Hellooooo and welcome!
I have a few thoughts, that might help. First, I used to be secretive and embarrassed about my weight too. You know when you step on a scale and it says ERROR and you know it only goes up to 330 pounds...eeks! I remember the day I had to basically come out and say it out loud,
I WEIGH 340 pounds! Nothing happened to me, in fact my friends and family were very supportive and then I just went "okay then" and now I'm very open about my weight. Hey I weigh 270, well I'm dipping into the 260s with a low of 267, but currently I'm stuck at 270.0 lol.
It is okay and we all totally understand. You can totally rock this and do this, we all can. I say that a lot ,but I do mean it. We all can learn how to love ourselves and be healthy.
My journey started out differently than where I am now. I started out by doing a juice feast, which was a spiritual and enlightening experience for me. I basically drank oooooooodles of fresh veggie juices every day for a little over a month. However, my body does NOT like green juices and without those I couldn't keep going with it. So, I ended it and decided I was ready to really start to learn how to feed myself healthy foods. During that time I lost 30 pounds then I gained back about 9, which is normal when you start eating solid foods. I have continued to lost, not without a heck of a lot of struggles and bumps. I really spent the last year discovering a lot of quirks about myself and my body. I learned I have a skin disease, I have allergies, food intolerances, hormone imbalance, and most importantly I learned what works for me and what doesn't.
I guess the one thing that I found useful was giving myself the time to learn. Learn about myself, learn how to stop hiding, learn how to eat, learn how to go out into public. I'm still learning, a lot, and this year I have a new focus on coping with my emotions, learning how to get my body moving regularly, and just continuing to learn how to love myself and grow as an individual.
Whatever diet you choose, calorie counting, Weight Watchers, whatever...just give yourself the time to find what works for you. You might also want to consider asking your doctor for any advice.
Heather is one of the people I really look up to here. She is right about making a commitment and I agree with taking baby steps. That is what I ended up doing and in fact I'm doing that now. You can't change overnight, it takes time to learn how to approach this as a lifestyle change and go with it. So, give yourself the time.

We are here for you!
I know that some people do shy away from the 300+ forum section, but I hope everyone knows how welcoming we are. Yeah so I was 340+ pounds and I post and read everything in this section everyday. I love the people here (in all the forums) and I hope everyone feels welcome!


