Hahaha seems like we are all having similar issues. Mine is self induced though. I said I was starting on Feb 18th its now the 22nd and I have not done a single thing right. I have eaten M&M's everyday as they are at the receptionist desk sitting there asking me to eat them... I got on the scale this morning and weighed in at 275. OI'... that is not good. Now 15 lbs up since Oct. I could too blame it on TOM as it is around the corner, but I know it is more than that.
Last time I did this I felt so darn motivated. This time I feel complacent. So I have been reading lots of posts. Trying to participate in this a lot more and drinking my 90 oz of water. Thats all I have going for me today. Tomorrow however is a new day.
Just got back from the cardiologist. As you can probably guess, not much to tell. H has to wear a monitor for 30 days. He's more than a little frustrated. He was really hoping that we would be getting him much, much closer to a pacemaker. I'm trying very hard to keep his spirits up, but I have to admit I'm frustrated too. I get it, they want all the info they can get to be sure they are doing the right things...but ARGH!!!
He's chillin' for a little bit before we go for a walk. I think he is getting stir crazy. He's basically been stuck at home for a couple of days. A couple of days?? I'd hate to see what would happen to him if we were snowed in, right?
roxannestags: LOL! I love the sight! My cousin had this big ole black cat that loved to walk with us. Course half way through the walk he'd get tired & stop. Then he'd cry & fuss that we left him behind. We'd pick him up on our way back. I think he thought he was a dog or at least part dog. Good job on your exercise! Keep it up!!!
NEMom: DARN IT! I was sooo hoping for a loss for you! Don't feel bad though, I'm stuck too! I stepped on my scales yesterday AM...STILL AT WHERE I WAS 2 MONTHS AGO!!! What the !!! 'Nuff said? I think my scales are going to get shipped to some deserted island. Maybe I'll send them on a Carnival Cruise? Someone can toss it overboard!
Course I'm just going to keep plugging away, one day I WILL have a loss. I feel better. I do have more stamina. I do have fewer aches & pains, it easier to get out of bed in the mornings. So even if I don't see a loss...it is paying off in other ways. Just know, you are not alone!!
P.S. You are not too old! Health is important at every age! I'm pushing 50, but I'll be darned if I'm giving up! I'm doing to do all I can to be one of those women that people say, "She looks great for 50!!!" WISH! HOPE!
2Cats: I HATE weighing & measuring. It's a math thing for me. Math has always been a stumbling block for me. The way I started measuring my eats. Is I look at what I called a "normal" serving...cut that in half or even smaller. When it came to fruits/veggies...doubled it or tripled it. When I finally enough was enough I was basically eating NO fruits/veggies just red meats, snack foods & goodies. SOOOO WRONG! I also tell myself seconds only on the fruits/veggies. Big portions & seconds is was led me to where I am today.
LindaWW: Do something, do anything. Every little bit helps! When I was at my slimmest...I actually weighed about 170 lb., but it didn't look like it! I was lots of muscle & had tons of stamina. Oh what I'd do to have that all back...but I'm working on it!
sept2012:LET'S GO!!! LET'S GO!!! Not going to let you sit there eating your M&Ms!!! Believe me, those M&Ms are not your friend. Think of them as the little pebble in your shoe that is holding you back from an amazing goal. TOM is tough, but I find if I have a plan it's not so bad. I actually plan more exercise, more H2O & even healthier eating when I know it's lurking. My biggest stumbler with TOM is salty, crunchy snacks...I think it's the iodine I miss. I keep soy nuts on hand. They give me the crunch & the salt, but I can only eat about maybe a couple of oz. But that is enough to keep my cravings for chips at bay. I also make sure I drink more H2O to account for my sodium intake. Exercise during TOM...do it! It helps with cramps (if you get those---I do), & also the PMS. sept, you can do this! You are worth it! Give yourself healthy options to counter what maybe placed in front of you. For some reason, spicy Chai tea helps me fight of cravings for sweets...don't know why, but it does. Hope you find something to help you!
Well, time to go for a walk! Got my camera...who knows what I might see today. Sending cyber sunshine to all of you who might not be having spring type weather.
BE HEALTHY! BE ACTIVE! BE THE AWESOME 40-SOMETHINGS I KNOW YOU ARE! GO!!! GO!!! GO!!! GO!!! P.S. May this healthy Friday carry you through the whole weekend!!! USE THIS!!!
I will go back this weekend and read the pages I've missed. A quick skim tells me:
MrsTryingAgain So sorry that the long awaited meeting with the cardiologist didn't move your DH as far ahead as you had hoped I'm sure the dr knows what he is doing, though, and at least now you are finally under his care.
NEMom you can do this. Don't talk yourself into a corner. 2FatCats gave you some great advice.
So I came here to tell you all 2 things:
1) AWESOME dinner tonight. I stir-fried up some asparagus, kale, and tri-colored quinoa, put some fresh ground pepper on it, and called it a meal. Scrumptious!!
2) I had my cholesterol checked last August, and in the time between having the blood drawn and getting the results, I was convinced it would be high. Lots of research told me that, since I already eat primarily whole foods and mainly vegetables, really the only cholesterol-improving dietary changes I could make were to add green tea and whole grains (I was eating almost no grains). It turned out, my cholesterol was excellent, but I figured that I would keep up with these 2 dietary changes. I have a few cups of green tea each day, and most mornings I have whole-grain hot cereal. And recently I've added in quinoa. Well, I had my cholesterol tested again this week, and my already excellent cholesterol was even MORE excellent. It was great to see that my changes worked!! Higher good cholesterol, lower bad cholesterol, lower triglycerides. Just from those 2 changes. Had to share...
Anyway, that's all. My kitchen is a mess so I'm off to clean it, yet again. Hamster wheel anyone??!
MrsTryingAgain - My thoughts are with you and DH today. Hoping he finally gets the pacemaker and medical help he needs!!! Sending positive thoughts your way.
Lisa - Loved your blog entry. I have had a disappointing start to my day so the really made me pause and think. Great positive thinking, I need some.
roxannestags-Sounds like you had a great day. Would have loved a picture of you and your dogs and cat walking down the street. Since I have both dogs and cats I have a good picture in my mind and it makes me smile.
I weighed this morning hoping to see a loss and what did I get? A 2lbs gain. TOM is coming soon but really? I have lost NO weight this month. Looking back over calories consumed I should have lost something, at least a pound. I am very bummed out over this and having a pitty party. Am I going to be limited to 1300 calories just to maintain? Am I forever going to have to pass up a cookie when I want one? Am I too old to reach my goal of 150? Do I have to weigh and measure every bite I put in my mouth? Is that how I want to live my life? Am I destined to have fat thighs, flabby arms and a fat stomach?
I realize I am not in my 20's or even 30's but I feel like I am doing enough work to drop a couple of pounds a month.
BLECH. I am over it.
NeMom: Don't give up! From your ticker it looks like you're making very good progress! Maybe your body is just settling in? Maybe it's time to try something new ... a new type of exercise or foods? Personally I stay away from the scale as a daily routine because it is such a downer. I can't wait to come join you below 200, so make sure you stay there and wait for me!!! In fact, my goal is similar to yours and I won't be offended if you beat me there!!!
sept2012:LET'S GO!!! LET'S GO!!! Not going to let you sit there eating your M&Ms!!! Believe me, those M&Ms are not your friend. Think of them as the little pebble in your shoe that is holding you back from an amazing goal. TOM is tough, but I find if I have a plan it's not so bad. I actually plan more exercise, more H2O & even healthier eating when I know it's lurking. My biggest stumbler with TOM is salty, crunchy snacks...I think it's the iodine I miss. I keep soy nuts on hand. They give me the crunch & the salt, but I can only eat about maybe a couple of oz. But that is enough to keep my cravings for chips at bay. I also make sure I drink more H2O to account for my sodium intake. Exercise during TOM...do it! It helps with cramps (if you get those---I do), & also the PMS. sept, you can do this! You are worth it! Give yourself healthy options to counter what maybe placed in front of you. For some reason, spicy Chai tea helps me fight of cravings for sweets...don't know why, but it does. Hope you find something to help you!
Thanks for the encouragement... I am so opposite of the salty and crunchy... I crave sweet and savory. I do keep pistachios in my desk... I just can't help but feel like I am not ready to really start again. Dammit! Everyday I get out of bed and say today is the day yet I end up screwing around. I am not meant to be a whiner... I am meant to be a doer I know I can do this.
Hopefully things with your husband work out. I know all too well about this too. My dad has been so sick for 3 years and one SERIOUS thing after another. An aneurysm (thank god that was caught in time) , cancer, kidney out, and now after he survived all of this (cancer free for a year) he just went into the hospital last night as his body is no releasing fluid. They removed 5 liters from him yesterday. I am over this too. I wish he would just get well and give my mom a break for a little while three years has been tough...
I’m in no shape to dance. Things wiggle and jiggle and my knees are constantly in jeopardy…but I love to dance! Watching reality dance shows just makes me more amped to get up and shake it! So, I’ve decided to dance some pounds away!
The athletes on “So You Think You Can Dance” make their bodies move in ways that are amazing and nearly unbelievable. And anyone who is an avid viewer of the show is familiar with National Dance Day. This year, I’m going to participate…somewhere, somehow! I’m going to learn the simple choreography and celebrate dancing and life and hopefully some lost pounds! The official routines aren’t available yet, I’ll keep you posted. Anyone else want to DECIDE TO DANCE? We have till July 27th to shape up and make plans.
Visit the official National Dance Day site here: dizzyfeetfoundation.org/national-dance-day-2013
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Lisa: congrats on your resolve! That is so awesome!!
Sept2012: I know how hard it is to commit to weight loss. Good luck in finding your motivation and what works for you. Have you ever looked into weight watchers? It's what I am doing now and I have to be honest, it's the first "diet" I have ever been able to do. It feels normal and like just a part of life. I do it online, no meeting options for me.
MrsTrying: next time the kitties decide to accompany us I will try and get a snapshot of it. I am VERY sure they will do it again!
I decided today that I am going to save up for a recumbent bike. I am not overly fond of walking but don't really like regular bikes. TerraTrikes has a really nice recumbent bike that I am going to save for. I am going to save 125 out of every paycheck and I should be able to get it this summer!
Hello to all the "New" people and "Old...er...Used?" people (ok...the Regulars--although that's not me...if you know what I mean), and "Returning" people,
Checking in here after a busy week...OMG OMG OMG!!!....you guys have given me a feeling I've never had before: LMAO and throwing up at the same time!! PEEPS!!!!!! REALLY!!!!! I think those are SOOOOO gross!!!! I cannot even look at them! The only person I ever knew who liked those things had brown and missing teeth.
THERE! My good deed for the day. Did that help?????
(Your turn...I still need steering away from the liq donuts!....Imagining big beer guts isn't working for me.)
Don't bring those sweets home Ladies!! Hand them to the checkout person and say: "Can you put these back for me? I don't need this after all." Practice this phrase, ladies.
Seriously, Don't Bring Evil Into Your Home!!! (That's your cat's job!) Candy BAD, Broccolli GOOD!
In spite of all this silliness, I'm in a sad mood. Working way too much, stressed, and feeling like I'm spinning my wheels. Still dealing with AHs at work. You've seen the nature channels ladies; you know how monkey politics goes. Unfortunately, these apes are not intimidated by my superior size. (like how I phrased that?!)
The tall lady chat inspired me to measure myself again. I've been feeling like a giant Alice after she swallowed one of those pills....like I've grown a few inches. Nope. Still 5 8/5 9. (I have a conehead, so I gain an inch if I lower my head 5 degrees. Seriously.) I know what you tall ladies mean re taller men....haha...once upon a time, while walking next to a friend of mine at university, I hear her gasp audibly....'What's up'....'The Adonis...the GOD...there he is!!!'...The handsome guy she and others had been drooling over. Never even registered with me....too short! (not being prejudiced, just not my type) My TH was a 6 2er, drool drool....Was....he's already lost an inch or two (which is kind of worrisome)....probably why I feel like I've gotten taller.
Your camera takes good px, MsT, but you're torturing me !
Vacation homes by lakes and oceans!!!! Can I come join you???? Pretty please????
As for wt loss, good news is no gain, but still not losing. The work schedule and stress is taking its toll. I have to fight this. Just have to find more energy and more hours in the day.
Keep posting ladies...keep making me laugh! HaHa! mouse in the scales....of all the places for him to hide!....hope you burned some calories catching him!
I just can't help but feel like I am not ready to really start again. Dammit! Everyday I get out of bed and say today is the day yet I end up screwing around. I am not meant to be a whiner... I am meant to be a doer I know I can do this.
Reading this made me wonder how do you know when you are ready to change? Does it hit you in a big Ah-Ha moment or slowly develop over time while you formulate a plan? I had Ah-Ha moments that finally pushed me out of my denial and into action.
In June I noticed that my clothes were tight and knew I needed to do something about it - just didn't feel like it. That scared me a little since I have always been super motivated, dedicated, tons of willpower, etc. I figured I was past 40, in perimenopause, my joints hurt, etc. Just getting old, basically. I thought eventually I would snap out of it (or stop feeling bad about being fat) and then I would do something about it. I just wasn't feeling it yet.
And then in November a friend that I used to work with years ago called and invited me to her bday party. We still talk all the time but just don't see each other often. So - I hadn't seen her in about 8 months and during that time I had gained 30+ lbs. The evening rolled around and, of course, nothing fit like it should. (Who says we dress for men? I think we dress for women.) But I figured - oh well, I'll wear a bulky sweater and maybe no one will notice - or they'll think it's the sweater (yeah, right). Well, she said nothing but I got the eyebrows-raised-surprised-hurry-smile-and-conceal-the-shock-look. As an added bonus she had lost some weight so now I was the chubbier one (we are same height and build but I had always been a little smaller). To top it off - a bunch of the other ladies I worked with prior were there and they were all the same size as before. I'm sure they noticed...just no one said a word. Maybe it was all in my head but I know they were thinking "What happened to her? She used to work out". Needless to say, I felt like crap and I was so ashamed of how I had 'let myself go'. I just knew they were watching every bite of food I ate, too. It was a miserable night for me. I didn't even enjoy being with my friend because I was feeling so sorry for myself. When I got home, I came to the additional realization that the outfit I wore was something I had worn over and over and over recently...pretty much the only thing left in my closet that sorta fit. I have a huge 'closet' - we turned our 4th bedroom into a closet...it's full of clothes and shoes...ceiling to floor. Heck, even the closet's closet is full of off-season stuff. And there I was...wearing the same thing again and again. I felt sorry for myself for about a minute - then said enough. I was ready to do something and SO happy that I hadn't lost my inner drive and motivation. I just need a push. I was baaack!I was ready to start the next day!
I didn't - but the idea was there on the front burner simmering. Then over the next 2 weeks I started getting incredibly dizzy, terrible headaches and felt nauseated about an hour after eating. At my annual dr appt - turns out it was my blood pressure (been on meds for years) and too much sodium in my diet. The dr came in and chuckled, then she said, "So, following in your parents footsteps, huh?" They were both diabetics, hypertensive and overweight and both died young (49 for dad and 63 mom). I told her, "Nope. I'm fat and I know it - don't worry, I'll fix it." She gave me the , "yeah, right" look. That was the FINAL AhHa. That was on 07Dec and I started 10Dec.
LONG story - but the moral is - when you're ready you'll know it and take action. Just being aware is a huge accomplishment! Take each step you can and celebrate every one of them - big or small. Just keep moving forward and don't judge yourself by your 'failures' or 'mistakes'.
2 Fat Cats - Thank you again for your words of wisdom. I think your right... it does not always take some big aha moment. I have those days when I think about my skinny friends too... I know the ones who struggle every day to keep their weight down and I know the ones who have never struggled a day in their life with it. I try hard not to compare myself with them. I have always been the one in my group that has tried every single diet out there and not only that but every workout regime out there. I mean boot camp, spin class, bikram yoga, running, walking, hiking... I have done it all. The fact is I will always workout. I will always have to watch what I put in my mouth... its something I resolve to. I can't even compare myself for a second to them, what they wear, what they eat and dont eat. I feel like I learned that a long time ago but sometimes I do feel the way you did when I go out when them. Its hard to think about all eyes being on you. My point was when I said I don't think I am ready is it has been more difficult to get down to it. This time around. I feel like I am aware though... I am reading lots of posts. Learning a lot from all of the ladies that are around here. So far today I have been on plan and don't have any reason why I can't make this one day through without screwing around.
See my feet - you have a funny sense of humor.. made me laugh thanks for that. The 100% truth is I do not bring EVIL into my house EVER... its the damn office that does it... those F'ers bring it in every single day... I don't know why anyone thinks its a good idea to bring a 5 lb bag of m&m's and put them out for everyone. Lets me honest... working in an office environment we don't move around much during the day... lots of the others in my office are far from at their goal weight and the truth is no one really needs that S*** anyway.
So was just watching a commercial about a stop smoking commercial and the lady mentioned her support group. That made me think about this place. I am so thankful to have a place to chat with others who deal with the same issues as I do. I am far from a wall flower but I will admit I don't discuss weight issues with any of my friends. Yes I may say I starting something new or starting a new workout, but I never really go into the detail... I feel like most of my friends would listen but they can't relate. So I am glad I have you all. To learn from, to talk with, to relate with. With that I have a mini goal that I don't think is too hard to accomplish. I want to lose 45 lbs by June. I want to go horse back riding (without reservations). Anyone want to be a accountability buddy? For a few months we can check in with each other every day at a certain time?
Well I finally got up the courage to get on the scale and it wasn't a pretty sight but putting it off didn't make it any easier. I weigh 257. I have been journalling my food for a week and exercising with my Wii and trying to get back into my healthier habits which included checking in with you all. You guys have always been a great source of support. I have also decided to consider weight loss surgery. I have been battling this my entire adult life and already have hypertension. Diabetes and heart disease run in my family and I would like to get a handle on this before it gets any worse. I know it is not a magic bullet but can be a very useful tool. I have an appointment to talk to a surgeon on Friday.
Nice to see a lot of new people and a couple familiar ones too. It seems this site is not as busy in general as it used to be?
2fatcats: For me it was a gradual work up. I knew I had to change but I had to get to the starting point slowly. It's like I give myself a nice long pep talk and saying, ok this has got to go, I have to change this habit, soon I will be doing this. I don't know why this works for me but it does.
sept2012: I want to go riding as well. I wouldn't mind having an accountability partner
I just hit my 100% goal for my activities. I use the weight watchers activelink and it really is helping me get active. I have an OCD about seeing that darn thing hit the 100%. I am actually at 103% and still a lot of work to do. We are doing some yard work....a lot of yard work. Cutting trees and just re-wired our electric fence so the beagles can't get out. (They took advantage of our distraction to jump the regular fence so I got a workout chasing them down as well)
I got to say though, I am tired and ready to quit. sigh
SeeMyFeet~made me laugh with your "not intimidated by my superior size" thanks for that!
Sorry I haven't been on, I see lots of new "faces" this is a great group.
I'm in the slow-going, telling myself staying the same is no gain, so that's a good thing, DH says hang in, it'll drop off.
Feeling stronger, walking 4 miles most days, so that's another plus.
NewLeaf~I'm interested in the tri-color quinoa, I love quinoa, I don't really know why, there's just something about it I love...I have some green tea, I brought some to work, will have to make more of an effort to drink it, it has matcha in it, which is supposed to be extra good for you, I think it's just finer ground up tea, from what I remember reading.
Well, Roxanne and MrsTrying, courage in the face of sweets indeed. DH just got back from Belgium with a Kilo of Leonidas. In other news, he's just been "downsized," i.e., sacked.
Let's see if I can eat these chocolates as an occaisional treat in the face of extreme stress. Still, a kilo of chocolate shouldn't make me gain more than a kilo, right? Right?
MrsTrying, sorry you didn't get more definitive news from the cardiologist. It puts things in perspective knowing my stress is nothing compared to yours!
Keep chugging, everyone. I surely need this, because I have no- I mean none- self-confidence and looking for paid employment might be a good idea at the moment. An idea that scares the stuffings out of me, since I haven't done anything but write and take care of the kids for the last 15 years...
H has to wear a monitor for 30 days. He's more than a little frustrated. He was really hoping that we would be getting him much, much closer to a pacemaker. I'm trying very hard to keep his spirits up, but I have to admit I'm frustrated too. I get it, they want all the info they can get to be sure they are doing the right things...but ARGH!!!
WISH! HOPE!
three years has been tough...
PEEPS!!!!!! REALLY!!!!! I think those are SOOOOO gross!!!! I cannot even look at them! The only person I ever knew who liked those things had brown and missing teeth.
