I appreciate your support
Hello all,
I'm 55, 310 lbs (on most days but it can vary from 290 to 315 day to day due to pretty severe lymphoedema in my legs) and on a mission to get down to 250 or below -- a wonderful weight for me even though those who are under 200 probably can't imagine it being so great.
I've spent a good part of my adult life weighing around 270 but a much more muscular 270 than my present flabby 310. I have an ankle surgery coming up later this fall and I know (from experience of various procedures and surgeries) that the hospital I'm using is a lot happier and nicer to you if you're under 275. Seems to be their cut-off for a lot of things IMO. Thus, my diet starts now and I hope I can get there before the surgery (no exact date on it yet but it should be in mid-Nov or later).
My doctor doing the surgery isn't the least bit worried about the excess weight though he did an ankle surgery on me when I was 275 3 years ago and he didn't realize I've gone up to over 300 now. When I told him he was "no worries" let's just get your ankle fixed -- but of course, I AM worried. His logic is that the pain I'm in is creating enough stress that losing weight right now is not a reasonable expectation anyway. "Get rid of the pain, then diet" he says. But I'm anxious about dealing with the hospital over 300 lb.
I'm introducing myself as "waddler" because I can barely walk -- due to the ankle pain there's a limp (and cane) and due to the accumulated fluid in the legs there's a lot of leg weight, and well, kinda waddling.
I find my condition embarrassing more and more and yet I really am struggling to diet. Always in the past when I've wanted to diet I've been able to jump into whatever diet would work (keto, low carb, Cambridge liquid, very low calorie, whatever) and I've lost 30 to 70 lbs within a couple short months and have kept whatever loss off for maybe a year or more. But I have not been below 235 in a decade. My body is very functional and happy anywhere below 250 but I find myself really struggling physically above 280. You'd think it would be easy to just lose the weight. Now, every day I tell myself "today I start the diet" and I just can't bring myself to do it. I feel helpless in a way that I've never felt before. That's why I'm here -- I really need support to do this. I don't think it is unrealistic to drop 25-35 lbs within a month because I've done it so many times in my life before. Even so, I'm somehow not getting onto the diet.
I'm flipping coins between using Cambridge (no brainer liquid shakes) and 1 salad meal a day or going low carb/keto. My experience is that having to think about what I eat isn't as easy as just doing the VLC diet that is the Cambridge deal. I still have to prepare food for my husband -- who is naturally thin but will pick up weight quickly if left to his own devices for food -- he'll eat junk and nothing but junk. During past diets, I just make him things he likes that I'm not keen to eat for breakfast/lunch and we both have a salad for dinner.
Thanks for any support you can provide!
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