Misti

Congrats on your loss! That's great!!!!
Drama I'm a crier too. So don't worry about that. I agree that the thought of being thin is really scary. I resent how thin people are treated so much better than heavy people. I REALLY resent the attention from guys that comes with losing weight. After all, aren't I the same person thin or heavy? I WANT to be the same person inside, just stronger.
It is so cool you and your whole family are on a program together. While my DH is supportive, he brings whatever kinda junk into the house he wants. My 15 yr old SD is a self absorbed nightmare and my dd that's 8, she's very supportive of my program, but gets cranky when I tell her to have an apple instead of dad's junk food. Fortunately, when I tell her to call her dad about his junk food, he always tells her no.

My dad just nags, my mom could care less and my grown up kids probably think, "well, here goes mom again on a diet". So, to have your whole family doing it together is so cool.
I love this site too, the girls are all so supportive cuz we're all in or have been in the same place.
Katt, Honey, are you measureing your thighs and calves too? Maybe those are places you've lost too. And it sounds like you're doing great to me.
I just read both your posts. I guess I'm to blame about the nachos thing cuz I associate ballgames with "naughty foods," like nachos. I want ya to know I took only a limited amout of money. Enough for only one junk food thing and a hot chocolate. (it was chilly before the game started) We took our own bottled water, apples and low fat granola bars. So, the nachos were our "special treat." That's why I said not having a burger, hotdog, popcorn or brat were NSV's.
I also want to say I'm really admire you for quitting smoking and coffee! What a strong woman you must be.
"I worry that my humour which has helped me through so many tough times will leave with the fat .. so that is my personal challenge .. fear is one thing .. letting fear make my choices for my life .. thats another thing. "
I agree. It seems to be EASIER to be the fat jolly chick. How many silly fun loving THIN
girls do you see? I only know one. Just one out of all the people I've met in my life. Even my "fav" DD doesn't let her hair down and just be silly and fun loving. It's like they always have an agenda. I don't want to be like that either. I don't want to be one of those snotty, thin, "perfect" softball moms. I guess I must be as judgemental of thin people as they are of heavy people. I never thought of it like that til just now.

I'm sorry your dad is so difficult. My mom is that way, but it's like she makes naughty things on purpose. Especially since we rarely see each other. (we're not close......at all,
long, long story and probably tmi)
Thanks for such lovely positives today. I'm glad you get extra time with your man.
That's absolutely precious that you too are so close and are best friends.
Zelma, What a wonderful post. For my goal to be healthy and not just "thin"

I did know that, but didn't put it first.
I'm SO GLAD to know about your happiness and being in such great shape. It was a releif actually. I'm really glad people SEE you as being happier.
Brenda, I totally loved the comment about your relative thinking you were your sis.

I have a sis that's thin and in fact snotty, bossy etc. I wish I could be a fly on the wall when she finds out what he said. And for others to notice your success, that's just awesome!
Zelma & Katt, You're both correct. I have to give little miss (8 yr old DD) no choice at special events. If I have to get tough with myself I need to help her by being "tough" on her so she doesn't have these issues when she's an adult. And, she needs to learn healthy choices as a habit NOW while she's young. Thanks for the wake up!
My vent for the moment.
12 years ago I was down to 160# from 232. I did great on WW, but got so frustrated when I stalled at 159/160 for 6 weeks & having people tell me how if I lost anymore, I'd blow away in the wind. that I just gave up. Guys that wouldn't talk to me when I was heavy were all of a sudden very attentive. What a bunch of jerks!
Just superficial and shallow! So, I guess I also have "bad" associations with being thin as well as heavy. I guess I must be as judgemental of thin people as they are of heavy people. I never thought of it like that til just now.

It's chilly and rainy here. My SD that's getting married in a couple weeks is coming over this afternoon.

I told her and her dad has told her that after 4 pm on Sunday is "our time" So, she plans on coming at 3 and NEVER knows when to leave! I just dread it
.
Sometimes I feel all the planning and constant thinking about what I'm eating & weigh wears my brain out. That takes away from my happiness.. I obviously have control issues. I'm NOT a control freak, but I sure do like having control over my own little space/life. Katt mentioned not letting fear control her. That's a great thought. I'm going to try to put that and the happiness about being healthier as a daily goal/thought. I guess this isn't just a lifestyle change, but a mind set change too. That's probably going to be the hardest part for me. The mind set change.
Lots to meditate on today for me. I hope all of you have a good day. I'm looking forward to getting the parts for my gazelle this week. Hopefully the exercise will keep my mind on track and happier.
TTFN!