I'm still at the good summer job, and the weather has been great in that I've been riding motorcycle to work almost every day, that is fantastic. And my yard looks so nice, green grass and flowers well-tended ( I cut the grass at least once a week and spend almost 2 hours weed-whacking/trimming) and I am healthy but still chubby
Holly, I am so sorry about your car situation. I know how much anxiety that can cause. You sound really stressed, I am sorry about that, sweetie. I wish I had a magic pill that we all could take to help us with bad situations. I am having problems with my car situation too, I need to figure out how to make a car payment. I was working 2 jobs, I had to give up my second job. Now I'm going to have to find another second job that isn't so stressful. *sigh*
Thanks for thinking I'm sweet, Holly. I try to be a good person. I don't always succeed but I do try. Life just always has so many surprises for us. I wish I was better at maneuvering life, I really do.
Well, that is about it for now. I will check back in tomorrow. Hugs to all.
Last edited by Lisaluvshearts; 09-04-2015 at 03:47 PM.
WOW,Vermontmom, I never heard of them inspecting cars for rust... when I was in ND, I knew a farmer who had an old Subaru Brat, it was all rust, no floorboards, the bottom half or the car was all gone, but he still drove that thing around LOL
and Lisaluvshearts, hang in there, You are lucky to have a job, and even you can get a second one, that is awesome! SInce I have disabled and unemployed for over 10 years, no one will hire me. My pension is through CalPERS, from when I was a deputy. I had SSDI a few years ago as well, but the crooked SSDI doctors took it away from me, since I had to go to an appointment in a car my wheelchair did not fit into and had to walk with my crutches. SO, they lied on their report and said I was fit to climb scaffolds,a dn ropes, even though I am clinically obese. (No, I never in my life worked a job where I climbed scaffold or ropes, but hey, if the SSDI says a clinically obese 56 yr old woman with a 99% disability rating can do it, then I must be able to , right??? LOL Now, if I was addicted to pain-killers instead of allergic t them.... then ya, I suppose I still would have my SSDI... but I do not and since I have so many limitations and have not worked in over 10 years, no one will hire me for even part-time work. oh well, life goes on.... Still, hang in there, there is a good day ahead... waiting to surprise you
Hello sweetie, I hope this post finds you well. I am so sorry you lost your SSDI. That is what I have and I am thankfully, able to work part-time. I still have reviews and point out to SSDI that it is good for me to work, despite my disability. It is good for my mental health to have something to do, somewhere to go, and to have structure to my day. Anyway, enough about me...I really do hope that posting here helps you feel better. That is what we are really all about, that and making friends. Venting here is so good for you, so vent away. Thank you for your well wishes. My days are better since my anxiety has improved. I am very grateful. I was so bad for such a long time. Looking back at it, I don't know how I made it through? I was just miserable.
Anyway, have a great Sunday everyone and please post if you can.
Much love to all.
Last edited by Lisaluvshearts; 09-05-2015 at 09:12 PM.
I am up in the middle of the night. My dog woke me, she needed to potty. I am ready to head back to sleep though. I need to get up at a reasonable hour in the morning, I am heading to the lake to watch the boats for a while. I may take my book with me and read a couple of chapters too, while it is so quiet. I am one of those people who cannot read with the tv one. I am heading back to bed now, I am drowsy.
Hello!! I had meant to check in every day, I will try to do better.
Lisa, did you go to the lake the other day? sounds nice to just sit and enjoy the view. I'm so glad to hear your anxiety has improved!! I have also looked back on times and wondered 'how did I get through that' and just been thankful that I did.
Cikan, hi! that is crazy about the disability disputes, sorry you had to go through that. I am sorry that you are willing to work but can't get hired how is the situation with your son? Oh and about my car, oh my gosh, cars and New England weather, the battle against rust is terrible, because from December through the end of March, there is salt and brine applied to our roads almost every day, you can have a car with an engine that will go forever but salt has eaten away the rest. And yeah our inspections are rigid about that.
But I am getting used to the car, at least it runs, and I'll get the issues fixed eventually.
My husband has a new job, something totally different, and different schedule than me, now that my evenings are solitary, I should use that time to work out. I did 30 Day Shred last night, that was a start.
Hello to everyone else!! and thanks again so much to Lisa for keeping this thread going
I didn't go to the lake the other day. I woke up late and decided not to go. If I had gone, I wanted to go early.
It is so good to see you posting. We missed you so much, we really did.
My anxiety is so much better, I feel like a new woman, truth be told. *big grin*
Hi everyone,
It is a long story but I am off work for a couple of days, not of my choice.
I hope you all are having a great day!!!
I took Jennifer to an appt. in Columbus today, it's about a 45 minute drive due to construction. It is mostly highway but the construction and then highway traffic makes it awful. She is having surgery. I won't go in to it but she doesn't need to be driving home after having stitches put in.
I had my ears cleaned out in the doctor's office today and it was a pain, literally. It hurt. I don't know if any of you have every had them done but it hurt and they still hurt.
Lisa I'm so sorry to hear that the doctor's visit hurt you I sure hope the pain is gone tomorrow!!
it ..is...WONDERFUL to see you type that you feel like a new woman!!!
I think I might have mentioned before, that I am always in *awe* of someone who can drive in big city traffic, like around Columbus!! THAT would freak me out sooo badly. I always leave the driving to my husband or whoever else is in the car. I just have a fear of taking the wrong turn and getting lost forever or something So when I see that you casually drive around like that, I think you're Wonder Woman
Hope your daughter is doing OK after her surgery.
I am sorry that it was not your choice to be off work, I know when that happens to me, its always when I need the money!
In fact, our paychecks were not ready today, because of Labor Day. Hmmm...making the common laborer wait a day for their check because the pay roll company had the day off...not right
Hi! I am new to this forum (3 days) and just found this support group! My struggle with anxiety/depression and resulting weight gain from medications has been simply maddening! I've slowly watched weight come on while at the same time cleaning up my diet and exercising. I would bring it up to well meaning friends and my physician and continued to get the same feedback: diet and exercise (translation: you must be doing something wrong). I went at it like this for three years and finally threw in the towel. My physician was skeptical about my actual diet and exercise practice so I agreed to see a sports medicine doc who, after many appointments, agreed that the medications were the problem. I had no thyroid, PCOS, or diabetic issues. My diet was clean, well under maintenance calories, and I was working out 3 to 5 times per week - even he exclaimed I should be losing weight. Finally, after having a "professional" see my struggle, my other physician agreed to make medication changes. They have been super slow but successful. Fast forward to today, I have decided to do a low carb plan to detox and kick start weight loss (fingers crossed) and came across this forum looking for support. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in this process and, frankly, not many people understand unless they've gone through it. So, I will be looking for, and hopefully giving, inspiration here to those that do understand and aren't going to deny the painful side effects of certain medications. If you got this far, bless you and thank you .
Ups & Downs Support Group Sept. 2015
you are da bomb (do people still say that 
) for keeping this place going, you are such a sweet person, I just read through August and YAY to you for keeping on even when you have bad days!! Was scary reading about Jennifer but so glad it was not a heart attack. Are you managing with your car payments now?? I hope so 
and it is really hard for a 'mature' (over 50) person to find a job nowadays. He did get one, only after just a week or so, and it pays like half what he used to make, but he is happy and that is all that matters. But he's been unhappy for a while and that means that we did not do anything fun this summer. Work, eat, watch tv, go to bed. 
how is the situation with your son? Oh and about my car, oh my gosh, cars and New England weather, the battle against rust is terrible, because from December through the end of March, there is salt and brine applied to our roads almost every day, you can have a car with an engine that will go forever but salt has eaten away the rest. And yeah our inspections are rigid about that. 
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