Hi everyone :)

I'm so bad at posting. I really hate that I'm like this. I need to set an alarm or something for myself to post every day so I don't forget. I always have good intentions to post in the morning when I first get to work before the day gets busy and then it seems it gets blown out the window as soon as I get settled in. Lots of things going on this week in here...Going to try and address everyone :)

Port You have been through so much but yet you are still here. That right there is something to be proud about. Like you said we have all had our bad times...I could write an entire memoir of mine, but at the end of the day we can't let the bad times surpass our good times. For me, the bad times were out of my control. I could do nothing about them...mainly because I was a child and if I left I had no where to go so I stayed as long as I had to and moved out before I graduated high school and never looked back. It has taken me years to change my way of thinking but for the first time ever I am in a good place in my life. I don't let the things I can't change bother me, and if it's something I am upset about and I can change, I do it. I have bipolar disorder and suffered years without treatment because my mother didn't think there was anything wrong with me. It wasn't until last year that I finally got the help I needed. Please know if you ever need someone to talk to you can always come to me. I'm here to listen if you need an ear to talk to. As far as your weight fluctuations don't let them get you down. My best advice is to stop weighing yourself every day. All it's going to do is frustrate you. Losing 12 pounds in a month is a lot. The average weekly loss is 1-2 pounds so you are still doing great. In my best months I was doing about that so don't worry. Low carb is good but at some point you may plateau from it. If you see a doctor regularly check with them but carb cycling might be beneficial for you if your body can handle it since you've had surgery. Also, 900 cals is very low. I know you have had surgery so I don't know if that is why you can't eat but so much in a day. There were times that I was eating about that much and my weight loss slowed or I started to gain. As soon as I increased my calorie intake it started moving again. Just some food for thought.

Donna I am so happy to hear great things going for you recently...your happiness is really shining through. The hair cut and color sounds beautiful!! I've always been too afraid to have short hair, maybe one day. Purple hair is hard to upkeep especially if you're going to a pool..forget it. I've gotten to where I do mine myself and purchase the salon products online since I can do it without a cosmo license. I have 4 friends that do hair but they all want way too much to do what I want which I know why they charge that much I just can't afford it. And the one that cuts me a deal never does my hair the way I want as far as color goes so I just have her cut it for me.

Betsy I'm sorry I've been a bad Sam...Go ahead and spank my hands lol...I need to be here and I need to get my routine back with posting here often. I think your goals are great...and xbox will be fun too! I have one but it broke years ago and just never got it fixed....I have 4 other newer systems so I figured why bother lol...plus there's all the retro systems I have as well. I see good things in your future..you're taking the right steps and I think you're going to go far my friend. :)

Tootsie I'm glad to see that some of my advice has stuck to you :)...I'm always here to help any way I can. We all need support just know I'm here.

Fi I'm so sorry to hear of your pain. It sounds like you really should have seen Mike this week....Just stinks that the timing wasn't right. I really love the collage...You make such beautiful art.

Ubee Yeah my BIL helped me for like 3 weeks and crapped out on me lol...Luckily that was enough to get me going and keep me going. I had to see my psychologist today and I was telling her how I never thought I would ever be where I am...Everything in my life has fallen into place. My head is right, my body is right...everything is just clear...For the first time ever I feel good...I feel happy...I feel like the me that has been trapped inside for so long that I strived to be. I hope that makes sense. If it weren't for you guys I probably wouldn't be where I am either so thank you for being here.

I got to leave work early today to go see my psychologist for my 3 month check up and refills. She is so happy to see how my progress has been over the past year that I've been seeing her. I told her how happy I am and how my head feels clear for the first time...not foggy. I don't know if people who don't suffer from mental illness will understand what I mean by that but it's the best feeling in the world. I told her how people approach me now and it's forced me out of my comfort zone with my social anxiety. I still suffer from that but it is getting better with time. She is a great doctor and also gave me a referral to a doctor who was her college roommate who has a wealth of knowledge about PCOS and she thinks she can help me with that and hopefully push me forward with helping my symptoms and getting the rest of the weight off.

I had to take a rest day yesterday from the gym. My whole body ached so I just hung out down town while DH had band practice. It was nice. Our friend brought his son (aka my nephew) so I got to see him for a little bit and play with him. He just turned 2 in October and his baby sister was born Nov 30.

Went to the gym tonight and got my workout in early since the gym is close to my doctor's office. I did an hour on the treadmill at a 10% incline the whole time and did just over 4 miles. I've been pushing as hard as I can with that incline this week and I'm definitely feeling it in my butt and legs. Oh I almost forgot!! While I was on vacation my boss bought us all balance ball chairs for the office so I've been using that to help contract my leg muscles and do "mini squats" while I'm sitting here...I think that is contributing to the soreness in my legs too.

Welp I'm off to get some food in my belly and relax for the night. Take care my friends :)



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Good evening,

Well i think i hit the exercise wall. I am so sore and stiff and i am tired.like no energy at all for anything I just want to lay in bed and sleep sleep sleep. I really really really did not want to take more than one day off of exercise and sunday is usually that day but im seriously contemplating taking tommorow off as well. My only hesitancy with that is the fact that im afraid if i dont exercise..i will gain weight or get fat.. The paranoia over my weight drives me to keep exercising..

To be honest..im not sure what it is.. I dont know if its just the exercise issue or not. I eat well on low carb though i struggle to get past 1000 calories even with fat bombs. I sleep at least 10 hours a night and i exercise every day for at least an hour. I torch about 700 cals on my swim days...so Mon-Sat and then whatever other calories on Mon-Wed-Fri from my HIIT run session. But i have no energy all day after my workout.. I thought maybe i was overtraining so i cut out a HIIT session and just kept my swim session but it made no difference..and whats worse.. Im so sore in my arms and wrists that i can barely grip anything today. It hurts to just type this out and i started noticing bruising in random places on my body even though i dont remember getting hurt...

Soo...i decided..will skip another HIIT session and finally do that bloodwork the Dr wanted tommorow morning and as for the swim session...ummm..im going to have to see how i feel i guess..

Can't tell what it's doing out there as I woke up about 6 and it won't be totally light out for at least another half hour. I can tell it's not currently raining. Hurrah!

Porthardygurl -- That's the right attitude. Yes, we all go through stuff in life -- and sometimes it does deserve some time for reflection and healing -- but I always remember my mom telling me that she'd give me something to pout about if I didn't stop the pouting for getting reprimanded. Irritated me at the time, but I grew into an adult that realized no one cared if I wasn't happy with the situation especially if I brought it on myself. You're probably building a lot of muscle with that much exercising and muscle weighs more. In terms of being tired -- most people on Atkins complain at least initially about being tired because of the significantly lowered carbs. Don't know if that's the case for you. It sounds like you're on induction level with the carbs and with that much exercise, you may be burning all your energy reserves. Hope this passes for you as your body adjusts.

Ubee -- Time to celebrate. Getting through a day staying on plan is great. Hopefully this plus participating in Nightkatt's challenge will be the trick. The heating pads are for the plants although I think if I get to Onederland that my present to myself will be a hot tub. Be down on the covered patio, sit in the tub, and look at Mt. Rainier. Aaahhhhh.

Sam -- I would never slap your hands. More like give you a big hug because we've missed you. I loved your description of your visit with your psychologist. You continue to inspire me each day. Now, if we can just get you to write that cookbook!

Hope everyone else is doing well today. Of course I didn't get everything done yesterday, so I'll vacuum today and work on the plant stand thingamajig. The recipe for the egg foo yung was delicious and it made enough so that I don't have to cook today. I also made some Tzatiki sauce last night. I figured that would be a good fairly low cal dip to use with veggies for a snack.

Time to have some coffee and hit the gym.

Hello everybody......I have a confession to make.
I have had a bit of a rubbish few days. Food wide...mood wise....everything wise.
Had a terrible gut reaction to my current medications. Raging diarrhoea, awful heartburn and felt terrible. Ended back in bed for a few hours as I felt too awful to do anything. And the same today. I feel a bit of a fraud as I read your posts congratulating me on my positivity and I feel SOOOOOOO negative!
To put the tin hat on it.......I was due to come in to a little money this week....not a massive amount but enough to help make a start on my mould...and I found out today it has been held up a couple of weeks. In the grand scheme of things....not a massive deal but on top of feeling down....oh what a grump I am!
Sam and I had a bit of an argument last night....mostly because I was so grumpy so I cried and cried....mostly out of guilt and frustration at being ill all the time........
Sorry for the rant everybody...I am hoping normal service will be resumed soon.
Take care everybody,
Donna

Betsy Have fun at the gym today...wish i was going too.

Donna Sorry to hear your still feeling terrible. You know, its okay to mess up. Its hard to be on plan when not feeling well. I would be very frustrated in your shoes too. Will hope it gets better quickly and you return to better health too!

Well Good Morning Everyone,

I am soooo tired today. My body feels so sore and achey and last night was not the greatest calorie wise. I am really struggling to get up to 1000 and beyond calories. What is stupid is that im struggling to get there even with adding fat by the spoonful to my diet. Yesterday for example, I added a whole Tbsp of coconut oil to my chicken broth(heard it was supposed to be laxative like) and even with that and almonds and i only got up to 870 cals. I can seem to tet my Net carbs up to 20 but not my cals up high enough. Its not intentional either. At first i was counting to make sure i didnt have too many and now im counting in order to try and get past the 1000. Sigh...

Last night i made what i call "No Nana Bread" Its a gluten free low carb no sugar feaux banana bread. Its made with ground chia(this gives it the texture of moistness and even makes it look like mashed banaans have been used) along with whey protein powder and almond flour and coconut flour and LorAnne Banana extract oil. It turned out pretty good and pretty filling. I even added 2tbsp of sugar free chocolate chips. It baked a nice dense moist loaf that tastes very banana-ish. So ya... Going to try making chia seed brownies next.

Well...im off.. today is a "rest" day from exercise even though i dont want to rest. My body hurts bad from last workout. But i decided in order to keep routine going and not stop oing to the pool, i decided to go to the pool to use the hot tub. So hot tubbing day today...(wahoo)

Hi everyone!
Ta Da! Two days in a row with eating on plan!
Will be back tomorrow to catch up with everyone...

Woohoo:carrot: Awesome Job!

I've been reading the postings and feeling empathetic toward those with troubles, those with mental illness. I, too, am bipolar, and now I'm disabled because the medications turned toxic on me. So I know a good deal about where y'all are coming from.

But I don't seem to have the reserves in my heart today, or yesterday, to write personal replies. I'm having a hard time with three things that all compound each other: (1) the pain in my legs, which fluctuates but never goes away; (2) depression—I've been at -3 or -4 level the past few days, bad enough to cause lacerating and burning sensations in my chest; (3) Bob's depression—he's gotten so crabby he snaps at me for any little thing, and about once a day launches into a tirade about all the stuff I'm supposedly doing wrong. He would never in a million years lay a hand on me, but I'm scared of him because he's so skilled at wounding me emotionally. And he does things like running out of his own meds and then dragging his feet about going to the pharmacy to pick them up. Before I got disabled, I would go pick them up for him, but now....

So it's all doom and gloom in my house today.

Keep up the great work, Ubee!

Port One thing I've noticed while I've been working on my weight loss is sometimes things can be low in calories but higher in the fat, carb, protein range so keep that into count too. If you are really tired and you don't think it's from over working yourself it's probably because you need more carbs. I know that you are doing low carb...I've done it too and when I became lethargic I upped my carbs. Carbs are the first thing we burn for energy so the smaller amount of carbs we have the more it's going to go after the fat and protein. It takes time to figure out what amount works for you so don't give up. Remember to rest! One day a week may not be enough time to give your body time to recuperate. If you are hurting too much, take a rest day. Resting is part of the process too and is sometimes over looked. Just some food for thought. I'm not an expert but I try to give as much info as I can from my own experiences.

Betsy I will gladly take a hug anytime! YOU continue to inspire me! You are one of the kindest people I have ever had the pleasure talking with and you've made me learn to open up about myself more but also lend a good ear when someone needs it. You're like the Yoda of the group (that is a really good thing) :) Ahhh the cookbook! I really should start to at least plan that out...Man how long has it been since I've been procrastinating on that one? LOL

Donna When you don't feel well it's hard to stay in a positive mood. That isn't your fault, it's normal. Everyone is allowed to be grumpy sometimes...Nobody can ever be happy all of the time so don't beat yourself up about it. AND definitely don't apologize to use for having a rant...That's part of why we are here...it's not only about weight loss to me...It's about connecting with people who understand and to have a place to go to be able to decompress our frustrations without judgement. You are in the right place to rant my dear so rant away!

Ubee YEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!! GO GIRL!!! I feel the happiness in your post I'm so proud!! Keep going lady we're here to cheer you on!

Waiting for the coffee to brew...Of course the cat woke me up to be fed because it was past her normal breakfast time during the week :D...I needed to get up anyway. I have been getting all of my workouts in this week...Haven't missed one scheduled day. Lifting weights this week made me realize that I probably dropped low on my weight last month because I was losing muscle mass. I haven't been able to lift quite as much as I was used to. Realizing this has given me another realization that I need not focus on the scale so much if I am going to go back to lifting heavy. I'm trying to find the right balance and cardio for me and continue to switch things up to trick my body. I read a lot of fitness articles from a bunch of different fitness experts and one of the things I read is you really need to decide are you wanting to lose weight or are you wanting to gain mass. It isn't a good idea to do both at the same time as you'll just spin your tires and go no where. That was an eye opening thing for me. The article I read advised if your main goal is weight loss to focus on a good amount of cardio and when you go to lift weights do more reps and lighter weights so you can begin to tone your body without gaining too much mass. For me I feel like that's going to be a challenge to do because I have gotten so used to high weights. I tried it last night for my leg day and I still feel my muscles are sore...So maybe I'm getting somewhere. I did the treadmill but not for as long as I wanted because I felt like I was going to pass out. I had eaten a handful of popcorn and some almonds before I left for the gym so I wasn't hungry but I had the shakes. Luckily the gym has tootsie rolls so I ate a couple of them to help and the shakes went away and I went on about my workout.

The weather is supposed to be beautiful out here today...Up in the 60s and I think 65 for the high tomorrow. I have a baby shower to go to early today so hope to either get outside for my exercise or hit the gym in the afternoon. Feels like I've gone to a million baby showers in the past year lol...This one is going to be a social challenge for me though because I will literally know no one there except the mom to be. It's one of the wives of DH's band mates. She's a sweet girl and I like talking to her, but I wouldn't say we were good friends. I think maybe she felt like she had to invite me but I would have been fine without being invited lol...The other wife of the group who is my best friend has to work so she won't be going. Luckily she didn't want to really even have a baby shower so it's only going to be like an hour and a half. I'm just so shy with strangers so putting myself out there is hard. But I guess in order for me to work on my social anxiety I have to do stuff like this.

Sorry this post is so long lol...I hope everyone has a great day! :)

Just looked up to the foothills and there's snow in them thar hills. OK, only those of you old enough to have listened to radio and eventually TV for the old 1950s Westerns would get that reference. When I'm on Facebook and someone posts one of those pictures asking if you remember this, it's depressing. All of the time I remember it and half the time I'm still using the items.

Donna -- As confessions go, I kept waiting for where you screwed up! You had raging diarrhea, awful heartburn and felt terrible and you feel guilty for not being positive? (That question would have been said somewhat incredulously.) Add to that having the disappointment of having to wait longer for the windfall -- which definitely takes some of the excitement out of getting a windfall -- and I'd say you're doing real well to just be posting. Unfortunately life does tend to look like a line graph that's getting electric shocks (up and down over and over), but you definitely don't need to be apologizing to us. Feel better and hopefully this goes away very soon.

Porthardygurl -- I think most proteins have more calories in them such as having a steak or chicken or fish, and they might help to up your calorie count. Hope the tiredness goes away soon, but I'm with Sam in that it's probably from not enough carbs. I don't know if this experience helps, but I tried Induction (20 g of carbs/day) and thought I was going to have to crawl from my bed to the kitchen each morning. I finally just upped them to 50 and then 75 and then 100. I don't lose as fast, but I also don't feel so tired all the time. Finding the right eating plan is part of the journey.

Ubee -- You go girl! I'm on Day 4 and laughing at how proud of us I am. And evidently if you stay on plan, the weight comes off. Who knew! (OK, we probably did know that.......)

Fi -- Other than to say I'm so sorry that you're going through this, my only suggestion would be to start ordering your and Bob's meds online. They're actually cheaper that way and get delivered right to your door. The only thing you and/or Bob would have to do is remember to order them before all are taken. My insurance uses CVS/Caremark, but it might be worth it to check with your insurance company to see if they have an online supplier.

Sam -- :hug::hug::hug: Thank you so much for your kind words. And the laugh......Yoda like I am only in queen size! I really needed to read those words as I felt very sorry for myself yesterday. Your post helped with washing those blues away. Hope you have a good time at the baby shower. You may find that more people talk to you or that it's easier to engage socially. Fair or unfair, people sometimes tend to avoid interacting with us when we're in the heavy range than when we're in the more socially acceptable weight category. I know we're all trying to do this to get healthy as opposed to changing our social interactions, but sometimes those change, too. Anyway, hope you have a good time.

I'm going to get the plant shelving put together today. That didn't get done yesterday. I'm also working on putting together albums of family pictures for both of my nephews. I've had the pictures sort of sorted for over a year and finally figured out how I'm going to get them into an album type format without going broke doing so. Tomorrow I need to do laundry and I may run up to Monroe to look at housing up there. I'm seriously thinking of moving up to that part of the state to be nearer my nephew and his family. That would be close enough to be able to pop over to help or pick up the boys but not underfoot. I'd be about 30 miles away as opposed to 120.

Time to get it in gear and go talk with my NC friend. Have a great day -- hope everyone starts feeling better both physically and emotionally.

Sam Thanks for the pearls of wisdom. I had considering upping my carbs BUT yesterday actually upp'd my calories from fat and protein. Not only did i have more energy..but my scale actually moved downward. Now...yesterday i did not exercise and took a day off so is it the not exercising or the change in calories that shifted my energy levels??

Betsy Good luck with the shelving today! I am not an interior decorator so i le my dh do it all !

Fi Sorry life is sucking the joy out of you. Hopefully it will get better soon...or happier at least Till then...allow yourself to feel..its better to feel somthing than to ignor it completely

Well Good Morning Everyone,

So..yesterday i took a day off from exercising...it was hard not to but i did it. I also managed to get my calorie count over 1000 for the first time in..5 days??? So today i step on my scale and tadaa!! The scale moved downward. I was relieved..finally moved from 228 into to 227.8 Granted its only by .2 but after bouncing around 228 and 230 for the past 2 weeks..i will take it.

Well..tonight shall be interesting..I have a birthday party to go to for a friend. Ever seen the movie Hook? With Dustin Hoffman and Robin Williams? Yes..well remember the epic scene when all the lost boys and Peter Pan have a huge feast of imaginary food? Then Peter uses his imagination and there is this huge food fight? Yah...well thats the party tonight. Its a Hook themed party and it begins with dinner-turkey and all the trimmings and then later on after dinner..this huge food fight is taking place outdoors with tied dyed mashed potatoed and pudding and goops. We are supposed to wear somthing we dont mind getting dirty in. So it should be interesting to say the least. Still trying to decide wether to bring my own food. I know i can eat turkey but i cant have bread or corn or peas gravy or cranberry sauce or stuffing..Hmmm...

Well...im off to the pool... Last workout of the week as tommorow is my normal rest day. Take care everyone!

Hi everyone. Thanks for all your encouragement!
It looks like today will be 3 days on plan for me. Weekends are so hard for me so I am puffy chest happy about today!
Porthardy I read your posts and shake my head. Does anyone know the answer to this great weight loss quest we are on. Of course the skinny minnies have all the answers BUT I know it is so different for us 300+ Chicks.
Betsy good for you having 4 days in a row! Now, here is my opinion whether you want it or not on moving. I think it is a smart move. May I suggest moving even closer. Like 5 miles or the other side of town. Let's face it we are not getting any younger. They will want to help you out when you get old, so make it easier for them. My parents moved to our town when they aged and we were so grateful. It was so nice for short visits and later when we needed to just pop in to check up on them. Just because you live nearby doesn't always mean you will be bugging each other. Besides you are their Auntie/Grandma they love you and want to see you. Also no stairs in your house. Lecture over.
Samhow heavy are you lifting? Good for you for realizing you have to step outside your comfort zone. I spent today with a friend who never has gone outside of her comfort zone. Her family has suffered a lot because of that. Mind if I ask what size you are wearing now?
Fi never worry about writing a personal reply. We just appreciate you checking in so much. For a while I feared you and Betsy had died. I know I have a huge death fear... There is that saying "When it rains it pours." it seems to apply to you right now. I somehow just imagined you making a collage to that theme. Sending you a hug.
Donna have you read some of my posts? We all have our frustrating/difficult times. Just keep posting. We are here for you. This is something I have to work on myself. Posting daily just helps my over all mood. If a girl can't share with her friends what good are we? Sending you a hug also.
Tootsie and Terra how are you?
What the heck I am sending you all a hug. Thanks for being here.

Hi Ubee - I really wish i had all the answers on weight loss but i dont. If i did..i would suppose that i would be a skinny mini... Its worth pondering you know. "What do skinny people do differently than us"? I best not ask my Dh because he is 135 lbs soaking wet and eats like a vaccum cleaner.

Tootsie and Terra Do ceck in with us soon! Dont stay away too long..

Having trouble getting back into losing pounds mode. I want to be smaller, but lack the motivation to try. Trying to get my spouse to bring less junk into the house so that I'm forced to change if I want to eat. He's obviously not keen on that idea. It's not his responsibility to lose weight for me, and he's supportive in most cases, but this is difficult for him. He's been depressed and getting back into bad habits. One of our favorite memories was trying to make the daily walking goals on the fit bit. He thought that he had me beat, then saw the steps going up because I was in the kitchen, walking in place. He smiled, got up and walked with me. We laughed; we had a little friendly competition going on there. I feel bad because I have the tools, but not the drive. My left foot aches constantly. I know that I need to get the weight off of it if I want to feel relief from that pain.

Betsy If you have family in the hills you hear it a lot too LOL. Glad I could help in a sad moment. But you are a great person so don't forget that ok? The baby shower was a good time. It was very low key, nothing over the top (like the one I wasted money on) and everyone was really nice. I had thought since she was a fellow band wife that maybe she only invited me because she felt like she had to. I'm glad I went now because I was 1 of 3 of her friends that were there other than her family. I don't know if she doesn't have many friends or just maybe some of them couldn't come, but it made me feel good that I was invited. Her family was super nice and funny. Made me know how I want my baby shower if I'm ever lucky enough to have kids. :)

Port It probably was a little bit of both. The resting definitely helped your energy levels, that with a combination of giving yourself more nutrients no matter where they came from would have helped too. I think the bonus is the scale moved too! Yippie! :) I hope the party went ok last night.

Ubee Depending on the muscle group I'm working I can be lifting up to 170-180 lbs..That's on leg day. With my arms I was up to about 60-90 lbs depending on what part of my arms/chest/shoulders I was working. Abs are anywhere between 45-70 lbs. I've been trying to be a little more social. It's so hard for me in different aspects because when I was heavy I was used to just being in my bubble, with my group of friends, and if someone spoke to me I could handle it ok, but I'd never start up a conversation with a random stranger. Now that I'm thinner I'm not used to getting the attention that people give me...wanting to talk to me in the grocery store, or at a party where I don't know anyone...It makes me uncomfortable a lot of the times because I really don't know how to react. I was lucky yesterday that everyone was genuinely friendly and were really laid back. I didn't feel like I had to impress anyone or be overly social. Right now I'm in a Large shirt & knit pants..I can get into some medium shirts but I usually opt for the Large just to have the extra room. Jeans and other pants I'm in a 14, but some 16's if they're cut small. Bras I'm in a 38D where before I squeezed myself into a 44D when I really should have been a 46 or 48D. I need new undies the ones I have are getting ridiculous but I think I might be a size 8 in those. Shoes I'm in a size 8 where I was a size 10, and I still haven't gotten my ring resized but I've tried rings on in stores and I am fitting a size 8 there too, where I was an 11.5. I was talking with my cousin who lives in Dallas the other day and she's going to mail me some of her old pants that are 14s. I never even thought she was ever in a 14. She's always looked so small to me. She's getting upset because she's had 3 doctors tell her she needs to lose about 30 pounds. Her and her DH want to try to have a baby this summer so she is wanting to get the weight off before then. I gave her some pointers but as we all know not everything works for everyone.

Tootsie It sounds like you and DH had a great thing going there. He doesn't have to lose the weight for you but to be supportive you have to make sacrifices for each other no matter what the case. My DH was doing very well before Christmas. He needs to lose weight too. Since we took off for the holidays he hasn't gone to the gym with me once, always making an excuse and I don't know what else to do for him. I just continue to do my thing and push myself into losing mode and let him make the decision for himself. In this case I can't do that for him, he'll have to do it when he's ready. If I push him he acts like a teenager...and I ain't his mama so I don't put up with that LOL. Just keep pushing dear, you will do this.

So the baby shower was really nice yesterday. Probably the best baby shower I've been to and I've been to like 5 in the past year and a half so I think I have a good idea of what a good baby shower is now lol...That's exactly how I want my shower to be if I am ever lucky enough to go that route. By the time I got home from that and running errands after it was pretty late. I still needed to get dinner started and cleaned the kitchen so I sat out from working out yesterday. Today is usually my scheduled rest day but I think I'm going to do something, even if it's going on a walk. It's supposed to be up in the 60s today so maybe the weather will be nice enough, and I can drag DH out of the house to get the vitamin D he so desperately needs. We'll see. Other than that I'll just be tidying up today and getting some food together to have until I get paid Wednesday. Going to try and find some things to eat this week to help me shed some of this weight. I haven't had a good salad in a long time, maybe that's what's in order for this week :)

Also, I went ahead and updated my ticker. It's been over a month and I haven't gotten all of the weight I gained off yet. I keep floating. I figured it's been enough time if I was going to get back down to where I was right away I would have already done it. So I'm working where I am at 207.4.

Enjoy your day everyone (((HUGS))) :)