Ugh. Starting the month at 0.8 lbs up. Not in the mood to linger on it. I'm outa here for a balmy 57 degree afternoon with sunshine and peppy tunes. See y'all tomorrow.

Have a great Sunday, everyone!

Nice & sunny here in Pa. but too windy. Rode the bike 20min, then went for a 25min walk in the cold wind. I was a bad girl this morning, ate a huge breakfast, then went after hubby's chocolate covered mini donuts. Only had 2, but then I ate a piece of Funny Cake( it's a dutch / Amish cake w/ chocolate goo on the bottom) he brought it home from work and he never ate it. So my calories were way over by 11:30am! Ok, now do I eat healthy the rest of the day or just eat what I want cause I already messed up. My weight is only up 4oz. Don't know why, I've been eating clean for 4 days. It makes me mad that I do well on eating & exercise for 4 days and I gain weight. Makes you just want to give up!

We are allowed to vent here right??

I am so annoyed right now. My fiance has a friend who he used to visit a couple of times a month with his daughter. [background: he has been divorced for 3 years, I have only known him 2 (very close friends for a year, an official couple for one year); they are all Jewish, I am not]. So- they haven't had him over for months because of me (have never explained the divorce to their kids). I told him I would have no problem with him going without me until they warm up to the idea... but he didn't seem to want to do that.

Anyhow- I am at work today. He called me to tell me he was at ex's (he stopped to walk the dog) and that they (him, ex, and their daughter) were going to the friend's for lunch.

Before I talk to him I need feedback as to whether I am right to be annoyed by this. I have no problem with him and his ex and their relationship in general- I just think going out socially together is too far. I feel insulted.

AND then we were supposed to go for a walk after work and he just called to say he just got home. I asked about the walk and he said he didn't want to (in his defense it does look like rain) and so I said I was going to the gym then.

So on top of the insult I feel- I also feel like he made her a priority over me today.

But I am not going to let it get me down and I will stick to my plan. So in a few minutes I am going to leave here- work my frustration out on the stairclimber and then take a nice soak in the hot tub.

Since this was a nice sunny day, if incredibly windy, we got some yardwork done. Hubby sprayed the yard for bugs, we pruned some bushes, planted my rosebush from Valentine's, and gave April a bath since we won't be able to for a while because of tomorrows surgery. Hubby just came in from outside and said there's a 10 ft piece of siding in our backyard. Its not off our house or any of the houses around us. Who knows how far it flew.

Phoenix, Lets just say when I started exercising a few years ago I couldn't do 60min either. More like 20. I'm sure your fiance didn't mean to hurt you, maybe just wanted to spend time with his daughter?

FL, I hear you. I feel like I'm doing everything I should but Mr Scale doesn't agree!

NP, We used to shop at a Super Walmart for our groceries. Occasionally we'd get a surprise at the checkout, too. We started shopping at Kroger a while back and I think we buy less non-food impulse items, for all obvious reasons.

RPhoenixR - How did you end up handling it? I agree with you - I think going out as a "family unit" kind of amounts to subterfuge - not sure why they haven't mentioned the divorce to their kids - not hard to explain like something like a sex change operation that might be harder... but I think I'd have felt just like you did. How did the rest of your day play out?

PP - good luck with April today - let us know how it went. I usually hit Trader Joe's and a smaller market but we had such an eclectic list of things we needed to pick up - so took care of several things at once, but whammo! ha ha.

Terrible weather here today. And I wanted to take vacation this afternoon - not sure WHY - it's storming and crummy. BUT ... got only a few hours' sleep after the women's basketball semifinals games we went to last night and now lightning and thundering and raining. Good sleeping weather :)

Ate breakfast and then had a meeting with someone for work at starbucks and stuck with just tea. Yay. But now I'm hungry again and forgot my fruit. Oh well, I can stick out a few hours, right?

(Been trying to type this for the past 2 hours....LOL.....trying again!)

Hey all! Had a nice weekend w/ fiance out at his place. Didn't do much of anything at all. I did cook for him and he is always so appreciative and complimentary. :) I go to the ear doctor today and hope that he can do something about this inner ear issue. I am getting worried that I might lose some of my hearing. I finish the prednisone tomorrow!!:carrot: I really feel like it has caused me to retain lots of water. I have been drinking the same amount (at least 64 oz and usually lots more, per day) but my output hasn't been as high as usual.

Got in a 3 mile walking workout this morning. I pretty much did all the arm movements (very carefully), but am still laying off the weights for at least one more week to be sure I don't irritate my neck/upper back.

I'm cooking healthy at home tonight and tomorrow night. Besides watching what is going into my mouth, I am trying to watch my budget right now, too.

FL-I'm just being honest here....it really makes me sad for you to see you fret over a 4 ounce gain. Have you ever thought of weighing only once weekly?

RisePhoenix-I would have felt slighted, too. I attended one thing with my ex a few years ago with both of our sons. I don't think my fiance had any problem with it....he knows how much I love him and how bad my marriage w/ ex was. Hope you all can get it worked out.

NP-Congrats on tea only @ Starbucks!!

Hello and Happy Monday to everyone else!!:carrot:

happy schmappy monday :P

had a terrible weekend emotion wise, I think i need to have my hormone levels checked. I was beyond moody and did not even like myself so much. had two of the grandkids over and it was hard to deal with them cause I did not feel like myself, although did not let them know it. I have an appointment on the 12. There is no other explanation to this turning into this madwomen, Did not eat properly and did not even care, well I do care but i dunno. Ate 3 chewy dips bars for breakfast and instead of all out binging today going for a walk here in half an hour for lunch, it was only 130 calories each bar but lots of sugar.
I remember a lady I use to work with shared when she was menopausal she felt like stabbing her hubby, (joke here) and he was a nice guy. I did not want to be around hubby, I was mad at him all weekend for leaving mountains of towels in the laundry for weeks ( I work he doesnt therefore he is responsible for that). Just seems like he can't do anything unless I ask, I am so frustrated from this I feel like a single parent again. end rant.......

The situation ended well- it gave us the opportunity to talk about some things that have been bugging me. I know he had no intention of hurting me- he just didn't see anything wrong with it until we talked about it. At first he thought it was him hanging out with ex and me feeling threatened but I am fine with them (I like her)- even accept that they will be at parties together, etc. It's just in this particular circumstance because of the friend's reaction towards me, I felt like my role in their lives was being minimized and that he was feeding into it and making it harder in the long run by accepting the invitation. The friends are very religious so to them divorce rates as forbidden as a sex change would. And me being non-jewish makes it much worse.

I think I am just struggling with changes in my feelings and comfort level of various things as we become more serious as a couple (we bought a house together in October and he has been talking marriage). But we love each other and are both reasonable people so we'll work it all out.

The good news was that I funnelled that energy into my workout! And I am down another two pounds :) I am setting my goals by the pound now. I figure losing 70 pounds is HARD; losing one pound is easy. I just have to do that 70 times! So I have set a goal to be down to 193 Thursday.

Weather crappy here too- I managed to get too 30 min walks in between thunderstorms.

Annie- are you using a particular walking workout program?

LOL! That's great, Phoenix. I dig your attitude.

Went to ear doc today. I have some hearing loss on the left. If the hearing loss/vertigo/roaring in my ears goes away....awesome. It it doesn't, it doesn't. Apparently there is nothing the doctor can do. He acted like it was not that big of a deal. But it is to me.:(

Ashley-Wish your weekend could have been more restful and pleasant for you.:hug: I have to agree with you on the towels not being washed. That is the EASIEST laundry to do! Hope he catches it up soon for you.

Phoenix-Glad you talked with fiance about what happened. I love your attitude about losing one pound at a time....70 times. Makes sense to me. Each one can be a victory!!:carrot: BTW, I use the Walk Away The Pounds/Walk At Home DVDs. Love them!

Annie- It would be a big deal to me also, I hope it all clears up & you feel better soon.

It was 72 degrees, but cloudy. I got most of the back yard cleaned up for spring. I was working on it for 7 hrs. still have the veggie garden to clean up & have to clean out the fountain and get it running. I'm gonna be sore tomorrow!

April came through her surgery, and we will be able to pick her up in a few days. Hubby is trying to take the rest off the week off work. I tried to pick her up and messed up my back. Same muscle I've hurt several times before but this is the worst yet and I won't trust myself to steady her if I'm walking funny myself:p. In my defense I can pick her up, but I was afraid she was going to try to jump in the car and in my hurry I used poor form.

Annie, sorry to hear you are still having problems. And sorry about the Dr's attitude.

Phoenix, glad you had a great workout, and a chance to talk to your fiance. Glad things are working out.

off to soak my back.

Annie- specialists are often like that... compared to some of the other problems he sees- your's is minor, so he doesn't see how much it can affect your quality of life.

FL- This is our first spring in our new house, and I have a fantastic yard and can't wait to pick fresh veggies out of the garden... but haven't quite gotten up to preparing it yet!

Down another pound :) AND my pants are so loose I should probably have a belt on. I have been walking in the mornings before work and on my lunch break on days that we don't go to the gym.

April should be home in a few days but we have to keep her confined so she doesn't re-injure her leg or worse. Recovery will last about 3 months. TMI alert! -->The canine surgery for ACL's is involves cutting off then reattaching the knee bonehead with plates and screws, but is {according the the vet} a much better 'fix' than the comperable human surgery. <-- She will be able to walk but we need to hold a sling around her belly so we can catch her if she slips. Which I won't be able to do in my current state. I'm better but moving very slowly. I plan on spending most of the day on the couch with a heating pad.

I woke up chilly last night and now I see why, its 48* outside! Its sunny and bright so appears warmer. Storms are over for the next few days. Power is out in patches around the city.

Rise - way to go on the loose pants, I love when that happens.

Annie - thanks and I sure hope you are feeling better soon, I will say a prayer for you! It is aweful to not feel like ourselves wheather it is mental or physical.

FL - yay on cleaning up the yard, we have had over a week at above 0 and still have about a foot and a half of snow left in the yard :P

Went to costco to buy a bike last night, hubby got one last year and I found some nice ones for $99. Well they were all gone :( figured I should have bought it when I first saw it. Must have been last years model as they are all over $200 now. So we decided to buy a couple tennis rackets and balls. Thought the snow might be gone at the courts by our house but no, dont know how long this will take. I loved playing tennis when I was younger and hubby did too and took lessons so we figured we could do this together. It is hard to get motivated to go outside after being inside for over 5 months.

The rest of my day went well yesterday, hoping to do well today too. So far so good and I too can lose one pound at a time!!!

My son i going off the deep end again. Did not show up to work on the weekend and they have been calling him. He is spending his money as fast as he gets it and I am ready to ask him to leave. I cant ground him he's 24 but i am not going to watch him self destruct under my roof anymore. I am so mad at him its sickening, he got this great job makes over $30 an hour and is throwing it in the toilet. Stupid kid..... I did not raise him like this. Just what I need more stress.