Petra: wow, sounds like a stressful day at work : (
Ange: on the headache, I get migraines and my sister makes me drink gatorade. she's a nurse and it's something one of her doctors told her to do. it seems to help and much less painful then the pressure point thing she used to do to my hand!
Annie: lol!
Wizzie: my condolences on your loss : (
barb: sounds like a lot of work but I bet it's fun owning a b&b

not much to report here, should be packing but no motivation. which means full blown panic when friday gets here as movers are coming first thing on saturday.

I hit a wall of depression yesterday and it took me awhile to get through it. I ended up not accomplishing much (which, or course, doesn't help with feeling depressed) throughout the day. I would say my eating was only okay, but not terrible. I'm happy with that because often on days like that, I "give up" and eat poorly. My mood lifted by early evening and I did go for a walk.

Feeling better able to tackle the things that are bothering me today. For work, I will make a to do list and start doing; that always helps. For my friends letting me down, I will remember that they are busy and not focusing well beyond themselves right now. So today...I will go for a good walk and eat well. I will take good care of me!

Here's to a great Tuesday!

Sue

Good morning. Just a short note--I'm off to exercise class this morning.

I ate moderately yesterday--probably over my desired count, but not bad. The important thing is my mindset is improving about getting back on plan. Before, I felt like I was at war with myself about eating. Now, a truce has been called and Me, Myself and I are just working out the terms of the armistice.

Petra---sorry to hear about the work situation. It is unfair for one person to have special privileges at work, but there will always be people who feel their situation is special. (And sometimes it is, but not always.)

slroth--glad to hear the depression has lifted and you're feeling better. It can be very hard to maintain willpower during a bout of depression, so congrats.

Petra and slroth - sorry you are going through stressful/tough times right now, hope that things go up from here!

I'm doing pretty well staying on plan - not always getting in as much activity but that's lower on my priority list for right now, I just want to make sure I get back into all my good eating habits after a few weeks of being on-again, off-again.

Happy Cinco de Mayo everyone!

Good morning. I find I'm still angry this morning although I do see a solution to the problem-not sure it is a solution that administration wants. They need to give the NP a contract. She is the only one of us who doesn't have one. If they want her to be "special" than give her a contract and define her hours, her responsibilities, and her benefits. They have liked having it this way because they can make it up as they go along but obviously it also creates this problem-there are no boundaries.

Sue-sorry you are feeling down. Hope today is a better day.

Thanks for listening to me vent. Hopefully we will resolve this soon without me getting disciplined I don't think that will actually happen because I think I really have a point if someone with a level head will actually listen to me.

wizzie - hugs re your uncle! Glad you're turning the corner with the fatigue - that is an AWFUL feeling.

petra - All you can do is try it out and see how you feel. It's maddening, it's counter-intuitive ... but maybe that peanut butter is telling you something that might be a window of opportunity! Ugh - you just don't get any let-up at work, do you? I'm sorry that you're going through such bureauocratic headaches.

pm - I'm pushing close to 38-40% fat, believe it or not! If I go into the low 30's, I start to get annoyed and hungry. I do most of my cooking with coconut oil now. I can still eat low-fat meals - and I do because of watching calories - but I just take a EPA/DHA capsule with the meal.

sue - sounds like you're on track for a great week! One bump shouldn't offset you. Keep pluggin' away!

Heidi - welcome to "normal" weight! That's a big threshold for us 5'7"ers! Enjoy the time with the folks - I'm sure they will notice your slimness!

kitteh - you are so singing my song regarding the sugar. It's just bad news for me all the way around. I'm even working toward replacing one of my 3 servings of fruit with raw veggies. about the truce - it is what it is, and any terms you negotiate now can always be revised as the situation changes.

annie - nice one with Yoda! I can see why you're concerned about deviating - you are having a great ride! 23 pounds is excellent!

ange - depends on how long you went without alcohol (my opinion), and what it was you drank, and how much. Lots of variables! I used to get headaches like that too - mine were all traceable back to an old neck injury and tense shoulder muscles. I'm still learning how to deal with all of it. Could be coincidence too - but hoping you get over it quickly!

Barb - exercise is always a great first attempt on the badditude. Snow ... omg. I think I'd kill somebody.

kathi - lol - yes, no matter how well you pack, the panic ensues regardless.

CAT - where are ya?

Went to Outback last night with DS10 on the way to piano. I had an AMAZING meal - it was two 1/2" thick slices of medium very-rare filet with an incredible wild mushroom sauce. It was DIVINE! I know by mouthfeel this was made with butter and heavy cream - hardly diet food, but the portion was small and I was so happy. And the scale was .5 down this morning, making my ticker honest again.

Other news - our pet goldfish "Sushi" (aka Sushi-fer, or Spooky Fish) died and it's awful because we won't know what happened - too many variables during a routine tank cleaning. I can't stand it when critters under my care die of anything but old age. We're thinking a hermit crab next.

Still swimming - only 2 1/2 weeks to Atlanta! I'll be on the high-intensity stuff til the end of next week, and then coast/recover for the final week. I'm especially geeked about spending 3 days with my GF!

Thought I would drop by and say hi to my 3FC friends; it's been way too long. I've been busy with projects and unable to spend as much time online.

I'm exercising most days and eating has become just something I do. I don't really think about it and even stopped logging. Most everything (except what DSS brings in the house) is healthy and when eating out saying no or having a small bite of something yummy is more than satisfying.

I never thought it would happen but healthy living has become a way of life. I don't even obsess over the scale. I did get on yesterday and to my surprise had lost 8 lbs. in the last 4-6 weeks, I don't know when I weighted last.

Not sure how much I'll be around in the coming weeks. I've taken on a new volunteer position, DSS will be going on break soon, it's pool season, and we've got a couple trips in the planning stages.

I want to thank ALL of you for being there for me and helping me out of an incredibility dark period in my life. I've made good friends and changes that I hope will last a lifetime.

Hi everyone! I haven't checked in for a while because i've been pretty unmotivated since the first part of april. frankly i am just burnt out with weight loss. i know i'm going to start losing ground with the attitude i have now. i'm doing the mrc diet and part of it is to reach your goal weight then start stabilization. my contract with them is up on may 22 and i've been dreading what would happen because i know i'm not going to reach that weight by then. i went into the center today with the proposal that i start stabilization even though i'm not at my goal weight. at first they had pretty big reservations about it. they said they wouldn't be doing me any service by letting me start before i was at a "healthy weight / bmi". i pointed out that they wouldn't be doing me any service by letting me walk away feeling like a failure when i've, really, been very successful. so they agreed to let me start stabilization at the end of the month. i feel like a weight has been lifted (pun intended).

Hi guys!!

Just time for a drive-by today, so sorry I am not doing personals again. Busy day at work and that means the day goes quickly. Good thing, as I am looking forward to getting home and getting some housework done tonight before my shows come on.

Saw a new # on the scale this morning, but not going to get excited until at least tomorrow morning at the "official" weigh-in. Fingers crossed!!

You all are doing great!

kathi - gatorade is a good idea for dehydration headaches - i hadn't thought of that before but it makes sense. I know it really works if you need it, since i used to really need it after my long run on a sunday and water just doesn't cut it then (not keen on all those calories though!)

My headache's gone finally! Hurray! I feel so well and bright now, as you do when you've been ill but don't realise how ill until you're better again.
Problem is that tonight is the big conference dinner - dinner cruise thing, for which i was going to allow myself another alcohol night!

Becky - i also get headaches due to a tight shoulder and it manifests itself behind my left ear for some reason (different to what i've had this week). I started getting those sorts of headaches after the first time i went to a chiropractor about 5 years ago - should have stuck with the physios. BTW how about getting a pet tarantula to replace Sushi?!?! It can live in the same box with an infra red pad (don't forget to take the water out first), and life expectancy is 20+ years!!! What do you mean, no?

petra - good on you for confronting your work stuff honestly. You're fighting for what's fair so whatever happens you can be proud of yourself, and that's important. Keep us updated.

Lolajean - maintaining sounds like a good outcome for you just now. If you know you're not ready to lose any more then it's just not going to happen, so the big thing is to avoid the yoyo until you're ready to have another bash.

slroth - congrats on avoiding the 'terrible' eating yesterday. That's a good achievement. Wishing you sunnier days. Did you end up talking to DH about your diet goals in the end?

annie - looking forward to hearing you've repeated your scale success tomorrow! Good work.

Right, time to start scrubbing up for this cruise thing......

KittehMomma – I hope you found your way to the gym again… sorry about the allergies! Glad to hear that your mindset is improving.

Petra – I know you will bust through that 220 barrier, I just know it. Sorry to read that work continues to be such a source of stress. Hopefully being at the nursing home was a nice change.

AnnieDrews – ho ho ho re: yoda. Hope the added fat / protein is helping you. Last summer I added protein and iron and it helped a lot with the dragginess. Looking forward to housework tonight??! Those are words I have never uttered…

Wizzie – I’m glad you’re not feeling as tired…

Ange82much – I hope your trip is going well; I remember those alcohol business trip days… hard to resist the social pressure. Hope your headache is gone.

AngelsKeep – I hope you’re feeling more with-it today.

WeightlossWanted – how’s the packing going? Find your motivation again?

SLRoth – sorry to hear of your depression. I’m glad your mood lifted and you kept your eating under control. Hopefully today was a better day.

PeanutsMom – glad to hear things are going well with you and that you are staying on plan. Those on-again off-again false starts are frustrating – I speak from experience!

ICUWishing – we have a hermit crab; I don’t know that I would recommend them. They are very boring. We have renamed ours Tank, because all we do is take care of the tank, and almost never see the crab. Sorry about the fish; it’s really frustrating to not know what went wrong. I can’t believe that Atlanta is so soon; it seems so recently that you announced you were beginning to train, and now it’s here!

CruiseCAT – nice to see you, glad to read you are living a normal life. And congrats on the 8 pounds! I have to say, I feel in the same place as you. In control, eating well, living life. What’s your new volunteer position?

LolaJean – I’m glad you got the company to give you what you want. Because after all, you are the customer and you are paying! Good job sticking to your guns.

Nothing new to report here. Nice visit with my parents. Weight continuing to stabilize post-surgery; I’m wondering where it will level out at. I’m not really *trying* to lose weight, but the loss definitely motivates me to be extra careful about being on top of my game. As in, last night I considered a snack after dinner, but decided to just have tea instead; that sort of thing.

Heidi-The only reason I am looking forward to doing my housework tonight is this.....if I don't get it done tonight, I will have to do it Friday evening and/or Saturday. I plan to have fun most of the weekend w/ my sons and I want to start with a clean(er) house. I also look forward to walking into the bathroom and not cringing when I walk in there (two teenage sons anyone?). This works out best for me!

Love to all!

Quick howdy. Feeling better today. The wind finally stopped long enough for me to ride the bike. Just a *short* 3 miles, but good uphill sections. Tuckered out...slept only 4 hours last night. It is tough getting used to a different summer schedule and I don't sleep well at first for fear the alarm won't go off and I will oversleep and not be on time for b-fast. Waited up too late for Robert to get home from work, too. Hope I get all caught up to everyone pretty soon.

Barb

Busy day here today. The nursing home was a good distraction from the hospital. They were very happy to see me which was also nice. The personal assistant also seems to be getting into a groove.

I'm paying more attention to the fat content of my diet to see if not eating enough fat is what is making me feel hungry and miserable.

Really hit a slump this past week : ( I found out my oldest daughter (the one who doesn't speak to me or anyone else in the family) was finally given a diagnosis after 4 years of issues. She has cushings disease and had surgery today to remove a tumor from her pituitary gland. The slump is because I'm not suppose to know about this and can't talk to anyone in the family about it. I hate the whole disfunctional lying/secret-keeping that keeps going on! However if I say anything and my daughter finds out I know she'll know who told me.....

They did get the whole tumor and no radiation is necessary, so I'm breathing a sigh of relief. Why it took them over 4 years to diagnose her I don't know since I'm outside the loop and I do know they initially tested her for this more than 3 years ago. Anyway, all of this plus mother's day coming up has me in a funk about my family disintegration and feeling like a failure as a mother : (

So now that I've bummed everyone else out with my whining I'll go pack some boxes before bed. I'm getting down to crunch time, and little sleep last night doesn't help my mood or motivation!