I have been trying to be mellow and just relax a bit. My bf has been irritable lately, and I think it may be because of the stuff with his family. I can't go into details, but he has been going through ALOT with his family, and one of his family members has been acting in a way that causes him a lot of stress. I wish I could tell his family member how her actions are affecting him, but it isn't my place and my bf would probably be really upset. He has said very often that he wants to get away from a lot of things. I feel bad because I know his family is stressing him and his job is stressing him, so my being kind and loving is not enough. I know I shouldn't internalize it, but I feel like maybe I didn't do enough to help him through this difficult time. I think that because I criticized his family member, he is still upset at me about that.
The weird thing is that the minute he got paid, he put money into my bank account. I didn't ask him for it, and he hasn't been staying with me often, so it is not like he owes me rent or anything. I think it was very nice of him to do that. It seems like it was the first thing on his to-do list.
We talked, and he said that he didn't want to talk about things. He was irritated. I am not sure what to do--part of me wants to have a talk, but I have learned with him that it is best to wait until he calms down so I can get an idea of what he is thinking. In our relationship I have often made the mistake of thinking the wrong thing.
I want to cook healthier more this month. I did good today in that I was too lazy to go out and buy lunch, so I didn't and just had a snack inside. I could have gone and bought a burrito or fast food, but I figured it was too far away, so I just stayed indoors.
thank you everyone for your kind words and for letting me vent.
I am going to weigh in tomorrow.
