WEll last night not so good, Ate too much at dinner, last night was my only evening in this week at home and I was sooooo looking forward to just relaxing and was looking forward to a nice roast beef dinner. I told hubby to put the roast in the oven at 200 at 2, and I came home and smelled burning, well he put it at 400, so needless to say my nice white correll dish was completly black and roast was charred and small, then my daugher called me and she fell on her stomach in the snow and she is pregnant so she called our healthline here and the they suggested she go to emerg and get an ultra sound, So we spent 4 hours at the hospital then fell into bed exhaused at 11. I ended up eating to much in the eveing but trying not to beat myself up and getting immediately back on plan today. Can't walk at lunch as we are having our staff lunch so need to join that for a while and not be antil social.
So I did not handle last night very well and got frustrated with hubby because of it and and ate too much and then bought a large toffee capiccino from Tim hortons, which has a bazilion grams of sugar, I felt sick after drinking it as I have not had any of that for months. I know things don't always go our way, and that can be a test of our attitude and I failed last night, so I imagine this 'test' of having a good attitude in a difficult situation will come my way once again and hope I do better at it.
On a final note, I would like to try and see the postive from last night, my daughter and baby is okay, I stayed on plan all day cept the evening, went hiking in our little blizzard at lunch, but also had to apologize to my hubby for getting upset, now I just need the attitude that I don't have to go off plan today just cause I did yesterday, sighhhhhh.

Ashley - hang in there. Don't view ANYTHING as a failure on your end with yesterday. 1) you tried to plan with the roast - that didn't work out ... 2) you were there for your daughter when she needed you - lots of folks are "too busy/it's not convenient" ... 3) Finding dinner that late at night on the road is HARD - don't beat yourself up over that ... 4) you recognized that you went off plan but with all the forces lining up to challenge you , hey, today's a new day and that was just a high-points evening. Stay on track this afternoon and evening and think of how proud you'll be on Friday morning when you've wrapped up that Wednesday night and it's a distant memory! You CAN do it!

Annie - I figure you're down for the count today - hope you're up and feeling much better soon!

My evening was completely spent on errands. Tonight will be returning a good bit of what I found last night! GRR. I am swapping the candle ceremony at the wedding for just having votives lit (we're getting married overlooking the river outside, unless the weather is crummy) ... but will have little lanterns for the kids to hold - unless the handles get hot. I'll test one tonight. :0 Bought two cheap shirts at kohls without trying them on and they're too big, and so I'll do a quick exchange on those ... Then want to get a good start on some more baking and wrapping of biscotti. More snow overnight and this morning. I'm SO not a winter weather driver. How do you get used to sliding all over the road? Slideoffs all over this morning. UGH. Makes me quite nervous.

Nope, not down for the count, just busy and lots going on at home. Long-story-short: Whatever is under/in my house is an ANIMAL, not just a mouse. I could literally hear it sniffing like a freaking dog under there last night. I was alone and it freaked me out. I slept (uncomfortably) on the couch and called a place to come over to get rid of it. They will be there soon. Fiance is there because they wouldn't let me leave work.

Oh and my glasses are cracked.

Exercised, weighed in okay today.

Sorry not more time. Will check in as soon as I can.

Hi All! I've been a bit AWOL recently, possibly because i've been pretty naughty on the discipline. I'm on christmas wind-down really. I've been at home for a week (well, working still, but sleeping at home!) and no more travelling til next year, and i've just felt like slobbing out and eating and drinking what i want more or less.

I've had a great life and this has been my worst ever year really - in order of apperance i've had 1) 11 points on my drivers licence and almost lost it after 8 points in one day 2) a broken foot which really changed my lifestyle for a few months 3) a husband with pneumonia (hospital job), then pluresy (hospital job) then unknown sickness (hospital job), and finally TB - which he still has to go to hospital 3x a week for 4) the dog died (my only 'child'!), 5) my sister died - totally out of the blue when she was totally well the day before 6), my mum had (and has) depression as a result, and she's on the other side of the world from me and 7) i've been away from home for 26 weeks of the year, most of them in the last 6 months, which i enjoy, but it's been a bit much.

I've probably put on a couple of kilos in the last 3 weeks (but then i'd lost a kilo over the previous couple of months). At the moment i don't really care. I'm happier when i'm being good but i just feel like a break at the moment and i'll get back into it in the new year.

We still don't have a kitchen really (renovations) after 5 weeks, so that doesn't help with the food choices, although that should be sorted out next week.

And i've been working through the day and decorating at night - but i enjoy that really too.

Anyway, i think both me and hubby are hanging out for a holiday and that should happen over christamas with 5 days in melbourne watching the cricket with friends and another 5 days in sydney watching cricket with more friends. Ok, the truth is out, i'm a bit of a cricket tragic!

Bring on 2011.

Hello everyone! Well, we caught the OPOSSUM that has been living under my house for the last few weeks!!! It got into the live trap sometime during the night. What a relief, I am looking forward to a great night's sleep tonight. The Critter Control people are going to leave the traps there for a few more days to be sure there aren't any more under the house before they take them away for good. Hadn't planned to spend that money, but just had to.

Was surprised by a 147.5 on the scale this morning....I weighed 3 times to be sure. But then I started TOM, so I won't be going near the scale until next week sometime. I am not going to call it official until I see it (or anything in the 140s) again. But it was sure a boost, I've been kind of down lately.

Got to have supper with fiance last night, that was a nice bonus. He didn't get to stay long at all, but it was nice to see him. Love him.

I have a crack in my new glasses and plan to go by there either on my lunch break or after work. I hope they cover the cost of fixing them, I just bought them a couple of months ago.

Ange-So good to see you!! Sounds like you have been busy and enjoying your time at home. WOW, you have had some year.....2011 can only be better, right? I'm glad you are going to be able to enjoy holiday time with hubby and friends. I don't know anything about cricket, but I'm a big college football fan. Enjoy!!

Ange - what a year you've had! Does your husband travel as much as you do, too? Are you able to be in touch with your mom with skype or anything? Still not the same, and if someone's depressed, often they don't want to communicate much anyway. Hopefully 2011 will bring only good things!

Annie - A possum - too funny! I'm the lone person I know who thinks they're darn cute. (in the scale of so ugly they're cute...) Don't tell me if they killed the little fella after catching him! ack. We have them in our yard now and then.

Ashley - How was your evening - do you have the grands this weekend? Was your daughter fine yesterday - no side effects of her fall?

Hope everyone else is doing well - Anyone else swinging by?

Office holiday party yesterday. When I was at a healthy weight and active, I would always just choose fruit and a treat of something. Yesterday, I had eaten lunch about an hour prior and STILL indulged in this and that and wasn't even hungry but it looked good. GRR. It hit me that I used to make such BETTER choices and never felt like I was missing out on something. It's not like I'll never have a treat again, why do I feel the need to indulge? There will always be dessert. There will always be pizza, or whatever. Peeving myself.

Got in to work exceedingly early today. Unfortunately, getting up three-plus hours early had me eating breakfast #1 early, then breakfast #2 several hours later. Now lunch has been eaten. I'd better go to bed at 4 to end this - ha ha. But have already had a piece of chocolate and a small peppermint patty (so cute, in snowflake form). But ... it tasted the same as the ones I freeze in August, so WHY indulge in something routine now?

Hi, it has been a good day today so far, on plan worked out at lunch, but yesterday ended up being not good, ate too much lunch our boss made and brought in and dessert too and then some chips and ice cream at home ... sighhhhh but today is good and feeling better.

NP thanks for the wonderful encouragment, made me feel good thank you, I loved shopping at kohls and miss it we don't have it in Canada but I someitmes order online and have my mom pick it up when she goes to visit her mom in the U.S. Winter driving is tough mostly have to watch the others on the road. One tip I would give is just go real slow. WE live in snow for months here and the best thing to do is slow down way before you need to, pull out real slow and drive well behind people in front of you it really helps but so do decent all season tires.
ANnie do you live near your grandkids? My daughter is fine after her fall on her stomach while being pregnant so that is good. having the two grandaughters sleep over on Sat should be fun...

Annie - way to go on the scale! I remember being that weight before and thinking i was fat, what on earth was I thinking!! Glad you got your critter looked after.

Ang - what a terrrible year, sounds like you handeled it quite well. Sorry for the loss of your sister. Hope you can enjoy your holidays. Thanks for sharing what you did. Sometimes it helps when one shares with others what they are going thru and it shows others that they are not the only ones going thru tough things as well. I near ate myself into a coma when I was living with my hubbies extremely mentally ill daughter for 4 years. She is 12 now and doing better, living back where she did before we got married with his sisters family. It also give others a chance to encourage you as well.

Hi All, thanks for all your kind words.

Ashley that sounds a really tough experience. What do you mean 'ate yourself into a coma'?? You ate too much or you didn't eat at all?
Where abouts in Alberta are you? I've done a few weeks working up at Fort Mc in the last few years in the oilsands. I remember the daytime high was -26C once when i was there in winter! I also remember being there mid-summer and the sun just dipped behind the horizon at midnight, but it never really got dark!

Nationalparker - luckily my husband doesn't travel as much as me although he'd have trips a few times a year. Mum is on skype but normally we text each other a lot, and telephone. And i've been over to UK to see her a couple of times in the last 3 months. She's got more of an anxiety type thing rather than classical depression, so actually she's ok at communicating, which is good.

Annie - awww, we've got possums in our garden, and i actually like seeing them jumping around the tree branches. They do get into peoples roofs sometimes but we've been ok so far. Not sure what opossums are though - are they related? Good that you've sorted yours out though if you weren't happy about sharing the house!!

Right. Got to go. Time to paint the skirting boards.

Good evening/night. Was up until about 2 a.m. and then up fairly early for a weekend... so am planning to sleep in LATE tomorrow. I always say that and then end up awake at 7 or 8. I will go back to sleep tomorrow...

Annie - how was the scale? Claim that number on your signature!! I know what Ashley means - I was there a year ago and then WHAMMO.

Ashley - How are the kids this weekend - having fun with them? How old are they? Thanks for the driving advice. I HATE driving in the ice/slush/snow. I do go slow and feel most people are shaking their fists at me in frustration. BUT at times I've seen the SUV that went flying by me not make the exit ramp safely and end running off the road. I worry a LOT about him driving to work at 5 a.m .(it's an hour drive) when he works days. The salt trucks don't get all the roads that early.

Ange - I'm going to have to look up the -26C but I have a feeling it is disgustingly frigid ACK. I can't handle that. Not if I had to get up and go to work in it! How much do you have left on your home - are you more than halfway done?

Well - am I the only bride to freakin' GAIN WEIGHT? And I'm not talking 1-2 pounds. I'm talking that I had to choose the larger size dress of the two I bought. Returned the other one tonight for the money back. Knew I'd be returning ONE but DANG. I called fiance and said when I step back in the house tonight, that's IT. No more mindless eating, eating without knowing how much I'm eating, etc. I asked for his help. He said sure. THen followed with, "whatever that involves..." I need to stop eating his size portions. And to add in veggies and water...

Weighed this morning to get a true starting weight to get back on track and get this - I'm RIGHT BACK TO WHERE I STARTED. SO now my first issue is HOW in the world to change my signature? Help! (please!) I looked through the help forums and just can't see where I adjust my profile. Comtemplating changing the picture, too :-) Yes, it's been THAT LONG since I adjusted the stupid weight. It's stupid because it went up... if I had gone down, it'd be the wonderful weight tracker. HA.

New Year's resolution - post shorter notes. Sorry, all!

I looked it up for you NationalParker -26C is -15F. Yup, pretty chilly.

For editing your targets click on User CP in the dark blue strip at the top of this page, then select 'edit signature' from the options on the left, then look at the text box and change the numbers.

Not good when you're having to do this in the wrong direction. Mine are higher than i'm displaying too now i should imagine but my technique is to not get on the weighing scales in order to find out!!!

Realistically i'm not really going to get stuck into losing weight until January i don't think. I just need to try and be moderate and keep exercising until then!

Where does your name come from btw Nationalparker??

Was wondering if I could jump in here. Doesn't look like the other threads get any posts.

Is this a closed group or can anyone jump in? You all sound terribly supportive of each other, I could really use that right now...

WELCOME, Zumbachica and Miriyummy We're excited to see new folks pop in here! We're looking forward to learning more about you and what challenges you face, how we can help, etc. YAY!

Yesterday was a day of trying to get as much done as I could before leaving for Florida. I got up after my fiance came to bed in the morning (working his last night of this cycle) and got to work baking and wrapping. Had stuff strewn all over the house - it was a PIT. Dishes in the sink, etc. But everything was contingent on something else getting done (didn't want to wash dishes until I had showered b/c I didn't want to run out of hot water in the shower, etc.) ... the doorbell rings and it's his FOLKS! ACK ACK ACK. I run in (still in my glamourous long underwear and sweatpants) and wake him up in a panic. Still embarrassed about that. 24 hours later and I'm still talking about it. HA. Life goes on. But the house is a disaster with the wedding stuff all over, stocking stuffers, presents, baking, laundry, etc. What do you think they were talking about on their way home?

Ange - thanks so much for the info on fixing my signature ... I couldn't figure that out at ALL ... Apparently I need to work harder on the weight loss, but on the positive side, I'm doing GREAT at the weight gain. ACK.

Annie - how are you feeling? Still a bit under the weather? How were the boys this weekend - get to spend time with them?

Ashley - how was the rest of your weekend? How old are the grands again? I'm sorry...

You three are like the A-Team

Hey nationalparker, thanks for the welcome! Are you sure you want to know about those challenges we face? Big can of worms here! My husband and I are both on Chapter Two of our lives, and with eight kids (and various kids-in-law) between us we are the Brady Bunch on speed! There's nothing like having to deal with OPC (Other People's Children) and there's nothing better to soothe the issues than a little self-medication with food.

While I was getting divorced I lost 17 kilos (almost 37.5 pounds). Then I started dating (my husband is an acquaintance turned best friend turned sweetheart) and since we both love to cook the pounds started to creep back up, but not much. Then we got married and all the kid issues started and I've gained it all back in 5 years!

In the last few months we've started eating healthier, have gone more organic, less processed. I'm hoping that a with a little willpower, a lot of exercise, and definitely with some support I can get back to the bride I was at 42, not the pudge I am at 48!