Ammi i think my weight is my knee problem . my hubby says i dont bend my knee right anyways i am working on that and it is much better! i will buy some ace bandages just in case i need to wrap it cuz i am not gonna stop my treadmilling! i love American Idol i will be so lost when it ends!
Kayley, i sure can tell a big difference in your pictures keep up the great work!
Nancy: I love that entire area of the country. Hilton Head is fabulous and Savannah is great as well. I used to live in Jacksonville, FL which is just a short trip down the coast. If you have the time, you can also take a little time to explore some of the other islands out there..like Jekyll Island off the coast of GA. They are all so close by and there is lots of little stuff to do...plus it is pretty.
I passed on the gym this morning. My back has been bothering me and I think I a getting a touch of a cold. I have worked out nearly every day for the last 2 weeks...so it's cool. I needed the extra hour of sleep this morning.
Food has been eh...no real junk but maybe a few too many low-point snacks. We;ll see what the scale says tonight. My first meeting in 2 weeks...though I have been weighing in.
Good Morning Everone ~ Thank you Misti, Zelma, Heather, Ammi, Nancy and Kayley for your warm welcomes! It really makes a person feel welcome and comfortable when people are so kind and say such nice words! Zelma was so right, this group is like a big family to each other, and I'm looking forward to joining this happy family.
I spent an hour last night catching up on threads but was too tired to do personals. And here i am having to read up on an entire new thread! LOL Sorry, there are more than a few of you I won't respond to till the weekend! :-)
Julee - Kayle inadvertently skipped a thread number so don't worry, you haven't missed anything!
Thank you to all of you who offered sweetness and support over the picture trauma. And Nancy, you are right, just because I am fat it does NOT mean that I cannot enjoy life. I am feeling much, much better and like Ammi, Sharon and most of you suggested, I'm trying to remember the feelings I felt that night and forget about the picture. And yeah, Zelma, I was completely GLOWING that night. This happens to me often when I go out in my more dressy clothes - total strangers stop to say how beautiful I am and stuff. So, I got a lot of attention from people telling me how divine I looked and wanting to give me a hug. So, no doubt, I was GLOWING.
Still, the most important thing with the picture, or more accurately, with my REACTION to the picture, is that I got to be in touch with that part of me that hates myself. It's shocking and quite sad that I carry that inside me because I don't really feel that very often. And still, that self-hatred is what keeps me trapped in unconscious, unhealthy behaviors and lack of self-care. So, when the self-loathing comes up, I have to pay attention to it because it is a source of discovery and learning, along with a source of pain. That self-loathing is the stuff I have to diligently work on in order to continue on a healthy path for the rest of my life. And, you'd better believe that this is the first thing I will bring up in therapy tomorrow.
Like I wrote in the exercise thread, I skipped my workout this morning. I woke up exhausted - partly from staying up later than usual, partly cuz i am sad over breakup stuff, partly cuz I am getting my period tomorrow. So, it looks like I'm not going to be reaching my goal for the month...I'm guessing I'll be about 150 minutes short, more or less, of my 1440 minute goal. I'm not by any means fretting about it. I've already workout out more than I did last month, and I'm sure May (I'm turning 36 in a couple of weeks! yay me!) will be even better than April.
And speaking of periods, I LOVE being on birth control pills (I take them for my PCOS) cuz it makes real clear where I'm at with my cycle, and hence my emotions (God, any guys reading our ramblings are sure learning lost of this subject as of late! LOL). To add to Zelma's question about PMS symptoms, I also get really sore breasts right before ToM and the first day or two during ToM; and, on the day right before ToM my bowels are looser than usual. Oh yeah, and I also intensely crave beef 3-4 days before ToM - I think that is my body getting ready for the loss of blood and, hence, iron from my system. Since I don't eat beef very often, I indulge the cravings - making sure to eat the leanest, healthiest beef I can get my hands on and I up the quantity of iron-rich foods like beans and broccoli in my diet.
I got my new scale yesterday. It's one of those fancy ones with the platform on the floor and the panel/reader attached to what looks like a phone cord. I set it up last night and played with it - stood on it different ways, and with the cord facing me, behind me, on my left and on my right, just to make myself acquainted with it. Can you believe the scale DID NOT fluctuate no matter what direction I stood? The reading kept coming out exactly the same. FINALLY, a set of scales that is consistent! I went to bed feeling happy!
Since I used to weigh myself in the mornings when I was going to WW for the scales, I decided to step on it this morning for my official weigh-in. I'm proud to let y'all know that I now weigh 330.8 lbs (150.4 kg) for a monthly loss of 7.6 pounds (3.5 kg) and a grand total yearly loss of 28.8 lbs (13.1 kg) - that is 8% of my body weight!!!! I am soooooooo pleased!
My goal is to lose 1-2 lbs per week. Right now my average is 1.8 lbs per week. Thrilled! Did I mention I am thrilled!?! :-) At this rate, I will be down by 90 lbs (40.9 kg) at the end of the year. Yeah! Moving right along.
Oh, oh, oh! And, I am taking a dance class starting this Saturday - at least I think I am. An acquaintance dancer friend of mine is putting together a beginning dance class that includes meditation, aerobics, strenght training and choreography. I emailed her to ask if I'd fit in - considering my size and all. She said yeah, but I am not sure - I mean, she's a skinny dancer who's always been a skinny dancer - what the heck does she know about? LOL I offered to pay for the first class as a trial; I don't want to commit to the entire series if it is too hard on my knees. She agreed. So, I'm trying it out this Saturday. Wish me luck! :-)
Alright then, this has turned into a novela. Keep writing gals! I enjoy listening to y'all. I promise personals this weekend.
Cheers! :-)
Off to update my signature! YAY!
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... All you do is take a lb of rhubarb, 1 cup water and 1/2 cup splenda. Cook that up till it is mush and add a box of sugar free strawberry jello powder. WOW if you like strawberry rhubarb anything you will enjoy this. I thought it would be nice with coolwhip or low carb ice cream. Even just a sprinkle of granola type cereal or such would be nice. I ate it plain though. Wakes up the ole tastebuds and SB people, rhubarb is a VEG!!!! Not too often you can get a tasty Vegtable dessert!!! haha
Brenda--Thanks for this!! I love rhubarb and this sounds delicious. Can't wait to try it!
Well doesn't that just show how unobservant some of us are, me included of course. I never noticed that there was no 889 Thread lol.
Have you ever had a moment when you look at another fat person and think you are glad you aren't as big as them. There was a woman in the doctors waiting room today and when I saw her my first thought was being glad, and then I realised I AM that size. I am that huge woman. I got Daren to take my measurements yesterday and my thighs each measure the same as a normal person's waist! It's things like that that make me realise just how much I have to stick to this diet. I can't and won't stay this big!
Sharon - I am glad to hear that you are feeling a bit better today and that you talked yourself into that walk too. The weather was beautiful here too, that's why I decided to be good and walk to the doctors. I would have walked home too but we picked up some shopping so had to get a cab home.
Brenda - oh thank goodness it's not just me that has problems with things falling off the shoulders. I must say that bra straps don't do that, that would annoy me SO much, even more so than a bag strap because I have the choice of a hand held bag, I don't have the choice of wearing a strapless bra. I have tried one but there is just nowhere near the support I need. Maybe one day!
I like the sound of the recipe for rhubarb, would that work ok with the canned rhubarb or does it have to be fresh? I have only ever tried to stew the fresh stuff once, it was a BIG disaster!
Jill - I see another one of us sufferers with slipping strap syndrome lol, SSS for short That's great that you tried a strapless bra and have stuck with strapless ones since then! I wish I could wear one, but as I said to Brenda, there is just not enough support in them for me.
Patti - I am getting your name right aren't I (toofarforu2). That's the problem with great shows like American Idol, they do get you hooked and you can't help but miss them when they finish! At least you will still have the hype of the winner to keep you going, once the show is finished here, that's it, we rarely hear about the winner.
One good thing about your knee problem being because of your weight is that you know it should get better as you lose weight. I get myself in a right pickle with my knees and ankles, I am supposed to bend by using them and not bend at the back because I have terrible back problems and yet it hurts to bend at the knee too. So you can imagine the shape I get into trying to bend without causing pain to any body part lol. Roll on the thinner days!
Julee - how did your weigh in go? I hope it wasn't bad. I don't blame you for getting that extra hour in bed today. I think there is nothing worse than trying to work out when you are in pain or coming down with a cold. Time enough for exercise when you are feeling better.
Michelle - nice to see you post again, I look forward to getting to know you better. Do tell us all more about yourself
MariaLucia - wow a reliable set of scales, that surely must be worth it's weight in gold. No more inaccurate readings for you, YAY! And congrats on the wonderful weight loss - 7.6 lbs is brilliant you must be so proud of yourself.
I was happy to hear that you are focusing more on your emotions on the night of the gala, than after you saw the photo. It's not often, well not for me anyway, that you can feel that glow you had, so you should cherish it.
That's great that you are going to try that dance class on Saturday. I hope you will have fun at least trying it. I look forward to hearing how it goes!
MTM - I don't think I have seen you here before, so just wanted to say hi and
I have to go shower and then watch Cold Case. I might pop back later, if not, bye til tomorrow.
Ammi yes even at my size i have done that. its funny how your mind can convince yourself you are not that big but then here come the mirrors, pictures and scales!
Patti - I like how you said even at your size, I am the same size as you, so we are both daft seeing other people and not realising at first that's how big we are too. Well we will stick to our diets and soon we won't be that big person in the room, we will be the thinner person for once! We won't hate the scales, mirrors, or photos anymore, YAY.
Zelma was so right, this group is like a big family to each other, and I'm looking forward to joining this happy family.
and add a box of sugar free strawberry jello powder. WOW if you like strawberry rhubarb anything you will enjoy this. I thought it would be nice with coolwhip or low carb ice cream. Even just a sprinkle of granola type cereal or such would be nice. I ate it plain though. Wakes up the ole tastebuds and SB people, rhubarb is a VEG!!!! Not too often you can get a tasty Vegtable dessert!!! haha
That's great that you tried a strapless bra and have stuck with strapless ones since then! I wish I could wear one, but as I said to Brenda, there is just not enough support in them for me.
