Annie - Good for you for confessing you binged/purged this weekend. No lectures from me. Glad you are back on track. I know closing is days away and good luck with all of it.

Ange - You come across as amazingly upbeat despite the constant travel and long hours. I picture you as a chipper person.

Petra - Glad you can log onto 3FC while you are with your boyfriend. A good way to get on the fly support.

Hi all. I was hiding from you because I binged so often starting on Thursday (I think. Could have been Wednesday). I got on the scale today and it said 138.5, which is actually a relief. I thought it would be much worse. I don't have the heart to move my ticker up yet, but I will move it up Friday. I'm hoping that if I'm on plan this week, I'll drop down a few pounds so the increase won't be so bad.

The worst part about the binges is not the weight gain, but it's feeding my depression. It's gotten so bad that I postponed a date on Sunday with a good guy. He knows I have a mood disorder, but I didn't have the heart to tell him it was out of remission.

Anyway, the depression and binges are a vicious cycle. I want this to end. Fortunately, today I'm feeling more optimistic and got in a run this morning & have eaten on plan.

Happy rest of the day all!

....sticks toe in to chat-room, looks around, no one is trying to say, spit it out, so here I stay

Hey to all of you, I just recently discovered this site and a few days before I started the "Volumetric's Diet".

I was looking for a support/group with similarities.
Since I could not find a 200+ group I went with the 40 something.

So her I am....

Greetings to you all!

Hi everyone, hope it is a great Tuesday so far.

Annie I am sorry that you felt so bad you needed to do that, my heart breaks for you.


So here is my confession in a nutshell, So far this year my Dad passed away unexpectadly (hadn't lost anyone in over 25 years) and my only child decided to up and move out of the house. My landlord is a total PItA so I will be moving sometime next spring.

The only thing that is going right is my eating, it's the only thing I can control anymore. It's freakin nuts, things were so calm in my life and then WHAM life happened again.

So I am trying to focus on my job, my hobbies and friends not focusing on the things I cannot do anything about.

I am still sticking to the adage I have been saying for the past 3 years though. The forties have been awesome so far since the 30's bit the big one. everything I am talking about is a part of life and I have to go with that or I will go NUTS.

Thanks for reading and good luck to us all...

Thanks for the support everyone. I did much better yesterday, but did indulge in a small brownie last night.....what the **** is wrong with me??? I will not let these last few days keep me from sticking to my healthy eating habits!! I have lost 35 pounds and I feel better than I have in years! I am wearing smaller clothing and that feels so good. Like my tag line says...."Bye Bye plus size!" They are gone from my life and are going to stay gone! Onward!!

Les-Welcome to the group...just jump right in! Any and all subjects are okay here.

Chickie-I hope the depression has lifted. I'm sorry you missed a good date on Sunday. Hang in there!

LosingIt-You've really had a tough year so far. I'm glad you feel you are in control of your eating and are doing so well! My 40s have been pretty good for me, too! Towanda!!

P.S. Closing on my new house today at 3:30. I am nervous and excited and almost nauseous! I still have so much to do before we move in on 8/27.

Annie - The big day. Closing day. I guess today becomes your anniversary day for you and your house. Mazel tov.

Losing It - Thanks for sharing your pep talk with all of us. I sure need it.

I just ate a lunch outside of my comfort zone- food truck meal that sounded good on the menu, but was greasy meat, greasy rice, & veggies were a tomato slice and a smattering of iceberg. It was gross, but I do need more fat and protein in my diet. Got a full day's supply.

Spent the evening with my family at an Italian place. I managed to eat no flour while there. My sister is on Paleo so we helped each other. As usual, my Tuesday weight was down to 135. I can't get too happy about it b/c I haven't yet broken the binge cycle. I'm doing a no binge challenge on 3FC and I hope I can get through the week.

Wow it has been over a week since I had a chance to stop by. I thought when I posted last Monday that life was settling down & I would have some me time, oh let me tell you how wrong I was.

Ree my foster child is doing well, she starts school on Monday & is looking forward to it. I know she misses her family but she is getting use to the idea of living somewhere safe & having supervised visits. She gets a check for school clothes/necessary items. Last Tuesday she got her check & she asked me if I would take her shopping for her school clothes because she wanted to go with me instead of her social worker. I didn't mind at all. She made a list of what she needed & had me look over it, I am trying to help her learn basic stuff like budgeting & things that she has never been taught anything about. I took her shopping, she did great on her budget & I was really proud of her. I took her to lunch & after lunch we shopped some more & I bought her some really pretty things. She thought I was buying a few things for my daughter, she showed me some really cool teen stuff that she loved. I wish you guys would have seen the look on her face when she realized that I wasn't buying for my kid but I was buying for her. She was so happy & she asked me why would I spend my own money on her when I wasn't her real Mom. She told me that her Mom had never bought her anything new, she had always gotten clothes from a lady that bought them at a church thrift shop. We had a nice talk about me spending my money, I told her that I bought them for her "just because" & she said when she is an adult she wants to be able to do things for others "just because".

So Tuesday was a really busy day. Then I got a phone call on Tuesday night at 11 pm. Don't you hate it when you get a phone call that late & you know it can't be good? Well it was the Department of Children & Families asking if I could take another girl. So I started asking questions since right now Ree is the only one we have. Well needless to say we took the child in, they were going to put her in a shelter for the night & bring her to me the next day & I decided to go pick her up, 40 miles away & bring her home with me. So now I have Kayla who is a 14 years old, pregnant, abused, underweight and sick. The only thing I have been told so far was she was raped by a family member & removed from the home. Very sweet child, but this is very new to me and several times in the past week I have thought to myself that I have totally lost my mind and I am in way over my head. Everybody I know thinks I can handle this just fine, I'm not convinced yet.

So that has been my week in a nutshell.

Weight is still the same, beginning to wonder if I am going to be stuck at 189 forever.

Getting ready to start dinner and try to tackle the endless amount of laundry that is piling up very quickly and will try to read & catch up on here tonight when everyone goes to bed.

Oh & thanks for listening! I am to the point I just have to say something about it before I go NUTS.

Dear Dee-You are an angel in disguise! I truly believe your kind are among us and bring so much happiness where it is needed most. You are making such an impression on your foster children's lives. Don't worry about your weight staying the same.....at least you haven't gained. You'll be losing again in no time, I just know it. Good things are coming your way right and left sistah! What an inspiration you are. I wish there were more like you and that I could be more like you as well. I know you aren't looking for kudos, but you'll just have to deal with it.

Annie

Chickie-The week's half over, keep up the great work and I know you'll stay binge-free.

Annie-good luck with your closing. Buying a house is an exciting and nerve wracking experience. I hope it goes smoothly for you. Sugar is an addictive substance. I know I find once I have eaten any significant amount, it takes a few days for me to feel like I am in control again.

MC-sorry you are having a tough summer. Have you been talking to the maintainers? I think they may have some insights you could benefit from. Just a hunch.

Dee-You are an angel. There are few people on earth who would do what you are doing and I'm sure that the kindness, patience and love you show these girls will be a bright spot in their lives that will go with them always. I told you I was raised in foster care. My situation was a little different and I'm not going to get into it here but I remember the people who were there for me when I was growing up.

Les-welcome and jump right in.

Well BF came over last night unexpectedly. We talked about some more stuff. Funny how two people can remember the same events so differently sometimes. We are going to New Orleans for the weekend which I think will be good for us. I have also had to fire my personal assistant this week. That has been pretty stressful for me. I don't think I ever want to be an employer again. She ended up having more issues than I realized. I am learning that if someone does something that rubs me the wrong way right off the bat, I should listen to my gut.

Hi Everyone!!!

I fell asleep in the chair at 8 pm last night, didn't get so much done, but I am sure it will just keep piling up until I get to all of it. Funny how that works.

I have scribbled down what I have been eating for the past week or so, spent a while this morning putting in fitday. I know last week was stressful & all, well the last month or so, with one child moving out, then Ree & Kayla, but wow! I have only been eating about 600 - 891 calories a day. Not so good. 891 was my highest day in the last week. Probably a good thing I haven't had the chance to exercise or anything because that is not nearly enough to function let alone really work out. Making an effort starting today to try to get it back up to 1200 to 1400 calories a day.

Hi to all the new people!!!

Losing it - congrats on getting into the 150's!!!

Caroline - I really hope this week is going better for you.

Kathi - How soon will you be able to have the problem with your back/hip checked out? I tend to ignore it when I hurt or feel bad & only realize later that maybe I should have done something sooner because once the pain is gone you do realize how bad it was.

Annie - sorry about getting drug behind the wagon all weekend. I am so glad that your boys are okay & you got them back home, I know that had to make you worry not knowing how they were handling their Dad being sick. How did closing go? Are you getting excited about the move?

Petra - New Orleans trip sounds fun. I am glad you & the bf have been working out issues.

Ange - How is your husband doing? Worrying about him, your traveling & long hours has to be very hard sometimes.

Hi everyone! Annie The Homeowner here! This is the third home I've bought over the years, but the first all by myself. Oddly I am still nervous and worried. Several things are eating at me: 1) The seller did not finish agreed-upon-repairs. They gave me the number of the guy who is supposed to finish it up and I am supposed to handle all of it and seller will pay. Grumpy because I don't have time to deal with it. 2) My current home still has so much junk I need to go through/purge/pack and I have to get it done by 8/27 when the movers come. I am not happy about that....but in a way I am because I am finally having to deal with the mess. Storage at the new place is not near as much as I have now but honestly, now much space do I need? 3) I'm very impatient. I want everything done at the new place before I move in and I know it isn't going to be. I don't want to have to work for weeks after I move in to make it "home", but I know I will have to. I'm naturally lazy and I just don't want my laziness to come into play and keep me from doing what needs to be done.

Okay, gripe session over. At least I have my own home and I am thankful for that.


I did my WATP 3 mile Boot Camp this morning. So hard to stay focused on it with all of the thoughts running through my head, but got it done!

Woo-hoo, congrats Annie!

Annie - Thanks for the warm welcome, also don't beat yourself up over a brownie. Better to eat a brownie as a whole chocolate cake if the cravings hit. Congratulations on the new house. I bought one two years ago and I am already thinking of changing walls

Dee - WOW! I would be scared out of my mind having to care for one other human, but two.... Salutaions!!!

Petra - Thanks for the welcome Your name sounds very German. "Guten Tag!" LOL

Sorry girl's I am very tired today. I did a 3 mile walk (CD) first thing this morning and walked LOTS of dogs today, not to mention helping peeps to get the right pet and of course all the in-between the animals need.
Now if I could just stop getting teary eyes when one of my doggies goes for her/his forever home.

So I hope I did not over read anything and did not answer. If I did, let me know.

What diets are you all on? All the same one or different ones?

Well it is about 8.30pm now and I don't think I last much longer today. Going for the 5 mile walk tomorrow morning. Hope I can make it

Hugs,
Les

Annie The Homeowner!!! - Congrats!!! It is so much work moving, purging stuff & making the new place a home, seems so intimidating but it has a way of all coming together, so hang in there.

Hi Les, I am doing calorie counting, but I am also a vegetarian. While you are doing your 5 mile walk in the morning, I will be doing my run which is a 5 mile run tomorrow, so if you feel the urge to stop short of your goal, just remember I will be out there too in the heat & humidity, misery loves company doesn't it?