I am currently in San Diego visiting my grandparents. First time ever taking a vacation by myself and I am too tired to do anything. Over the past 2 years I have gained an additional 65 pounds. I have not seen my grandpa in about 13 years and when he seen me I felt disgusted with myself. We went to dinner and I barley made it in the booth. To make matters worse after dinner I weighed myself and that is when I realized the additional weight gain. I realized it a few months ago, I just didnt realize how much.
I am now tipping the scale at 360 pounds and would love to even get down to 200, and it seems to far away. I guess I just needed some encouragement from those of you going down the same 300+ road as I am. I get winded a lot easier now and I love to walk but even find difficulty in that. It doesnt help that I work on my computer all the time.
I really cannot wait to move, so I can have less stress and focus on myself for once instead of taking care of everyone around me. I turn thirty in a little over a year and I plan on re-inventing myself. I am learning a lot by lurking on these forums and have now begun to set mini goals for myself and am working on a blog as a way to keep me on track.
Anyways, thanks for listening, reading, and responding (if you do).
Yeah, I sure do know how you feel. My starting weight was right around where you are, and I can relate to everything you said. I've been at this since late May last year, and even though I still have a loooong way to go, I do feel almost like a different person already. Don't let the sheer volume of pounds get to you. My first big goal was just getting under 300 lbs. THAT is a blessing, a whole heck of a lot of reason to get this going! EVERY pound you lose can make a tiny difference in how you feel, so just take it one little pound at a time!
Best wishes to you, and sticking around on these boards can be amazing inspiration!
Oh man...I so understand how you feel....and so do lots of people on this forum. I literally avoided all social events when I was at my heaviest. Take care of yourself...and put yourself as a priority and you will do just fine.
halfofme you will find that his website is awesome!!! it helps to give you awesome motivation and everyone is so nice!! I know what you mean when you say you get winded quickly...you just have to do what you can. Remember you cant start out on top...you have to work your way there. I have to keep telling myself that! But everyday add a little something more or new to your workout. Keep your head up!!
Blah; went to lunch again, tried to avoid it but my aunt made a point about it being good that i spend time with my grandparents...........
today i feel like i am all the way at the top of the hill and now its time to work my way back down
I always pictured myself at the bottom of Mount Everest looking up thinking i could never climb it, but everyday is one more step i take, pretty soon i will stand tall and gaze down on what it took to get here.
The good news about hitting bottom is it can only get better from here. Try to stay positive and not get discouraged. Sometimes its easier to focus on a short term goal rather than the end game. You'll still get where you want to be but perhaps with less stress.
It's good to have you here and I'm happy to hear you have a mini goal now. How do you plan on getting there? Have you thought about a plan? Will you be doing some sort of a program like Weight Watchers or are you going to be counting carbs, or calories? Having a good solid plan is really important.
I understand how you feel. Every day is a fight against the frustration that I have so far to go. I make myself consider the fact that, yea: a year, maybe two or three years is a long time, and it's going to be really hard. But look at all the time I've wasted being fat. All I can do is work now so that I won't have the same regrets a couple of years down the road. Yes, it's a long way, but it's going to feel like longer if we don't lose the weight. We can spend the next couple of years working hard and feeling better every day, or we can spend the rest of our lives miserable because we look and feel like this.
You sound like you're doing great with the planning already. Stick with it, and know that we're here for you.
Blah ;( Hitting the bottom
