i didnt want the brownie or the donut. i just ate them. man i hate it when this happens.
Ugh hugemom, I know exactly how you feel! I find myself eating sometimes and halfway through I realize I'm not even hungry, well not 'real' hunger, but I guess emotional or mental hunger. And then I am guilty feeling and ashamed. Bleah. It really sucks when this happens I agree!!!
Dont' beat yourself up too much though, just realize what you've done and make a promise to yourself to not do it again! I've spent so much time through my life beating up on myself that I'm really getting tired of it. So I screwed up... so what? I'm human right? Just get back up, dust yourself off and keep on trucking.
PS... I feel so naughty. I got to school early and am the only one in class, so here I am using the computer to go to the forum. BWAHAHAH!!!! I hope there's class tonight. Dangit, just my luck it was cancelled and no one told me. Only 5 minutes till class and no one's here! ACK!!
I was off to a good start. i didnt want the brownie or the donut. i just ate them. man i hate it when this happens.
Whoa! Been there. Done that. Almost happened at lunch today. I'd had my healthy lunch and one of the guys decided he wanted a cookie. He goes up to the register and comes back with a huge brownie w/walnuts. My all time favorite. I lucked out. He didn't offer to share and I didn't have any more money in my pocket. (I don't take extra to lunch just for that reason.) I was this ...--... close though and I'm still salivating.
I'm not gonna be the one that kicks ya. Maybe next time you can make sure the donuts number the same as the kids and opt for a flavored coffee for yourself.
MissMeliss - welcome. I'm familiar with PCOS, my mother had it and both of my neices. I have never been diagnosed, but have a bunch of the symptoms. I've spent more time with the laser than most scientists. I figure that if it looks like a duck, go with it.
I do have some experience with OA. My first trip was only after I had lost 150 pounds. Nothing strange at all about that is there, I guess I just didn't want those folks to think I actually had a problem with food. I had two slight problems at OA. First, half the people at the meetings were anorexics or bulemics. I realize that both are very serious conditions, but I kept wanted to hit them during meetings. Feeling that way upset me because a couple of them I could have injured just by breathing hard in their direction.
If you go, find a group that separates the fats from the skinnies. Secondly, OA is about dealing with your food issues, not your weight. The group I belonged to forbid talking about diets or your weight. In fact they don't want you to weigh at all. I did get some things worthwhile out of it, and I still use my OA daily meditation book. It really hits my number most days. I think it is like anything else, you have to take what you can use, leave the rest, and find what works best for you.
CRISIS!!! The step-sister's wedding is Black Tie Optional and nothing in my closet even remotely qualifies. I checked out sizeappeal.com..found a dress to die for...sold out in my size. Saw 2 others...backordered. Looked at Catherines...gag...not my style at all (no offense to anyone intended). The wedding is April 16.....suggestions? Anything??? *&^##%^*( Ok...that's over with now. HELP!!!!!
Hi gang--Had an okay day yesterday, okay so far today. Trying to really get on the wagon with exercise. 21 days and it's a habit, right? So, well, yesterday was DAY 1. I'm going to count them down and let you know whether it actually gets easier.
Debi--Welcome! Post often so we can get to know you!
MissMeliss--I understand you're not new to 3FC, but welcome to 300+ anyway! Sorry to hear glucophage is making you feel unwell--does your doc have anything to say about that? I've had exactly the reverse experience with it, except for diarrhea problems. Other than that, when I'm taking my glucophage I feel better, sleep better, have fewer headaches, etc. Wonder if your dosage needs adjusting? Just some thoughts.
Well whaddya know... I was just joking before but turns out I was right. I sat in class for an hour and when no one ever showed up I called someone. Yep, class cancelled. Teacher called everyone BUT me. And gee, it's such a large class.... only 7 people. Hardly could've been an oversight. *sigh* Oh well, guess fat people are easy to overlook huh? (Sarcasm sarcasm lol).
Although our days have been beautiful. We also had SNOW when it was 50 degrees here a couple of days ago. LOL And last night the water in my birdbath froze.
But the days... they are now GORGEOUS !!!
Huggy ... I am more than willing to share...
.... as long as you don't share yours with me.
Hi everyone! Sorry to be gone for awhile AND not be able to catch up tonight but just wanted to check in. I haven't even been able to read everything, I'll have to catch up later.
This week is turning out to be rather interesting. I learned long ago that "interesting" was the polite way to describe something that has gone to **** in a handbasket!
The "Baby" came home from work yesterday and said that his car is acting up. You'll remember that this is the same car that was in the shop for 6 weeks before Christmas for a new transmission and again for the last 7 weeks because of an accident. Well this time it's clutch problems that he didn't have before the accident. Now the collision shop says "it's not OUR fault. We didn't do anything with the clutch. Take it to the dealership." Mind you the collision shop had $14,000 in damages and even replaced the steering wheel, but it certainly couldn't be anything THEY did when they were putting it back together, could it???
Then Honey calls yesterday and says "guess what? I'm going to Germany next week for a meeting." Ok, I can deal with that. The meetings are Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday.
He calls me today and says, "the guy I'm travelling with wants to leave Friday." FRIDAY! Geez! But I guess the airfare is significantly less if you stay over a Saturday night. Soooooo, Honey leaves this Friday (right from work) and won't be home until NEXT Saturday!!! I'm just not good when he's gone and I especially don't like it when he's gone so far. Canada and Mexico don't seem to bother me, but this will be his second trip to Germany. Thank goodness he doesn't travel often.
Don't know if I mentioned the charity dinner we were going to last night. It was to benefit the local YMCA. Anyway, $100 a plate. They had a room set up with hor dueve stations sponsored by local restaurants. They had everything from pasta to shish kabob to spring rolls to spinach pie.
Then you moved in to the hall for a 5 course dinner. After dinner you moved back into the first room which had been reset into a smorgasborg of desserts complete with a chocolate fountain. It was really wonderful. Honey and I both behaved ourselves. We were very proud. Didn't over do. I mean I'm sure that we ate far more calories than we should have, but we really could have loaded up and we didn't.
#1 Son had a bad day at the office today too. He came home 3 hours late. The servers crashed on him just before 5:00.
So we all got out the Smirnoff Black Cherry and Raspberry coolers and had a party. (Thanks, Michelle for mentioning them )
For all of you that were salivating :eat: over the Red Lobster Biscuits I posted the lightened recipe that I mentioned earlier over on the Recipe Thread so that it wouldn't get lost over here with all the conversation.
For all of you who have posted pics, thank you so much. It's great to put faces with names.
Esmaraude and Miss Melissa it is GREAT to see you back. Miss Melissa I knew that you were still on the site, just not over here. Glad to see you.
Mammamoo welcome to our little corner of the world. Your family is beautiful. Not sure why you couldn't post a picture.
Well, girls, I was a pumpkin (Cinderella reference there ) 40 minutes ago so I am outta here. Love ya bunches. Guess I'll have lots of time to catch up with Honey outta town. You'll just have to wait until the weekend.
Just have a few minutes, I took too long reading all the posts I missed. Just wanted to say I'm still hangin in there and reading all of your posts. Just don't have much to say right now. I get that way sometimes.
About finding your place in the threads. I just click on the "go to last unread post" on the top lefthand side of the posts after you click on the correct thread. It takes you to the last post since you logged onto the site. The only drawback is that if you visit the site (3FC) and go to another forum or thread (say the PCOS thread) the system doesn't know what threads you look at and will not go to the right one for the unread thread. Did that make any sense? I think I lost myself!!!
My experience with OA was that they were much to "huggy/feely" for me. I tried 2 different chapters and the all wanted to hug me, and I can't stand that!!
Well it's time to get ready for the health club, so I'll end now.
It's Snack Day at the office! The break room is full of donuts and homemade cookies and cakes and brownies and nachos and cheeseballs and ham roll-ups and it all smells SO GOOD! Curses! I hate snack day. (Well, I hate it this month. I've always liked it before.) We have it once a month for birthdays here at the office. I just have to stay in my office and not go near the break room. Yeah, that's what I have to do!
Mammamoo: Welcome. I can't figure out how to post pictures either so don't feel bad. You have a lovely family!
Well, I best start to work and try not to think about that smell wafting down the hall!
Hey guys! I can't stay long. I spent my time reading posts. I lost 1/4lb at my weigh in last night. Woohoo! I know not much but every little bit helps!
I can't remember who needed a dress but have you tried Lane Bryant. I am not talking about the lanebryant.com I am talking about lbcatalog.com. It goes from 14W to 44W. But I didn't find it till I was looking for a bathing suit And no I will not post a picture of myself in a bathing suit. But Lane Bryant regular doesn't go up as high. So you might check there to see if you can find something spiffy.
I hadn't wieghed myself in a few weeks and was a little afraid to check the scale, but I figured it was time.
Now granted, I'd been sick for a while, but I hadn't exaclty lost my appetite, either. I've had trouble breathing and the congestion hasn't helped my asthma any, so I've barely had the strength to walk around, let alone exercise.
On a certain night a few weeks ago, I got really bad. Just the simple act of inhaling took all my energy. I was tempted to call an ambulence, but I waited for Jeff to come home so he could fetch my inhaler (which I carelessly left upstairs).
That kinda scared me.
I started wheezing after just two laps of walking on Monday, but I had my inhaler on me and kept going. Man, I've never felt so week. I mean, I had asthma as a kid, but now that it's crept back up on me, I'm remembering how it gets in the way of every day life. But I've been pushing myself the last few days and I'm very proud of what I've accomplished so far. I can feel the difference in my lungs.
I'm also keeping in mind that maybe this asthma can go away if I lose weight. I mean, I was fine until I hit about 300 pounds. Maybe if I get back to what I was before I can be free of it.
Anyway, I decided to weigh myself this morning. The Y has one of those fancy doctor's scales with the balancing weights on the top. Before I stepped on, I set them at my starting weight, 342, so even if I gained a little from last time, I would be reminded that I still had lost weight overall. So was I still less than 342? Yes? Good. I pushed the little weight over to find the balance, and it stopped at 322! YES!!! I've lost another four pounds, and that makes for a total of 20! Time to update the tracker in my siggy!
Fifty more pounds and I'll be back to what I was when we first moved to Beloit. That seems like a reasonable goal for the end of the year.
OK....here I go AGAIN! My computer is being mean and not allowing me to post!
Ok....yesterday was WI #2 and I am down another pound...bringing total loss to 3.5 lbs. Not a huge loss, but a loss none the less considering my food habits have been questionable.
On another note, I started LAWL at home this morning and am finding it quite easy to eat OP...especially the next 3 days as I get to eat tons of veggies and tuna (two of my favorite things)....Saturday marks the beginning of the actual plan as this time is considered the Take Off phase, getting my body to shed the pounds efficiently.
I am hoping that spring comes soon so I can start to incorporate exercise as with the weather the way it is, I am not really able to get out and do anything because it is too darn cold and I would be risking frost bite. I am also still waiting for my body fat analyzer and my pedometer/heart rate monitor....not that I really want to know how much of my body is actually fat, but I think in the long run it will be a very useful tool.
Moving on.....I went to the doctor yesterday (which is becoming a monthly habit) and was prescribed a weight neutral anti-depressant (sorry I forget the name...I know it starts with a C) and was told by my doctor that I look better, and I am definitely losing weight . What a compliment! I just hope it continues and I get to WOW everyone, including myself.
This journey is not going to be a short one, but a satisfying one. I am finally making time in my life for me, and my first order of business was to get healthy.
Now....on to other things.
Julee- as far as that dress goes for the wedding, I think it depends on your style. I personally start with eBay, move on to Torrid (alternative clothing for big girls- Hot Topic Subsidiary), and then move on to Don't Tell Me What Size I Must B geocities.com/tenorqueen/ which has links to all sorts of clothing sites for us big girls. If all else fails I end up designing and making something myself (one of my hobbies).
Sorry that this is such a long post (at least for me), but I guess I had a lot to say today! I will be back later to check in I am sure!!!
Thanks to all for the dress suggestions. There is a store here locally I am going to check out and I have also now seen some pretty stuff at Silhouettes and Jessica London. The thing I am somewhere between a 24 and a 26 but only 5'4"...so most anything I buy will need to be altered....here's hoping I can find something that works.
I got to school early and am the only one in class, so here I am using the computer to go to the forum. BWAHAHAH!!!! I hope there's class tonight. Dangit, just my luck it was cancelled and no one told me. Only 5 minutes till class and no one's here! ACK!!
Maybe next time you can make sure the donuts number the same as the kids and opt for a flavored coffee for yourself.
Sorry to be gone for awhile AND not be able to catch up tonight but just wanted to check in. I haven't even been able to read everything, I'll have to catch up later.
) 40 minutes ago so I am outta here. Love 
ya bunches. Guess I'll have lots of time to catch up with Honey outta town. You'll just have to wait until the weekend. 
Just have a few minutes, I took too long reading all the posts I missed. Just wanted to say I'm still hangin in there and reading all of your posts. Just don't have much to say right now. I get that way sometimes. 
