Venting and Questions
Hey guys, this is my first post on this website, came across it recently as I’m in a big slump and hoping to find inspiration, recipes, etc. and I think I’ve found a nice place! In February,2019 I hit my biggest weight of 337lbs, and I was SOO unhappy, I started dieting and exercising and was VERY slowly losing weight, from there I found this shake called Smashing Greens by MASF industries, which is like fasting, only the shake gives you your daily vitamins and nourishment, the weight started falling off, and between May when I started to September I lost almost 40lbs and was down to 298!! I felt so good at that time, except I then went home to visit family, then thanksgiving then Christmas and I hadn’t touched my shake in months and started eating more fast food.... fast forward to coronavirus quarantine added on all these bad habits and last month hit 333 pounds, Ive almost gained alll my hard work back and in the last 3 weeks started my shake and exercising, and got to 322, but it’s not as rewarding, and it’s so discouraging because in the back of my mind I’m so afraid I’m just going to gain it back again. On top of all of this, my boyfriend recently pointed out to me he thinks I’m starting some red flag bad habits, example being I weigh myself 2 sometimes more times a day, I’m so obsessed with my weight I breakdown seeing it fluctuate even .1 lbs up, and I’m just constantly depressed over my weight and body. Does anyone relate, or overcome this? I hate myself so much for rebounding to almost my original weight I’m just so unhappy and it’s so much harder to lose this time! Any and all advice is appreciated ❤️
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